Went to catch a movie today.. LEAP YEAR.. I like it ... =) I admired Li ANN. She was lost initially. If i were her , how would i feel? I guess I will upset . But come to think again, will there be such guy who is willing to wait . I am referring to KC obviously. Jeremy also v nice. He really appear every leap yr.. haha.. No bad leh.. too bad la. i dun hav the mei li to attract so many guyz.. hahaa.. k

gg for a run tmr.. Sure v tired de.. soB

Received letters from NTU . HAIX.. My fav course leh.. they congrat me for my A level results. But i wonder why? they dun even know my results lor =P.. k ba... But i really really wanna that course ,, SOB SOb...

Tired... wan xin sms me just nw. haa.. she missed me... Now i have a hubby in office. Lolx.. I really dun noe why my boss and the rest like to tease us when we are nt even close. But its okay.. It makes everyone laughs

slseey.. gonna slp early. heeheh.. =)

Having a mask on my face.. HAPPY! HAPPY!
Feeling much relax nw. COs tmr is THURS!

Today was quite a tough day esp so when it is the second day. Its was v heavy =(

Tired... din talk much today in the the office cos simply too tired..

Tmr will be a loner cos WAN XIN AND TQ wont come to work. I guess i will join steph and sandy haha..

I cant walk properly today cos of MON. Hope it will get well on fri so that i can go run again on SAT . YEA... Wanna exercise.. Suddenly v excited abt running and keeping a good image

Gonna go facial this week ba? i doubt i will want to go next week. ARGH! ( cos A level resultS) Actually i doubt i need to go for facial la.. cos after i gt bakc my results , i wont have FACE to see anyone . HAIX... Sad

Shall buy my mum smthg ba .. Dun noe.. she doesnt seem to be in the mood. HAIX. Hope things will be fine for US.

Will try to slp early today like 11? haha.. V lazy to wake up lately . PIG .. Look forward to weekend. COS I can get $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ again. The feeling is definitely great ... HAHA.. YEA... Wanna get more money! =) OOPZ.. MONEY FACE =(

i am back to blogging again...

talked to ms yang just nw and i found out that i really miss her a lot. MS YANG, I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU A LOT. CAN I HAVE A HUG?

Do u noe what was ms yang's first ques? " Are u attached?" lol ... she told me nt to b attached like soo soon. I agree to a large extent. Hehee... Ms yang , thankz u . I feel so happy talking to u ... u are great. AT least i will nt hesitate to click on ur nick and talk to u .. unlike.. haix.. k ..

cramp.. Tired.. wanna slp... zzzzz.......

My cRAMP is killinG ME! ARGH... I want piggy back . I guess why my dad doesnt like to piggy back me le. =( But at least i tried before. I love my daddy . I love to hold his hands. Daddy, will you be good?

Had another heart to heart talk with my dad. B4 that i wanna complain abt my Wan Xin and Tang Qian!!!!!! bully me.. watever things i said they also dun agree. i mean they dun fully agree with me. BAD =( No la, i guess i was impractical. We were discussing abt our own future and everything. SO they picked on me . They talked abt finanical security. i told them that this means a lot to me. I dont know why but still i need to have this security ! I told them that my husband has to pay for everything etc. I wont chip in! In the end , yes i gt a good scolding from TQ . HMPH! Perhaps i was really wrong . I started to ask my dad how much it costs to buy a condo? mansion? etc... He told me there is no use in buying all those. He said a 4 room flat will be fine. Then i asked him if i can dun chip in to pay for all the bills. He said i siao. But after that he told me " CAN!" haha.. Finally ! haha.. gt someone who agree with me. But its okay ba... When i am older i will learn . =) STILL EARLY for that =)

In pain! v PAINFUL! SOB .... I WANNA HUG HUG...

Oh ya.. Gt teased by DENISE ! my BOSS. I will be alone on thurs cos TQ and Wan xin dun need to work on that day. " who will company me for lunch?" i asked . GUess wad denise said? " UR BF" wa lao.. Straight to my face leh. Obviously she was referring to LOUIS. They teased me throughout the day.... Then i jio jiangyue , she also dun wanna go with me . BAD BAD BAD.. Then i started to play along .. I told them go hotel eat beta.. then can...................... haah... OOPZ... I am so polluted by them...

Pain paiN! =( =( .. AAARGH!

HOW I WISH I AM RICH! =(

Hmmm.. tired.. time of the mnth made me ARGH.. sorry for those who suffered from my scolding.. haha.. pai seh.. just v pissed off lately and unhappy...

Went to work like a goldfish but probably it wasnt obvious =P . I didnt work v hard today. Quiet slack too.. Walk ard.. i try nt to cry again =) ZHANG DA LE. Feeling beta =) thankz for always being there for me . Its really a blessing to have u as my friend =) I will treasure u =) i hope u too .... i will be there for u too...

Wanna watch leap year .. Someone jio me leH! haha.. MY FIRST MOVIE OF THIS YR + LAST YEAR

Not feeling well but hav to slp late again. Yup .. Gt a cheque today . Its nt a lot. $100 plus only.. quite jia lat . But its okay. PAiD $100 plus after CPF for playing game why nt? gt a bit lesser cos i took half day off last week for ms fong . But it is all worth it ...

Went to run this evening with haiting. Guess how much i ran? The entire bedok reservoir. I think i am superb . Lolx.. We were damn happy . I really din expect that i could ran so much. HAHA... YEA.. i din run like for at least 5 mnths after prelim le. HAHA.. I guess i will hav to bear the consequence after that ...surely will hav muscle aches here n there....

can feel that the cramp is on its way. =( SAD

Can 11pm come faster....

Yea, learning to let go le =)

Hmmm.. i wonder what kind of gal i am ? Am i really that good? I doubt so ba .. A gal with a pure heart? the superest gal? a RARE GEM? to be frank i dun agree with people who said that but i appreciate that =) . At least it made me feel high for a while

A level results?? when are u out? ARGH! where do i really stand ? Botttom? i dun do well for my PSLE, O level and A level chinese and PW. What can i expect nw? the same ending? haix. I pray...

Gg to run tmr But i am nt sure if confirm can a not since its time of the mnth soon. See first ba =)

Why is my eyes swollen again? lack of slp?

why is my bed wet? My saliva? lolx... Did i pee?

So hard to control =(

Hmmm.. i thought i am a bad gal but i doubt so . I actually let ppl decide things wor ! I give ppl chance to even make a decision.

Look like a goldfish? haha... ( forcing a smile )

Wei, li wan, today is sun liao le! WHY AINT u happy? Always looking forward to my weekend but it often looks like a deflated balloon towards the end....

why am i nt happy? YES, i am not happy at all. Feel like running away...

Do u understand how i feel? Can u understand?

i am tired and i feel like letting go. But why am i still holding so tightly? waiting for a glimpse of hope? i guess i am always so foolish...

Wake up at ard 7 today then tried to slp again till 10am.

having a bad headache but its beta le =) feel like slping again.. haha.. OInk .. real pig! Went to NTU webby... I am so Sad ... I really wanna the course!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

SAD lor.. God, i really pray for it. Havent i work hard enough =(

Next sat gg for a run ! Yep... =) happy le ..

Talked to carlye just nw. Again, we are super old frens.. Used to be v good fren in pri sch but i guess i neglected her badly! sorry for those i hav neglected. I will compensate using my whole life time... I will work hard to love everyone of u =) . YEs, enlarging social life is nt easy but i will give a try ! I set a few goals after my A level exam. One of them was really to know more ppl... the other one is to really be a leader of smthg! I WANNA TO DO SMTHG BIG! i told ms fong this that time =) . Yup.. she encourages me to do . Will jia yOU! =) If i go uni, i will want to learn to balance studies and my social life =)

LIWAN , JIA YOU! God, pls give me a chance?

NTU , give me a chance too? pls?

hmmmmmmmmmmmm....

Had a quite fun time in the office.. WAN XIN IS SOOOOOOOOOO funny la.. HAHA.. k la..... i cant stop laughing ...AS usual gt teased by Jiang yue.. I think she must be v jealous of me! haha.. but it was all craps ..

went out after work with my fren. Went food republic . Food is ex lor.. SADDED.. Spend quite a lot lately! haha... nvm

Saw HAi Ting just nw . i knew her for quite long le. We are like old frens but always din get to talk! We talked abt A level results etc... Then she talked abt her pantry . She has a lot of food in the pantry! Then she said she wanna slim down! that's made me v happY! cos we hav a common goal. We gt hold of each other nos and msn add le. We decided to work towards our goal and become good frens! YEA

i have decided to enlarge my social life... i neglected a lot of ppl for the past few years...

EVERYTIME WE KISS , I SWEAR I COULD FLY! ( nice isnt it ) so sweet...

slept reasonably early yesterday. Wake up at 4.30 and went back to slp after a while. Not feeling good. HEADACHE! and i kept sneezing! i wonder who miss me soooooooooooo much?? haha.. But beta le ba...

Gg on diet.. every meal i will eat vegg with rice! just 80 % full ba.. Hope it will help. Must do sit up liao.. A few days never do. OOPz

Tmr is thURs , the day after tmr is FRI. YEA.. happY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cos i will get my pay AGAIn. Oh dear, i simply love to see the money in my bank grow ! haha.. Hope can jump by one digit agaiN! hehe... Wanna jump MORE! yea... =) V lazy to do OT cos i always wanna go home with WAN XIN AND TANG QIAN! haha

Time of the month soon! can feel the pain is coming le.. i hope it wont be a tough one cos weekend coming.. i still wanna go out play de ! Pain.. Weird feeling!

Results gg to be out soon.. start to feeling numb... K!

Din slp well the whole night. I guess i was wrong. I was nt understanding enough. I hate myself. I am sorry.

Feeling slightly beta. At least i am frank with myself. I will try my best =(

SCAREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD................. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I think i am just too free to worry abt lots of things..

But what happens if i cant get into LOCAL UNI???? God, can you guide me?

Talk to ms fong just nw. FInallY!!!!!! she gt to see the blog! YEA.. hAPPY HAPPY

Results coming out soon le... =( =(

Someone stole one of my chocolates given by JW. ARGH! WHo is the idiot! nvm.. I am gg to keep the box =)

Work is tiring today. helped WAN XIn to find a lot of files today =) LI HAI RITE?? YEA..> Cos i am the super-est ! =P BHB.. I am gg to buy sweet to office liao. BUT SCARED FAT LOR! EXERCISE EXERCISE! =(

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have a lot of troubles......... scared! scared! what happens if i dun do well? sadded


GOD, i need ur guidance. I am getting more and more frightened. HAIX

I WANT TO GO SHANGHAI! I REALLY WANT TO! WHAT IS HOLDING ME BACK??? ARGH!

Went to SIM webby! i guess if i really cant make it to NTU, i will go SIM. The fees are quite reasonable =) God , i pray that things will be fine for me . I really hope that i will DO WELL =(
I am scared. Will that be next week? haix...

Gg to book my BTT. Earliest test date shld be on may ba. I scared i fail leh. Dont wanna throw face.. HAHa.. =(

STudying! ...

Hmmmm... went bugis to pray ! brought my ahma too =) Trying to be the super-est granddaughter. GOd am i ? hav i tried my best ? I will continue to strive for the best . AH MA , I love you =) .

HMMMM... Tired =). din slp very well the whole night! i often asked myself what do i want? i cant asnwer . i really cant!

TIRED =(

helped my little cousin with her english. CAn u imagine?? haha.. Okay la.. But i am a good teacher lor =)

SMSed ms fong this morning! hehe.. But i thankzed Kor kor for showing her the sms. I sent the msg to her hubby phone . I wished her bon voyage etc... She replied me! Thou is a simple msg , i teared. I was touched. YUP =)

V sleepy. V happy actually i slept till 7am this morning. My sleep wasnt disturb by anything ! heeh...

decided to go on diet and exercise more after hearing what ms fong said! haha.. YEA =)

I ate yong tou fu w/o rice this afternoon! yEA

This morning i wore my pink top to work. Guess what ANNIE ( my manager ) asked me? " why louis and u wear qing nu zhuang!" haha. I was shocked by what she said. I said it was coincidence .. Then she went ahead to ask Louis ( he is someone who rarely jokes and talks ) Guess what he said? He told annie that we planned to wear pink together ! ahaha.. I was shocked by his answer. YEa, at least nw he is more opened up! Nw rumors are everywhere. Jiang yue and candice love to tease us. They said i gt a money tree! haha Louis is a rich guy =) . But i guess these are craps =) But i enjoyed playing along with them.....

tIred le.. can i hav a hug? yawn!

Took half day leave today! FINALLY FINALLY!

met up with my superest teacher! She said i changed a lot. HAH.. prettier than her liao. WHaT a Joke. At first i thought she will be late but she is one min earlier. I couldnt see her.. Too short! haa.. HMMMM.. We went starbucks . She gave me ang pao leh! HAHA.. AFTER THAT I pass her the plaque. She was v happY! happy to see her smile.. After that we decided to change the location... hehe.. we tried cafe cartel but haven open... SO we went BK. She treated me =) . After that i took pics for her with the plaque but forget to blue tooth to me.. SAD... She show me kor kor n her pics , her niece and nephew etc... Glad that she is happy over there . AFter that we went to shop shop.. haha.. Saw a ring with 1 on it. She wanted to buy it for me cos she said : u are my no 1 student! haha... i rejected it . Expensive la.

We went peninsular plaza and fu nan. She said i am a " mountain turtle " . hhaa.. Enjoyed her company =) As usual we crapped a lot... she left for her appointment at ard 12. I told her not to let Kor Kor hold the bag with the plaque in case he lost it. HAHa.. i reminded her over nd over again.

She asked me a few personal ques . HEhe.. She gave me advices . I love to heed her advices. SHe is really the superest teacher. =) SHe told me abt some personal things too.. Will sms her tmr b4 she fly off again.


Went out with WAN XIn .. hehe.. Funny gal la.. We kept laughing as usual... We saw a lot of couples etc... So pai seh la.. next time must hide at home. LOlx..

Tired... met up with JW too. Its good to talk ba.. =)

MEeting ms fong tmr ! 10am... So have to take leave lor. Bo bian! Big shot sia.... But i din tell her that i took leave la. =)

Told her i cant sleep and eat Lor.. Everyday countdown.. v scary! hav enough of it liao. SO i told her i wanna pass her smthG! Yep... Be honest beta.. DUn wanna play liao! hAha.. Meet for breakfast..

Gg out tmr.. HEE... V day ma.. Enjoy everyone!

YAWN!

TIRed... thing will be over sooN! =)

hmmm... got a V day presenT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... Chocolate. Thankz JW =)

I called ms fong! Guess who answered?????????????? HEr MUM!!!!!!!!!!!! i was a bit pai seh. This is what i said " can i speak to ms fong pls?" her replied was : " huh? ms fong???? " Then i said mayee... " OHHHH , she never take the hp! i give u her hubby nos? " ... that was what she said. Of course i rejected it. I din want to have kor kor nos. I mean its ppl privacy =) .

After the call i decided to give her the gift on teh 15th., I was v happy after that cos i left with one choice. I dun like to call her . I find myself irritating! haha ...

Ard 3 plus / 4 plus i gt a call! haha.. its nt a familiar nos. " HELLO LI WAN !" Yep.. its ms fong! I apologised etc. She told me tt she dun understand why i said. she told its okay! she continued to say n say .. i din have a chance to say anythinG! haha.. she told me her hubby phone low batt so cannot talk. SHe will call me tonite. =) ( i never have confidence in her ) haha.. K la.. Will wait lor. Actually my main purpose is nt to get the red packet! i wanna to give her the gifT!

Tired le... I guess i will sleep late again. =(

Hmmmmm......

need to start work tmr le =(((((((((((((((((((((((((( why am i like so sad! haha

Hopefully can have a long lunch break. Wanna play cards! =P . Dun wanna be so chiong anymore... No point to always be the super-est cos not a lot of people know how to appreciate it.

Learning to let go. Will give another try tmr. God all i want is to ............................................ can i ?

I just realised that A level results coming out soon le =( . Dont know what to expect. Gp pls pass! =( . I wanna a good and decent grade

YES, TEACHERS are just TEACHERS. Thank!

A part of me was dying, there is nothing left i can do , but to give iN!

Talked to betsy yesterday nite. I guess i just need a heart to heart talk with an adult ba. I need guidance etc. Its time to let go and move on. I know its damn tough, but i am sure i can.

gg out later . Hope i enjoy! last day le.. =(

FeelINg v down =(

it din go v smoothly today..

I decided le.. will try a few more days. If still cant , i will give up. 2 of us have to move ON de. =)

I am tired. I din cry. Tears din flow out .. Is it because i do not have any more tears?? or i am actually crying in my heart? V painful.. =(

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din really sleep well the whole night! probably cos today is chu san le! I am scared. Dont have the courage =(

Gg to my dear's house? I nt sure.. haix.. I guess i dont feel like doing so le.

What happened to me lately? v EMO.. Tired le...

God , i pray that things will be fine. I pray for the courage and the intelligence. I pray that you can always guide me wherever i am ! thankz yOU!

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM ... here's all the pics... hehe.. Took alot. YES, i cried yesterday nite cos i was v down. Hope things will be alrite tmr. I prayed again and again...

LASTLY, FAMILY PIC =) Hope things will beta this year for us! YEA =)

DONE.. ACtually still gt a lot.. But i guess nvm... hmm... God, i really pray that things will be fine tmr. I wanna be a happy girl... =)

I wanna a heart to heart talk!

Tmr is the day. Hope u dun break it!

God, i prayed. I am praying nw, I will still pray later.

Sometimes i just gt too tired of it.

Having a bad headache... Hope things will be fine later =)

Must try to be MEI MEI too.. Thinking of what to wear really makes me headache.

I am feeling v sad... i dun noe why ! Whenever ppl talk abt u , i cant stop my tears from flowing down my cheek..

PLs give me free time slot!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR... =)

YEA.. wake up at ard 10 today. HAHA... BAThe then MAKE UP. haha.. dun noe. My maid helped me with the make up. I am nt so good at that . Will try to learn.

Went to my AH MA's HOUSE. HHEE.. I gave my AH MA a big Ang PAO. haha.. NO la.. Nt big. Just $20 cos i work le. I love my ah ma. will give her more next time. HAHA.. But she asked me why i give her when i am nt even married. HAHA.. But i am happy to give her $$$$$$

Took only like 2 pics la. Cos smthg happened which spoilt our mood. =(

counted my ang pao. Ard one week pay nia. SIAN. Gg to target ms fong liao.. haha ..

Hmmmm........ God, i pray that things will go on smoothly. I am just as nervous as i was in the airport. I am scared. Really v scared. PLS!

Hmmm.. putting mask on my face. I like this brand of my mask. COOL!

gg to ask my maid to paint my nails of my toes.. YEa... MEI MEI.. I scared i cant fit into my cny clothing. SOB SOB...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO everyone. I want my red packets =)

sO tired..

I prayed.. I really prayed v hard. WIll things be fine??? waiting for chu san .. haiz...

HMMM... gt scolded by my mum cos of my toP! she said too low.. But still i dun care.. I like it =)

Gt back from work. V happY! had a nice time during lunch. First time Louis join us LOR.. haha... talked a lot. In fact he is a v nice guy ! Clap****

Really pray v hard that things will be fine. I wanna meet u soon.. =(

Gg for reunion dinner. =)

Goonna edit this pOST cos i 4get smthg! haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS FONG ! haha.. ALways 14. MAnaged to reach her today. I called and say : MAY I SPEAK TO MS FONG PLS! gt scolded by her... YES I AM! u cant recognise my voice. HAHA.. funnY! okay la.. talked for a while cos she was outside... I told her i will called her again to get red packets... But all i want is to pass her the presnt! ARGH! i really hope that i can pass her the present!

Hmmm......... YES finally i went for manicure.. HEHE.. simple one.. HappY! DEAR i LOVE U !

no money liao!

tired....

Quote of the day:
Put your fears and your past behind you and become lovable by being loving. Learn to trust by trusting yourself.

FeeLing quite down.. Was happy to see u but no courage to say HI.

Tired.. Hope what i did was rightt

HAPPY ! one more day to gO. i Am scared! But stILL hoping for the best ...

feeling quite upset just nw. ArgH! but okay le
sort out my thoughts ... Let 's nature take its course.. Everyone will be given their freedom of choice. Just hope for the best ! meanwhile just work hard and study hard!

I pray that things will be fine for me. Hope to get into the uNI that i like. HAIX.

MONDAY blues?? definitely! NO MONEY LIAO! HAIZ....

Talked to my dear just nw. GG manicure TMR. TUES! hope things willl be fine. HAIx.i cannot wait to do leh! SAD... I hope she can go shanghai with me la..Can have fun MA

I LOVE WANDERFONG A LOt..

Hugging it nw

I only realise that My bear's name sound a bit wrong. Mdm Koh did mention abt it . HAH.. But i thought she was just teasing the 2 of us.

Then yesterday my cousin also said a bit wrong. It is Like WAN DE FONG!. Lolx.. nvm..

But as long as we were happy in the prcoss of creating this bear can le... YEP!

HMmmmmm..............

Went CLUB yesterday!! FIRST TIME... I drank four cups ! FIRST TIME drinking outside. Actually i find it v relaxing to stay in pub and club! haha... I drank 3 cups of liquor and 1 cup of BEER. I AM okay with the taste though some are really bitter. I enjoyEd actually. We left ealy cos my cousiin cannot stay out late.. BLEH! hahaha...

B4 that we went shopping.. shop for nthG! We went to eat too.. I AM BROKE already! TIred... My one week pay just fly away like that. But i guess it is worthwhile. I love my cousinSSSSSS .. SO SHiok! hehe...

Feeling slightly beta.. Gt a bit hangover. My head splitting into half. HHAHA..

Drinking somehw brighten up my day..

hope to go there more often

din slp well the whole night.. NOw only 8 plus.. Cant slp le.. BUt its okAY! Gg out later ! Will be v excited hehe... So i guess that might be one of the causes!

Start to listen to fast but sweet music. HEHE.. BLEH! Everything also has to learnt DE ! My super-est teacher Fav quote! hehe

Feeling SUPEr DOWN.. was talking to my fren just nw.

YEs, i made a wish which will never happen for my BD. But it is okay cos i always respect ur decision.

Hmmm.... i would say i am feeling better . Surprisingly i din fall asleep in office today though i din slp well the whole night. I wake up at ard cos i just cant slp.

SO I AM GG OUT TMR.. It will be sO fun But i will be broke too. HAIX. No money ...

Called ai ai this afternoon to thankz her. I AM really fine. Probably a bit mood swing. Will go look for her tmr. Tired..

i felt so trapped by everything.. I want to be alone...

4 more days to GO.. cant wait ...

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan