Worked till 4.30 today. HEHE.. managed to clear only half of louis work. I will jia you from Wed then. Probably will have OT cos sure cannot complete de.

A lot of things to do. =)

I doubt u have view it yet. What a disappointment. I am V sad. CAn u feel it? Gonna drink tonight again. I Want to be drunk =(

Buying my ring soon. My mum doesnt wanna get me new pair of ear rings. =( haix. We shall see what she has. She insisted that she has good ones. HUMP!

I started to think twice b4 i buy things for MYSELF. And why for MYSElf only?? ARGH!

my 700th post

Just came back from malaysia. SIANZ.. din get to buy anything for any of my teachers / frens. feel quite upset abt it.


YEa, will be wearing a ring sooN. HHA.. Not diamond but silver. It iS A MUST To have that ring on my hand. I love rings too =) Mayb i can get my dad and mum to buy me a ring and one pair of ear rings.? can???

I missed singapore when i was in malaysia. I miss the toilet. I cant imagine how dirty it is. I am freaked out. Hate the toilets but i love to shop over there. Felt a bit richer over there. HAHA . I bought a long wallet for myself. hehe.. gg to get a small pouch in spore ba. See how. I am getting more and more stingy

SOmetimes i really dun noe how to explain my feelings. =( The thought of you makes me wanna cry.

Drinking Vodka.. Green apple.. V nice.. haha...

I wanna to be drank and free from worries.

I think my heart has stopped beating for you . I guess i was too tired. Let me hibernate for a while. BUT i will never give up. I will just wait for you again. Mayb next week?

Feel like screaming again.

HAix.. V upset ! talked to ms fong just nw. Gave her teh webby yet she cant go in cos of the internet connection. WHY???????????????????????????????? I spent like so many days and nites doing the webby. God , i pray that this time she really can go into the webby. I gave her another link which my sister gave me.

I really v upset. Does anyone noe how i feel? i hate it .

I am very tired. V tired. Super-est tired...

More work next week , i wonder how i am gg to complete them. Louis will nt be ard the whole week. So i need to cover his part too. V sad =(

Life is like hell now. I prefer to study????????????????????

How am i suppose to give u ??? ARGH! Pissed me off. I hate myself.

Time of the month... Tired.. AHHA.. I am nt pregnant! lolx.. I really thank the higher authority. He looked after me the whole day. heng ya, the real pain only come after i knocked off. Thankz...

Got extra $200 from my dad. =P

TAlked to ms Yang when i was in office. I was so happy! I wished her happy birthday , i told her i will treat her makan soon. I Miss u her a lot a lot. =( Ms yang , hope u like the little gift. Hope that you are doing well. I wished that you are always HAPPY!

What shld i do? How can i talk to u ??? did i make the wrong choice?? Must i let go?? i Am tired.

thought of new things to add in my blog.. But where??? haix..

Sometimes ur SORRY just pissed me off. I dun noe how to love u anymore...

kind of tired..

First day of work , it was quite bored initially but after that Anne approached me and said that i need to cover other ppl work, i feel more driven . HAHA.. weird? Dun noe.. I guess i am just trying to find my importance in the company . haha..

Wake up v early and took the train. After today , i realised that SINGAPOREANs are nt considerate at all. Well, i must credit those who spare a thought for others. Some were terrible. They just push and squeeze like they are some Big shots! I hate it sia.

FInd the air in my dept quite stale. Aha.. Dun noe... Boring lor.. Knew a lot of new frens. HAha... But i cant rmb their names. +(

i miss u.. i miss u .. i miss u .. i wanna talk to u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. HOW? shld i ??????????? Okay.. I wait , just for today! =( I guess i really rely on u Too much.. =(

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hOT! just finished washing car. Trying hard to be the super-est daughter and meanwhile can pick up skills on my way to be super-est wife which is still v v long. HAHA..

I had a lot of thoughts when i was washing the cars. Hmmm.. shlD i let go? dun noe cos i find that it is really v tough. How to forget ???? I dun noe. Had a dream last night.. A v sweet one.. had a lot of fun in the dream...

I think i am pregnant too.. haha... ARGGH! Delayed! =)

hope to talk to u soon..

Hmmmm....... tmr is christmas! Tmr is MS YAng BD too.. Hope everything is fine 4 her.. I miss her a lot.. haah.. hope to see her soon. MS yang, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. HOPE U LIKE THE PRESENT WHICH I BOUGHT FOR YOU!

Gg to edit my new webby! =( hope can do till 12am. haha

so happY! tmr is the day. I longed to treat my grandma's lunch/dinner. Bringing her out with my fam to restuarant . i will be the one paying for the lunch. god, i pray that there are many more such family day. I prayed that my grandma can always stay healthy. Hope to have a great day tmr. After tmr, no more fun le! I mean more of serious work.

what shld i do? when do i give?? arGH!

None of it seems to matter anymore...............................

Very tired. Wake up quite early to help my mum till now. I really wonder how tired i will be when i start to work. Have to wake up v early everyday .. ard 6.45 am

Tmr is my grandma's BD. I bought her a cake. Hope she likes it. =) cost ard $42 . Will tell her that i used my first pay to buy her cake.

Give me a break. I am v tired... Wanna go shoppinG! I wanna shop for more clothes! i wanna shop for shoes too. Hehe.. =)

Time of the month?? argh , Why cant it happen NW or earlier! pissed.

Saw ur nick today. What can i say? Does it make a difference? I dont know. I respect ur decision. I will give u my fillest support as long as u are happY! =)

Went to OG and this fashion to buy office wear. Spend quite a lot of $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ but nt my money la. hHA.. nvm la. Tired.... i Am gg to lose weigH!

Hmmm... Hmmmm...

pimples appeared ON my face again n again.. WHy is my face so sensitive?

Perhaps i am really not a good daughter. I cant do household chores and share their burden. I dont know where to start because i am not given a chance? because i also how to start . I dun have a will to start & even if i had the will to do so, will it least? i really wonder.. I am tired..

God, can i break away from home?but again, will i bear to leave? i really wonder.

What shld i add in the webby?

Tired... was v busy till now.. v tired , really want to sleep... But i cant! =(

quite angry with my mum, why cant we bring my grandma along??? haix.. sometimes i am really v tired of this home. Think of gg to somewhere else to take a break.. I wanna break away from the HOME which is no longer warmth!

It is hard to be the super-est

Wake up ard 8 today. Sigh.. have to wake up v early .. 26 dec onward is Worst ! probably like 6.45? ha.. Sound like gg to sch? no la, gg to work le.. I wonder if i can take it a not. I am really v tired. I am really not used to it. =(

Tmr is holiday! i realli look forward to it sia. It is like my offday. GG buy new yr clothes and office wear. YEa, can mei mei already! haha

Talk to ms fong in the afternoon.. Hmm.. quite surprise that she initated the conversation. she asked abt my job searching. HA.. i told her i gt the job already as a bank officer.. HAh.. she said its cool! haa.. . Asked her abt her plan and everything . V happy that she is happy over there.

Told her abt the gift. Supposed to be a surprise but since i am gg to start work soon may nt able to talk to her so often , so i have to tell her just in case... Will try to find better ones. Nt easy to do. V tiring !

feeling v tired nw. Want to slp but cannot cos i need to help in teh shop.. tired.. v tired...

i got a job le. Bank officer! sound cool? lolx.......

Still feel very down over the internship n relief teaching etc... Perhaps i shldnt be so stubborn. Working for city bank! Actually, i dun noe.. Mayb no fate ba

I am quite worried that i cant send u the msg sia! i hope to really talk to u soon... Let nature take it course.. =( Will still email to let u noe the webby!

So what if i have the passion & drive>? so what if i really want to take up the challenges? what they look out for are the ones who have straight As ... Somehow this really kills of my passion / interest for teaching. SHld i continue to carry hope? or mayb i shld say false hope. This reminds me of my testimonial, it is stated that " her consistency, dillgence and perseverance were exemplary. She had a NEVER SAY DIE attitude.... " is it true then??? I am tired.. v tired...

God, havent i done enough? am i wrong to pursue what i want?

is time to go for facial =)



Shld i go RSS tmr? i scared rejection. haix.. I shld give a try?



After tmr , i will go find a decent job. Hope it isnt too late. =)



Liwan, jia yoU! where is ur fighting spirit????????????

GLINDA :I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let themAnd we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:
Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sunLike a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew youI have been changed for good

ELPHABA:
It well may be
That we will never meet againIn this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with meLike a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:

GLINDA: Because I knew you:
BOTH I have been changed for good
ELPHABA : And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for
GLINDA: But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share
BOTH: And none of it seems to matter anymore
GLINDA ELPHABA: Like a comet pulled Like a ship blown
From orbit as it Off it's mooring
Passes a sun, like
By a wind off the
A stream that meets Sea, like a seedA boulder, half-way
Dropped by a Through the wood
Bird in the wood

BOTH: Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?
GLINDA: And because I knew you:

ELPHABA : Because I knew you :BOTH : Because I knew you:I have been changed for good.

( its a beautiful song. I just describe how i really feel)

God, bless me and guide me thru my life....

Dun u ever wish to be someone else, u were meant to be exactly what u are......................

i am tired. how? dun noe.. Gg RSS on MOn. hope there is good news... =(

Tired.. Whole body aching like mad...

tired... tired..............

hope to find a job soon...

HAd another nightmare.. I teared in the dream. Guess what i dreamt of again?? My A level result. I cant go to uni. I Am definitely very sad. I guess after receiving the letter from the MOE, i was v depressed & in the end i have such a nightmare. I am tired.

i.miss.you.

Went out the whole day. MEt my dear at tamp sport complex to play badminton. I guess we need to train our stamina liao. If we are playing again next time, i will play for one hr. HAH.. Rite ??
After that we went kallang lesiure park. SIANZ! Nt all opened yet.We went to eat at the food court. After that we walked a while b4 gg to snow ice? haha.. Super nice ya, but a bit ex! i tried the strawberry and my dear ate the mango one.
After that we headed to marina square... We kept walking and walking ....Hear come the bad news.

i did nt make it for the internship. I guess my results really suckz. I hate myself. WHY?? GOD have i done wrong? God, can u sense that i really love teaching?

Shld i give up? Tired. i am just a loser. Tired. I need ur loving hands to come n pick me up. Where are u?

I am tired.. nt physically but mentally. Becos of? friendship & work. YEs, i am very upset that i haven received the letter from MOE. Am i too impatient? it is v irritating. The person-in-charge said that i shld expect to receive by next week . I am scared. What happens if i din receive? does it mean that i shldnt carry any hope? I Am tired.

Time of the month? soon... is that the reason why i am so hot-tempered? is that the reason why i am so listless/tired.

It is so hard to be the super-est. Who cares if u are the super-es? i miss u ... Hope to see u soon.

Went for my dad's customer's daughter dinner.. haa.. so long.. Hmm. its at safra. The food was v nice. Our table only have 6 people. We were very full. My dad asked me a question. " when ur turn?" . I laughed .. we were on the way out of the restuarant. LOLX. We pass thru the red carpet , and i said.." it will be like that ! " haha ...

To me, i think marriage is wonderful. Hhaa.. In my mind, there is a wonderful pic of marriage. Just like i think that teaching is wonderful too. I just cant describe my passion. I hate it !

I really wonder when the MOE will send me a letter. I really need help. SHd i give up?
someone give me advices pls? Will wait for ms fong to come back from bejing to shang hai then ask her. See how.

gg out tmr. dun noe.. not in the mood

gt a sms from Mr Ang. He wants me to go for his church event. But i rejected it since i may be gg to my fren ones. I find it quite weird to go too.. HAHA

smile

test

Hmmm.. New blog.. ha.. its pink..

Wanderfong! yea..

feeling much better after i managed to contact the MOE.

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

some times, i really feel like running away from home... =(

Finally! I got some news about the internship. I am very happy! i hope i really can get it. I din carry a lot of hope since my O level and prelim results were very bad. I am scared. I really still hope that i can get the internship. If i cant get the internship, i will try the relief teaching. AND finally i got the approval le. I am waiting for the letter. if i cant get the internship, i will just have to go down to RSS to see if i can relief over there. That's my "golden" plan. Anyone would like to give me so advices. =(

Feeling quite upset? Am i really a good fren? i doubt so. I always give in to those fren i really love. As long as they are happy, i am really v contented. Is that really sufficient? can one give me the answer? I am tired. I just cant handle relationship. =(

God, i pray that things will be fine for me. i pray that i can get the internship. i promise to be a good teacher next time. God i hope u can enlighten me too.

v busy today...

called MOE, but they dun noe abt the internship. Tell them GO n DIE ba.. SADDED. haiz..

Just email ms pan abt the internship, hope she can get back to me.

Talked to VAl today. HA.. She looked v young. Ha.. she has her own troubles too. She dun really encourage me to teach. She told me to consider properly. I Will see how ba.. SO far nt a lot of ppl encourage me to do so. =(

sometimes i find that i m kind of "good for nthg".

Tired with life sia. I thought things would be better after A level. It seems like it has gotten worse.

I guess i miss out a lot of things for the past 2 years. I miss oUT a lot a lot. is it worthwhile then? i really have no idea.

God, pls enlighten me.

Hmmm.... Not in the mood. SUpEr pissed. I dont enjoy myself when i am working at the shop.
I HATE! REALLY HATE.

I will start looking for a job outside after I called MOE. Probably after next week. Yupz.

Tired..

finished watching " just love" . it is a nice show. HAving a 24/7 husband is not a bad thing too. HAha... He is just wonderful! PERFECT?

collected my passport. HAppY! hhaa..

Gg to continue with my new webby? i wonder if the things i wrote is good enough! i scared i write wrongly! i find myself quite mean too.. haha.. =(

Tired.. V tired...

Just finished writing the draft for my the new blog/webby that i have created. Super Tired.

need to wake up early tmr. Have to work. Gg ICA tmr too.. collect passport. cant wait to take a break !

HAIX..

i just rejected a job from the income tax company. I dun noe why i so SIAO. I am still waiting for MOE to call me. WHy so Long! sob sob...

AM i stubborn? i dun noe. Help me.

Hmmm.. was talking to ms fong just now. raining at shanghai too.

Tired ya.. There were a lot of people in the shop this morning. Ha. I learnt a lot of new things. Anyway, from the way they teach me sound like they are gg to hand over sia. HA.. But i am nt interested cos i want to be a teacher. That is my dream! I know the business is profitable and earn more than a teacher BUT it just din attract me. HA.

HAd a weird dream. I dreamt abt A level results again. I din manage to see my results. That's weird. I wont spend time intepreting the dream liao. I mean... HAix.

Still thinking what to put in the new blog. Still Thinking of the things to write. =(

rain the whole day ! i was right. Dec 5th ! i guess this describe how i feel, isnt it?
ms fong, i am rite!

work teh whole day ! quite fun ya. Actually i shld help my mum cos there are many people ! but i hope to earn my own $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ soon.

Hmm.. still waiting for MOE to call. HAix

Actually i dun really feel like blogging cos of the pics of the prvious posts BUT still.. cant control.

went out the whole day.

I hope i din make the wrong decision.... have i regretted ? I am uncertain.

yes, the day is approaching nearer! It made me speechless . I am tired.

Sigh... V upset ya.. still cant post WanderFong's pic

nt well..

Hope to post all the pics later

Hmmm.. i am still using my sis laptop

i really wonder when my cOm will be ready for use. Haix.. i cant wait to post my WANDERFONG's pic and of course the scarf.

Went to highlight my hair this afternoon. Din dye .. din straighten. Dun have the gut to do so. Cos it may be irreversible.

Hmm... tired. May have interview tmr.. Hope MOE will notify me soon. HAix. sadded..

feel like sleeping.. gg for dinner soon. tata

Wake up v early today. Guess what did i do??? YES, I WASHED THE CAR. So many people watching me. Life w/o a maid is like a torture. Sad....

tired.. waiting for my com to be repaired cos i wanna post my WANDERFONG's pic. I also wanna to post the pic of my scarf. yupz

Gg to selene's house on Tues. Hmmm.. making a webby. Hmm.. i scared my bear dirty leh/.. haix.. sadded..

WANDERFONG!!!!!!!!!! MISSING U ...

hmmm... been quite some time since i have blogged. Hmm.. went out quite frequently. Trying hard to find a job. Tried teaching internship. hope will get it lor...

went out with betsy to cycle today. Okay.. quite fun... but my butt really hurts. Talked a lot. quite fun. We went coffee bean to eat =)

I am really nt feeling well. Having a bad sore throat =(

Hmmm.. went out with ms fong on the 28th nov. WE WENT TO BUILD A BEAR. It is V costly. I super pai seh. ard $80 plus. It has a name. It is called WANDERFONG.. I guess U guyz shld know how this name is created. MS fong creates de. HAHA.. We had a hard time sia. I just realised that my bear is nt a happy bear. She doesnt look happy to me. She looks like me?? or is it cos she knew that ms fong is leaving soon? haix. I treated her swensen, the food there really suckz. SIGh...

Will write a longer post when my COMs are repaired. Gonna post a pic of WANDERFONG when my com is really. YEA! happy .. Will talk more abt it =)

MS fong , take care alrite? See u during chi new year? will bring WANDERFONG to collect ang pao. hahah.....

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan