Had cbc 113 test this afternoon. I was so freaked out before that . But i thank the higher authority for guiding me . Higher authority , u there? i hope you can continue to guide me and bless me with all the wisdom. =] . Cbc 113 test was relatively easier than expected. This means that the exam would be difficult? i hope not but still i will give my best. HAHA. hope to do well this time round. Will always rmb that my best is the best ! I was playing with wanderfong yesterday! cos i was alone in my hall. =[=[=[=[=[.. and i was feeling down. SO i pressed wanderfong's hand twice! and she never failed to say " NI YAO jia you , liwan ! ZHI DAO MA ? JIA YOU?" ... YEa.. ms fong's recorded her voice. HAHA..

Hmmm, cbc 111 next week. Dont really have confidence because i always have the mindset that my physical chemistry is weak =[ . Argh! will give my best . hmmm, hav to do maths too. I must do well for maths. I dont want to let ms yang down! Must jia you!

need to go for consultation soon since i need help for maths! NEVER GIVE UP!

chatted with ms fong this afternoon. She asked me treat or trick! i was stunned. I think she really enjoyed herself. ARGH.. i am so jealous... hahah...

Hao ba.. its time to study ...

DISCIPLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but good-bye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

Hmmm.. had physics test this morning , i would say that its a OK paper compared to the previous one! i really hope to know my physics mid term results so that i dun have to study for the EXAM because its a waste of time. I need to study forensic sci. Never touched that for v v v long le! ha

met up with the WSC clique. HEHE. YEA! i had fun. I love to hav their company even though we are not that close yet. We went executive cafe. My first time there. I would say that the food is OK nia. =X ha. Hmmm, but i guess its not the food that matters most! it is the people who are eating with me!

HOw many more days to exam?? let me seee.... Exactly 2 weeks. i am seriously not prepare though SOMEONE always says that i am LI HAI. sigh! well, i will see how. Having 113 test tmr. Hope that it will be a easy paper. Studied with NANA , SITI and one of their guy friends. Hmmm, i must say that the GUY really v LI HAI. =[ . I cant see cyclic compound well. HA. But he could! PHEW, luckily he thought me how sia. Now i feel more relieved that i know how to the shifting part! happY! Mechanism? i am still OK with it? i mean simple ones. ( keeping my finger cross ) sigh.. LI WAN , jia you WOR!

hmmm, waiting 4 exam to finish. ard 28 days!!! i need someone to company me to go snow city ? sentosa? and mayb escape theme park! Gonna spend a lot of money! I dun care le! hehe.. 29 days to WANDERFONG's birthday . ( my darling bear ) .

Sigh, cant wait for everything to be over =[=[=[=[=[=[=[ ...

*slap* beta go study cbc 113 now.

Feeling very tired now. I think i will definitely take a nap later =X

Should i go back to hall later. Kind of lazy.

Din touch organic chem today. I was trying to memorise all the physics equ and looked through some of the physics example. Phew. Manage to scrap through! Left oscillation! argh.. meeting jiun hui tmr to help me with physics and organic chemistry =] . Hope i will really do well. =[=[=[

went to look for ms yang yesterday. SAd that she was not surprised. =X . okay la. She slimmed down a lot after birth. She said i changed a little too. Esp my hair. She said its nicer. Why cant she said i am prettier now =X. haha. Okays. I realli miss her. The best part was YANG YANG still rmb me!!! yea. I made jelly for her. She a bit excited when she saw me. HA. I love her lor =x. Might go look for ms yang again on her birthday. I miss her a lot a lot. LOVE U ...

I saw ms kitty tan yesterday. She said hi to me. But i doubt she knew that i was a tjcian. I doubt i was so popular in TJC. But when i saw her , i realli think that i miss my teachers a lot. And guess what? i dreamt of my teachers yesterday night. Sigh, i really miss TJC a lot but i doubt my teachers will read my entry. Hmmm, but still just wanna say , i miss u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can u all sense it? ha

Gg to continue revising! *yawn*

Feeling a bit tired now but i know i have to burn mid night oil tonight to memorise all the mechanism and reactions.. Redo tutorial 5. "phew" , at least i know how to do most w/o looking at the answer if not i really have to go and jump! =X

Having a mask on my face now. Feel much more relaxing. Hmmm, gonna look for ms yang tmr. Gonna give her a big surprise. =] Yep, i miss her a lot . WIll reach there around 4.30 =] . Hope she is doing really well.

Planning what to do tmr. Will try to complete textbook questions tmr. And of course continue to keep memorise all the mechanism and reactions. i realised smthg just now. I am not as discipline as last time =X . My mind always wander away =[ . ARGH! please stay focus. !!!!! liwan , jia you! its gonna be over soon!

Will do my lab report on MON and mug physics =[ . for tues , wed , i will do both organic chem and physics together. =] Hope it will be alright! meeting shao ming on tues for dinner and My WSC frens on WED for dinner. I thinK i really love to be with WSC people.. =X

Okay, better go back to study =[

I love to be at home ! i realli love! I dont like to stay in hostel!!! At least i get to talk to my parents =[ . At least i can sense that love is in THE AIR! =[=[=[=[

I was talking to pei shan just now. I guess she could sense that i am not right. YA, i am not right. But i will be fine soon. =]=] . Pei shan , thank you! ( if u are reading my blog ) .. love always..

Got back my maths test! i dont know what to say about it but somehow i am still average ! Okay ! i din S/U . I will work harder. =] Had cbc121 yesterday. It was quite easy but i still feel that past year mid terms are easier. HA.

Went for session yesterday! Hmm.. the boys are interesting kids. I din manage to talk to them much . ( i must bear in mind that i cant say too much ) *ZIP* I hope to get closer to them .

hav to study for 113 and physics for next week tests. Sigh.. Gonna mug !!!!!!!! wanna study now... gg to visit ms yang on SUN. GG to give her a surprise!! gonna make jelly for her. I dreamt of her the other day. i dreamt that she nagged at me cos of my maths result =[ . Scary!!!

Tmr is JUN WEN's Birthday . ( not sure if u gt read my blog but feel free to tag too )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!!!
MAY ALL UR DREAMS COME TRUE! =]

Hmmm.. my gastric is giving me a problem =[=[=[=[=[=[=[=[=[=[ .. sigh... Just refuse to take good care of myself.

Feeling very tired. Have been trying hard to study cbc 121 because i dont hav bio backgrd. Met up with jiun hui this afternoon. he cleared most of my doubts. Need to consolidate later b4 i go slp. Li wan , jia you wor. Liwan , is a clever girl, she can do it de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmmm, ms fong told me abt the 'ball analogy" she said that i look like a ball, i can bounce back when i fall ! But now , i feel that i am a ball rolling on the ground. In the past , when i was rolling at least there were people picking me up and made me bounce again. What happens now? sigh.

Cant wait for thursday to come. Wanna clear 121 test and FINALLY can go for my session! ( first and last one =[ ) Boy's hostel ! how does it look like? well its nt impt! Most importantly, i hope i can mingle with the boys well enough! Yea. Jia you!

倘若我们能回到最初的原点
或许这份感情就能永恒不变
倘若我们能回到最初的原点
或许彼此之间不会有句点 .... sigh...

Time of the month is here.. earlier than expected which might nt be a good thing because we will be having exam ard this time next month. Hope for the best .

meeting jiun hui on tues , gonna ask him cbc 121. Hope its helps since he is the only 1 who stay in hostel. Feel bad to bug him even on MSN too. SIgh, cos i am stupid =(

Done with the minutes which i had to produce yesterday! Desmond told me that its not too bad since its my first time . i thanked him for giving a chance to learn. Learning things step by step , hopefully i will be more prepared to run for main com next yr. Li wan , jia you!

Meeting Qing rong tmr for dinner. He is my hall fren. We rarely see each other , probably once a month or lesser than that but whenever we see each other, we will hav a lot of things to say. HA .. ME N my CRAPS.. SO we decided to have dinner together on mON. Hopefully , i wont hav cramp tmr. =[ . Shao Ming is another one. I am closest to him for the entire hall camp but somehow i deviated away from taser due to various reasons but i wont forget him ! Meeting up with him soon. didnt expect myself to be so busy!

Hmmm, Errrrrr... went for maths lecture yesterday. Feel a bit sad becos of the maths test. Its okay , i have to move on. Hmmm, Siti told me something yesterday which struck me very hard. " li wan , i think u lost something which u used to have therefore you feel a bit lost at time , therefore u feel upset at time! " yes , she said that i lost someone who used to be there to guide me =[ . She said i lost someone who used to be there to listen to what i have to say. I felt v upset upon hearing that . Maybe its true because i haven found someone who can guide me and listen to what i have to say . That makes me miss my teachers more. Sigh , i have to move on . Not many can understand the "friendship" i had with my teachers in the past ..

Whenever my frens are feeling down , i will always sit beside them , tell them its okay! but why cant i say that to myself? =[

Okay, shall nt emo anymore ! gonna study ! but its time of the month. Feeling tired and in pain =[

someone said my blog is boring =[ *heartbroken* even though he didnt have the [serious] tag
someone said i did not up;oad any pictures
someone said i always use the word " tired"

Maths Test was a total mess. Should i S/U? sigh...

Din sleep well for the past few nights. probably 2-3 hrs a day. Somebody asked me why am i so tired? Probably now can understand =]

Not feeling well this morning . Was a bit feverish =[ . I hate this route but still have to persevere . Sigh

Was lucky to have a friend who is willing to be there for me ....... wont elaborate so much

Walked by with siti just now. I know she doesnt feel good. I talked to her again . She just have to move on !

Going for free dinner later. gg to study 121 now.

anyway , guess why i blog today? Its cos of LIM ZHEN HUI. YuP. Guess what i wanna to use? not Mr X or Y . I wanted to use the 4 chinese words to address u but i realised that i cannot use it here. You should know the 4 chinese words. ( hopefully )

HMMMMM.... why do i want to blog today???? haha.. Let me share smthg !!

Went for maths consultation. Guess what GUO JIAN ( my maths tutor ) asked me? Are you married ? ( in chinese ) I got a shocked. I gave me a stupid look and said " NO!" and he asked me why do i wear ring? I told him i love RINGS! hehe.. He is a funny chap. Learnt a lot today. He said that i pick things quite fast and i am nt bad. WOW. Early afternoon gt ppl praise me liao!!! feel great even though i am nt that gd ( oopz, li wan where is ur self confidence? )

After that i went for CBC 111 tutorial. HA, my tutor is a OLD MAN. He is super bias. He feels that poly students are nt good. He feels that i know how to answer certain questions. So he turned his head and face me. He said " you should know t he answer!" wow! A bit shocked. Then after that i approached him and asked him abt my answer . He started to complain to me abt the poly students. I was speechless. i think its quite hurting.

After that i went out of the tut room. i waited for Zhi LI . She went to the toilet. I saw him again. I said "bye" to him. Guess wad did he do? he said "bye" to me too. In the same tone as me. HAHA.. he paused awhile and opened the door. Guess wad he said? " YOU ARE QUITE NOT BAD" .. i was stunned. I was fast enough to say that i am nt that good. He laughed and walked away.

Well, feel so encouraged today. These 2 tutors somehow brightened my days. feel slightly motivated to study. I miss my TJC teachers. They were always there to motivate me in the past . I miss them. Talked to ms fong last week. She never failed to motivate me and let me feel GOOD. THANK YOU! doubt she will read my blog. BUt thank you !!!

Having maths mid term tmr.. HA. scary.. =( WIll give my best !

( friday post .. haha.. Hmmm.. smthg wrong with blogger.. )

*yawn* *yawn* ( haha.. dont dare to use the word 'tired') talk to siti and valerie yesterday. Siti told me that whenever she has relationship problems , i am the first one she will approach. ( i got a shock ) I am evergreen ! how much can i help>?But apparently the 2 of them love to hear what i got to say about some issues. ( hopefully i din bore them out ) Siti and i went to NBS rooftop. haha. We had our dinner there . we stayed there for like 2 hrs plus. We talked non stop. I felt a bit cold up there but of course , i didnt tell her because i wanna lend her my listening ears. i guess she just wanna talk to someone. But i was very happy that at least she was very grateful that i could make her understand a lot of things. I talked to valerie too. Yup, she thanked me. I felt v happy that they appreciated what i had said.

I think i missed out quite a lot when i was away from home last week. Hope things will be fine soon. Higher authority , are you there? i hope that you can guide me the right way. I pray for an answer . Maybe i am just not up to it . AM i ?

Studying maths just now. "cui" . a bit scared. Hope my maths mid term 1 will not be that bad =(

hmmm, took a nap this afternoon. From ard 2 plus to 4.20. Impressed by how much i can sleep. haha. =x No la, cos my gastric was not very well. I took medicine and went back to sleep. I felt lucky that i can sleep so much because for the past few days, i did not sleep well..

Didnt really study a lot today. Stared at my mindmap and tried 121 tutorials. Hmmm, quite tough. After that went on to 111 tut but i stopped half way because my note is not with me. Its Okay. I will go back to do tmr. Studying maths now. ( can say its a bit last minute . sigh ) . WIll chiong tonite , tmr and mon. =X . Gonna do my lab report on mon. Will get the answer from yuan xiong because i screwed up mine. sigh.

Tues is my maths test . After that , i have planned what to study next . Planning to focus on CBC 121 and CBC 113 next week. will spend some time on CBC 111 too. =]=]=] YEA. I need to study focus too. ( i must admit i cant ) li wan , jia you wor! Its gonna be over soon. 1 month plussss.. hehe..

Gonna study hard le... *vanished*

FEELing super tired.. The word "tired" appeared again. haha. Not feeling well. felt quite disappointed that we cant go for the session yet. =( sigh. Went for the MCYS talk yesterday. from 5.30 to 9 plus. The longest " lecture" . ha. YEa. Interact well with the rest of our people. After that , i went mac with wei jin, xin xuan, han chong , (forget another gal's name ) ha. Okays. I was a clown over there. Okay la. Went back to hall after that . It was a long walk. Quite scary. They did offer to send me back but well , its okay. I wont die one. haha. Slept at ard 1 am yesterday then wake up at 2.20 to reply a sms. from then on , i didnt slp le. =[ bad bad bad.

Wasnt in a good mood the whole day. Not feeling good ba. I din spend my week well. I didnt study much. Just look thru first chapter of maths.SIANX. A lot of things to do on sat. CBC 121 , 113 , MATHS 181. That's abt it. Have to do tutorials too. *YAWN*

Next week is kind of a hectic one. WSC MEETING and MATHS MID tERM 1. jia you , li wan. tata

i'm here to blog again. Super tired ( "tired" seems to appear in my blog very frequently now and then) Went Malaysia yesterday. I wake up at 4 plus because of that . didnt manage to sleep in the car. I bought a pair of shoes there. Not too bad. i shall wear it mayb like tmr? ha. See ba..

Finally , i got an answer from the higher authority. i would say its an indirect one. I guess it made me truly understand what shld i look out for in a relationship =] ( not that i am gg to have a boyfriend now ) but its good to know. =) Well, i continue to seek the higher authority's guidance. =]

I have decided to try for the scholarship if i did well for my Year 1. Yes, i am determined to do well for my final year. I will pray ... that would be a 5-yr bond?

Gg to study hard for maths mid term 1. i know it gonna be tough cos i am nt gd at maths but i will give my best =] I will stay at home and mug hard =] ( to compensate this week ) haha.. All the best , LI WAN

*yawn* *yawn* ( haha.. dont dare to use the word 'tired')

talk to siti and valerie yesterday. Siti told me that whenever she has relationship problems , i am the first one she will approach. ( i got a shock ) I am evergreen ! how much can i help>?But apparently the 2 of them love to hear what i got to say about some issues. ( hopefully i din bore them out ) Siti and i went to NBS rooftop. haha. We had our dinner there . we stayed there for like 2 hrs plus. We talked non stop. I felt a bit cold up there but of course , i didnt tell her because i wanna lend her my listening ears. i guess she just wanna talk to someone. But i was very happy that at least she was very grateful that i could make her understand a lot of things. I talked to valerie too. Yup, she thanked me. I felt v happy that they appreciated what i had said.

I think i missed out quite a lot when i was away from home last week. Hope things will be fine soon. Higher authority , are you there? i hope that you can guide me the right way. I pray for an answer . Maybe i am just not up to it . AM i ?

Studying maths just now. "cui" . a bit scared. Hope my maths mid term 1 will not be that bad =(

Feeling super tired now. V "cui" . I wonder where i learnt this word from. Have been using it since like uni started.

Went out yesterday to watched "painted skin" . What is lOVE? its really hard to define. Maybe i will never have a chance to define it . Went out with Zhi Li , Xue liang , Zhen Hui , Shun Kuang. Guess what , i tried jap food again. Well, it looks more like chinese food. =X . feeling poor lately. Dont know why oso. I dont spend a lot but still i am poor.

Not in the mood lately. Mayb cos a lot of tests coming again. A lot of tests to clear too. I want a break ( a long long one ) . sigh. Still hav to wait for quite long . =( Like DEC. Shld i go for a short holiday? i realli want ! =(

DOne my CBC 113 tutorial. Super tiring BUT FUn. Quite happy that i manage to synthesis most of them ( but not sure if they are correct ) . Hav to jia you. Going to do my report soon. That will take a very long long time. HA.

Going out tmr. Hope i will be able to cope with studies and all my outings. If not =X .

Higher authority , i hope you can guide me and grant me all the wisdom. I am grateful for all you have done. =)

happy HARI RAYA To everyone! tired.

Went out yesterday with Fenix ( yi ren ) . he treated me. Lolx. If u are reading my blog , THANKx again. I enjoyed my day. Hope you enjoyed yourself too = ) .

Having physics test tmr !! argh. Still have a lot of problems with it. Feel bad to bug jiun hui whenever i have questions =X. Hopefully i can pass well. =( After thursday , i will really have to mug very hard for my MATHS MID TERM TEST. LIWAN, JIA YOU ! cos its nt easy . hmmm.. I think mid term 2 is coming =X. CBC 121 and CBC 113 n CBC 111 again. Its like a cycle. Sometimes it realli suxs. haven to plan what to do on saturday . But i am gg out on SAT =X . DIE LIAO. haha.. no need to study . haha... will see how. = )

i will mug on friday then. Wonder if anyone going to watch movie.

*VANISHED*

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan