quite lazy lately. Didnt blog much. I want shopping =( , I really want to go shopping! i wanna buy more more more top and bottom. BUT i need a company! sian... Wad i wanna do>?i am feeling tired. i bought a top at this fashion last sun. ERM.. the quality is nt good la. BUt still i love it. Quite cute. Gt a tie lor.. hehe... dun dare to wear =X

Wanna go town and shop soon! i dun want to miss the great singapore sales.. hehe.. YEA

hmmm... tired...

had lunch with annie, xp , hl , SAm.. candice, louis ... okay la.. quite fun ... With my boss , annie teasing me.. hehe.. " where is your boyfriend?" haha.... i like my boss a lot..

wanted to go back to tjc just nw .. but i decided not to cos i didnt buy anything for my chers... SOBBY! but its okay.. i will go back soon...

i think i have changed. I hate myself. I am not a good gal. WHy? what happened? i am tired. Really ... haix... someone pls lend me ur ears?

feeling very tired due to various reasons.. real tired..

feeling lost too... i need a shoulder and a big hug...

i made a choice le.. BUT have a made the CORRECT choice? is NTU really a gd choice? what can i do now? why not NUS? haix.... feeling super sad. I realli hope i can talk to someone .. really.. someone who realli understand how i feel now.

saw mdm lim on the train just nw. talked for like 2 minutes. YUP. She told me to go back and visit the teachers. Of course i will. BUT i am tired. REAL tired. MAyb b4 school start ba. Will buy some gd stuff back. I really miss my teachers.

hmmmm... where were u when i needed you most? where? where? i guess this is just how much i mean to u .....

departure is part and parcel of live? haix. Why? what is life after death? haix.

feeling upset... =(

OKAYS...

went to trim my hair .. hehe... nw i have fringes le. haha.. my hair is also coloured... The same colour lor.. but nw is more obvious.. hehe... hope i look younger.. haha.. YEA... happy!

I boUGHT A JEAN from Esprit! haha.. First time sia. gt 20 % discount .. in the end the jean costs ard 47... YEa.. still reasonable...

Let me list what things i want to buy...

1) more tops and bottoms
2) bagsssssssssssss OOPZ
3) RINGS and earingS.. haha.. Chain? haha
4) SPEC!!!!!!!!!!!! ( transition )
5) IPOD touch
6) WATCH ? GUESS? Esprit? haha ( considering )
7) handphone? LG? touch phone? hehe
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9)
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more to go.. OH NO.. how how??

okays .. gg to temple tmr.. YEa.. happY!
Gg out next week to shop too.. yea yea.. happY! GOOD.. shop more stuff.. happy! hehe....

i guess shopping makes me happy... esp when i can keep buying! I need more money.. gonna earn more.. Its good to work till end of july.. at least gt money! hhaaha

YEA... accepted NTU chemistry and biological chemistry. Sound tough because its like a combine degree. BUt i will still jia you for sure... But i am wondering where are my notes. HAIX. How to get it back from ms fong? =( SAd... can i do w/o them? not too sure... wait for july ba..= ( will give her a call. Hope its nt too late.. after my BTT .. yupz...

Yes, i had a dream again. Same person.. haha.. its seems like i really miss you deep inside my heart. Where are u ?? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
liwan is screaming ....

gg for a hair cut today. Gg to dye my hair or mayb highlight my hair. Hehe.. YEA... jia you ba... = )
But i am quite scared. LATER turn out to be a monster. haha... Chill * .. yea... Gg to treat my whole family today . I guess they wanna zi char instead of soe posh restaurant . good la.. can save more money. Hope i can go shopping next week. wanna shop for tops and bottom. Its time to shop le.. Great spore sales is here soon. I am so gg to buy the RING! hehe... MEI MEI de ring .. I wanna buy a pair of ear ring.. Mei mei de... and of course a necklace chain . YEA..

I hope i can survive in hostel. WIll i have homesick?The phobia is there.. But still.. haix... nvm..

Will someone understand how i feel? sob .... can somene talk to me?

Feeling damn shiok when i received NUS letter of OFFER! HAPPY! but somehow i am scared. Have i made the right choice? haix. Is nTU really good? or am i the stupid one? everyone is rushing to go NUS. ANd i am not. HAIX. I wouldnt say NUS is nt good la. JUst that i am nt up to it . YUP. Li wan , jia you ba.

*yawn*

Realised smthg after my dream. Its seems like i have moved on. But i doubt so . U appeared in my dream . YES. I guess i really miss you . haix. What can i do? haix... nvm.... = )

hmmm.. V V V V upset la.. felt like a fool. But its okay. No regrets....

So i guess i have to watch with LOUIS TAN le.. YEP....

Tired... Dun feel like gg anywhere.. dun feel like socialising anymore.. its tiring. ARGH!

SAW Samantha smoking just now. I asked her a few ques. I dun why she wanna smoke? i asked her a few ques.. But i guess she was quite irritated de lor. SIGH!... i wonder how i talk to my students next time. Guess what? i have the argh to smoke too. I wanna to know what is the feeling like. SO that mayb i can put myself into their shoes. DIE! nvm

I am tired LATELY! I give up.. GOd i hope my prayers will be answered.... =(

very long never blog... hehe...

Finally i know what i want. I have made up my mind even if i made the wrong choice. YEP. i guess what sandy and wan xin said were right. = ) I pray that things will be fine. YUp.. COS i think i really .................................................... = )

hmmmm......

didnt sleep well cos i had a dream. Definitely not a sweet one. SIgh...

Hmmm.. felt quite upset when i realised smthg yesterday. While i was lying down on my bed , i thought of chemistry . Since i am gg to take chemistry and biological chemistry in UNI. Then i started to think of some theory that i had learnt . SAD Sia. I cant recall most =( . i dont really remember some part of physical chemistry. My weakest topic. i was a bit disappointed. And i am like so brave to give ms fong the whole stack of my tuition notes. SO how? die? how am i gg to get back from her.. SAD

Another thing that is bothering me is my SGC. I didnt get my SGC back. I wonder why. haix. Suck. =(

Hmmm, met up with yl yesterday. Well, had heart to heart talk. Okay ba , perhaps i really changed. =) And she cant recognise me from far. Its okay! hmmm... stay happy ba. Hopefully we will stay together next time. =)

hmmm... okay.. work was boring cos i finished doing everything in the afternoon.

gt to know 6 people today. SIAN! i mean all are TEMPS of course. cant rmb all the names, well.. they are all very ang mo .. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... yup, Some didnt wanna go NTU because its very CHINAH .. haix.. i guess this is why i refuse to go NUS. So what if i gt 3As.? i will still feel inferior. SUCKERS .. nvm.. so Terrence asked me to join them tmr to play tennis. I was like ...... argh... 4get it . We are different type of people. YUP. NOt my clique. After that daniel walked pass candice and i . Then candice asked him if he speak mandarin or eng more often. Then i was guessing .... hhehe.. and i was correct . Its mandarin. Cos he has the face la.. YEA... He is gg NTU . YEA... taking engineering.. haha.. Must be gd fren with him .. so that we can beat all the YAYA ppl... hehe.. lalala.. must socialise more ... since gt a NTU friend le. =)

gum is in pain agaiN! i wonder why? haix... HFMD? i doubt so...

work was okay ! my pay went up le. hahaha to $7/h ... i guess GOD really knows that i need money. haha.. Thank God for that. WIll save more money.. =) But the sad thing is i may have to work on alternate days. HAIX. Which means i will not earn a lot. haix. WASTED... nvm .. i guess i can stay at home ! STUDY FOR MY BTT . I dont wan to fail. AND also look through my chemistry notes. Yup! See, i am still so hardworking!

Very happy to know that ANnie is a very encouraging boss. She always encourages me! always tell me that i can do it because i got my 3As. Thank you! i am really happy to know her. i respect her a lot. hehe.. YUP. i will accept NTU ! yea... =) not so soon la.. MAybe a few weeks more? after mother day? haha.. Dun noe ba.... Still waiting for NUS. Cos i wanna reject them. But i think .. haix.. nvm

Argh.... i am feeling so hot . i didnt sleep well . I kept waking up because i was feeling super hot. =(

Global warming? oh no! i dont want to die so early leh! i am sweating now even though i have already switched on the fan. idiot! i want air con. HAiX. WIll hide in my parent room sia. I cant tahan le. =(

waiting for 4th aug to come. CANNOT WAIT LOR.. wonder how lessons will be like. WOnder how the people there will be like. Wonder how.....................................

Praying for happiness =)

Li wan , you gonna jia yoU! you will be alone ? will i ? dun noe ba.....

working tmr. Gonna be damn bored. =( haix. Since I do need to cover louis work. Anyway , nvm lor.. earn less then earn less ba. No choice. =( =( 3 more mnths to go.. very fast de! =)

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

time of the month not here yet. SAD. WHY??? argh. Recieved a cheque today . Very happy . haha.. cos i gt $208 .. hehe... I need a lot of money.

stayed at home today. Sian. Helped my cousin. She is improving. Very happy for her. Hope she can get 70 and above. I will be damn happy! Jia yoU ! Sense of satisfaction =) .

have decided to join 3 CCAs in NTU. YUP. 3 diff types. I will jia you de. I will balance everything well. I will ! Li wan , ke yi de.

hmmm... tired....

went out yesterday with candice , wx , denise and jiang yue. Oh and yi ming? did i rmb correctly? he is denise's hubby. I guess they are a pair of loving couple. haha =)

Okay , wad's next . Oh ya.. we took a lot of pics. HEHEHE while waiting for denise , jy . Cos we are too bored. TIRED.

hmmmm... might be gg out on sat. I need money. WHere can i get it from? sigh . GOD i need money ! =(

gg to treat my fam in like 2 wks time. Need to change my specs and get ipod touch. Wanna change HP too. HAIX. =(

soon ba... =(

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan