[....tell me you love me too....]

2010-12-09T16:51:00.002+08:00

Simply dislike my life now sia!

from day 1 till now, its just wake up at 7.45am, forcing myself out of bed, force myself to wash up,( taking my own sweet time) .. then pack my books , then leave my hall ( bringing packets of milo )... then checked into south spine tutorial room with patrick and lionel ( 96 or 93 ).. then study till 11 plus to 12 ... Lunch time .. then go back tutorial room .. study again .. then dinner time again ... then after that study till 10plus ( patrick and lionel need to go back ) ... go back hall then bathe then start to study again... slept at 1 plus 2...

Hmm, i am quite excited about my exam though i am nt prepared! HA .. but bo bian la! ha.. just wanan it to be over. I dont wan da pao =(

LI WAN Jia you!

Higher Authority, please bless us with wisdom and intelligence. I asked that my wishes will come true. I asked that u can guide us.

2010-11-20T15:48:00.002+08:00

Had 314 mid term last week... i find it easy yet no time to think.. sigh.... =( Hope can pass.. i dont want to " take away"..

having 311 this coming monday and malay exam this coming thurs.. CUI-ed for malay... i SU le.. sad.. i feel so bad toward cikgu effendy.. but its okay ba.. i hope can get S and not U... 311 doesnt seem tough but i hope i can do well... but i noe i am still fragile.. sigh... have to jia you

Looking forward to December.. =(

in fact i am in a bad mood now. %^&*((__@&^&*^&

Higher authority, please guide me.. i pray that all my wishes will come true. Grant us intelligence and wisdom .

2010-11-08T22:23:00.003+08:00

hmm, Its mid NOV soon.. sigh.. I want to play =( sad.. cannot...Finished 2 midterms. CBC 311 and CBC 932 ( polymer) i passed my CBC 311 sigh.. the test was KNS. It was very tough to me... the content could be easier if i had a good lecturer. I was slightly above average. i gotten 29/50. Thank GOD. I cant even believe i passed. Must thanks YI JIE oso ! Hmmm, as for polymer, i oso shocked! The paper was damn easy and sadly i made careless mistakes and cant score full. Before i gotten my results , i was quite sad cos i think i cant do well cos after he went thru i think i made a lot of mistakes and i cant rmb my answer. I am glad to say i did well. 93/100. STUNNED. Hmm, average was 70 plus.... Have to work superest hard for FINAL so that polymer chem can help me pull up my results! LOL.

Freaking tired lately. Attended 311 lecture and I was taught that M-P bond is like BGR ... P needs a lot of electron from M.. i like the analogy and i agree with it.

next monday, i have 314! scary scary.. i practised questions on first part of lecture. Not too bad... Now is edwin part... Sigh.. have to work triple hard. Dont wanna fail since seniors always frighten me... but i like his lecture.

wish me luck

*vanished*

2010-10-20T13:42:00.002+08:00

I shld be at home enjoying my recess weeeek .. but why am i so busy with PROJECT? .. not enough of sleep. Sigh....

Went down to MOE the other day to sign my contract. i wasnt feeling very happy. I am not sure why but just cos i was worried that i couldnt graduate. I feel so tired. After reading the teachers' guide i decided to ask them to convert me into permanent establishment since i have already meet their requirement. YUP =) I got a positive reply. I am waiting for the letter.

Feeling down .. but who can i turn to?

Higher authority,i pray that you can continue to guide me. I pray that you grant me with wisdom and intelligence. i pray that my wishes will come true.

2010-09-30T10:55:00.002+08:00

Yup, i got it. Thanks to those who believe in me .. have faith in me... my dream came true.. but i shldnt feel so happy yet cos i need to work hard to graduate also BUT the module getting tougher and tougher. HOW?

Higher Authority, thanks for your guidance, please continue to bless me , guide me, bless me with wisdom and intelligence...

2010-09-25T16:07:00.001+08:00

Feel so happy! i passed my EPT test. Just one step forward to make my dream come true.

Left the biggest step. I know that not everyday oso sunday. I am prepared that MOE doesnt want me. I will apply again i guess.. sigh

All i can do is JUST PRAY AND PRAY

2010-09-17T16:29:00.002+08:00

16th has passed, along with it, would my dream go too?

1 year makes a big difference? i am not sure. To me it is the same but maybe to others it means a lot. How? I came out of the room with little hope just because of the 1 year difference. I brought up the issue yet it wasn't seem to be their concern. It is a good sign? or a bad sign?

counting down ( 15 days to go...) sigh

Higher Authority, please help me. Please guide me and help me to realise this little dream of mine.

2010-09-13T21:06:00.001+08:00

16th Sept! i am really scared...

Higher Authority, please bless me the intelligence and wisdom and the guts to face it. I ask that you can continue to guide me. I pray hard for it and i work so hard for it. I really wish my dream will come true.

I pray, praying....

2010-09-08T16:06:00.002+08:00

School started finally! hmm, is it a good thing? i am unsure! i look forward to end of the year.. hopefully everything will be fine! Pray for me!

On top of all my cores, i took up malay level and NIE module on HOW to motivate students to learn.. I think i need the latter one a lot cos i am not motivated to study! sucks... the 4 mnths holiday made me grow lazy .. how? 314 is not bad, 311 Sucks, polymer is nt easy... Malay was !!! I WAS SO LOST YESTERDAY! Chen Hui, help me sia!

Higher Authority, please guide me! i thank you for everything last sem. Please continue to bless me and people around me with wisdom and intelligence.

*vanished*

2010-08-24T11:44:00.002+08:00

Finally come to an end of WORK. I just spent like 300 plus yesterday =X .. BAD BAD... 3/4 of my pay gone.. but its worth it! I love retail therapy ... just shop and shop.. Ate lamb rack yesterday at Astons Prime! The word PRIME means more expensive! but it is worth it. The lamb was good. There were 4 pieces .. 3 out of 4 were fantastic ... the last piece was quite disappointing ! My side dishes were baked potatoes and onion rings . They were good too. Their services oso v v good and the best thing was, there wasnt any service charge and GST! .. thats what i like! hahah...

Okay.. thats the happy thing here come the sad thing ... i wasnt myself yesterday. My soul wasnt with me. My mind was filled with YOU. why u just cant treasure me? i guess u are too busy. I told myself to let go but i fell in it again! i am really a LOSER. sigh. i banged onto the bench while i was on my way to take the escalator. I tripped when i was reminded to be careful while making my way to scape park... My soul was totally drifted away from me.

You made my day and dashed my hope. Hopefully you din take me for granted. Hope to hear from you by MONDAY...

Looking forward to 26th... i am so gonna have fun!.. Retail therapy again! ha.. make sure i buy a lot of stuff and eat a lot!

2010-08-06T13:13:00.002+08:00

Phew.. some updates...

Had my EPT test... Just pray that i will pass.. I must say it wasnt easy. Going there was a real hassle...

So what have i been doing after JL expo ended.? I started to work for coke event! it was kind of tiring but i must say working for this event company makes me more confident and outspoken. I am down for the YOG event over at NUS later. SO happy that i got an event to work again. After which, i will be working for RBS again! hope this time will be fine. Hope i wont feel bored like the other time at JL.

School is starting, i do miss school =X.. hope everything is fine for this coming sem. "You will be missed soon"

During the break, i travelled down to JB to shop and eat. I really enjoyed eating over there.. Shopping too.. some of the things are just so cheap. ( no offense) I want to go back again. I want to go genting, KL , malaca .. can i?

2010-07-27T12:06:00.006+08:00

Pooh's birthday present still with piglet. I would say it is just a v v v v simple birthday present but still hopes pooh likes it.

Pooh is now in love =) Piglet wishes her all the happiness in the world. Piglet might be small in size, she will never let HIM off if she happens to find out that Pooh is badly hurt.

Piglet knows Pooh miss her a lot. Pooh and piglet love to talk to each other. Outing will be here soon =)

Piglet always wishes that Pooh is always so happy. There are always up and down but Pooh is always so strong. Piglet will always support you too.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

Sugar is sweet,

So are you.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

Piget loves pooh.

Sis, like my entry? so difficult to find these pictures. haha.. Hopefully you will get to read this entry soon. Love you.. take care k? sorry that i have not been contacting you. Besides the fact that i am superest busy, partly also because i am scared.

You take care

Hope to hear from you soon.

2010-07-24T00:57:00.002+08:00

Feel so tired.. JL sucks big time..

dont like working recently, i think i still love to work with sharon. Ha. well, on the bright side, i know a nice lady again. HA.. yeah.. zhi ping. HA.. will miss her too. Will go back find her if possible =)

Cant wait for 25th to come. i will b free... ha.. thn after that work for robinson again. i make sure i rest enough.. scary sia.. sch gonna start again...

sigh.. ok. i missed u so freaking much.. can u be nicer to me? reply my sms la... sigh.

2010-07-08T11:17:00.002+08:00

Back to blog again... My job with robinsons just ended... Got to know a few good friends.. haha... they are nice and friendly. On top of that i thank higher authority for letting me meet a special lady ... Yupp.. its sharon. I gonna miss her badly.. She was the one who looked after me , protected me and helped me with all the tough tasks assigned to me. Realli love to have her as my team leader. She made me miss someone badly too.. but sigh.. i told myself to move on... ( its hard)

So whats next? John Little! haha.. feel so happy that John Little didnt hesitate much to employ us as cashier again.. I can say the pay for these 2 companies realli suck.. But i realli enjoyed myself even though i stood for like 7 hrs a day... even though my weekends were burnt.. but i guess it was worthwhile.. I hope everything will be fine for john little =)

So what is after John little? Robinson sales again! haha.. thinking whether to work again since i shld allow myself to have more rest b4 sch starts... =) See ba....

"i really miss you a lot" wonder if you felt it... i doubt so... hope to receive ur sms soon! i will just wait.. till sept...

2010-06-13T10:32:00.002+08:00

Sick! Sore throat , cough , flu , lost of my voice and "time of the month" giving me problem at one go... =(

Feeling very poor lately, tuition is getting more and more not efficient ( irregular) .. sigh..... Anyway, i am starting my new job as cashier on 14th June. ha.. training first.. Hope to know more friends in this one month. The pay is not like "WOW" but at least can have some fun. hahah... My sat and sun are burnt. Only one off only =( ...

I wanna to go universal studio.. Who can sponsor me? argh...

Fathers' day here ... have to spend money again.. Father and Sis bd here.. oso have to spend money.. My mom bd oso have to spend money.. she said she wanna a branded bag.. can i say " dont wanna buy for u"

Hmmm, its weird.. i am not the one earning money.. yet she always asks me.. Where is my big sis.. =(

2010-06-07T11:39:00.002+08:00

Woke up today with bad headache and very bad sorethroat.. sigh..unwell....

Kept going out last few days.. went to work on friday for like 4hrs for 32 bucks.. haha.. in the end dinner spend like half of it le.. hahah... What did i do during the 4hrs? hmm.. i went to distribute flyers!! first time in my life.. Quite tiring de lo.. " keep bending down and say thank you" .. haha.. But ok la.. its quite fun...

I realised smthg abt myself.. i am so in love with MJ lately.. hahahahaha.. YEAH... i wanna play more.. though the " sch fees" is quite costly.. but sometimes i dont need to pay at all... haha.. i won like $20 plus b4 but i lost like $40 plus b4 too.. =( poor poor.. haha

I wanan have more fun! hahaha.. Going out later too.. Gonna catch movie( i think so) .. and also dinner. =)

I need to earn more money sia.. SOon ba.. the entire of next week will be V busy ...gonna start training and working plus the upcoming events can be tiring.. I have to wake up like 6 plus on 12th june for the father day event! cui... =(

"time of the month" where are u? sigh ..u making me feeling worry.. Higher authority, hope u can bless me and the ppl ard me....

2010-05-31T11:43:00.002+08:00

hmmm.... i dont know why i feel so tired almost every SINGLE day. Went for wedding dinner yesterday and i was quite emo.. haha.. Love is really in the air.. When will it be my turn? Maybe soon? Maybe i wont get a chance to walk down the red carpet. dun noe.. I feel so tired............

Results out le! haha.. so happy! GPA went up again .. I feel happy because last sem has 214 and oso i took 20 AU.. i find it quite xiong .. but OK.. still not too bad =).. have to continue JIA YOU wor.....

I really thank the Higher Authority that my wishes came true.

Next sem shld be quite xiong too.. i realise i need to take many UE =( .. sigh cui-ed haha... din plan well.. sadly

Higher authority, i asked that you can continue to guide us, bless us with wisdom and intelligence. =)

2010-05-25T13:13:00.002+08:00

Extracted my wisdom tooth !! thank GOD that the dentist is a good MAN. So fatherly.. realli love him.. thank GOD that piggy and all the nurses were there to help me. They were there to lend me their hands.. haha.. hope i din hurt anyone.. I din cry.. hahaha

27th is getting nearer.. i hope things will be fine =)..... and we will be moving on to our next chapter of life.. Higher authority, please bless us with wisdom and also intelligence. Hope we will be fine. Guide us the correct way.

*vanished*

2010-05-15T23:50:00.001+08:00

I want MORE SURPRISES...

waiting....

and waiting.....

*no shock*

2010-05-13T11:50:00.002+08:00

Feeling so tireddddddddddddddddd......... Went out the entire day. Went to find job, i doubt it will be useful. I will just wait for their call and meanwhile go for tuition.

Decided to go Universal Studio in july. Honestly, i hope to go to Malaysia and have fun but i doubt my parents will allow. I feel like a bird in a cage. Very xin ku ba.. But they just dont understand ba.. i feel disappointed by their reactions. Teach me what to do?

Hope to find a job real soon.. T_T

Higher authority, i pray for guidance.....

2010-05-11T19:10:00.002+08:00

Yeah! i changed my blog skin.. I love this blog skin cos i find it v cute and sweet. I need to edit some parts oso ... i dont know how to link my frens blog =( .. sigh

Holiday now!
But i am nt realli happy cos i have 3 events on hands to plan for my CCA. Stress sia.. suddenly give me so many at one go... Hahah..

Time of the month is here.. PMS!

Still trying to find job! any lobang? =(

2010-04-14T13:38:00.003+08:00

PHEW! was trying very hard to recall my username and password... didnt manage to blog for quite long already , i guess no one cares to read also .

Anyway, exam is around the corner. I am freaking scared. =( i find this sem quite jia lat.. cbc 214 !! argh.. well, though i did ok but i noe somehow i will die during exam since malcolm told me its gonna be tough! sigh.. pray for me.

A lot of things happened to me recently.. e.g. My granddad was hospitalised etc... I just hope that everything will be fine. I pray that everything will go smoothly! i am so looking forward to our 4mnth break! i am gonna work and earn more money to get all my wants and needs. ( i know somehow i wont get my wants cos i am like bankrupt) Anyone gt good lobang? so that i can earn more? ( legally ) hahah

Okay, shall continue with my 214.. guess i wont have time to blog le...

ALL the best to everyone....

2010-02-20T09:22:00.002+08:00

i passed my driving.. with 6 demerit points..i wasnt happy at all... sigh..i oso dun noe why. Hmmm, started driving yesterday nite.. i oso nt happy.. weird.....

feeling so tired... Last week was CNY break... nothing special also. Received gifts from lionel for V day .. hehe =)..... happy.

I dun look forward to march.. cos i will have another 2 more tests.. 40% !! sigh.. have to work hard... really hard... but honestly, i am still in the "playing mood"... where is the discipline LI WAN? haha

Alrite... shall stop here.. going off for tuition...

Higher authority, i pray that all my wishes will come true....

2010-02-07T19:22:00.003+08:00

hmm, feel so tired lately.. i dun noe why!!! I feel damn no mood and could be due to "time of the month' Damn sianz... I feel so damn stress lately... sigh....

Went driving today, feel happy to hear positive remark again and again by 2 different instructors cos my former instructor when MIA for 1hr therefore his friend came to help. HA. I have no time for driving lessons , if i fail oso cannot blame anyone but myself.

Having test on tuesday. I am freaking damn sianz. CNY is in one week time, yet i haven get to buy anything. Not even one piece of clothing =( ... hopefully i have time to buy next week.

I hope things will only get better.

*vanished*

2010-01-20T16:46:00.008+08:00

Thank you everyone! Thankz for those who planned my birthday and came down for my birthday celebration. I love you guys. I am touched. Thank you!

I am unsure why i couldnt upload more pictures.Blogger seems to always give me problems. For those people who are interested to look at pictures, please go to facebook =)

2010-01-08T22:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!

I need a new blogskin but i am superest lazy to search for one. HOW? so sad.. sigh.....

I had a wonderful surprise party with HOSTEL PPL and others. THANK U... hehe.. I was touched by all of you. Thank you to LIONEL , SIS and FRED and of course everyone! hehe

What did i do on the 5th of jan? went for a relax facial followed by sky dining with lionel. It was a great experience. The food was nt bad and the service was good but sadly they focus a lot on foreigners =( ... Took pics ! but lazy to upload . haha.. will upload when i finally gt a new blogskin.. haha

sch starting le.. Went to buy textbook! cost me a BOMB .. felt so sad. Hmm, have to realli save n save. DUn dare to check how much money left in my bank. haha..

a new begining.. a gd start.. and hopefully a gd ending! i wanan do well!

2009-12-15T17:23:00.003+08:00

FEELING SUPER MISERABLE TODAY

WHY????? went for my dental appointment today. I have to remove one of my wisdom teeth ! =( I felt so horrible. Why me? i thought i dont have to go through such thing! I felt like shit to the extent that i dun even dare to eat. =( But does it help? sianz. After pestering lionel, i called sis. I told her how frightened i am. She is such a brave girl. That's why she is my SIS. haha. i need someone to console me but somehow i still cant console myself. I cant cross the hurdle within me despite the fact that i have so many moral support. I AM SO LOUSY!

Hmm, I booked another appointment during june but i know its not possible and it is wise to push forward the appointment for the extraction =(

GOD, my 21st birthday is coming ... Can i have a better present?

feeling damn down.. *vanish*

2009-12-08T15:05:00.002+08:00

hmm... was feeling down lately .. but i think i have accepted the fact already. Stil feel a bit sour but its okays. I was taught to feel happy.

Had quite a lot of fun for the past few days. Hmm, like shopping? haha.. i went seoul garden with lionel. It was my treat since he treated me the day b4 at ambush. Sadly, we dont have much appetite haha. we only had 2 rounds. but i had fun cooking ( mayb cos i never cooked b4) ... i realised that frying chicken with garlic is SUPErb.. haha.. (mayb cos i am a mountain turtle) haha.. YUp

went window shopping too. I was quite amazed that shopping can be so fun. Hahaha.. I think i must slim down sia so that i can fit into some nice top ... haha. i guess it takes years.. it is so easy to get fat but nt easy to slim down. haha..I think i ought to start exercising. haha.. ( it might take years too ) haa

Well, i think i wanan change my blog skin liao! who can help me? =( Its time to change a lot of things since new year is here. I am still very excited about christmas n CNY !! Oh ya.. smthg funny happened the other day when i was at orchard. I walked TAKA , ion.. then lionel said he wanna go wheelock n i followed. When i walked up the escalator.. I shouted ! "shit, i dun wanna see.. i dun wanna see, lets go down... " .... I felt like a retarded... both of us laughed. Ya, i told him i dun wanna to see the lightings yet etc etc.. in the end i covered my eyes and walked down the escalator. OMG! i told lionel that i am really v retarded. haha.. I laughed non stop.

okays, i think i realli very stupid. Hmm, time of the month is here again. Feel so boring today. Went for driving lesson. My instructor said i look v smart confirm can pass... I was "dot dot dot".. i told him looks are deceiving haha.. one hour lesson.. it went quite smoothly... =)

Feel so bored nw.... cant wait for tmr ! going to shop shop shop... Hav fun!!

2009-12-04T10:57:00.003+08:00

FINALLY... its over....

Holiday is here! Going out to have fun soon! I look forward to all the fun! Looking forward to christmas, new year hehe.. count down!!! hahaha.. yeah! I want more fun! i will be on the road driving again soon.. ( sianz) , i will be giving tuition probably next week. Emaths tuition! =) I think i need revision for MATHS soon haha...

I rented a book yesterday. I am in love with the book. "silent boy" --> a boy trapped in silence, rescued by an extraordinary teacher's patience and devotion. In love with this book. After reading the book, it makes me really want to be a teacher. I hope to help my students academically and non academically. I know its not easy or rather i think too much but that is my passion. When can i fulfill my dream? Honestly, i am slowly walking closer to my dream.( i hope so)
Volunteer at SBHL ---> give tuition----> MOE? ( dun even know if MOE wants me) i feel so sad everytime i hear people saying that they will be joining MOE or they are having attachment? =(
Too bad, i am not as good as them. I am still working hard. I work so hard every sem to fulfill this little dream of mine.

Alrite, its holiday, dont want to talk about unhappy stuff. Okays, going to body world later.. I have lots of things to do during this holiday! ha. cant wait!

vanished

2009-11-22T11:14:00.002+08:00

Ello.. very long din blog le.. Was sick for the past 2 weeks. HAHAHA... not surprise. Hmm coughed like mad. Feel better now but i still cough occasionally.

Hmm feel very sianz nw. I will have my first paper on Tuesday. I am freaking scared. Well, i prepared a lot already and read many times le yet i am still super scared. =(

Tuesday - business
wed-industrial chem

I hope i can do well for these 2 before i continue to mug for the rest which is inorganic , organic plus Ecommerce.

Having bad headache lately. Why? i sleep a lot yet my headache doesnt go away. =( I really cant wait to end examex. Freaking me out! haa.. why am i still not used to it? i took so many EXAMs since young yet i still cant be calm. Weird? haha
Well, i told lionel that exam is just another midterm. Just that it has slightly higher weightage? like 50%? ( realli to console him and myself ) actually my exam ends in 11 days time. I shouldnt complain i guess since this sem my exam ends slightly earlier. hehe..

Okays, shall continue to study. Doing inorganic rather than business and industrial chem =X ( just very sianz )

Higher authority, please bless me with wisdom , intelligence and peace.. guide me the way u want it to be...

2009-11-08T21:50:00.002+08:00

Hmmm, exam is around the corner... feeling a bit stress! got back my 213 paper..scary.. haha.. BUt phew.. its nt too bad...

Hmmm, studied 931 and EEE8061 over the weekend.. Quite a few doubts after finishing 3 chaps of 931, gonna ask the lecturer tmr. Hope he can give more tips and hints. Hope he will go thru everythinG again!

Hmm, have to continue studying 931 and 8061.. hopefully can do my lab report too. Need to chiong hard for these 2 modules so that i can study for my core. 212 and 213 are quite ok de.. bUt argh! need time ba.. I need to study 213 soon..if nt confirm no time to finish. Li wan, please jia you!

I cant wait le... dec pls come !!! i wanan have loads of fun! haha

*vanished*

2009-10-31T11:10:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... i guess my blog is getting rusty! Getting more busy even when CCA stopped. Ha.. i am busy with school work of course. i had my Industrial chemistry and organic chemistry quiz. Industrial chemistry was ok.. I did relatively well for it ... As for organic chem.. i think i made mistakes here and there again!! careless here n there. Forever!!! ha.. haven got back my results.. dun feel like getting back too... I have to work hard for my final year paper. I guess it will be quite tough since both mid terms were so easy!

Anyway, i SU-ed my Ecommerce. So far i did relatively ok for all my midterms. I have to work harder to cross the last hurdle. 3 more weeks to go? YEaH! Li wan, JIA YOU. Planned my timetable.. tink i dun have enough time to spare !! argh...

Hmm.. 2 assignments to finish . 1 from business another from ecommerce. I really hope i will do well for the business one since its 25% . If i ever do well, i think credits go to lionel. He helped me a lot with this assignment afterall he is good at expressing , thinking plus all the skill i dun have. ha

Have to work hard!!! i wanan enjoy during Dec.. cant wait!!!! there is christmas, new yr coming!.. yeah!

*vanished*

2009-10-07T16:32:00.002+08:00

Feeling very tired.. had my two mid term this week. EE8061 was kind of bad and CbC 212 was okay just that i dont have time to check and i got a few careless.. =( feel so upset=( the paper was different from past year paper as usual . i guess cos we covered more topics. Hmmm, i passed my Ecom quiz+presentation. I am going to S/U it. Finally decided. The new lecturer was nice enough to give us the 2 exam tips. Ha.. hope it helps. Now left industrial chemistry. Mayb i shld think hard.

Looking forward to fri and sun.. After my lab on friday , i shall plan my timetable and go relax a bit ha. hMmm what about sunday? Me going prawning! excited though prawning can be boring. YEAH.

I must do a good timetable so that i can push myself harder for this sem. Dont wish to fail .. hope to get at least B for every module.

there will be another 2 more mid term coming up. Industrial and organic chem. Will work hard. =)

2009-09-26T11:51:00.002+08:00

Finally Recess week is here! planned my timetable for the week , mainly preparing for my 2 midterms , one from innovation and technology another from cbc 212. Hope it will be fun! hmmm, have to plan some outing for my volunteers too. Will send a long email =)

Lab was fun yesterday. Felt so sad that my TA wont be there after recess week. Who is going to save me? =( I will miss him. The laughter and joy? i can never forget. Du ming and I bought him 3 bars of chocolate. WIshing him all the best! haha.. Du ming was v funny too. But i must thank him also cos we helped each other a lot. ha.. I "injected"/ hurt myself while i was fixing the syringe. It was damn pained. I saw blood etc etc.. sianz.. Washed with water for like 2 minutes and it was still bleeding. I was thinking if i would die cos of that since the lab manual said that the alcohol is toxic. ha. But till now i am still kicking! HAHA

Cbc 213 paper was relatively easy but hard to score. Felt quite sad though. By right , i should be able to get everything right, but by left i think bates will be v stingy! ha.. nvm... at least i tried my best!

Perhaps it was me.. not you.................................................... *vanished*

2009-09-20T11:02:00.002+08:00

The feeling is no longer the same .. i am still searching for it and i doubt i can ever find it again. Feel rather sad.. But its ok, just let nature take its course!

So what happened last week? hmmm, had my ecommerce mid term. it was like SHIT. Really have to memorise all even though its mcq. But i am sure i can pass. =) it was lionel's birthday on 18th. Hmm, went to eat seoul garden. I felt rather sad as i forgot to bring my WALLET. haha. I only have $12 with me. haha.. But we had a lot of fun.

Next week kind of shag! Tuesday got 213 mid term! heard from daddy that most people failed. Sadly, i am usually one of them. But i wasnt disheartened cos i am still working hard! hehe =)
Hmmm i have a presentation next week too=( . I have yet prepare anything. I will do it after my 213. And i have 2 lab reports to hand in on FRI.. cant wait for it to be over!!!

After that we will be having a short break =( YUP, as usual, have to mug and mug lor.. =) but i will PLAY too.. cos after the break, more mid terms exam.. =(

Higher authority, i ask that you can continue to guide me. Bless me with wisdom , intelligence and happiness ...

*vanished*

2009-09-12T11:07:00.002+08:00

Great! Guess what happen to me this week? i fall sick again! sore throat, flu and cough. What is next? I am getting weaker lately perhaps its all due to different kind of stress.

Feeling so tired yet i cant rest because my weekends are very precious, not that i will go for shopping or movies but staying at home to mug and mug . Hard to be discipline though. I will still try my best.

Gonna study 213 and 212. I look forward to my recess break, i just want to consolidate everything. What about 215? Ha.. I thank higher authority. During lab sessions, i have a TA who is super nice. Though he loves to "bully" me but he helped me a lot. I thankz higher authority for him. I thank my beloved friend who actually is willing to help me do nmr and also help me with some of my modules and discuss lab experiment with me. He helped me with experiment which he not supposed to do. I felt touched though. He called me yesterday , knowing that i was so sick, he realli offer his help! I really thank higher authority for giving me such a nice friend. On top of that , he is a very smart boy, i felt a bit shocked whenever he approach me to ask me questions. His GPA is far better than mine. So i thought he will ask those people who are comparable to him and not me. With him , i wont feel inferior. I feel great to have such a friend.

Yeah, enough of that.. i must start studying le. YEah.. hope i will do well... =)

*vanished*

2009-08-30T11:30:00.001+08:00

My whole week is quite bad =( . I was sick on wed, so sick that i couldnt go for session. Had high fever at 39.3. I spent a lot of time on my bed. I vomitted!! it was so scary.. BUt i am ok le.. Went to library to study yesterday, trying to figure out 212 and e commerce but sadly , time of the month is here. ARGH. I had cramp. So in the end didnt manage to study a lot cos it spoilt my mood. Feeling better now =)

Woke up at ard 10. Studying E commerce just now. Feeling kind of bored so decided to post something here.Next week will be busy again since STUDY + SESSION + MEETING + ORIENTATION! .. HErE I come.. feeling quite excited about the orientation. YEAH.

I really thank GOD a lot. Recently i faced some problems in terms of studies , health etc etc. BUt I am thankful that i had "gui ren" to help me and guide me. I pray that the higher aunthority can always guide me and bless me with wisdom and intelligence.

Meeting malcolm tomorrow. Yes, 212 here i come. I make sure i gt everything from malcolm. Hmm,.. 2h30 min should be sufficient? Will try to meet him to help me etc etc. He is a nice nice chap. I am so proud to have him as my senior ! we are TJCian. hehe.. =)

Ok.. enough of crap. Shall go mug mug.. =)

2009-08-18T16:09:00.002+08:00

Second week of school. Getting used to waking up like 7am almost every morning and reach school like 9.30 everyday. I dun think i have enough sleep since i usually sleep at 12am or 1am. =(

I simply love organic chemistry lectures but not my other PE/UE lectures. They were so boring. I have another boring lecture at 4.30. Feel like using my SU this sem? shld i? feel so lost =(

Was busy with youth too. Lot of stuff to do and remember. I am still new to the centre head position. =X Hope that everything will go smoothly this sem. Good results pls!

*vanished*

2009-08-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

Not feeling well lately. Having flu, sore throat and cough. Sch starting soon yet i am sick. HA.. is it a bad sign? gotten the PE n UE i want but i guess it is still not enough. SO sad. LI WAN jia you for next sem.. have to work v hard....

Feel kind of upset and pissed off...

2009-08-02T23:37:00.002+08:00

HMMM.. thinking what to post for this entry. I decided to dedicate this entry to my DEAREST SIS.

Sis, i changed my blog's song for YOU. On ur speaker k? There are 2 songs, i hope you can listen to them and probably sing along k? hehe... very hard to find de hor.. So must listen k? haha

Sis talked to me yesterday, she was quite upset that i have the intention to leave her. I didnt have the intention at all. She is so important to me, why do i want to leave her. SOrry to give her the wrong intention but the good thing was she actually clarified with me. Thankz sis. I wonder if she knows how much i miss her? I was looking forward to her sms today b4 bbq and during her attachment, i always wait for her sms to inform me what time to meet on wed etc. I just want to assure her that i will never leave her and in fact i am superest scared that i will lose you her. =(

SIs, didnt we promise each other that we will always love each other till the end regardless what/who stepped into our lives? Still rmb on thurday we were having dessert at orchard ion? We saw the 2 aunties who looked like sisters? Yea, we said we are still gonna catch up with one another in future. We can have high tea?yeah!

Went for bbq today. had a short heart to heart talk with sis. Hmmm, sis asked me why cant she be different from other people.
Studies ---> courtship---> work ----> marriage ( whichever come first) Well, we can be different , why not? Everyone is different, it depends how you walk this path of road. We can always finish this race with a smile and most importantly not alone rite? Imagine one day , we decided to be different, people start to find you weird and stay away from you. Do you think u will finish the race with a smile and not alone? Do we really want to be alone? Sis told me that why cant she be different. She felt defeated and lousy. Sis, you are definitely not because i think you can finish this race with happiness. Have faith, dont lose hope. I know you are trying hard and putting a lot of effort into it! But hope you know i am with you? Because i am your sis ?

我很庆幸，因为身旁有你。。要记得不管你难过生气，我都会想办法斗你开心。你是在这个世界唯一的唯一，我不会忘记彼此的约定我会永远在你身边陪着你。

Sis, jia you k? dont fred over it, take a step forward, i guess things will be better. And most importantly i want assure you again that i wont leave you no matter what happen.

我们勾勾手不准不准不快乐。
你一定要更坚强勇敢去追求=）

2009-07-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm... went out this afternoon. had my lunch at KFC. Hmmm dun realli yearn to eat again. haha.. BUt the pepsi is forever my fav. After that went to watch transformer. OMG! cannot tahan! i dun know why they have to drag for so lonG! argh.. I mean i think guys will like to watch such movie. ha. i hardly understand what the robots said. HAHa.
After that, went to dhoby ghaut walk walk then go HOME for dinner. Feel broke. I need sponsers.. ANYONE? haha

Yep, had my driving lesson on thursday! feel like curse and swear the instructor. I made a right turn and almost got into the on coming car lane. Another thing was i made a left turn and almost bang into the curb.. die sia... haha .. i guess i was day dreaming. I drove at a speed of 40km/h.. hehe.. the instructor kept telling me too fast.. so sad.. I WANAN PASS my driving sia.. sad..=(

Next week gonna go out! no money.. someone help... argh..

2009-07-17T16:33:00.002+08:00

holidays are getting bored.. Sometimes busy sometimes OK. haha.. Soon, i will be busy typing email since i am the centre head now. I hope things will be fine.

Went for my 1st driving lesson on Tuesday. I drove on main road. I got a shock. i was quite confident though still made silly errors.. haha..I think i am not too bad. haha.. i was turning left on the road most of the time. I shocked the instructor at times. aha.. My reaction was a bit slow when i turned left. Need to practice more! My practical test is on 4th of nov. HEHE... Hope to pass asap. hehe...

sch gonna start in less than 1 month. Cant wait for school to start so that i can meet my friends etc. HAha... make more friends etc. Yea..

gg to pray tmr at 2 places... v long never go le.. its time to go.. =) after that will have a gd dinner at marche =)

2009-07-10T12:40:00.004+08:00

" class please stand, class please bow"... 起立，行礼.. sound familiar? yeah.. its seems foreign to me lately. I used to be the one giving these commands during primary and secondary school. I never heard that after Secondary 4. Hmmm, i probably still hear it but that was from my form teacher. Why do i have a sudden urge to talk about it? hmmm, well because i dreamt about schooling... i miss my schools... Hehe.. Pri, sec and JC. I feel kind of sad that i dont have the time to go back to visit my teachers etc. I am just so busy and it isnt convenient because NTU is so far from my schools. Well, i hope my teachers are doing well... i miss them.. always in in my heart! =)

Dont feel well, having headache. =( my throat getting dry. I guess i gonna fall sick very soon. I feel so freaking tired and sianz... i will be more occupied next week. =) Get to learn driving! haha.. i am scared .. nt as easy as one think.. haha.. all the best ! =)

hmmm.. gonna go for lunch soon...

2009-07-08T10:45:00.002+08:00

PHEW! my granddad was discharged yesterday! I was very busy for the past 1 week... My granddad was hospitalised. I had to go hospital everyday. It was tiring but its OKAY. I love my grandparents. To be honest i hate to visit elderly because my heart aches a lot. For instance, when i was at hospital, my grandma was emotionally affected. I was affected by her. I had to hold back my tears and tell her everything will be fine. Higher authority , i pray that you can bless my ah ma with ample strength to look after my ah gong. I pray that my ah gong will be fine. ....

Going for session later.. I miss SIS a lot. =(

SIS, I MISS YOU YA... I miss talking to you! I Love you! I cant wait to meet you. You must jia you k? love u .. muacks....

4 more weeks of holiday! i am not prepared for school yet =( ... the thoughts of exam make me fear... HOW? can i scrape through? i have to jia you and i know my problem. THE LACK OF CONFIDENCE.. where do i find it then? searching....
Yes, i know.. i will still work hard this coming sem....

*vanished*

2009-07-02T16:49:00.004+08:00

PASSED! hehe.. yea, i passed my final theory test! Feel so happy and cant wait to drive on the road! hope to pass my practical ASAP! Called MR TAN.. but he was driving so cant arrange lesson for me. So sad that he didnt call me back =( . I will call him later!

went CGH visit my granddad.. i feel very upset. He is so poor thing! Higher authority, pls bless my granddad, i pray that he can be discharge soon. AH GONG! jia you!

This month shld not be so busy le... Gonnna learn driving etc .. hope to pass b4 CNY! hehe.. yeah!

2009-06-25T12:08:00.002+08:00

Thinking what to post ! haha.. woke up at 8 plus to get ready for my registration! thank GOD .. Everything went v smoothly. 5 days week! 9.30 earliest. hehe.. NO HALL next sem, so i have to wake up at 7.45 am ... SAD.. that's too early for me... =( Hmm, have to register my PE/UE at 5pm later. Yes, i wanna do well this coming SEM.. Even though i have LESS AUS, i still have to work super hard =) Hope things will be fine PLS!

Hmm, gg for dental appointment! i hate cos its painful but no choice! GG out on SAT anD SUN.. feel super sad.. cos cant go to JB on sun with SBHL ppl.. I planned quite long le .. Then cos of H1n1.. we cant go! argh.. So we decided to go BUGIS sing K and makan! yeah.. cant wait to SING SING SING!

Hmmm, was talking to sherri on tuesday! She told me i am actually quite shining just that i lack of smthg! i asked her wad? Its confidence! well, i never deny it! i agree totally! this is smthg which i am still having a hard time searching for it.. YUp.. Hmm, i wanan hav the dare to try attitude! i wanna excel! =) LIWAN, jia you! hehe

2009-06-17T23:52:00.002+08:00

Yeah.. this week was rather a tiring one.. Went JB on Sunday and couldnt make it for PEI SHAN's birthday celebration. HAPPY Birthday to u =) .

Went to sentosa on tuesday with sis, fred and lionel. HAHA.. Hope all of them had a lot of fun. Spent a lot of money =X I love underwater world, skyride , luge and of course the 4d magix. Oh ya, went to butterfly park. I was stunned. The butterflies werent kept. HAHA.. i saw parrot and i laughed like mad when fred and sis were feeding them. One of the parrots got onto fred's head. HAHA.. We took a lot of pictures . Very happy !

Met sis this afternoon. Went shopping with her... i love her so much..

Just came back from session! Father's day celebration with daddy on 20th and also hav to go to bishan park for the SBHL father day event! hope everything will go smoothly..

More fun to come.. hope so...

2009-06-11T11:33:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. Feeling soooooo tired .I slept at 4plus yesterday. Feeling very tired now but i couldnt slp anymore =(

I changed my blog song! feeling very emo & =( lately so i decided to change to this song. I will find a new skin soon. I am quite lazy too.

Having slight sore throat . I guess i talked a lot during session and din drink enough water. =( I wanna get my bottle soon =) A nice nice one! hehe

No mood for anything especially FTT. I dun wan to fail but i just dun feel like studying =(
Its time to collect my laptop but i am freaking lazy to do so. I dun wan to travel to boon lay =(

Looking forward to MON. shall enjoy myself to the fullest ....

*vanished*

2009-06-09T12:10:00.002+08:00

hmm, perhaps i am really a failure. I didnt expect such words from my daddy's mouth. Its ok. i am tired of it also. But thankz , i learnt smthg from my past .Maybe its time for me to move on and look forward to a new chapter of life. A new beginning =) ... I know its aint easy but i look forward =)

Sis, i miss u yA! tmr is wed le! yea.. meeting sis at 4pm. SIS, all the best for ur exam =) .. love u! hmm, excited! hehe..

Hmmm, wad is next ? sentosa trip ! yeah... MON..haha.. me gg to take a lot of pics! HAHA.. I want to enjoy as much as possible =)

*learning to smile* ..

2009-06-01T22:57:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. What is next ? Final Theory Test! on the 4th of june. Hmm, no confidence to pass at all! sad.. but i will still go and take ! hopefully i will make it! After that will be FATHER DAY EVENT! yeah,lot of things to plan and do. Hope everything turns out fine!ha.. hmmm,Daddy and me will be cycling on that day ! Wont be station masters. SO relaxing! haha

Hmmm, looking forward to sentosa trip with my sis too... haha.. happy! will take a lot of pics. My sis just uploaded some pics of our first outing ! cool! haha.. happy! i will upload when i have my new laptop! haha.. yeah! SIS, i gt a lot of ur pics too! haha..bleah!

Sad,... time of the mnth is nt here yet.. the pain makes me feel uncomfortable.. FASTER COME!

Feeling super tired lately! higher authority , hope u can continue to grant me strength and power to continue this tough road. I hope u can continue to bless me with wisdom and intelligence

2009-05-25T11:08:00.002+08:00

Woooo.. finally got time to blog! I was very busy lately cos of sis birthday and some CCA stuff. Hmmm, I was damn happy that my sis 21st birthday went well. Thankz to all those people who made the event successful. Thank GOD that there werent a lot of loop holes. Sis cried when i played the video. I was happy that at least she was very touched. Ha... but that we had a fake meeting! The preparation of yesterday " meeting" was tough. I had to bomb people emailSSSSSSSSSSSSSS....

Yesterday was a bit scary ! knowing that sis going to JP make me very very sianz diao. Somemore i had to meet han cong and lionel at 10am at boon lay mrt station. Ha. I was so scared that sis see us. I thought of excuses and excuses. =X But thankz to fred, haha =]

So we reached hall 7 ard 12 plus. Our chef , lionel continued to do his work ( chop chicken..wash this and that ) .. and i was washing all the veg ,crab meats and balls etc... we completed at around 2 plus! Thank to lionel, i know its hard on you =]=] Big thank you

Meeting was rather short , and followed by celebration ... yea,it was a surprise for sis. Sis, sorry ya, have to make it in school. Such a cui place.. haah..

Though it was tiring but i enjoyed myself. I was very quiet during the dinner, observing the rest of the people.. there was laughter and joy . I guess they had fun. haha.. GOOD GOOD.

Hmmm,mayb i wanna be event planner rather than a teacher?=[ My second dream is to be a wedding planner. Ha.. Well, we will see if there are opportunities opened for me. But being a teacher is always my dream

Hmmm, results out le. Well, i was speechless..i need to work harder and harder. I prayed for things i wan. But i see things which i dun wan too. shocking! Next sem will be harder. =[ But i wanna try again!

2009-05-12T16:21:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. feeling super no mood now. I hate ..i really hate..i super hate..

Feeling very tired lately.. do the same thing over n over again. Argh..i dun like it. staring at the laptop screen doing nthg at times.. I hate it. Somehow i hate msn a lot. I dont know but it made me turn off...

Studying Final theory test at the same time. Feel so &*&&_})P_+*)(&^%$%#@.. speechless.. sorry if i offended anyone.. but just no mood. Argh....

PISSED!

2009-04-30T11:29:00.002+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER! finally! will not talk about it! Just hope for the best !

Trying to change my blogskin and music. But failed badly! will try another time. I changed the music though its cui but i love it a lot... i love the lyrics..

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy,
If you will only say the same.
But if you leave me and love another,
You'll regret it all some day:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.
But not you've left me and love another;
You have shattered all of my dreams:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

In all my dreams, dear, you seem to leave me
When I awake my poor heart pains.
So when you come back and make me happy
I'll forgive you dear, I'll take all the blame.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

Somehow for the past 1 yr , i got to know a lot of people, besides friends from my SPMS FOC , i got to know a few more during HW111A lesson, Lab etc. They are all very nice bunch of people! And of course i know wonderful bunch of people from WSC boy hostel! yeah. i definitely had a lot of fun during all the outings and also planning some of them. Well, i look forward to the upcoming outings !!! SIS I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! and of course, sis, OUR VERY BIG MISSION! haha.. gonna meet up with her soon! sis , i miss miss miss u ... haha... Muacks...

Well, gonna be very busy soon... Have to learn a lot from DADDY so that he can handover his stuff to me... Hope things will be fine. Need to start thinking of certain plans! Oh ya, have a lot of mission to complete other than THE VERY BIG MISSION! ...

Hmmm, Gg to book my Final theory test exam =]=] Hope it will be fine too. Look through a few pages of the book . Find it quite tough to understand. HA. But still will jia yoU!

HMMM, next sem! YEAR 2 ( if i can clear everything). A lot of things to learn from my past mistakes. Yes, will strive to excel!

Okay enough of test and schwork...... Let me list the down a few things which i have to buy within this 3 mnths! haha...

1) handphone
2) laptop
3) Spectacles
4) wallet?
5) clothings?
6) sandal
7) ........

How i wish i have a money tree ! argh.. haha... nO money ! i am so not gg to work during the 3 month break .. i think so ... just let the money fall from the sky! haha.. =X

*pls dun take my sunshine away*

2009-04-23T02:07:00.003+08:00

Listening to the song which my sis sang for the entire day le.. well, guess i am feeling down ba. Sis, thank for all the spot check etc... but your sis here is feeling quite down. Dont know how 112 will be like...hoping for the best . I really want to do well.. I studied very hard yet i lack of ample confidence. HOW????????????????????? sigh...

cant wait for exam to be over... so much things to do! Going out with sis and daddy !! And also SIS, our plans! haha.. we have so much to do! A lot of outings waiting for me.. HHAa. SNOW City, Sci centre.. COOL!lionel, how exciting! haha.. shopping for new clothes, go for hair cut, facial! cool.. 3 months of "TAI TAI" life.. cooL! and also.... maybe not working! haha.. see first

*slap*

sad.. still hav 5 more days to go though! argh...

higher authority, please continue to guide me . I ask for your guidance and pls bless me with all the wisdom and intelligence. I ask for a calm and peaceful mind tmr. =]

2009-04-18T11:26:00.001+08:00

HMMMM... 3 more to unfold... CBC 112 , PAP 182 and CBC 122... NEed to mug like mad soon again. Quite scared of CBC 112 and CBC 122. Sigh.. MAJOR in chemistry and afraid of chemistry? weird... may be i chose the wrong course. SAD

Hmm, starting with CBC 122 first. TRYIng write out all the stuff on papers, easier to memorise that way . AFterall i dont have bio background. I really pray that things will turn out fine for me.

Going back to school tonight! yep....

MUg mug mug mug! =[

had a bad dream last night. I hope it wont be like that.. really.. that is not what i wan..
*vanished*

2009-04-14T22:38:00.003+08:00

Hmmm, before anythinG! i just wanna to say that i feel so blessed ! hehe... cos i am loved by soooooooooo so many people!!! Love is in the air! i am thankful! realli thankful.

Hmmm, HE191 was easy ! far to easy ba.. but this may not be a good sign. Just hope that things will turn out fine. I longed to see As! sigh.. but i know its nt easy! i will work hard!

Hmnmm, MAS 182 ! scary. Its a gamble! realli gamble! I could have easily S/U it. But i chose not too.. Sis, We will pass maths with flying colours de! We will work hard to score ! We will get As k? haha.. sis , i love u . I really love you! *GLASS*.. haha.. hope u are reading it. And talking to u make me feel good! hehe...

Oh ya, i also wanna thank my sister who chats with me almost everyday! haha.. CRAP With me... badmouth about the FAT MAN! haha.. And of course , i really wanna thankz the FAT MAN ... without you , i could have become mad woman! haa...
I wanna thank my parents who supported me throughout!

LAstly, higher authority, thank you for blessing with a calm and peaceful mind today. I ask for ur guidance and ur continual support . I pray that you will be with me this tough period.. hIgher authority, please continue to bless me with wisdom and intelligence!

MAS 182, here i come!

2009-04-09T16:00:00.003+08:00

well once again i am emotionally not stable again! smthg is wrong and very wrong with my tear gland. Argh!

well, shall stop weepinG! suppose to study econ! argh... but wasted hours emo'g!

SIS , wanted to call u ! wanted you to pei me... but i know u are not free too.. Busy with work! i miss you! i miss your hugs and kisses! love u deep ....

well, just realised how important friends are... during this period of time , i need a lot of assurance. A lot a lot! Thank lionel for being here for me... feel stupid to let u see how cui i am .. hahaha.. my goldfish eyes! ( hope you read this ! ) And thank jevon! i know you are trying hard to force me to go out! hahah... but i just dun feel like gg out! =X ( i guess you wont have a chance to read this entry) .... almost forget desheng and andY! ... desheng, if u are reading this entry, thank for helping me to email ur tutor! thank for always encouraging me... and ANDY.. i dun think u will get to read this entry but thank for all the emails! haha.. and the "funny joke" ... thank guys!....

Higher authority, pls continue to bless me with wisdom and intelligence. I asked for a clear and calm mind....

2009-04-08T11:06:00.002+08:00

Felt lost last night, yeah and i cried. I was just very sad so decided to cry. HAha.. cos of stress ba.. =[
Hmmm, roomie not here with me so i tend to think too much towards the night. Argh.. that is bad... one more week to go, it will end soon ! and i really cant wait for it to end.
gonna study biochem now.=[

feeling a little down? i miss my pillar. sad....

2009-04-02T14:07:00.002+08:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY!

SICK SICK SICK SICK ! having very bad sore throat, mild flu and headache. Feeling so stretched out lately! Trying hard to stick with my planned timetable. I guess next week will be more disasterous. ( shall not think about it)

Had physics test yesterday! hope to get full mark! thank to desheng for the past yr mid term. I guess i will practice past yr paper for this exam too! hoping that the setter will repeat some questions! =[

Having Biochem mid term 3 later. very scary! cetainly very lost cos i dun know if i have studied enough! FEEL LIKE BURNING THE ENTIRE TEXTBOOK. argh! jia you!!!

studying in tutorial room now! shivering ... its damn cold! argh..

looking forward to april 28th! i know it will be here soon! very soon! GoNNA find a temp job and also PLAY HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Higher authority, u dere? i need you. Please dont leave me. I ask for ur guidance and pls bless me with wisdom and intelligence. Grant me a stronger heart to brace thru all the difficulties that i will be encountering!

missing my darling sis .. huggies... muacks!

2009-03-25T23:38:00.003+08:00

Running slight fever now. I hope i will be OK!

Yes, Feel much more relieved after planning my stuff! I really hope to excel. Me taking a lot of risk =[.. really trying very hard to do what i can do now. Left ard 18 more days =[!

Guess i will be staying in hall from this week onward! Sad.. i know i will miss home badly. What can i do? i will still try to find a weekend to go home! =]

LIWAN, jia yoU!

2009-03-20T21:34:00.003+08:00

Feeling kind of down this morning.. ( should be very down not just down) .. but i am fine now =] ...

Yeah, next coming week i have econ test !! 30percent! so scary. I am scared. I hope to do well lor, so that exam will be fine. Just finished chap 6 ! gonna restudy chap 1-6 again. Kept repeating what i had study before. I have the habit of doing that ! this is to make sure that i can rmb what i studied. Yeah! Hope to finish chap 7 too. So that i can complete 8 and 9 tmr plus restudying ( 1-9)... all planned!

hMmm.. after monday, i have to start to plan how to study for exam le. I have to plan how to study for second mid term too or even 3rd one. CUI.. =[ Hmm gonna start with maths and mayb 112 plus econs.. I need to of course study physics! argh! i hate ... no choice! =[=[ Very determined to do well!
I cried the most lately lor! so ugly! argh.. too stressed up over studies plus the teaching scholarship. Perhaps i am just nt good enough.

Oh ya, went to play badminton this afternoon! ha... v v v v long din exercise.. But somehow it helps me to destress a lot! hope i wont get muscle ache tmr. Hmmmmm, i had fun pairing with xiao hui, lionel .. yeah! hope to have more of such things! coolz

Higher authority, u dere? please guide me the right way. Bless me with all the wisdom and intelligence.

*vanished*

2009-03-15T16:49:00.002+08:00

Hmmm.. finally done with rally, well.. i was quite disappointed. Somehow its true that i am really not up to it. Well, see what daddy and sis have in mind this time. I will give my best ! Must learn from daddy and sis. =]

last week was very hectic... This coming week would be better. No test but need to mug for econs and also gonna practise lots of questions. Its time to plan le! feel very proud that i had finally packed my entire table. WAHAHAHAHA.... looks nicer...

Teaching award? hmm, think i dont stand a lot of chance anymore though sis always tell me that i confirm will get it =[ Feel damn sad about it. Results should be out this coming week. Hmm, went for open house yesterday. COOL SIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so in love with the goodie bag. haha.. mayb cos i need a temp bag to contain some of my stuff. HA. =]=]

Higher authority, u dere? i seek ur guidance in all aspects of my life. Bless me with wisdom and intelligence to continue the long "run" ....

"mugging time" .. vanished!

2009-03-07T11:02:00.003+08:00

back to post agaiN! yeah

hmmm, this week was a very hectic one. I had my presentation and Maths mid term test. Being weak in presentations and also maths, i just had to keep practising like siao. Imagine, i am still practising my presentatin at 12am... still editing my speech at probably 1am? hmm.. hope my effort will not be wasted. Hmmm, i also practised my maths because i hope to do well. My maths is quite weak so i have to put in extra effort to work on it. I practise like mad during the recess week. Went for consultations and seeked help from de sheng. Yup, i was very pleased when i saw my results! 55/60. I got a shock! a real shock. There wasnt anyone to seek help from. I had to depend on myself. I didnt have a lot of confidence when answering those qns. I find the paper tough etc. Inititally i was quite upset. I thought i gt 55/100. Yeah! feel happy! Hmmm, thankz to desheng's tutor, desheng , daddy , sis , yean sang and lionel for helping me for the past 2 weeks. Lionel, thank for helping me with my presentation and also thank for the sound clip! =]

So now, i have to work very hard. Feel more motivated to study =] . Gonna work hard for Biochem. A bit scared though. having a mid term in exam hall C .. Scary. Hope things will be fine. After this week, i have to mug econs like mad le. Li wan , jia you ( self motivation )

High authority, please continue to bless me the right way and also bless me with wisdom and intelligence. I thank you for letting me to have so many nice ppl ard me. I am blessed =]

2009-03-01T09:09:00.002+08:00

*sigh*.. recess week ending le. =[=[

so what did i do during recess week? I studied maths, went for maths consultation, preparing my presentation , rally and of course i went out to enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! had a lot of fun =]=] though it was quite a stressful week.

alrite, So next week i am gg to have my Maths Mid term, HW111 oral presentation and my rally. I find it quite tough to cope but i am learning to cope also. Hope things will go well. Oh ya.. and i did my tutorial for 112. Not too bad. =]=]

So i have to study and prepare for my presentation and rally next week. Its gonna be a hectic week. But i wont give up!!!!!!!!! liwan jia you!

Hmmm, both of my feet are swollen now. Feel quite sad though... May have to see doctor on MON. Argh, good luck to me. i dun wan injection. I really don wan injection!!!!!!!!!!!!! sob sob....

feeling very tired now but still i am gg to mug! hahaha....

more to come! econs mid term, 122 mid term .................. T_T .....

sigh... no news of my teaching award. =[

Higher authority , please continue to bless me with wisdom and intelligence. Please guide me the right way . And i am thankful for what i have now.

2009-02-20T23:19:00.003+08:00

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!! v v v v long din post an entry le. Feel so tired lately! had cbc 112 and pap 182 exam this week. I guess somehow i know where i stand already. Need to work harder.

Guess what was i doing just now???? study maths !!!!! yeah.. suddenly in love with mas 182. Its not tough after all. Look forward to next week. Gonna practise like mad.. LIwan , jia you!!!!1 i wont give up!!!!!!!!!!!!11

OK.. so let me post some pics... hehe...

So what happened on V day?

got a lot of pics .. but i m just lazy to upload all... hehe...
had single outing on that day. Went to KTV and had a lot of fun. =]

i received v nice present from SIS. sis, thank u. i loveu .. and i miss u a lot.. but i gues ua re too busy also. But i loveu ...

thank fred for the body soap. din noe i m so smellY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 haha...

oh YA.. thank yean sang for the sweetest webpage! haha... happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

LAstly , not forgetting LIonel! yea.. thank u ... i love all those presents. =]=]

Recess week is here... Feel excited and stress... tons of things waiting for me to do. gonna jia you!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-10T17:38:00.002+08:00

Feeling super tired! cant wait for tmr to come. I just wanna end 122 exam quickly! argh.

Hmmm.. i realised something about myself lately. I need assurance. I need sense of security! argh... =[=[

V-day coming le.. BUSY fishing stuff for my friends. HA. COST Me a BOMB le... I need to start saving. I guess i spent most of my red packet money le. Argh.. I still cant buy a HP and laptop!

MORE MIDTERM after V day. Sigh... Higher authority , i need your guidance. =[

2009-02-05T14:11:00.005+08:00

feel so tired lately.. always look forwards to my precious weekend!! What do i usually do during weekend? well, i rest a lot and try to study a lot. ha... Its not easy to study a lot since there is a lot of distraction. Love to walk ard at home to talk to my ah ma and maid. HAHA. Hmm, oh ya and usually i will not go out less because i treasure my family day esp on SUN !

mid term is here again! i realli hate mid term. Still not prepare! trying hard to stay focus =]=] .. Need to do some plannings le! yeah. Oh ya, gonna submit my teaching award application by this week =]. hope things will be fine for me. Higher authority , please continue to guide me. I need you to stay by my side always . I ask that you can continue to bless me .

STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! who wanna study with me??? who wanna help me with physics, maths , biochem , CBC 112 and Econ??? HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! li wan is desperate for help! and those who have been helping me , i am thankful. LOVE U ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! muacks

B4 i 4get ,

MS FONG, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! will not put the 2 digits infront of " birthday" .. hahah... hope she is doing fine. Higher authority , please continue to guide her. Bless her with all the happiness in the world. And i wish ms fong and kor kor all the happiness in the world! hehe

2009-02-01T10:10:00.004+08:00

I guess CNY has somehow come to an end after today? i need to study real hard. I know i am lagging behind already =[=[=[ But i wont give up.

SO wad did i do for the past few days? was super busy learning how to do the origami rose. THANK SIS!!!!!!!! yea, i made a bouquet of flowers ( only 3 stalk though =[) for ms fong! and oso things which i bought from MADE WITH LOVE. I simply love the shop! haha. =]=] . I was very stressed up . I find it quite tough to learn how to make the roses! BuT WITh my sis around, nothing seems impossible. ha.

So i met up with ms fong yesterday. She complained that she looked old. haha.. Yea, we talked a lot . i shared with her my thoughts and everything. I feel good and motivated . MS fong , i know you wont be reading my blog, but i really miss you a lot and love u always. i hope u are doing well!! Yes, she flying back le. But its OK! will call her when she is back at shanghai! yea..

Hmm.. lots of things waiting for me to do. li wan , jia you! all the way!!!!!!!!!! ( self motivating =[ )

Oh YA.. let me post a pic here...

yean sang , thank you! i'm really feeling better. and i am fine =]=].. cheeze!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah... jia you wor....

Higher authority , please continue to guide me. Blessed me with wisdom, courage.. please stay by my side because i need you . ...

2009-01-27T23:05:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.. here's all the pics!! Pics speak a million of words.. Wont elaborate le.. tired

HMMM.. sch gonna start tmr.. Hav to realli mug hard.. v hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

2009-01-23T15:25:00.002+08:00

BOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. i am back to write a post! din write for quite long!!!!!!!

ACCOUNCEMENT : I PASSED THE BASIC THEORY TEST! hahaha.. feel so great! Thankz to daddy, Sis , fred and yean sang!! ppl who encouraged me and wished me gd luck! VERY SWEET of u all! love u all deep deep...

Hmmm, went for session yesterday! feel kind of embarrassed to make "AN" blushed.. hope he is find. I really love teaching the boys. Realli! I cant explain to people how i feel about teaching! its wonderful! i simply hope that time can stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gonna start applying the teaching award. But i dont know what to write for the essay. SIgh. HELP ME!

YEA! its friday! TONNES of works to do. ARGH! but i am so not going to do work today. TMR??? haha.. Yea. Will start tmr since tonight i am gg to shop for things =X haha .. hope to get something too! =]

FEELINg tired. More work to do after CNY break. Gonna study with yean sang , yi hong and maybe sis on MON and TUES. Gonna run with lionel on MOn during my long long break and oso running on WED with yean sang! cant imagine sia... will i have the stamina?? argh!

LI WAN IS GOING TO WORK VERY HARD ....

2009-01-18T10:26:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... me bacK!!! yup! feeling quite low lately but i am OK! ha. Hmmm, done with most of my tutorials ! left HW111A =] . Hmmm, studying very hard for my BTT too but i wonder why , i have a very strong feeling that i may not PASS. SOB SOB. Higher authority, pls guide me.

Gonna start working hard already. Found 2 study buddies. Yean sang and Yi hong! Hope we can help one another. I wonder how much they can help me for my course. We gonna work hard from this week onwards. Discipline is still the key word =]=]

Hmmm, i dreamt that i went hostel yesterday. I dreamt of "A" . I was very harsh to him. I dreamt that he didnt do his work again. Guess what i said to him? I was very frank and started saying that he can forget about going to sec 5 if he continues not to practise since he told me that he gt only 20/100 for sci paper. Am i too harsh in my dream? I think i was just being honest lor. Sigh, i really wonder why i dreamt about my boys. A lot of things happened in my dream but mainly revolved around the few boys whom i have talked to and played with =] .

Feeling super tired now. Going TM to shop for more chinese new year clothings and other stuff!!
Oh YA.. guess what did i do yesterday night? i played BIG 2 with my father. HA. i won $2 ! But i must say that i dont like gambling YA BUT with my father , its simply FUN. i guess this is why we are closer =]=]

Hmmm... gg back to hostel tonight! yea.. work hard and play hard .

2009-01-14T18:00:00.002+08:00

*yawn* ... Had gastric attack during CBC 122 . I felt terrible but still i decided to take muslim food which is very spicy. I craved for it. Yeah, I dont feel very good but i guess i am used to it ! *_* Hmm, i spent my break at the iHUB with yean sang! Thank yean sang for your help! I did my tutorials and printed my notes there . i love to go there lately!

Feeling very tired . I guess i didnt sleep well the day before yesterday. I must sleep ealier today though i know it is kind of tough. Sigh! I feel super slack this sem. What happened?

Hmm waiting for 19th jan to come so that i can apply my scholarship! yep! waiting for my transcript too. I hope everything will be fine =]=] LIWAN , jia you!

well, sometimes i really dont understand human beings! can i have a chance to understand them? but i guess i should learn to understand myself first. sigh.

Higher authority, please guide me.

hoping for an answer.....

2009-01-12T10:10:00.002+08:00

Feeling kind of tired lately! i am unsure of the reasons. Sigh, i feel rather down. Its contradicting =[. I feel weird. Why do i feel so? I have a lot of questions in my mind. Can someone answer for me? I seems Ok, but am i really OK? liwan is feeling a little blue.

Went to look for Val yesterday. Ha, she is really like a "HDB tai tai". I can sense that she is super happy now. SHe loves her daughter , new-born son , dog and of course her darling husband a lot. I am so happy for her because she has found what she wants =] We talked a lot. =] Oh ya, and i received a necklace from my janice . I love it a lot. =]=] . AI ai , i love u! she is always my ai ai!!

Hmmm, what did i do this weekend? I finished all the tutorials and "studied" my BTT. Meeting sis tmr , she gonna help me see if my concept for direction field is right! Sis, i love u ! hehe. I talked to her yesterday till 2am. I feel good to have her around. Hmm, i hope i didnt disturb her. Hmm, i am so gonna apply the scholarship soon. SIs, thank for your encouragement and support! i will go for it! loves...

I like this phrase a lot--> 爱是一种需要，却不一定要得到。只要你觉得快乐就好! is it true? will i be able to do that? I may not be so noble! haha. =[=[=[.. I shall not think so much. It will only make me feel =[ . haha

Liwan, jia you!!!!!

2009-01-09T22:14:00.004+08:00

Feeling super tired today! wake up very early for lectures. =[ *YAWN* .. i lost the discipline which i used to have. I slacked the entire week. Busy going out on MON ( since its my birthday ) and i just dont have mood to study after that. ( still having my holiday mood ) . I was doing my econs tutorial just now. Not too bad, i could recall some stuff though i didnt attend the lecture . Hmm, gonna meet shikin tmr to get back my econ notes which are far useful . Liwan , gonna jia you! Mrs chang, i wont let you down. I gave u an "A" for my A level and i will work hard to give you another "A" =]=]

The sad part is here yA. I looked at my maths tutorial. Its quite scary. The questions are so different. I also dont know how to start. HA. =X . WIll look at textbook =] and i need PONYO to help me. SIS, are u reading my entry. I wanna to be like PONYO! i want to get A for MAS 182 =]
SIs , i am trying hard. =[

i'm feeling quite blue. Can someone help me? Higher authority , you dere? i hope you can guide me . I asked that you can stay close to my heart =] Listen to what i have to say. SIgh. I am praying...... still praying....

2009-01-07T18:35:00.003+08:00

hmmm.. Yea.. this is wanderfong and Choco ( wanderfong's boyfriend) .. Choco gave wanderfong a stalk of flower ( quite cui ) and asked her to be his gf! 好幸福呀!!!!!!!wanderfong and choco are in love! shioK! wanderfong is damn lucky unlike me =[ sob sob

2009-01-07T15:53:00.002+08:00

some updates here!! hehe..

Yep, school started on jan 5th which is my birthday! cui.. sad lor.. haha.. no la.. i enjoyed myself a lot. Thank for the all wishes and presents from all my friends out there . I know i am gg to receive 2 more presents =] hehe. Looking forward!

I feel v happy to receive ms fong's greeting though. Didnt expect her to wish me again =] Yep. i told her that i found wanderfong the superest boyfriend. Yea. I shall upload the picture later. hehe. Oh ya, her bf's name is CHOCO. hehe.. chocoloveswanderfong! cool. Wanderfong, u are really a lucky girl =] How i wish i am like u ! Yea, i told her that i will call her next month! hehe. Hope i can reach her la. I really miss her =]

I had fun on 5th of jan. I went out with wei jin for dinner at holland V. We went NYDC and cold rock ( hope i din rmb wrongly ) hehe. Yea .. The icecream is not too bad =]=] Yep, i had a wonderful night at holland V. Thank u wei jin! but i doubt u read my blog! =]

Hmmm, sem 2 is here. Still, i am very determine to do well. I am still aiming for the scholarship!! yea =] I hope to get it ! 19 Aus this sem , but i realli want to have defence sci too. I shall try to apply again tmr. PlSSSS!! Higher authority , i hope you can guide me through and be with me throughout. I will work hard =]

Liwan , jia you wor!!!

2009-01-04T16:06:00.003+08:00

Its me! feeling super tired! I was a bit drunk yesterday! haha.. I was telling ms fong that i drank a lot ! she said i am a BAD GAL! haha.. But she noes i know the limit! She wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY! yea. I always have to press her to wish me. I think my skin realli v thick. SIgh, ms fong, i realli miss u ! but i guess u cant read my this entry!

Here's my present from my WSC's fren =]

hmm.. mayb i shld give my bear a name! i want the bear to marry my wanderfong! haha.. Its a male bear! I want him to look after wanderfong the rest of his life =] Yea. NOW that wanderfong has a company, perhaps its my turn to find one too! hehe.. where are u?????

A big thank u to my WSC fren. They actually threw a party for me! i m a lucky gal!haha

let me copy what i wrote at my WSC blog over here..

Yes , i joined WSC ( youth ) because i really hope to lend the boys my ears and of course guide them along the way. I want to motivate and inspire them. The results will definitely be very rewarding! But what i have now is more than that. I got to know a few friends along the way and slowly i learnt to organise outings. I picked up a lot of things along the way. I really treasure it.

Now i have a sister and a daddy. Its like a family. My sis cares for me a lot so does my daddy. Let's talk about what happened yesterday. We had bbq yesterday. We had a lot of fun playing cards and starting the fire. Thankz for those who bbq food for me to eat . AFter that i tried VODKA.. Yes, i was kind of a bit drunk yesterday. I controlled myself. Sis, pls dont blame fred that he gave me a concentrated one. I asked for it =] .. Sis , rmb the day b4 we had the bbq , i said that i will help you drink ? i said i will looK after you ? Yes, i was afraid that you will really drunk so i helped you to drink most of the ones that were concentrated. You must be wondering why i wanted to help you when i was also not very good at drinking. Sis, because i love my sis =]

Yep, after that we went up to fred's house. I was running for toilet =X. Yup, they threw a party for me. They bought me a bear, a card, a hamper and a cake =] . I was speechless because i opened the hamper just now. I was really very touched esp when i saw what were inside the gift bag. I know that my sis , fred and daddy were the "masterminds" . Thank u ! and of course not forgetting those who made the party successful! I love u all. Sorry that i wasnt sober enough to thank all of u yesterday . BUT I LOVE U GUYS k? Yup.

This year birthday was splendid! haha.. hopefully next year will be better.. =] Hopefully soon i will be like wanderfong! having such a great guy who will look after her ! =]=]

2009-01-01T11:28:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! hehe.. yup!

HMmm, what's my new year wish?? let me see... hmmmm...

1) GPA > 4.0 ( does it seem hard ? )
2) Teaching scholarship ( here i come )
3) Getting to know more good friends
4) Hoping everyone ard me is safe and sound =]
5) i want to be a happy girl
6) i want my pillar to appear ! haha
7) i want all my wish to come true =]=]

4 more days to my birthday le! not hinting anyone! But kind of scared cos i am really OLD le.. haha

went out yesterday !! shop shop shop. Me and sis din get anything for ourselves! but we helped the big BOYS to find suitable clothes. haha.. Yea, and fred bought 1 super nice top =] Hmm.. and han cong was the .................... argh.. he din buy anything ! but no doubt, malaysia clothings are still far cheaper.

After that we went to watch movie! BEDTIME STORIES. QUite funny! but it was a happy ending! a sweet sweet one.. haha.. after that we headed to BOON LAY PARK. we were v bored. I decided to play with my ipod touch. I watched the video i made for ms fong again! I shared with sis but i still feel a bit bad ya.. to make my sis cried. =X. Actually , at that point of time i oso wanna to cry but i held back . Yes, i still do miss my teachers ! and always do.. But its Ok, i have grown up, we are persuing different things in life but no matter what , i will always have them in my heart! =]

I guess i will end here b4 my tears flow down. HAH.. its new yr! i gonna be =]=] .. ALL the best LI WAN.. U Are doing well.. u are on ur way too!

2008-12-28T22:17:00.005+08:00

here are the picz taken with my darling WSC mates... hehe Wont comment so much on the picz =[ since pictures speak a million of words.. haha
there are still many more pics.. but i upload on my faceboOk and cca blog instead.. too tired..
hmm.. results out in 1 hrs plus.. scary! sob.. all the best

higher authority , u dere ? pls continue to guide me... =[

2008-12-27T22:52:00.005+08:00

i am here.. lolx.. YeP... Went out today again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! feel SO great! so met up with wei jin to have breakfast first then caught up with the rest of the WSC friends. We went to TOP ONE to sing..i sang quite a lot of songs just now.. the best thing was that i got to know a lot of songS! .. mainly the songs which i chose just now were all emo.. and actually expressed the way i feel.. YEA
I had a lot of fun though gt teased a lot of times.. LOl.. its normal!! haha

Anyway.. here are some pics during boxing day with WAN XIN , ME and tang Qian...

Yup... anyway.. i will upload more pics.. funny onez oso..waiting for jolene to send me.. hha and elaborate on wad had happened today.. tired.. haha..

2008-12-25T11:02:00.003+08:00

back to blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alrite... so far , i have been going out since like 21st dec =X .. 21st was with clinkz ppl! 22nd was with clinkz plus ZL, YX and YL =]=] .. 23rd was with WSC pplx for bowling! ... YEsterday was??? i think a bit stupid ! let me elaborate!

Fred , Hui min and I din wan to stay at home yesterday! so we decided to plan what to do! we spent hours to decide where to go! haha. In the end we gg to fred house!!!!!! haha.. When i reached the MRT STATION! all were late! =[=[ sad.. lucky enough , i brought a special guest with me =x.. YUP.. SO in the end hui min n fred were 1 hr late! We decided to have dinner at JP! it was damn crowded! haha... After dinner we went to JI DE CHI to buy dessert! haha.. then went back his house. B4 that i went to the toilet! guess what happened?? i dropped my wallet into the toilet bowl.. smelly.. i was damn pisssed.. heng sia.. dun have the smell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( i shall buy a new one !)

when i reached his house, i din do much things la. Watch TV! haha.. thank to fred n hui min. They threw me in the house with just me n my special guest! haha.. i dont need this kind of private time.. haa.. Then went they came back.. we started playing XIANG QI and cards.. haha.. FUN FUn.. i watched 小娘惹 b4 i headed back to my HOME!!!!!!! so fred n hui min sent me to the bus stop.. we talked a lot while walking.. we talked abt hugz and kisses! I v innocent de =X .. i dun noe anything! =X then i told them how i feel abt certain thingz.. hehe.. Yep yep... I took 181 back... b4 that i exchanged hug with fred lor.. THANKZ to Hui mIN! in the end i din hug my hui min!! haha.. ( hui min if u read this entry .. here's ur hug... HUGGIES )

i "celebrated" with my parents too.. i ate log cakes !! nt too bad...

HMMM.. I love this yr christmas eve.. Hoping for something beta next yr.. Higher authority, hope u can always guide me.. =] I will keep praying and wait for the answer.....

is it true to say What i need is not LOVE. All i need is just other people or even another person???? sigh

i truly understood what it meant by " higher hope brings greater disappointment ".. i was kind of disppointed .. i felt lousy on that day itself. but i dun noe why

2008-12-20T22:27:00.001+08:00

有时候放下也是一种喜欢.. perhaps i finally understood the meaning of this phrase.

If i could rearrange the alphabet, i would put U & I far apart. I thinking this phrase seems to be more correct. =]

tired le =[ . Feel so dejected, thinking that i really had made the wrong move!

Well, more outings to look forward to! 21st , 22nd , 23rd, 24th, 26th, 27th, 29th..... more to come? ha. Well, will try to enjoy. Time of the month is coming soon! Please come after 24th? maybe 25th? yea! tired..

Went for session on thurs! i feel so good! ha. It was so rewarding to hear one of the boys saying thank you! hopefully its a sincere one and hopefully he wont forget me after 2 weeks!

Higher authority , u dere? please continue to guide me. AM i on my way? or am i just being a fool? i am tired to guess. Let nature take its course.
Yes, i have been praying and praying and praying... and perhaps i have an answer already. But i was just not contented. Sigh..

2008-12-16T23:20:00.002+08:00

Finally ! its here. Went for my cousin's wedding just now. It went well! i wonder when will be my turn. Well, i may not be so lucky. I might be left on the shelf =[

Met a lot of auntie whom i never see b4. Ha. The food there was OK ! cant comment much. hehe. Well, wanna thank my 2 aunties! They said that i look good today though i really disagree. Perhaps cos they are old already! Or may be because i did spend some time to doll up. HA.. well, its how one define beauty. But i think inner beauty is still so far the best. Having gd look is just a bonus which i dun realli have.

Still feel a little hungry. HAHA. but its OK. Gonna go slp. Have to meet xin xuan to collect the plaque tmr. YEA. hope things will go smoothly.

Higher authority, u dere? pls continue to guide me. I need you to be by my side.....

2008-12-12T10:26:00.002+08:00

hmm.. went for supper after session. 85 was not as crowded as before.. Guess what i ate? meat ball noodles and a bit of prawn noodles plus one big cup of sugar cane =X . Fattening SIA! die lor.. PUT ON WEIGHT FOR SURE LIAO!
I realised something after yesterday! i am realli v SLOW sia. My brain not working lately sia. I register things v slowly... Reached home at ard 12.30am. Quite "cui" =[=[ ..
But of course , i had a wonderful time last night.

hmmm, wake up at ard 8 plus to register!! argh.. had a super bad headache =[ T_T .. sigh sigh...
gonna go back to slp later for sure. =]=] HA!

有时候放下也是一种喜欢, 我要找我的真爱 ( i like this phrase a lot ) hmm.. true.. its good to learn to let go... Higher authority , u dere? please guide me.. i really need your guidance. I believe you know what i am thinking but dont dare to take any step closer or further.. I am tired. Perhaps , i got an answer already.. let nature take its course... meanwhile, i will continue to search for what i want . =]

*vanished*

2008-12-10T20:12:00.002+08:00

I lost control.. Sigh.. why? i realli realli .. Why din i control? sigh.. i shld .. how i wish u could understand? sigh.. Can u sense it? i am realli waiting v patiently. Let me know what are you thinking...

Went to book BTT just now. Hope i can pass! I must pass.. i will practise de! its on 21st jan. I will probably miss 122 lecture . Hopefully no test on that day! liwan, jia you

Higher authority , you there? i hope you can answer my prayers. AM i too impatient? Maybe its too early. I dont know. But i realli want to see it happens..

i am invited to Mr ZHENG ZAI FA's wedding on the 27th and 29th dec.. YEa.. COngrats.. he is a v v v sweet guy. Still nt sure if i am gg ma. But definitely hope that he will be XInG FU! =]

liwan feels tired while pursue'g what she really wants. She is waiting =[

2008-12-09T09:32:00.003+08:00

went out yesterday again! feel so shag! i am quite worried =[ . What happens if when term starts, i dun have the momentum to study ? hehe.. Hope not! sigh

Went to my grandma birthday buffet yesterday. I din eat much la. Not even 1/4 of a portion because i spent my time talking to my cousin. Talked a lot abt studies, she gave me a lot of advices too. I will consider again though i am quite certain of it . hehe

After that we headed to bugis. i bought christmas present =]=] . We looked ard for handphone! sadly , the price of the handphones are still v high =[ . Hmmm well, can i make a birthday wish here?? i want a 8 mega pixel HANDPHONE!! i realli realli want! .. hhaa...

At ard 5.50 , we headed down to KTV! ha. YEa.. i sang a lot of emo songs which made me emo! i felt kind of sad =[=[ .. At ard 8 plus , i was down with gastric! it was super painful =[=[=[ .. sob sob.. The KTV session end at 10pm. After that we headed for dessert. HA.. the durian dessert damn nice... But i din eat much cos of my gastric! =[ T_T

Took a few pics ..

CheeSEEEE.. haha.. i cant even see my face =X

Me and shu xian.. My elder cousin. HA.. hmm older than me a few days nia.

i dun noe wad i was doing. HA.. Like kissing the mike. haha

hmm.. me and Hui shan. My younger cousin! ( same age though ) . I noe she looks damn young , unlike me.. OLD WOman! haha

It was fun overall. We took the wrong TRAIN SIA! cos we were busy talking! ha.. we talked a lot about friendship and our future. I gave them my point of views. I am good at that k! haha.. Hmm, my future seems to be bleak as from now....

Higher authority, i hope that u can continue to bless me with wisdom and guide me. High authority, i hope that my prayers will be answer.

I am looking for an answer , but its seems so FAR FAR FAR FAR ....

2008-12-06T23:13:00.006+08:00

went out with wan xin and tang qian this afternoon.. I bought "money not enough 2" dvd b4 meeting them . They were late. haha... ( used to it ) =p

alrite , we went pasir ris! Had a great time cycling. my butt and leg hurt. I think i cant walk tmr. =[.. tired ...

here are some pics agaiN!! haha.. hmm i selected a few out of a lot .. cos too lazy to upload so many.. and i also nt da mei nu.. =[

Wan xin and tang qian

ME and WAN xIN ... the food we ate .. quite sinful =X

pepsi , 7up , root beer.. hehe

Hard to squeeze myself into the picture.. guess i am too FAT!

BLEH!.. chicky face of mine...

Me and TAng Qian.. hmm.. its like walking down the aisle.. hehe

Look at our hands.. hehe....

TQ and WAN XIN again.. nice posture...

BOO!

We had difficulties taking this pic.. cos its quite dangerous! i guess u all noe why! ..

Too tired... shall go slp nw.. Gg to visit my AI AI tmr.. after that bring my ah ma for a hair cut...

MORE FUN... looking forward.. hehe

2008-12-05T12:52:00.002+08:00

its dec 5th 08 today! One year le! its SO fast ! wad happened on dec 5th 07? Ms fong left spore for shanghai for 1 yr le. HAH! of course i can rmb ! =]=]=] .. Hope she is having a lot of fun =]=] . . 开心就好.. Wish her all the happiness in the world. =]=]

Went out with tina yesterday. We watched quarantine. It was so damn scary! SEEING BLOOD here n there... haha.. V disguisting! ha. i think only the 2 of us screamed like mad! haha..

AFter movie we went for a walk . We talked a lot. Ha.. She asked me abt the uni guys! i have a lot to say ! haha... We talked about other serious matters too... Hope she will make the right choice. I cant help her oso. Afterall, she is the one making decision =]
Hmmm, i treated her to newyork new york! the food is quite nice! i dont mind gg there again! hehe... We took photos too. Cant upload yet since she haven sent me. Ha.

I would say i have a great day yesterday! hehe. Promised to meet up soon again =]

Watched i not stupid 2 again just nw. i cried again! argh.. this is like dun noe how many times i cried le.. But bo bian la. I couldnt resist! hehe...

Going out tmr again! with my dearest wanxin n tang qian. =] YEAH! Looking forward to the outing =]

Going out with my dearest ah ma on sunday.. Hah.. trying to occupy myself with LOADs of things to do!haha...

Shikin smsed me yesterday. Her results are out ! she failed one module. Sigh. I am quite scared oso . But no choice.. What can i do? just hope for the best =]

Oh ya.. i changed my blog's song. I love the song! super in love with his song. It expresses how i feel towards certain things in life. I am afraid of losing things/people...

~learning to let go of thing~ I will wait .. realli wait !

2008-11-29T22:33:00.003+08:00

the lady in red its ME!! hhaa... we have fred , han cong , desmond , hui min , me and dr chua!

Feeling super tired. Hmm.. actually dun feel like posting any entry cos i realli like one of the pics below. haha.. But its OK. one more pics HERE!

Went out the whole day ! i shall not describe what we had done cos its was rather cui! sad... Hope to have beta outingS!

talk to fred on the way back . Hmmm, mayb i stll dont know what i am looking for. SIgh.. i am still young! i guess i wont think so much then...

looking forward to all the outings which are realli planned for ME!

2008-11-28T02:20:00.008+08:00

Me and Yean Sang

Yean Sang and han cong!!!!

han Cong and ME

Yean Sang and ME..

Its Yean SAng and ME again! haha

Yean Sang and han cong

Guess i am with who this time???
I love this pics a lot.. cos of the beautiful backgrd... well, the photographer was very proud of himself! hahaha

finally its over. I guess this time i will really not do well. I have to move on =] . I wont talk so much abt the 113 paper cos its was a sheer disappointment. It could have been much better.

Feeling super tired now. Both legs are feeling damn numb! Went out with han cong and yean sang! they are my Youth grp's fren. Yeah! I would say this is my first time going out with 2 guys. HA.. I had a fun day ! We went east coast park and parkway . The walking distance was really undescribeable sia! ha. We went to the famous hawker centre to eat! not too bad. I guess its not the food that makes u feel good . Its the people ard us that make us =]=]=] . going out with them definitely make me feel much more relax. Hope to have more outings!!!

finally get to upload pics.. hehe.. Took a lot of pics just nw. Some were super blur la!!! haha.. never felt so tired taking pics b4... i enjoyed myself .. realli! I hope they had fun too..

hmm.. gg out with them tmr agaiN! this time more ppl are gg ! yeah! looKing forward to fri and sat.. haa.. and gonna meet tina up soon! I gonna have a lot of fun.. YEAH!

2008-11-26T21:16:00.001+08:00

Hmmm... Tired ... sigh....

I dont know if i had studied enough! Realli not sure... I feel insecured.. can someone help me?

ONE MORE DAY! A few hrs i shld say!

2008-11-25T22:15:00.001+08:00

Forensic sci was OK! hmm.. i felt damn pissed off though! Someone copied my ans !!!!!!!! Argh.. can u imagine for the whole paper, there is this guy beside u staring at u! =[=[=[=[ .. sigh! $%&&.. nvm

The paper was Ok but i feel that i did make mistake here n there =PPPP

left 113! gonna mug like mad! Discipline for tonight and tmr night ! =[

2008-11-25T01:28:00.002+08:00

2 MORE days TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CANT Wait for it to be over!! it will be v xiong for me the next 2 days. CBC 113! sigh.. study hard !!

malcolm helped me a lot just now. Thank God for having him sia! if nt tmr forensic sci wont do well again. Tired..

physics exam today. Ha.. Shld be able to get 10/100 . Yep! more than that ba. Yep! hopefully its a Pass.

din have my dinner just nw. Super hungry nw. Its oK! gonna study forensic sci again b4 i slp!

Wish me good luck! =] =]=]=]=]

*vanished*

2008-11-24T00:13:00.003+08:00

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

hehe.. Looking forward to X'MAS and MY birthday! I want my big big presentSSSS =X ..

3 more days! Liwan , jia you!!! hehehe

2008-11-23T09:28:00.002+08:00

Time of the mnth its here =] . Shld be happy though its painful =[.. Sigh. but still i thank GOD =]
At least i got to play after exam =] .

slept at 3 yesterday. Hmm what did i do yesterday? hehe. I studied forensic sci followed by organic chem in the evening. I played a lot of games. HAHA. DIED lor. I was quite addicted. =[ . No discipline at all. haha. Hmm.. i started to mug again at ard 12am. then malcolm asked me about organic chemistry. Tried to help but to no avail. He is so smart! ha .. He taught me a few qns and enlightened me sia! There are so many things which i have to learn from him. ha. I will bug him after physics and forensic sci. hehehe... Too bad ya, didnt get to know him earlier.

Okays! tmr is physics exam. Will start to study for it only today. Hope i can score like 10/100.. if not its realli a disgrace =[=[=[ . Liwan , jia you! i wont let my cramp hold me back from studying. hmmm, i guess i will take a look at organic chemistry ( try to memorise the reagent n conditions again ) then i will start to mug physics! yea. =]

Looking forward to post exam activities =] . I WANNA GO OUT! shall shop like crazy and play like a MAD GAL!!! WHO WANNA JOIN ME??? =/ .. haha.......

*vanished*

2008-11-21T14:44:00.002+08:00

Sigh... CBC 121 was a sheer disappointment. Some may find it super easy while some may hav it kind of tough. Well, i guess i din fight well! HMMM, i think i made a lot of mistake for mcq. I hope my structure qns are OK =] At least i checked with malcolm, our answers were the same except the stupid pI qn. Wont wanna to talk abt it since that qn was so vague. =[=[=[=[ Hope BG can give me some marks =]=]=] So far , my structure are OK and MCQs are uncertain. My answers were more or less like DR CHUA one. Hope for the best . I hope i still can get > 70. Hmm, let's say i lost 15 m from MCQ and 15 m from structure. I guess that is the max i gg to lose? hope so ! Hope that BG can close 2 eyes when marking my structure qns =[

I rushed back home yesterday because i really miss home. I guess home is the only place where i can find warmth n love no matter how many times we used to fought with each other? yea. I slacked the entire day after 121 test. I watched TV and msning!!! heeh...

hmmm, wad abt today? gonna mug forensic sci of course! must jia you! A seems far but still i must continue to work hard. I was talking to desmond yesterday . Hmmm, he told me b4 that he just wanna all B+ . MAyb i shld be like him. Just be contented with all B+ . And enjoy my life in uni? that is all i want ? i want to make a lot of friends in uni and not T_T and be =[ in school. SIgh! Can anyone enlightened me? i feel so stressed up. I dont know why ? perhaps this is my first time having exam in uni? will it be better the next time round? Hope so.... one more week to go! why must 113 be our last paper??? wont have time to study it ! sigh! Must realli plan well. Mayb i shld listen to desmond and start studying physics b4 a few of hours of the exam. haha.. BLEH!

I feel so tired now. Realli tired... Not gg to take a nap! must force myself to study!

hmmm, will it ever haPPEN? is there a possibility? Higher authority, please guide me .. =[

Imagine me without you , you know its impossible ....
i cant imagine me without you....
when my hope n dreams had shattered , you were the one there for me...
i m so lost n confused...
you caught me me when i was falling...
when i found you , i was blessed ...
i will never leave you , because i realli need you ...
Will you leave me??? =[=[=[=[=[

2008-11-19T13:17:00.003+08:00

Feeling much better ! at least emotionally =] . Wake up at 10.30 am. ( its quite late ) but i slept at 2 yesterday .

Looked thru all the mid term 1 paper. Now gg to study all the notes which were covered for mid term 1. =]

Liwan , please be strong! its gonna be over. You will be alrite =]

no matter how hard its gonna be , i really have to persevere . Yes, its ok to cry but be a stronger gal after that =]

Looking for my pillar... i need a pillar. =]

Higher authority , you there? please continue to guide me. Hope that my prayers will be answered.

2008-11-19T00:08:00.002+08:00

YEs, I cried finally! first time crying in hall! its horrible ...

Higher authority, i thank you for making me understand smthg during this period of time. I will change. I will really change for the better. Higher authority , please continue to guide me along the way , grant me with wisdom and strength for me to continue this long long journey!

Hmm, having headache now. Quite a bad one! sigh. Gg to complete the remaining chapters for cbc 121 . Then i will go slp. Will look thru past yr midterm papers/exam papers and my tutorial tmr morning. And will go back to notes again! will re-revise a few times =]

*stay focus*

2008-11-18T15:59:00.002+08:00

CRYING IN MY HEART! feel so damn depressed during the cbc 111 paper. &%&^(&*_)(_)& ...

sigh.. nvm. Moved on! going to do well for cbc 121. Hope i wont fare too badly! sad.

Liwan , is feeling damn sad.. i cant explain how i feel now. But i shall mug 121 ! i dun think i will dare to see my marks during dec. I will hide .... this suckz...

2008-11-17T18:19:00.002+08:00

Not feeling well =[ =[ SOB SOB! feverish.. SIgh. *forcing my eyes to open* Tired of course. Slept at 12 plus and wake up at 4.30. =[ I went back to sleep after that. Wake up at 8.30 instead. Studying 111 with siti. Kind of scared! realli but i am not sure of the reasons =[ . Perhaps cos of mole concepts. SIGH! LIWAN , JIA YOU! taking break now. Hav to consolidate everything later. Not going to go back this week. Hmmm, will stay in hall and mug with SITI over the weekend. Hopefully it helps =[ sigh! i will miss home...

Higher authority , you there? please continue to guide me. I am realli feeling weaker each day. please grant me with wisdom =] ...

Hmmm.. gg to hav dinner with siti n bathe! ha.. at least i have a company! =[