Tired... Dozing off.....

Hmm.. reached home late.. Lessons were alrite.. KELvin, Bleh.. always so chicky.. Play n play.. Bleh... but is fun to have u in class... ha....

getting fatter n fatter.. eating non-stop.. haix.. not gonna care... bleh...

Edited my video today. it is roughly 20 mins. hehe... by the way i found a new song... HA... recommended by Kah soon n jane.. Thankz sia... It is a beautiful song. It is a sad one!!!!! I will put that in my video. ha.. It will be at the last part of my video. That kind of feeling is overwhelming.. haha... Need to be done by next week? hope so... a lot of test coming up.. I will just try my best... God please grant me the wisdom n intelligence. I need discipline too.. YAWN.. Too tired... = )

Studying econ.. Cant rmb a single point.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha...

Hmm.. no consultation n remedials.. probably can go hme early.,. Yea.. thankz GOD..

Be the super-est!

I LOVE MY DADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE MY DADDY!!!!!!!! NO MATTER WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO THIS FAMILY, U ARE ALWAYS MY DADDY!!!!!!!!! DADDY, i love u. I dun have the courage to say that.. I guess most people dont have the courage to say so...

My dad fetched me from my tuition. He bought me KFC. Hehe.. He also bought me the bisccuits i wanted yesterday. Yupz.. Thankz. I am touched. Dad, u have ur temper, ur character. But i learn to love u and accept you. I learn to let go. The greatest happiness in life is to love n be loved. I know u love me a lot. The only thing i can do is to keep praying for u to change for the better?? God, i pray that my dad noes what he is doing. He can be v nice dad =) God, i pray that u can continue to guide him and grant him with wisdom n intelligence. God, teach me to love everyone ard us. Allow me to spread my love ard . I wanna care n love the people ard me. God i pray that my love would be well received by people. Thankz GOD!!!!!!

Chem tuition was alrite. Inorganic chem was rather disgusting.. haha.. But have to Jia you lor.. HAix.. So what am i going to do tonite? i am nt sure.. mayb maths? ?/ complex.. haix.. Stressed up.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!

Just wanna be the super-est!!!! yUpz.... =)

HMmmm.. Tired...

Just came back from sch. PHEW chem lesson was alrite..... Clear everything le. YEA!!!!! doing group VII next week.. AHHHHHHHH.. need to come up with the summary soon. Need to study for test too.. Argh! Maths n econ. HAix.. Dun noe what to do. It looks like a sure fail kind of thing.. HAix. But hope to pass all.

Gave ms fong the kitkat. 'have a kitkat, have a break " . But i was kind of sad when i noe she actually 4gets to bring out of the class till yue ting told her that she left it in class. SigH! sob sob.. nvm.. I am used to it... i never blame her , cos her head cant move. HA.. She said cos she need to do a lot of work , she need think of me.. etc.. All her crap... But i told her tt thinking of me would be the last reason. HA.. We just crapped b4 consultation started.. manage to clear all the doubts. Yupz... Left Mjc , vjc , Rjc p2,3.. Most likely i would be able by next week? or national day week? haha..

V tired.. feel like sleeping.. SO many thingy to do. *yawn*.. Gg to bathe then hav my dinner.. having chem tuition later.. Sianz..

BE the SUPER-esT!!!!!!!!

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Spent an hour plus preparing tmr lesson. Trying hard to find an ans to GW's ques. At last!!!!!! i found an ans . Hmm.. After flipping all the textbooks, and surfing the net, i finally found the answer. I hope it can help =) ms fong, i tried my best liao....

Tried doing maths just nw. ARGH!!!!!! Will continue tmr. Sianz.. Nt gg to do econ. Dun noe what to do leh!!! just smoke la.. haha... I guess will find some time to do.. haha... BLEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUPER-est!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tired...

Wake up at 5.30 today!!!!! I thought today is MON. I sat on my bed n started to think what lessons i will be having. Then i started to tell myself " I must jia you.... then i started thinking of chemistry n recalling what i am suppose to teach"... I stood up and went toliet. Guess what?????? I realised that today is SUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess i am too stressed... ARGH!!!!!!!

Hmmm....... Went for physics lesson. SO SIANZ.. ha da v bad headache ... Then after that gt MATHS.. HEHE... Finally understand Integration. YUPZ.. Look simpler.. have to redo eVerythinG!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i must do well... I need to learn all the trigo formula.... Sob sob.. MS yang, help me leh!!!!!!!!!!!! Learnt linear regression. EASY EASY .. haha.. I WAN TO DO WELl... Went to night market with ms yang.. Ha.. she is a gd mother ... Ha.. We talked a lot... Yupz.. had a lot of fun =) .. thankz ms yang!!!!! I LOVE U ... NEed to chiong all my corrections by tMR... need to do chem! yUpz.. Liwan u can de k?????

SLeepy!! Oink Oink.. i wan a MP3.. My mum is giving me $150 to buy a mp3 n if i exceed this amt, i will use my own allowance.. Bankrupt! Thought of saving $600 this mnth.. But i guess its difficulT!!!!!!!!!!!!.. ha....

Having consulation tmr.. CHEm.. Hopefully she can make it lor.. God bless me with intellgence n wisdom.. SOb sob...

BE the super-est!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmm....

Went to look for AI AI today. Yupz.. Studied there. Hmmmm... i did integration ! Haix... it was a disappointment. i didnt noe hw to do. I was quite upset! Ai ai said ' dun noe just skip" ha.. her fav phrase. After that i tried complex. having some problems!!! Sob sob.... I think i only noe hw to do simple ques. MS YANG!!!!!!!!!! I need ur help!!!!!! sob... After that I tried linear correlation. Yupz, i somehow get the hang of it. i guess after ms yang finish gg thru this chap i will be fine. YUPZ!!!!!!! Fearless... So nw i need to drill on my complex n application of integration ( find the vol) yupz... After that i started doing CHEM. I started to write down all those stupid mistakes which i made last FRI. SO i am gg to clear all their doubts on MON. Sorry novita, u need to wait a while. Yupz...Then i went on to do kinetics ( revision lecture n remedial ) haix.. My kinetics suckz... Somebody pls help me... I am gg crazy!!!!!!!!!!!

Yupz, that's all i do. Hmm, okay la, had a lot of fun with ai ai!!!!! Asked her a lot of ques... Hmm, we said a lot of things.... Fun ba.. can study there... Not so bored....

Hmm.. Guess what... so far gt 5 people said that i am happier LE! YAY... Yupz.. Ms fong, mdm koh, Mdm lim, Mr Ng n ai ai... Yupz.. learn to let go. But the process is tough!!!! U have to do n say things which might be hurting urself at first.... But i guess i am numb le.. Shall be the happiest woman...

Gonna study ECON today. YAYAYAYAY.. Jia you liwan... haix.. Physics tuition tmr.. sianz.. I am dead... sobbbb....

OH ya.. almost 4get.. I wanna but a MP3.. YEA.. my mum gave me the green light to do so.. HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BE the super-est!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAH...

can u tell how i feel? can u tell wat i am thinking? .. nah.. u cant......
The wound is still there... The unhappiness is still there...I just took the pain killer to make sure my brain wont signal it to me.. YUPz... ha... AI AI , i am gd at applying what u said.. ha

HAIXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Today was kind of spoilt!!!!!!!!

Chem lesson was horrible. Gt a new student called " Fong May Ee " I was trying to complete Grp 2 summary but met with a lot of problem. Haix, i was stumbled. I mean i prepared very hard for the lesson BUT i am nt very v confident cos ultimately i am nt trained to teach. NO one taught me grp 2! i was supposed to read the notes. It is tough la. SO after class, ms fong told me that i must be more confident and firm. ANd started nagging... Haix... I kept v quiet. I was in very low spirit the rest of the day. I am nt up to it!!!!!!!! That's all i can say. I made a lot of mistake during the lesson. SO i have to redo one part on thermal stability on MON. Hope i will be fine. Thankz Kah soon... for helping me.......

doing SRJC paper ... My electrochem n kinetics cant make it!!!!!!!!!!! sob sob ........ Luckily paper 2 is alrite.. hopefully paper 1 also... YUP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dun feel like doing.. Doing integration & force ... maybe Doing complex ba... tired... Preparing lesson tmr ba.. feel like dying nw.. =(

SUPEr-est

Phew.. finished RJC paper 1... hehe... 13/20. Aziz said it is nt bad le!!!! Okay la.. I mean i din expect a lot from it. I think i did beta than u ? But dun be disheartened k? can de? elitist!!!!! ha.. I am quite happy with my ionic equilibrium.. ha.. kinetics is my problem. I also need help for electrochem. HAix... =( i am sad. Who can help me???? AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Hmmm.. let me see, need to do physics nw. HA.. have to work very hard tmr. I wonder if there is remedial tmr for Gp? Haix..

Doing SRJC paper 3. I will try to do a lot of things..... sigh......... Hmm.. nt gg out on sat le.. Nt disappointed at all. feeling weird.. tired.. nvm.. gg out on sun for dinner..

Jia you liwan... !!!!!!!!!! another long day!!!!!!!!!

SUPEr-esT!!!!!

Hmmm.. Tired....

Guess what ? i walked with kah soon this morning.. HA.. funny... He walked v fast. I was panting like mad.. Ha.. K la. we have a great time talking n laughinG!!!!! bleh!!!!!!

Thurs is always my long day. Had PE... Ran 7 rds ??? actually i wasnt sure. Haix.. But i noe i was definitlely nt well.

GP's lesson was................... Haix.. I guess i was just too tired...

Helped Ben Just nw. I felt a bit bad ya. I tHink i was quite fierce. Ha.. I mean strict! din allow him to look at his notes force him to think!!!!! ha .. No choice....

have to continue with grp 2 tmr. hope tmr lesson will be fine.

Doing WORK LATER.. GOnna go bathe...

SUPEr-est!!!

Hmmmm... feeling happy nw!!!!!!! at least?? ha.. finished SRJC chem paper.. Another easy paper. But i would say that their paper is slightly tougher than TPJC. BUT I managed To kill the paper... YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Happy....

I called tina just nw. Hey, sorry to always disturb u ... Yupz, i love u ! hmm, you jia you! do well for prelim =) . Yupz, i told her that the greatest happiness in life is to love and be loved. Ha.. happy!!!!!!!!!! I think that kind of feeling is great. i cant explain to people that kind of feeling. ha... But it will simply make one happy!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( as for nw, i a bit PMS) ,.. ha.. dun noe.. Bleh...
TIna, dun hesitate to give me a call if u really need help. I mean we will make it together de k? i mean that is what frens are for? clearing hurdles together??? Jia yoU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


So still gonna study??? Yupz.. hav to ya? Physics??? will Try.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *YAWN*...
Doing RJC chem paper 1 tmr?... Studying forces tmr.. Be a mugger!!!!!!!!!! YEA!!!!!!!!! all the way , liwan can de.... =)

BE the super-est!!!!!!!!!

Not feeling well.. very heaty.. haix...

Feel quite down after chem consultation. I was very stressed cos ms fong was nt in a v Good mood...

Tired....... v tired.............. A lot of things to do. Give me a break.. haiz...


ending my blog with :

There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.

As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.

The deepest craving of human nature is the need to be appreciated.

I am nt sure of my own feelings...

I insisted that i am HAPPY but am i ???????

Called yi ling just now. Feeling kind of low. But i am fine. Dun worry

Hmmm.... I AM A HAPPY GAL!!!!!!!!!! I dun noe why? i was in v gd mood when i was in sch. When i am nt alone. When i was with yue ting n the rest . I was laughing most of the time. I guess my electrons a bit tired need to jump down and absorb more energy!!!!!!!!! GD reason rite?? YEA.....

FInished CHEm HW. I cant do MAths HW.. HAIX.... Sianz... DOING SRJC PAPER TMR.. YAY!!!!!!!!! I need to reSchedule my revision for economics since i am gg out on FRI.. while i guess i will chiong on FRi ba... Not sure.. See first... Tired.... need a rest....

TMR SHALL BE A HAPPY DAY ALRITE???????????

I wanna be The super-est !!!!!!!!!!!! YA.... super-est!!!!!!!!!!!

EXCITING SIA + SCARY SIA + NERVOUS SIA....

taugt the class grp 2 today. haven completed.

I was given 30 mins cos b4 that was chem Prac and electro chem. I was super scared. My hands were cold. I was super nervous initially but after like 10 minutes i tried to calm myself down. PHEW!!!!!!!!! Guess what this was time i felt so HAPPY WHEN I HEARD THE BEll ring!!!!!! i quickly let them off... Phew................... Heng sia. I was quite stressed up. After the lesson, ms fong approached me and said that i am doing a lecture rather than summary!! sOB SoB.. But overall was alrite. Give me more time. Gonna continue the rest on fri.. After that Yue Ting , novita and amelia will take over... I just realised smthg, PRESENTATION is nt = to TEACHING!!!!!!!!!! I told ms fong that initially her teachers' day present was probably the size of a file but i think after this project I shall get smthg super-est BIG For her on teachers' day... I am just a CRAPPER...It is a gd experience ya, I mean i had a lot of fun along the way. Hmm thankz God for giving such an opportunity!!!!!!!! I was brain dead after the lesson. It is nt easy to teach at all. STudents out there do appreciate what ur teachers have done for u !!!!!!

Went to night market with Yue ting, Amelia, janicia and novita.We ate fried icecream. I bought food home too. HAIZ. I AM so gonna to turn into a Pig.. JIA LAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay.. need to start studying !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jia you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be the super-est !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUPER-est!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finished techniques of integration. Kind of tired...

Mr Looh's lesson was alrite. he tried to drill us on calculations. Haix. That's my super weak area. I cant run away from it. I kept very quiet the whole lesson. The Vjc guys kept asking me what's wrong but i still kept v quiet. I was very stressed. BUT I AM happy that i am the only one who use CHEMISTRY method to solve some of the ques. The others use MATHS. Fine then, i think my maths suckz.

Suppose to study physics tmr. Last time on dynamics. Good luck. Hmm.. might be doing maths tmr. WIll see how! JIA you Liwan. Linear regression... MS yang, i need help... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! COMPLEX!!!!!!!!! Its yucky!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haix.. sianz diao.... having 3hrs of break tmr. I guess i will spend 2hrs doing maths n 1 hr doing physics. Haix. Hopefully its nt that tough!!!!!!!!!!!!! Need to consolidate certain concepts. JIA YOU!....

Seeing ms fong on wed again. I guess it will be a short one. =) ... Just jia you ...

SUPER-esT!!!!!!!!!

Hmmm.... Yupz.. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!! Mood swing???

Drizzling this morning but i still insisted to walk to sch.. On my way , i met ms fong. Well, told her abt my electrons jumping down =( =( .. And told her that i still have partially filled 3d orbital!!!!!!!!!! HENG!!!!!!!!!

Gp lesson in the morning. It is upset to noe that our class has hit the ceiling, Mdm lim said that she doesnt noe hw to help us. HAIX... So what if i get 4As? Gp???? haix... Mdm Lim, i need help.. =(

did maths the whole morning ( haven completed yet ) then suddenly , we had fire drill.. ahaa.. So everyone 'strolled' to the assembly ground. Teachers and CG reps were very busy marking attendence and i realised that my ms fong is missing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ha.. I saw her at the shelter near the GO.. and decided to sms her.. ha.. I asked her if she was BURnT!!!!!! lolx.. i guess i am just crapping sia... She relplied me and said she was on duty.. ha.. Stupid me.. i guess i am too bored at that pt of time... The CG rep and civic tutor of 19/06 laughed at me.. lolx.. I am a joker..

Left a few questions of Maths. Haix.. Wonder when can i get to see Mr Ang. haix...Din have the courage to ask him during lesson. Pei seh =( .. After that we have chem lesson. I was forced to teach the class ques 6.. But i just refused. Inpromptu quite scary. I know ms fong's intention.. TOO BAD!!!!!!!

HAd to prepare my Grp 2 summary. Haix.. Have to teach the class tmr. I proposed to ms fong to push back to fri if nt very troublesome. =( later still need to chiong my summary. need to bring in Transition metal.. HAix.. I thiNk i will take a long time.... Jia you ba... Pray that everything is fine for me. ms fong also wanna be to study with ben n yi lin organic chem. I haev no prblem with that.. I love helping n teaching but i hope it wont affect my studies... =) jia you liwan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happY HAPPY.. PMS SIA.. ha....

SUPER-est!!!

HMm...



Wasnt in a gd mood today. I guess PMS ba.. TIME of the mnth.. hmm.. stay away from me cos i am seriously nt in the gd mood. Ms fong, my electron demote liao le!!!!!!!!!!!! But the consolation is i still have partially filled 3d orbital.. Bleh!!!



raining quite heavily now.. I hope it wont rain tmr morning. I wanna walk to school. =(



Physics tuition was alrite. trying hard to learn DC. Haix.. Why cant i understand ?? Dynamics was alrite. I like dynamics le. The next chap is forces and Work, energy n power! God bless me...

tried to do the SGC .. Hmm.. Nt very sure ... HAix... Gt 2 .. left one more which i am nt sure.. see ba.. Oh, Mr derrick offered help to pray for me. Thankz Mr derrick. He is going to pray for me for one mnth. Pray for my health, family, friendship&relationship, wisdom & intelligence , direction for future. Yupz, thankz Mr derrick.



went for maths tuition. Today's lesson was v fun. AH... We were very noisy and hyper. this is the first time.. HA... ms yang shared with me a lot of things. She told me abt her family . Thankz for sharing. I might nt be able to fully understand but i noe u are really great!!!!!!!!!!! MS yang, I love u .. hope u are reading my blog.. hehe.. I will jia you for my maths!!!!!!!!!!!!!

probably will stay in sch to study tmr .. See ba.. doing maths tmr.. hehe.. techique of Integration

tmr =) Liwan, jia yoU!!!!!!!! Need to do maths HW?? probably gonna finish ms yang n Mr Ang HW. Will try to stay in sch late... liwan, jia you!!!!!

need to study econ le.. YEA!!!!! stay happY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANNA BE THE SUPER-est!!!!!! I wanna be ur super-est student!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think i really love blogging... gonna change my blogskin soon...

I just wanna ur time. Am i too much?? i guess so.

Hmm... Finally understood dynamics. I am no longer afraid of dynamics. Liwan, jia you! You are gd...

Hmm.. was studying econ b4 i started blogging. I cant concentrate. I just realised that i really wish that u can give me some time to piece all the things i wanna to say. When will i have a chance? But why am i always so speechless when an opportunity is given to me? I think i am really stupid. When is the right time? "MON? TUES? WED? THURS? FRI? SAT? SUN?" 7 days a week , yet i cant find time to tell u how i feel. I thInk i suckz.

Haix... feeling a bit down.. But just look forward to MON.. Jia yoU!!!!! Gonna arrange all my consultation agaiN! haix.. Ms fong n Mr Ang are 4ever so busy... I need help!!!!!!!!!!

GOD pls help me... I wanna Aces my prelim!!!!!!! I really really really wan!!!!!!!! I dun care.. I wan to do well... JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUPER-est !

just came back from mavis.. visit ai ai n do my work over there...

Finished TPJC paper 3. The paper is really super easy. There are of courses certain parts which i guess simply dun noe how to do but i will still say that the paper is super easy!!!!!!!!!! Went to print the summary on the transparency. Super EX .. broke liao.. =( =( will look for janice next time...

Tried deductive ques.. haix.. sianz la... Boring dun feel like doing.. left ard 3 ques... After that tried to study physics for one hr!!!!!! Dynamics.. haix.. dun noe hw to do so decided to go home n consult my sis. Will wait for her to teach me. =( so sianz.. Hopefully i can clear my doubts if nt then tmr.

Doing econ later .. after physics! i dun think i will be sleeping v early ba since i haven finish what i need to do... LWan, jia yoU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna Aces my preliM!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUPER-est!!!

hehe.. this is my 400th post!!!!!!!!!!!

Just finished doing the summary! I tried my best le. Not easy lor... did for like 2 hrs.. have to look for definitions which are nt in the notes in cases the students ask. I digged out some of my textbooks to look for meanings. HAIX. I think this is really my first time doing such things. Jia you ba...

So what am i doing tmr? Hmmm.. dun think i will be gg for the semiar. Not feeling good.
doing TPJC paper 3, dynamics and econ!!!! Econ is always scary. haix.. Jia you ba!!!!!!!!!!!!! gg bookshop to bind some of my stuff and photocopy the summary onto transparencies.

Hope to study a lot tmr.. if nt v sianz... Tmr is my DAD bd? gg out to celebrate?/ dun noe.. tired.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

SUPER-est!

Hmmm.. Finished the TPJC paper 1 n 2.. i gt only 23/30 for paper 1. THIS bad!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!! Died at physical chem. The rest are super easy. As for paper 2, the questions are really super super easy... haha.. A lot on organic chem. I did well for physical part too.. Not a big issue. Nt sure abt protein. Nt very gd at that. So left paper 3 !! jia you!!!!!!!! Did deductive ques .. haix.. did 7 ques and have to stop le.. Too tired.. cant think...

Need to go do the summary for grp 2 le .. sianx... I start to put myself into teachers's shoes. The planning of lesson simply take up a lot of my time... BUT I AM STILL VERY DETERMINED THAT I WANNA TO BE A TEACHER. I WAN TO BE THE SUPER-est TEACHER!!!!!!!!!!!! =(

Liwan, jia yoU!!!!!

SUPER-est!!!!!!!!

Super busy ya!!!!!!!!!!!! sob sob...

later i need to prepare grp 2 n 7 for next week lessons. I scared leh! it is true that i want to be a teacher but.... Ms fong will not be there to guide us.. scary!!!!!!I will be doing the summary of grp 2.. yupz... Will try to recap certain things...
I doubt i will be gg to the pyschology semiar. It is too far! and i am nt well. I am sorry ya... haix...

A lot of chem HW to complete. Probably sleeping late tonite. I will finish my chem HW b4 i do the summary! Oh ya, i also have to complete TPJC paper 2. HAix..

Liwan, stay focus n jia you! Everyone has started to mug le and u are still... HAIX.. just jia you...

SUPER-est!!! I am on my way to achieve my goal!

Hmm... tired...

Went home early today. When to see doc.. having gastric problem . Haix... The medicine made me drowsy... super drowsy. I am feeling beta nw. My chest is feeling much more beta. Thankz GOD! Slept for 4 hours straight. PIGLET..... haiz...

Hmmm, chatted with ms fong this morning. Well, i guess we were just speechless. Thankz for having so much faith in me.

Haix.. din manage to ask mr ang ques.. He is just sooooo busy. Quite sad. hav to wait till next week. =( =(.. probably will ask ms yang to help me clear some of them.

SUPER-est!

Hmmmm

Studied physics n did a bit of chemistry. HEHE... Quite happy with physics ! learn smthg new.. haha.. hope i can apply. Thankz Sista... u do make me love physics!

Was talking to a fren just nw. Yupz, we shared the same sentiments. He brought up certain issues which i really agree with him. I think its time to really wake up for those who are still slping. dun noe.. we shared a lot of things but i guess we shldnt let anything affect us. Just jia you and study hard.....

*yawn*.. slping soon.. hope i can slp well tonite.... din get to slp much yesterday... Tmr would be a tiring day. Sianz diao...

SUPER-est!!!!!!!!!!!

You are what make me strong!
I have been waiting for you, through my life. What about you? Are u waiting for me too?
You gave me the love i needed, but left me with a broekn heart.
Love is a big illusion, i shld try to forget.

Sob sob... I think the wordings are great!

Feeling happier n happier... lolz...

I was trying to act smart this morning by using chemistry concept to describe my mood to ms fong. I was trying to "show off" . I told her i am like a Transition mental!!! i told her my life is colourful. I havE partial filled d-orbitals and therefore electrons are allowed to be promoted.. =) =) happy!!!!!!! . But she told me that the 'promotion of electrons ' is only for a while... !!!!!!!!!! haha.. I was like speechless .. hehe.. But somehow is true la.. hehe....

Had chem remedial. The pace was super slow. one ques one remedial. Lolx.. But i am often being neglected. NVM LOR

GP lesson was fun. Gt to learn a lot of things .. happY!

Hmmm.. After that i hav chem consultation. Hmmm, we had a sharing session ya. I mean is gd to share with teacher or listen to what my teacher feels abt everything ! Will pass u everything after my A level. =)

Miss my lunch today. Haix.. Its bad leh! No choice...

Hmmm... I think i need to speed up my revision spd. I am gg at a v slow rate. Tired... *yawn*
will go at full engine on fri.. need to go plan my time table again. Jia yoU!!!!!

SUPER-est!!!!

Tired.. haix...

Feeling quite of down.. controlling my tears just nw...

But i am fine nw. Well, finished doing my stuff... Rate of change is HORROR.. YAWN!!!!!!!

Sleeping le.. tata...

Just came back.. hehe...
HAppy happY!!!!!!!!!!

Went for cohort meeting this morning! I think i am superb! ha. i think i did relatively alrite compare to others. I guess i "overperform" .,. haha.. cos my L1R5... bleh!!!! thankz God i am coping well.. I really love myself a lot.. Liwan, jia you k? continue to work hard. U are the super-est!

Met up with sandy just nw. We talked a lot as usual. SHe is a very gd fren. I thankz God for her. She said i changed a lot . I am a much happier gal. Of course i am !!!!!!!!!! We shared a lot. Sandy, thankz for ur company n everything! I value ur frenship.. thankz... love u ....

guess what? hmmm.. was asked to stay back after chem lesson with amelia, xue ting and novita! ms fong wanna us to participate in the research that they are doing. Guess wat was my reaction?? My mouth was wide opened. hehe... Actually is nthg much ya.. We are suppose to attend lessons on group 2 n 7.. After that we have to plan our lessons and teach the class!!!!! I was super happy because , that is like my dream. My dream is to be a TEACHER! SUPER-est teacher!!!!! But i am afraid that i cant relate to the class what i wanna say cos my eng is nt v gd. HAix.. But i will try my best!!!!!! Liwan, jia you!!!!!! haev to stay back this fri =) . Will jia you!

HAPPY HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! need to do a lot of HW later... gonna go bathe le.. yawn!!!!!

SUPER-est student!!!!!!!!!!

I am sooooo in love.... hehe.. In love with myself... Haha

Yupz.. I finished maclaurin series. Met a few problems here n there but i guess they are nt major problems. Will be seeing Mr ang on thurs. Hopefully everything will be alrite. Will clear maxima n minima plus Maclaurin series. Guess who was on my mind when i was doing those ques?? MS YANG.. hehe.. Yupz, her face appeared in my mind. I knoe she really loves maths a lot . I wont 4get that kind of expression ! never in my life. hehe.. Will sms her later b4 i sleep. Ms yang, thankz for everything u have given me. I am truely motivated by u . I love u ! ( hehe, hopefully u are reading this )

I love my discipline. I am definitely very tired but i kept telling myself to finish up the exercise slowly. No hurry. YEa, Its okay.. I love myself... I will be fine... So what's next? haiz.. rate of change... Not gd at that chap... Wanna finish it asap.. cos i wanna go into intergration... =) Yupz.. Jia yoU! i Planned everything while i was doing those ex.. well, I will start doing prelim papers when i finished all the exercises. Hmm, i guess i need to be even more focus this time rd.

Got another chem paper. VJC chem!! happy!!!!! Quite a lot of prac le. Will jia you de... Hmm.. hopefully can consult ms fong on FRI lor.. Dun noe? ms fong get well soon.. My prayers will be answered... =)

my eyes are closing.. Gg parkway with sandy. It would be an enjoyable one i hope.. Blah... Hmmm doing rate of change tmr? n a bit of GP? think so.. It depends... need to complete my grp 1 n 7... yupz.. see how la... *yawn* .. Oink oINK

LIWAN, is trying to be a happy gal.. HHa.. SUPER-est student!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmm.. its Mon.. hehe..

keep going to toliet leh!! 4- 5 times a day. what did i eat yesterday... =( Pasta only ma.. I hope my dear is alrite... But luckily i dun feel the pain. Just Queasy feeling...

lessons were alrite ... had econ consultation. Mrs chang was v funny!! haha.. Okay la, she is a nice teacher.. Bleh! hmmm ms fong is nt in sch today. Ms Teng told me that she is sick. I knew it b4 she told me.. haa .. I msged her n send her my regards. I guess i am getting more naggy .. Hmm, she had diahorrea. Tried to cheer her up with my lame crap But failed v badly. But i really care for her.. =)

Ask my dad to fetch me hme after sch. Just came out of toilet.. hehe.. I guess its the 6th time. SIanz... feel like sleeping nw But i wan to take a nap leh!!!!!! BUT CANNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wan to finish by today. I need to be discipline. yup yup...

Well, quite happy today. I shld say happier?? yea... I wanna be a happier GAl. God bless me with wisdom and knowledge. Teach me to be happy. I really wanna be a happy gal, spreading my love everywhere. Bless the people ard me with all the happiness in the world. Bless the people ard me with pink of health and everythinG!!!!!!! Thankz God....

Okay.. its time to jia yoU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wanna be ur super-est Student !!!!!!!

I guess i need to put a full stop to certain things le. need to start a new para.. =)

Dearest, i wish u all the happiness in the world k? Do rmb what i have said? Do rmb the 7 things i told u! And i love u a lot. Give me a call or sms me when u free hao ma?

I will be the HAppiest gal in the world from tmr onwards. I wanna be happy! I really really wanna be happy... Yupz.. I can de.. Trust me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went to parkway just nw. I stood at the overhead bridge and shouted this " I wanna be a happy gal! I wanna get straight As" Yea... Liwan, all the way k? Love urself...

SUPER-est!!!!!!!!!

Feeling much beta... talked to my dear yesterday. Dear, i am really fine? dun blame urself hao ma? Its nobody fault. I love u .. always take care....

I am sooooo in love with that old song.. ha... i think i am so retro..

Gg out after tuition.. Happy happy!!!!!! gg out with my dear. I hope i dun need to use any tissues.

Yupz.. gg for physics tuition later. Then after that gt maths tuition. Ha.. MS YANG!!!!! YAY!!!!! I guess i will be kind of shy la.. Since she noes my blog add... ha.. and she noes that i love her a lot.. BLeh.. MS yang, i noe u love me too.. haha... Though u have my blog address, this wont stop me from blogging abt u de hor??? haha... U are really great ya!!!!! doing hypo today. I guess i will surely gt "scolded" later . Sorry ms yang, always let u vomit blood. I LOVE U =)

I am emotionally drained. Tmr is MON!!!!!!!! a v long day for me since i have consultation. Ms fong, i am still on the way of recovering. If i ever made any mistakes tmr, can u dont scold me? Haix.. scared leh!!!!!!!!! I wanna be happy gal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My gastric is giving me problem again. PAIN PAIN!!!!! Hungry.. gonna go for breakfast! =)

SUPER-est!!!!!!!!!

din manage to go out today. Quite disappointed but its alrite.

Dun noe what to say. v speechless. I guess i can only look forward to tmr!!!!! Ms yanG??? I wan to flood myself with tons of work. Wanna put aside everything which i cant. =( =( ...

Went to visit my ai ai.. Hmm.. i guess she is the only person who can cheer me up nw. Yupz!! We crapped a little.. I did my work there. I tried Maxima n minima, remedial HW... hhe... bought strawberry for AI ai too.. hA.. I din noe my hubby loves them so much.. Will buy u more next time... =) Thankz JAnice! Thankz for ur company n everything.. love u deep deep....'

Doing grp 2 n 7 later? dun noe.. just sianz.. it is time to let go and stay focus for A levels. Ms fong, u still owe me a Big present since last yr.. but luckily u still rmb... But can i exchange it with ur time instead? half a day?? to let me show u smthg?? haha... =P

tired.. Liwan jia you!!!!!!!! hehe... U can de!!!!!!!!!!!!

Super-est!

Wanna to dedicate a song to myself...

心太软

你总是心太软心太软 ( i do agree , i am like that.. always soft-hearted. )

独自一个人流泪到天亮 ( yup, i teared. Worrying for u .. always )

你无怨无悔的爱着那个人 ( yupz, i love u a lot..i can do a lot for u at the expense of a lot of things)

我知道你根本没那么坚强

你总是心太软心太软

把所有问题都自己扛 (Yupz, i love to treat other people problems as mine cos i love u guyz a lot )

相爱总是简单相处太难

不是你的就别再勉强 ( yupz, its true! no point forcing )

夜深了你还不想睡 ( i cant sleep cos i am worry )

你还在想着他吗 ( yes, still thinking of u .. 4ever worrying abt u )

你这样痴情到底累不累 ( i do feel tired )

明知他不会回来安慰

只不过想好好爱一个人

可惜他无法给你满分 ( No matter how much i do, i need to learn that i am nt different from others. U will always be partial. )

多余的牺牲他不懂心疼

你应该不会只想做个好人

喔,算了吧就这样忘了吧该放就放

再想也没有用傻傻等待他也不会回来

你总该为自己想想未来

Gonna stop here la.. sobbing le.. too touchinG!!!!

Hmmm.. i am tired...

feeling quite moody nw. I guess towards the weekend, i will start to feel upset and everything. i know the reasons but just dun wan to state them out explictly. i guess the only thing i can do is to occupy myself with loads of work. But i really cant concentrate. This morning i was sharing with ms fong that, when one is happier, he or she can learn more n faster. But what happened? I guess i can only look forward to weekdays? Ha.. That's weird. Students normally look forward to weekend yet i ?? No la, I guess during sch time i wont think of a lot of stuff ma. =) =)

tried chemistry just nw. Kind of sianz... Transition metal!!! Always stuck at the same type of ques! But i guess its okay since i am clearing my doubts on Mon. Hopefully everything is fine. Hmmm doing group 2 n 7 tmr? But its seems tough leh? kind of diff from tutorials. =(

Hmmm... suppose to do physics nw. BUT just simply no mood. feel a bit sleepy. Oink oink.. I guess i love to slp becos i wanna to run away from reality.

Sometimes i really contradicts myself. I smsed ms fong b4 i took the nap just nw. I told her that " there is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved" Yupz.. shared with her this. But why am i feeling down nw? I was quite convinced that there are a lot of people who really love me .. care for me n everything... Stupid me! Bleh!!!!!!!!!! i think i beta study physics and put aside everything.

SUPER-est student!!!!!

Hmmm... very happy as usual...

walked to sch today... gt teased by MS fong!!!!! she said my walking speed is slow!HMPH!!! bleh.. that's me.. Then we started talking n talking... Told her abt my maths percentile ! happy.. told her abt what Mr Tan told me.. haha... Mr Tan, i will try my best to reach 100 % . AT least i tried hor.. If nt then 99% .. I am fine with it.. haha... Then we started talking abt stupid things again. Ha.. I told her abt ms yang!!!! But i regretted la.. Shldnt hv mention it!!!! Probably will explain to her one day...

Was very happy just nw.. during and after maths lesson i was super happy. After maths was chem. ha.. I told ms fong that i am happy !!!!! Just happy!!!!! But i am nt sure of the reasons... haha... happy happy!!!!!

But i gt v tired after chem lecture. had consultation and everything till 1 plus.. Super tired lor.. Sigh!! after that i called my dear. I guess that is when i started feeling low. Dear, i dun noe what to say... Sorry ... U take care....

i am tired.. haev to do transition metal today! Jia you ba... Gonna go take a nap.. PIG!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUPER-est!!!!

Hehe.. happy happy.. v high today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went to school.. Saw ms fong on the way , so we walked together lor. I told her smthg!! ha.. Hmm, i told her abt my dear and and of course myself. She is v proud of me . I guess she feels that i am handling well! Ha.. i am always ur --- & --------- !!!! =PPPP

Gt a short break after maths. Went under TRC to do physics. Ha, then ms fong came to talk to me. We chatted for 30 mins. We just crap n crap.. We talked abt other teachers n many things.. I guess we were just too free... She looked very sick n tired to me. Ms fong , must rest well!!!

Had after photo taking today!!!!!! Hehe.. first few pics were alrite.. The rest a bit nt nice la.. cos i was v tired le.. keep smiling.. sianz sia... But still happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! had a lot of fun...

After that was economics, which mean that i din have time for lunch!!!!!!!!!! Hungry hungry.. After 2 hrs of econs i went to look for Mr ang! he is a very nice n patient teacher.. Thumb-up!!!!!! He is a gd father too =) Meeting him tmr again cos din manage to clear finish today. Liwan, jia yoU! I told him i was v happy when trying those ques. I can feel that i am progressing! i have an aim in my mind which is to keep doing well !!!!!!! Thankz Mr Ang! I also told him that i feel happy because i know that my teachers are behind me no matter how badly i did. I know that my teachers are willing to help me.. Thankz !!!!!!!!!!

Let me blog abt what have happened yesterday. Was talking to my dearest ms yang!!!!!!!! she went to my blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!! B4 that i was talking to her abt how i feel. i told her a lot of things. i told her tt she is a v gd teacher n everything. And i said i love her a lot... Somehow she doesnt really believe lor... hehe... but hehe... finally, she realised that i love her a lot.. ms yang, i never bluff u hor.. what i said is true.... ha.. =P =P ... bleh....

called my dear .. ha.. happy ... i am sure she is feeling much beta... hope to see u soon... love u ....

i waana be ur super-est student n star-student...

Hmmm.. tired....

passed my GP.. quite surprised. Improved by 12 marks.

Gt chem remedial .. was alrite ... but ms fong, u were right actually.... haix...

v tired.. dun feel like blogging.. need to do a lot of things later.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just came back...

Hmm.. gt back GP results today. The whole class did badly. So u shld noe what did i gt. I improved 10 marks in total as compare to last yr Promo. Quite happy ba? Mdm Lim told me to continue to work hard. She always thinks that i can do it de. Thankz.

Stayed back in sch to finish chem HW. After that went for some CCA stuff. Mr Lim always teases me de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. Keep asking where is my ms fong! ask me what happened to ms fong since she wasnt ard . Sianz diao. he wont let me off. When i was suppose to say a few words in front of the whole team, guess what i said?? " I will miss u guys and Ms Ng AND ESP MR LIM!!!!!" hah.. gt teased by him also. After that i passed him a piece of cake. Then he said it is " very heavy" I played along with him. I told him i never give any cake to ms fong b4 lor. haha.. Cant stand him. Whatever i do, he will help me to link to ms fong! but he is a v nice teacher =) . Mr lim , i will miss u k? miss the teacher who i always play with =) haha... BUt i will miss my super-est teacher !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yupz.. gonna do my maths today. trying to plan my timetable. Tough sia. =(((( haix.. Liwan, jia yoU! going to tamp to meet azi tmr . getting chem paper 2. hope to get tpjc one too. getting Mjc on sun. Vjc on MOn.. so I am going to start doing these papers next week. Need to be v discipline!

Hmmm.. got back my econ results! hehe.. HAppy! i passed. Its probably average? I guess so.. But did nt perform as well as promo. But i guess i am quite happy with it. After getting back my results, i smsed MS HO. she was very happy with my results. She gave me some advices for CSQ. Ms Ho, i will try ya.. Sorry ya, i din go as well as b4! I wont break our promise. Love always

Tried ms yang's hypo ex... Hmm at first i dun really understand certain things BUT she always find the right key to my ques. She is definitely one great teacher! Cher i love u ... Ms yang, thankz for encouraging me just nw. Thankz for telling me that i am good. I guess u are good too.. HAH.. I will try my best k? I will do well for prelim and A level. I guess after next week , i would have finished revision for hypo! Wanna clear my calculus too! yUpz.. We will see... =)

Hmm... Probably doing chemistry later. Dun really understand transition =( Yupz.. hopefully after Mr looh's lesson everything will be fine. Need to plan my study plan and show ms fong ba.. She wanna a detailed one .. =) jia you liwan...

I dun noe what to say abt my physics. SIS, i need ur help.. =(

As for economics, i will start next week. Yupz.. Will write down all the chaps which i need help! Yupz.. =)

Liwan, u are on the way k? jia you! be proud of urself...

Super-est!

Just found out smthg lately...

i thought love can never be weighed or measured but this is not true. i called my dear just now. Dear, i really hope that u are fine. Yes, i know you love me a lot and you knoe i love u a lot. Yes this is true. But i guess if u really wanna noe how much u love certain ppl then weigh it!!!!!!!!! The greater the pain u experienced, the more u love that person? I am definitely in great pain when i was talking to u . The silence killed me. it is bleeding profusely now. Dear, can u help me to stop the bleeding? I really wanna u to be happy! It is like a boomerang. I guess the only thing i can do now is to wait till fri? But i am scared. I am afraid to lose my cheerful dearest!

Dear, how are u ? i am missing u . I was very worried yesterday. My heart sank after hearing u say "hi" . I guess u really " suffered" a lot? or been thru a lot? I really dont know what to say. i called tina to ask about u . She said u seem to be alrite but i really doubt so. Dear, i love u a lot. U mean to me a lot. Can u call me? or can i call u to share with u ur sorrow? i dun noe what to say. I was so speechless. I would be there for u !

Wake up quite early today. I have a lot of things which i wanna say. But somehow i am nt sure why i cant express it out! Was doing my video yesterday. Not too bad. Still not very up to standard. I guess it will always be like that unless i tell jeff or lich to help? Don noe.. I think i am really an IT idiot! Hmm, will be borrowing laptop from sch during mid of july or first wee of Aug! i hope everything is fine for me.

hmmm.. Gg for Ms yang's lesson today. hehe.. I hope it will be a fun one. Must pay attention liao. Cannot slack k? will be asking her ques too.. Ms yang, thankz yoU! i love u ! yupz.. Anyway, Will cmplete my SGC by this week. Yupz.!

Liwan, jia yoU!

SUPER-est

Tired...

Yupz, did chem =) . Finished 2 sub units of maths which is v little. Will try more later.

Went to visit janice n val. helped janice to burn songs. yupz, the songs are quite nice. val is 4ever like a tai tai. So jealous. =( I guess her daughter would be the happiest gal in future. HA... Planning to have one more on 08.08.08. hHAa.. Val , so funny! I was giggling lor. Do find it uneasy when u guys talk abt such things. I mean the planning. HA.. But well, i am alrite. I mean at least u guys treat me like adult. HA.. blah!!!

Hmm.. perhap, it is nt always good to be want to be the super-est . I thought i was only true to myself but 4get it. I will still want to be the super-est . I wanna give others the best. I want to be true to others. I want to be the best of the best . However , if i din manage to achieve smth, just stay happy lor? I mean at least i tried my best. =)

Liwan, jia you!

Hmmm... feeling much much much beta...

Went back sch just nw. wanted to go for movie marathon but a bit sianz.. hehe.. Went to library, saw Guan Wen. He asked for my experience with chem and asked me how to tackle organic questions. ha, i was like a bit shocked . But still, i shared with him what i could. I told him not to give up. He told me a lot of things which i din expect. After that i talked to my another fren who was with a guy from 05/06. They are v nice people. We talked abt our class and everything. That guy was super funny. I guess i do miss 05/06. hehe.... jia you !

I was motivated to study very hard for my prelim. though i did not do as well as last time but at least i am above average. Thankz God for guiding me.

wanted to start studying only after next week but i changed my mind. I guess i look forward to prelim. hehe.. Will jia you! failures are there to spur u on! Liwan can de.

I guess i will start chem and maths tmr ! Physics soon ba.. haha.. Jia you liwan!!!!!!!!!!!! On the way to do my chers proud! Yupz...

I wanna be ur super-est student!

Tired.. weird leh i slept for likemany hrs a day lately but why do i still feel tired?? siao..

get back chem result le. I am disappointed but i am okay with it. So i guess i shld ask how to improve on it? yupz... probably talk to ms fong on Mon. ( definitely feel sad abt it ) But how shld i express it out? dun ask me why am i sad ? I am tired...

So 2 more to go.. Can de k? jia you!

gonna go slp again. The greatest pleasure is to just keep sleepinG!!!!!!!!!

Hope to go out later with my dear. hope u are fine... haix....

Hmmm... i am speechless... dun noe what to say...

I really tried my very best for this mid yr. what can i do? i have frens getting 29 n 30 for chem. What shld i expect? haix. I know i failed badly. what will happen tmr? I dun wan to cry though i am sobbing nw. i guess i am stress. BUt i dun dare to say it out to u cos i dun wan u to refer me to cousnelling.

i Am scared. God, what haev i done wrong to deserve such treatment? i know i shldnt question u cos u have planned everything for us. I am feeling kind of upset nw. I guess after tmr, it will be a beta day. Probably, it is time to cry all out =( HAO XIN KU!

Give me a break. I guess i will only start studying after next week. I am truly upset.

I realised smthg recently, i love sleeping. I like to run away from the reality. I wanna slp throughout! I am tired. I guess mdm koh was rite to say that " wo de xin lei le" .. Yupz. I agree totally! Let me run away...

Phew... I din use any tissue.

thankz for ur time. Though i din tell u what is wrong with me but i really appreciate it. I learn a lot about u ! U jia you!

It is all about definition. I always try v hard to do u proud. It is how u define proud. I guess we define differently. I always want to work towards the best of everything to do u proud but i cant. But to u that's not the definition. Ur definition for favourite is also diff from mine. So somehow i get what u mean. if i were the teacher, i would haev the same definition as u . But i can tell u , if i go by ur definition of fav n proud, life would be much easier.

I will try nt be a dog? yupz.. Bark bark..

getting back chem paper on fri. I am scared. Though it is v obvious that i sure fail le. Its okay. Tired.. Probably u r right, it is nt significance if i always do u proud. Yupz, i am on my way. I will jia yoU! thankz you

SUper-est dog

So tired... lessons were alrite. I think i embarrassed myself during GP lessons by asking about the needs of love, care , concern for the elderly! I guess is emotionally support. I guess i am a girl who needs emotional support therefore that was the first thing that came to my mind. I just cant control myself just nw. phew, luckily Mdm lim said that it was a valid ques. hehe.. Mdm Lim, thankz for ur encouragement! Though it was a v short "talk" just nw, i really know that u care for me. Thankz you!

sat near the big tree just nw. Ha, gt teased by Mr Ang! I told him that the tree is v nice. in fact , deep inside my heart, i was very upset. Super-est upset! Kill me ba!! ARgh... ms fong called me after that, cos i called her. I was speechless when she asked me why i called her. I told her cos her nos VERY nice. I thInk i am stupid. I told her i am gg to buy 4D. So stupid. Yupz, told her the reasons! seeing her later at 3.30 . I am afraid that i need tissues. Maybe will tell her to bring me a towel. !!!!!! blah...

chatted with Mdm Koh just nw. she never let me off de lor. She kept teasing me just because i waited for 2.5h ! hmph! I thought it is alrite leh! I mean i can Q for donuts for 3hrs, why cant i wait for her for 2.5h. ??? She said that i wouldnt do that for her n Mr Tan. I was like speechless. I mean, i love all of my chers. haix, then i reminded of the things which i have done for her too. hehe... phew, escape from her sia. I bought choco for her when she told me that she was busy?? I ate with her? I bought for her lunch? fruit? Mdm koh , how can u 4get!!! sob sob... I treat u like a mother. i share with u a lot of things which i din share with her! i will wait for u next time? haix... As for Mr Tan, at least whn i saw the ice-cream man, i din 4get to get one ice-cream for him. Nvm...

Tired! Lost a lot of water yesterday! I hope i dun need to lose any later. I know i will be damn upset on fri since i will be getting back the paper on fri God help me pls? guide me hao ma? I am tired...

i am tired. I guess today is the day which i cried a lot...

I met up my dear. We went parkway shopping. was damn happy but somehow gt some misunderstanding on the way to Tamp. its my fault. I made u angry. dun blame urself. I was v lost when u chose to leave me. I was already emotionally weak in the morning therefore cant control myself. I kept crying! Dear, i really scared to lose u sia. But thankz God u came back n look for me. U shld noe me well, i am v blur. Gt knocked by bicycles twices a day. Dear, take this incident as a lesson. I mean we get to noe each other beta. Please tell me how u feel k? Rmb smthg, u are nt responsible for what u said k? I guess it is my fault. I shldnt hold anyone responsible for what they said. Dear, now u noe hw much u mean to me le? and i am thankzful that u came back. At least now i noe where i rank! =)

Tmr will be another tired day.. i guess i will cry badly too... tired... really v tired...

Gotten some maths exercises. managed to talk to Mr ang. He was very happy that i passed my maths paper. i know he is v proud of me. He said that he is very happy that i am planning ahead.

Waited for ms fong for 2.5 hrs just nw. My hand looks v ugly nw. gt bitten by mosquitos. Yupz, she was very touched. i gave her the badge. I din manage to talk to her much since she has to go to somewhere with mr cheng n some other teachers. I know i failed my chem le. I am sorry. I felt v upset. I cried once after she left me. I couldnt stop my tears from flowing down. she reminded me of smthg just nw, so i kept crying. I still have a lot of things haven tell her. Will find time to tell her. I guess we will be getting back the chem paper like tmr? wo zhen de hao shang xin. tired... Haven had my lunch. I find that i am really superb! I can wait for a her for like 2.5 hrs just for the 5 mins talk. Ms fong, u really win le!!!!!!!!!! Hope u are feeling beta nw =) . It doesnt matter if my chem teacher comes back a not most importantly she is happy! i failed my chem this time? so can i blame for her that?

tired.. Gonna fail a lot more.. tired.. *disappeared*

Thankz Mr Looh! thankz for ur encouragement. thankz for having so much faith in me. I promise, i will do well for prelim! Give me more time n exposure!

feeling v upset over JCT. v upset over CHem esp. it is my best sub, in the end? what will i get? i suckz... I am lousy!!!!!!!!!

Feeling sleepy . gonna pack my bag n disappear...........

Tears trickled down my cheek again. UPSET!

When TM just now. SAW mr LOw & Ms Soh.. haix.. sadded.. cant seem to run away from teachers. Somemore CHEM teacher. I was kind of upset when i saw the bth of them. Reminded me of my stupid chem paper. I hate myself. Just let me cry hao ma?

*disappeared*

Din manage to slp well.

Dreamt of a lot of things. Haix. I dreamt about gg back to sch to face the music. Sianz sia.. Seems like i gonna fail all the sub. Now, i am having a v bad headache. I am scared. I dont know how to console myself . =( I know my chers wont scold me. Wont be harsh too. When i was in secondary school, i also always did v badly de but my chers just never scold me la. I think they dun bear to scold me since i tried my best? hhaha.. HAIX!

I am scared . Tmr gt chemistry lesson , tmr gt physics n GP too. I am so screwed. I am scared.
can someone help me? I need to divert my attention to smthgelse.

talked to my dear yesterday, thru sms.. hA.. Hmm.. we decided to go out on FRI.. haha.. I will just pray hard that ur tuition is cancelled. =( if my dear has tuition, then we will go parkway! dun have then we go VIVO!!!! hee.. I need to start saving $$$$$$$$$$$$$$ Hopefully we can go out on sat too .. HA..

Still have so many places we wanna gO! hehe.. see how lor.. Tralalalallala.... tired.. Gonna bathe n start packing! sianz.. Oh ya, i need to take a look at my videO!... hehe

I WANNA BE UR SUPER-est!!!!!!!!!!!

Would u be there to save my soul tonight?
would u say that you would be there to kiss my pain away?
Would you stand by me , let me hold you tight, and say that you love me one more time?

tired.. My eyes are closing! Haix.. feel so drowsy. din go out tonight! So i guess will wait for my dear to go out with me. I am so not gg to care abt my work for at least a few weeks. Slack a while can??? Give me a break.

i told my dad abt the GST hike. GST increased by 2% and therefore the price of many goods and services will increase by 2%. I asked him with my allowance will increase by 2 %.. haha.. he started to laugh! haha.. i love my daddy. he is quite cute afterall. I hope to see an increase of $16 next month! haha..

Staring at the badge that i have made. feel a bit speechless...

GONNA start packing my messy table. Too bad la.. cant throw away some of the stuff. hope to throw all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =( =(

SUPER-est student?

Just came back from facial. hehe.. Nt that painful afterall

I teared when i was doing the treatment. It was not painful. I was thinking of a lot of things during the treatmnent. Somehow i dont know what to say. Tears just trickled down my cheek.

haix... wont talk abt unhappy stuff. i guess it isnt worthwhile?

Not sure if i will be gg out later. Kind of tired.. feel like slping throughout! having tuition tmr. I dun noe how to face Mr Looh. I suckz... I suckz...

Let me cry out loud...

*yawn*

hmm... talked to my dear for ard 2 hrs yesterday. We were both tired! ha.. I think i am quite cute la, i msged dear while talking.. Bleh! haha... there were times that we din talk, just silence. I guess i just wan ur company??? haha... Do well for ur chem paper k? dun be like me.. total disappointment!

Hmmm.. gg for facial later. find it quite weird leh! I slept like 2 hrs most of the days last week, yet I dun have pimples bothering me.. That was what i told my dad.. haha.. Then he told me cos i am v happy! so No pimples! Then i told him, it is because i am toooooooooooooo in love.... Haa.. he was damn jealous! blah... people often say that love is the best medicine? ha... But too bad la.. what i said to him is nt true.. HAHA.. I LOVE MY DADDY AND MUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! trying to let go of certain things too..

Gg my ah ma house later! Love my AH MA!!!!!!!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE.. ( see , i am sooo in love )

Hmmm.. Having sore throat again!!!!!!!!!! stupid virus! bleh!

Yes, super-est!

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan