i am here to blog again.. hehe.. I guess i love blogging=p=p...

Well, buffet was nt too bad. i din eat much thou. kind of scared that i will put on weight.=[
When i reached home i still take a short nap.. oink oink oink... Piggy... After that i went to bathe n was about to do chemistry, my DEAR called me. Dear, i will always be there for u? i hope that everything is fine for u. be truthful to urself? dont run away from reality. Everything will be fine. State ur stand and if ur fren loves u.. i am sure ur fren will wan to respect U. Dear, learn to think b4 u speak. i guess i have learnt a lot this year. I learn to listen to what people have to say. Learn to lend people my listening ears no matter how busy n tired i am. Whenever i do that, it reminds me of my teachers . My mdm koh, ms fong, ms ho, mr tan. mrs chang, mr ang , etc.. a lot more.. these are the closer ones... Some of them are very naggy, some are really very patient... I really appreciate that they are willing to give me their time. A big thankz you! i will miss u people no matter where u are... I guess some of them will nt 4get me too.. ha.. THE CRY BABY, THE WORRIED GAL, THE STRESSFUL GAl... Chers i love u all... it is difficult to express it out... haix....

tried to finish Mr Looh's revison exercise on equilibrium.. not too bad. At least i know how to get the collect information from the ques. I guess ms fong really drilled me a lot. But it wasnt easy lor.. always gt scolded... haix... nvm..liwan jia you!!!!!!!! somehow a bit proud of myself.. hehe.... Jia you wor...

gg to study econ again.. haix.. very slow at that... yupz.. Liwan liwan jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANNA BE UR SUPER STUDENT!!!!! BE THE BEST OF THE BEST... =]=]

YAWN**** tired.. Anyway.. Happy V Day.. OOps.. not valentine day But Vesak day.. hehe.. i guess i am getting more chicky .. =p=p

feeling much better.. Sometimes i just have to let go... I hope i made the right decision. =]

Okay.. gg to my grandma house later for buffet. Oh dear, i scared FAT leh.. sob.. but i guess i wont eat much. No appetite lately. Stupid mid yr is Bugging me so badly that i cant eat in peace.. haa.. i guess i am still slacking.. I still go for facial, shopping etc. I think i will have to face the music after that. =[=[=[...

well.. gonna go study at 10 plus ! econ econ n econ.. sob sob.. liwan, pls jia you!!!! everyone is working their butts off but u are still having fun... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *slap* wake up le...

I fall in love with the song titled " WO ZHEN DE SHOU SHANG LE " *ouch*

I wanna be a super student! super SUPER SUPER SUpEr sUPEr.. I Wanna give my super best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do u noe that u have hurt me deeply? Why? i always try my best to persuade my parents but it takes two hands to clap. Higher hope bring greater disappointment. I always carry a lot of hope that you will slowly change but u are still the same. After hearing what u have said , i felt very sad. Its like thousand of needles prinking me. Can you imagine how many times i have quarrelled with my mum cos of u? Should i still continue to help u? God gives me strength. I am very hurt. WO ZHEN DE SHOU SHANG LE.. its painful.. sob sob....

Wake up quite early to do vectors. Started off quite slow but still manage to recall all the stuff i have learnt. Quite happy about that. After that i went for Facial. Its painful. I should say super painful but nt as painful as how u have hurt me. After that i went down to TTSH... was happy that i lost 200g.. thou its just 200g!!!! 800 more to go.. haix.. I am a fat pig... After that i went home to continue with the vector ex. I finished it at 7pm. After blogging i will have to continue with my econ. Re study those chaps that i haev finished. Hope to finish another chap tmr. What should i do tmr? chem? i haevn touch chemistry for quite a long time =p... haix.. not complacent but HAiX... will finish equilibrium ex given by Mr looh.. It looks tough. Will still do econ tmr.
=[ yupz.. JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

moodless.. I hate myself. May be i am nt good enough for u? why do u always wanna hurt me? Do u even reminisce the fun we had together? Well, may be its true that we can never be fren or anyone closer cos we always have the barrier..... no matter what is my parent or ur decision, i wish u all the best... Perhap , i should nt interfere anymore. i am tired....

BEST OF THE BEST....

back to blog again...

managed to talk to my dad today. I guess it took me a lot of courage too.. I told him if we really love someone a lot we should give him/her what he needs most. I feel that people have mistaken wants for needs. I asked him is $$ more impt than love? well, i quoted a lot of examples but ultimately i just wanna him to know that we should give our love ones what she/he needs and not what wants... I hope he gets what i mean. he laughed.. I guess probably he was shocked that her daughter is so matured. haha....

After that he went on to talk about investment, apartment , cars n marriage. I dont really understand a lot but i was very upset after listening to what he said. I felt that there are too many uncertainties. he said that if my partner and i cant earn ard 3000 each, dont think about buying house n car which require us to fork out $3000 a mnth. He told me that if one of us get retrenched or down with illness, we can never afford to pay for our luxuries. At that point of time, i was enlightened. I felt that the next chapter of my life is quite scary. Its is not about buying house and getting married but is one READY for it??? Yupz.. That was how i felt. I am very happy that we can share with one another our experience. I hope that there will be more of such time for us to share.

i will work hard! I look forward to a happy future =] I wanna be a super granddaughter, super daughter, super student, super fren, super teacher, super girlfren, super wife , super mother, SUPER in everything i DO. I will do My best and be tHe best of the best.... I will love everyone ard me!

Liwan jia yoU!!!!!!!!! Do well for JCt.. Focus!!!!!!!!!!! tried to finish another chap of econ. Not too bad. still nt very firm yet but i guess after a few more times it would be better. Gg for facial tmr.. =p=p.. haha.. gg there to de-stress.. YEA??? After that my dad will drive me to TTSH..

Gonna wake up early tmr to finish vectors revision and AFter i come back from TTSH, i will do econ again... =]=]...lIwan all the way....

YES.. I WANNA BE SUPER IN EVERYTHING I DO... I WANNA BE THE BEST OF THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tired tired tired... *yawn*

Liwan, gonna study hard le.. Sob sob... had fun today... Saw those people who are probably sec students having fun.. i was soooooo jealous. haix... Holiday = fun .. but mine is holiday= study... so tough... sob sob.... but still i am so gonna work hard...

gg to POM POM.. tata...

haiz... its time to wake up. Mr looh gave us a mock paper 3 today which means by next fri i need to finish studying chemistry. WOr.. so amazing!!!!!!!!! tell me how to finish? i have to finish by next week because i wanna to let him mark!! I wanna him to give me advice. I wanna give myself "exam condition".. i wanna time myself! hehe.. Its scary thou... So it means i must memorise all the definitions by Fri. I have to understand practically everything on FRi.. Liwan, u gonna jia you!!!!!!!

Tmr i will try to restudy the first few chap that i have studied. Then will go on to one more new chap. I will do maths tmr too. Yea.. jia you .. jia you..

k.. gonna go study le...SUPER STUDENT MUST JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

here are some pics that i haven take at the goat farm.. haha.... the only i can say is " IT IS VERY SMELLY!" i did try to feed the goats.. hehe.. Nt bad.. they bite MY BAG.. haha.. perhap they are v hungry. OR they hate me?? sob sob.... Well... The 3rd pics depicts the 2 guys squeezing the milk from the goats... Mr Hay said that their milk is similar to human ones.. they have 2 tits and they are super BIG.. haha.. we started to laugh... I took a lot of pics.. but only decide to upload 3.. hehe....oh ya.. i brought back the goat milk. dun think i will drink. i dun like to drink milk.. =p.. will give it to my sister

After that we went to jurong island. Its a restrictive place. CANt take any pics. I took some but was force to delete. I guess i am quite determine to take chemistry in future ba. Either be a chemistry teacher if nt will camp near the jurong island to work. HAHA... Work for shell? ha.. see la.. Do well for A levels?? I must do well..

The journey to the west was a long one. Manage to study econ on the bus.. haha.. I fall asleep on the way back.. I doze off. I almost break my neck.. haha.. But well.. i am fine.. Just wake up from nap.. feeling slighty better.. must mug hard today... Gg back to sch tmr.. then gg to my fren chalet.. liwan , jia yoU!!!!!!!!!!! had quite a lot of sharing with ms wong n Mr Goh. Anyway, i din expect ms wong to knoe my name. When she called my name, i am kind of shock... Somehow become a bit popular =p=p..

Well.. i change my blog song.. Its my sister wedding song.. I will also use it =p=p=p.. haha.. i ahev ard 3-4 wedding songs... yea....

SUPER STUDENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL THE WAY

yupz.. change a new blogskin.. Nice?? Of course.. =p=p But hoping for a nicer one.. =p=p

trying hard to talk sense with my maid this morning but to no avail. haix. i always treat her like my fren/sis.. share with her food. But somehow i felt that what i have done mean nthg to her. She shows her attitude. She wanna equal status from my parents. Well, to be frank , we always treat her like fren. We never demand a lot from her but her character suckz recently. I cried after talking sense to her. i hit my hand against the cupboard after talking to her. Its painful but it din outweigh the pain i experience in my heart. My mum is sending her back. Ms fong, you must be very happy hearing that...haix... 2 yrs of "friendship" turns out to be a sour one. she meant a lot to me therefore i cried. Haix.....

Just came back from tuition. Gg for maths one soon. haven finished ms yang Hw. Will try later. GoD grant me strength n wisdom. haix... I need to complete my Macro in 1 wks time. I must jia you! i wanna be a superstudent!!!!!!!!!!! Liwan can de..................

Tired... *yawn* ... tata.. study hard...

LIWAN WANNA BE A SUPERSTUDENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so tired.. wake up at 6.30am. I just dont have the habit to sleep till 10am. I need to adjust my sleeping habit since its sch holiday. Wake up early to do Econ.. haix.. my brain cant hold any info le.. DIED. teach me how to pass. i Look like a zombie now. time of the mnth!!!!!!!! argh.. make me so tired... make me nt productive. God grant me strength n wisdom???

Feel like changing my blogskin... tired.... haix.. Hope to finish 3 chaps of econ then i will switch to maths then at night i will switch back to econ! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sob sob... too many to study.....

let me reflect...

This year is a crucial year for me. Time flies, its june in a few days time. Haix... A level is coming soon. A lot of things happened past few mnths. Got back my chinese and PW results. i din do well. I have been a cry baby. My teachers are very nice to lend me their ears and give me boxes of tissues. I mean i am very thankful n grateful that my teachers do care for me. Their words of encouragement are definitely powerful. These words can brighten my day. I am quite amazed that even the so called " strict" teacher can say smthg that make my day. My first impression of him was kind of bad but to be frank he is a very nice teacher. I know that he is waiting for me to do well for my examination. he doesnt have very high expectation for me. He knows that i am very stress. He saw me yesterday and asked " liwan, why are you always so tired? mug the whole night?" To some this is merely just nthg but to me i thanked him for taking out some of his time to even care to ask me if i am alrite. Well, let's get back to Chi and PW. I did badly for bth the subjects. Well, feeling guilty as usual. Owe my teacher a lot. One icecream cant make me feel any better. What to do? i cant change the fact. I din wan to retake my chinese because i know i wont put in any effort. I always want to give my best in everything i do. Even if one can gurantee me an A in chinese, i wont want to retake. The feeling is no longer the same as before.

Well i started revising since last year. trying very hard to finish chem HW ( past five yr) it was torturous. I am not good at chemistry. I cried a lot of times a lone after chemistry lessons esp after chemistry SPA. Often get scolded when i dont understand. May be i shouldnt use the word "scold". I know my teacher is always unhappy when i am unsure of certain concepts. I was definitely very dejected to see my teacher's response. However, i guess i have mistaken all this while. My teacher told me the other day that she has high expectation for me. if i dont do well or dont understand she would blame herself. I din expect that to come from her. yes, she did tell me b4 that her expectation is very high since we are very close but she din tell me that she would somehow blame herself until wed. I was shocked. I must really do well for this chemistry paper. I am determined to do so. I dont want to disappoint this teacher of mine. I did argue that i gt a B for chem last year and therefore i did well but she told me that i can be better. See? The only thing i can do now, is to strive hard and achieve what i should and must! What should i aim this time? I have an answer in my heart but i do not want to share. God please grant me strength to continue to persevere.

well, i should say that i want to do well in practically every subjects this time. I know that action speaks louder that words. I have been quite consistent . yes, i dont deny that i do slack but i think that its okay because even machine needs to rest! Liwan can de? wanna know what is my msn nick?? " i want to be ur superstudent! I want to be the Best of the Best! Give me your support! Liwan, i am sure you can do it.I want to do well for all my subjects regardless how tough the questions are! I am mentally prepare!" I guess i took a lot of courage to write it and also to tell my teachers that i wan to do well. Some may not be understand...

Enough of the reflection.. today is the last day of school. I miss all my teachers and friends a lot. ms fong asked me why i come to school today?? i told her cos i wanna be a good student. But the fact is that i wanna to see how she embarrassed herself at the challenge. Donate $5 to sch welfare . ms fong supposed to do smthg but she called me and "whine", complain . Actually i know she was very tired. I told her not to go down since she was busy. This is just being considerate. I donated $10 to her stall. I didnt want to tell her but i scared if she tally the $$$ and found out that she gt $10 extra, she may kill her students. Luckily she didnt scold me! her students was very grateful to me. I was their "chao cai mao" I attract a lot customers using my mouth. I kept telling them to buy! i asked my friends to buy too. I told them that the drinks are nice. ha.. Its a lie. Ms fong was very happy to hear that. If that $10 can earn laughters or smilez from the students and ms fong then why not?? ha. Her students took down my number. They said they give me a call if they ever have the second project. Haix. I am broke!

i think i look forward to the end of holiday and JCT. I will make sure i will have more fun while studying. I will be kind of busy doing the video. Ha... Make the best of the best one!!!!!!! Exciting though..i just hope that my parents do not need to make a trip down to school. sOb SOB.... K.. its time to study le!!!!! tata...

I want to be ur superstudent! i want to do well. I want to be the best of the best!!

happy happy happy... =p=p=p....

Must learn to take care my spec.. haha

i must start saving $$$$$$$ =]=]=].. broke le.. so what's next?? what should i buy to pamper myself?? haha.. After JCt then say ba.. sob sob.... study hard....

sport carnival was a boring one.. manage to get hold of a few pics... nt too bad.. its is not easy to take pic secretly lor.. haha...

yupz..when to library to study from 9 till 11... it was super cold then i decided to continue under LT till ard 12.. There were stalls under TRC.. haha.. Sianz.. But i have no $$$$$$$ But manage to sneak out of sch openly to withdraw $$$$$$$.. I just realised that i am BROKE.. so sad.. haix.. I thiNk i need to save money liao... liwan!!....

liwan nt feeling well today. Took a nap but din get to slp well. Its okay.. have to study hard le.. Need to go POm POm then mug econ again.. liwan. can de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

trying very hard to reach ur expectation... I din noe it was so high until yesterday!!!!!!!!

Just came back from a dinner gathering... had a lot of fun.. but i was very tired.. i will miss u guyz.. take care.. we will meet up again... love u guyz..

had my last consultation... Haix.. Gave ms fong a thankz you card.. made it myself.. She asked me a question. " Am i very fierce with you". She kept asking me while reading the card, my answer was " YES, ONly me" .. she was frank with me.. She told me that she is v close with me , therefore when i dun do well, she will blame herself.. she said she will feel v bad... haix.. I told her i am trying very hard le.. MS fong.. i am sorry... dun blame urself la.. u are the best.. i will try my best.. i dun noe what to say... haix.. But after hearing what she said, i feel even more stress. Ms fong , i will jia you!!!!!!!!! I will stay calm.. I promise u...... she told me abt my weakness and she wanna me to overcome it. I will.. give me some more time... She has a v high expectation for me.. Its scary... =[=[

I AM TRYING HARD TO BE A SUPERSTUDENT!!!!!

started to mug hard le... But its tough.. cant concentrate... super tired.. ECON !!!! i need to put in a lot of effort for econ .. =[=[=[.. haix.. God help me... But kind of happy thou.. i found some ex for MATHS.. YEa.. Ms yang will be proud of me.. =p=p.. i love my ms yang!!!! Chem is ... haix.. disappointing... I am tired of chem.... perhap i need a change of environment...

I PASSED my GP essay well.. haha.. HappY!!!!!!!!!!!! improve a lot. I stayed back after class to talk to mdm lim.. She was very happy. yUpz.. i told her i will continue to persevere.. i wont disappoint her.. tralalala.. hah.... She gave me some advices too.. hehe.. After that she told me some skills to tackle comprehenison ques.. haha.. Yupz.. i wll try to improve on my comprehension too.. Liwan u can de...

having 2 1/2 hr of chem consultation tmr..( hope that it will be a happy one) I am tired.. have to skip my lunch again.. POor me!! I do pity myself.. After that have to rush dwn to Tamp mac and meet my frens... Tired tired.... Liwan, u have to press on.. haix....

v tired... physics tuition n maths tuitions were alrite.. I love ms yang!!!!!! haha..

Tmr is mOn.. another tiring day... consultation and tuition.. gd luck to me.. haha.. Liwan, jia you.. all the way...

nthg much to blog.. *yawn*

Well.. wake up v early to study n pack my stuff... After finished all this its already 3 plus... took a nap.. i stopped studying from then.... ha... gg to study .. Liwan, jia you!

I find that i have changed slighty. I start to listen to people. get to fork out some time to chat with my parents. Let them pour out their unhappiness at home and at their work. i will lend people ard me my listening ears. I know i am also a very busy gal, but i will learn to listen to what they wanna to say. Its okay, i can stay up till very late to complete my stuff, but most importantly i have learnt to share with people my opinions. Also, i realise that i learn to encourage people ard me.. tell them that they are nt bad. I have become slighty naggy...

Well, i hope this is a good thing.

Gonna go study le.. Liwan, jia yoU!.. hope that i can always be a good daughter listening to what our parents wanna say.. be a gd sister, sharing with my sis... yupz....

became an auntie today...

i find chem test easy.. but still gt killed by the paper.... I know i fail again.. so obvious... tired...

this morning gt "shoot" by ms fong lor.. Told her abt the 'PAT " thing then she said " i thought ni de lao shi bu jian le" .. lolx.. we started laughing.. i have found an ans.. next time then tell her...

So... college cleaning was quite successful. I din do housework b4 yet have to run ard to get gif, broom n mop.. aint easy afterall.. tired.. Luckily my hand nt that rough.. haha..

Tired tired.. next week shall be my BREAK!!!!!!! haha... tired.. God bless me with strength.. scary.. after next week.. hav to start mugging again....

not gg out tmr.. definitely upset.. v tired....

Din manage to have my lunch today. haix.. But ate up the chocolate MR ANg gave me.. Nt very nice.. haa.. today's conultation lasted for 1 hr... ms fong spent 45 minutes to teach me 1 ques.. HOW CLEVER CAN I BE??? haix.. 4get it.. upset sia... But i told her i am still v determined to be superstudent!!!!!!!! Liwan, jia yoU! can de....

Need to go study for tmr..GD luck... tata

din rain today.. walk to sch with ms fong... I think i can make a conclusion that teachers walk very fast. Tired... but fun... she said that Mr Tan told her that" wo de lao shi bu jian" ... But i denied...

Lessons were fine... GP test was fine too.. I mean just hope to hit 20?? i tried my best...
AFter that i went for consultation. It was a "fierce" one.. had some argument over the equations.. but alrite la.. laughed in the end...

Should i join the cousnelling course? its 400 buckz.. Its approve by MOE.. How?? But it will be free if i ask 7 people along.. haix... i guess if i manage to ask ard 2 to 3 people .. it will be cheaper.. Its a 3 mnth course... hopefully on weekend.... i dun noe.. haix.. hOw?? but i am really interested.. may talk to my teachers and see what can i do.. After joining the course, i will get a cert which allow me to do some social work... HOW?? HOW??? haix.... and even help the sch counsellor.. But this is my dream! should i pursue? haix....

After school i went opp to have my lunch with sandy.. She is really a very nice fren. I appreciate n love her a lot.. she can make me laugh! haha.. thankz sandy.. Though we dun get to go out v often, we still keep in contact . I hope we can always be good frens.. I accompanied her to the supermarket.. haha.. on the way, we had a lot of fun.. We talked abt JCt too.. haix.. it wont be an easy one! CHem, physics will be damn difficult so i suppose Maths n Econ too.. But i am determined to do well! I dun care.. lIwan jia you!

hmm.. need to study le ... must do well for chem!!!!!!!!!!! cant tahan le..

Walked to sch today. It started drizzling.. ha.. i was so lucky that powerpuff gal came to my rescue.. ha.. Yupz.. we walked to school together. we crapped a lot... Her umbrella was quite lousy... But i really appreciate it.. Thankz my powerpuff gal. I guess if ever i din bring umbrella , i will miss u.. haa...

SPA was quite alrite.. I hope i am fine.. God thankz... get to do physics. Quite happy with the pace i am gg.. But i received a bad new from MR Lim. He said that our JCT physics exam will be very difficult. Why ??? haix... received 2006 JCT paper, Scan thru the paper le, find the structure of the paper quite alrite. Hope that the ques wont be difficult... =[

Having GP comprehension test tmr.. DEAD.. Jia you ba... Thankz Mdm Lim, i noe u care for me.. At least i know i am in ur heart.. ha.. =p=p ...

My chemistry is nt gd afterall.. At first i thought i am on the right track.. after just nw, my hope for chem seems to vanish into the air....

yes, gt scolded by Mr Looh for asking a very basic ques... shouldnt have approach him... should i persevere ? shouldnt i? God, pls? i am lost. teach me what to do.. i am v upset . It is very stressful.. My teachers exceptions are v high... why? why? Do i look smart? i below to the low end one.. nt those v smart ones... Pls understand that .. I L1R5 only merely allow me to step into JC... a lot of basics are nt there yet... But i am trying DAMn hard to get my basics righT!!!!!!!!! well.. its okay .. no one will understand as no one noes what i am doing at home? nt one noe hw much hardwork i put in... I am tired... God ? why? Why? why? why?

Tmr gt SPA... God grant me strength n wisdom.. Thankz you...

gg off to study................

hhaa.. show u guys some pics... haha... My darling...

I noe.. i am very Purple-ish?? haa.. wore a purple tube, purple hair band... everythIng also purple... fall in love with purple...

Ha.. yea.. she gave me a kiss... i knoe that it looked like she was being force to do so.. haha.. no la.. i just wanted to capture this scene.. therefore i had to make sure that she kissed me for a long period of time..

Yea, its me n her again.. Love her... she is so chubby... haha..There are more pics.. but too lazy to upload le....

That's it... need to study for spa.. tata... Jia you liwan...

wake up very early n started to doll up... when for physics tuition... Learn a lot of things but nt physics... Thankz Mr derrick.. will learn to talk properly...

tired.. dun feel like blogging.. merely in the bad mood.. gg to slp... tata... hope tt i will get to unload everyhting tmr...

Hmm... wake up at ard 9 plus ... after breakfast, i started doing RJC KSP tut, Ionic chem remedial.. I did take a break in between.. ha... After finished the 2 of them.. its already 2 plus... i decided to go out.. yuppy! i went to TM at ard 3.. so i bought 3 hairbands.. after that... i shop for pencil case... then I decided to cut my HAIR... so spend quite a sum of $$$$$$$$$$$$ ... quite disappointed though.. cos my hair looks the same as last time. No one realises that i cut my hair till i tell them.. so i wasted $$$$$ .. its okay.. will cut again when sch start... will use my new pencil case next term.. So what is my next target? Erm.. changing SPec.. haha.. I tHink i will... definitely will.. may be will change by the first or second week of holiday...

Kind of sad that i am spending a lot lately.... but i dun mind though.. what cause me to hesitate is that is nt my $$$$$$... Yes, my parents give me $900 a mnth... sometimes more than that if i need... of course i save part of it.. the rest i will use it for tuition fees.. so part of it is my "hard save" money.. haha.. which is quite a lot.. But i always feel guilty when spending $$ why cant i be like my other frens.. just spend n spend... haix....

When i reached home, i did some research on genetics.. then look thru some comprehension. I guess i will ask mdm Lim for help again for my comprehension.. SOmehw i noe the way to tackle essay le... need to work on it.... jia you... Finished Mr Looh ex 6 too.. Tried the econ HW.. bUt a bit sianz.. somehow din put in a lot of effort for econ... Must really jia you during the holiday.. will start econ during the last week of may ba.. Hope that nthg will happen to my econ.. Liwan, discipline !!

Tmr gg for physics tuition.. hope that Mr Derrick has already planned for me.. i am tired.. i tried my best.. After that gt ms yang lesson.. will show her my full mark maths test.. haha.. I think she will be damn happy... ms yang!!!!!!!!!! ha.. she said she might be coming to Tjc on MOn... hee.. Yea.. hope so.. if cannt also nvm.... Gg to my ah ma hse tmr since its mothers' day.. Must enjoy tmr.. cos MON will be another tired day... But hopefully a happy one...

Need to study for SPA nw.. cos i wont have time to study on MOn.. Jia you liwan.. Love urself.. love everyone... tata....

SUPER STUDENT!!!!!!!!!!

part 2

getting lazier.. sob sob.. HOW?

Finished electrochem tut 2.. waiting for my dear to call me.. apparently u din reply my sms .. i feel v down.... haix.. nvm... Tried ten yr series ques till i am super tired.. The ques are always the same one... So sianz.. so i gave up.. i select ques to do.. Many of them i tried b4 in Mr Looh class and of course other sch tut.. i guess during the holi i will revise again.. tired liao... So mon, i hope to clear everything on electro chem... that's my short term goal..

So what's my plan tmr? Hmm.. apparently, i tried my maths tut le.. its quite alrite.. haha.. I think so.. i will ask ms yang on Sun to help me.. I Think i will finish KSP n ionic equilibrium remedial exercises .... after that will do GP after which... i am nt sure .. may be Econ? My econ.. haix.. lagging v far away... i need to go lib n print stuff soon.. LAzy ME!..... oH YA.. NEED TO Study chem SPA.. i gt level 5 out of 8 leh.. which i thInk is nt bad... But our cher said that its horrible... nvm.. Oh ya.. still need to do Mr Looh's HW.. shiT !!!!!!!!!!! all the HW that i owe him.. i am dead.... Well.. will see how it goes ... somehow i feel that i have started to slow down a lottle liao.. Nt sure if its a good tHing but... YAWN!!!!!!!!!!

NEVER EASY TO BE A SUPERSTUDENT.. KIND OF TIRED... REST EARLY!!!!!!!!!



part 1
Got back my maths test. GOTTEn 25/25... Thankz Mr Ang and Ms yang for ur constant support and help...

still quite affected by the ring size.. I still find that its too BIG!!!!!!!!!! what can i do??

suppose to feel very happy today.. but i am nt. gt very affected by the people ard me. I am sorry if its my fault. Blame me ba...

I talked to Li Min today.. she made me realise smthg! Its the quality of time not quantity! I agree.... But its okay...u wont understand....

So tired.. later need to chIong chem again.. i tHink i will go n take a nap.. very tired... Nite nite... Will Blog abt smthg which have disappointed me lately some other day or tonite.. tata....

Pe was quite intense today.. DAmn tiring but i persevere throughout! so happy.. hah.. Thankz Mr ng for ur advice. I am touched. He approached me and asked if i am alrite. he told me to input 5 mins of stroll in my table table.. but i told him that i have been walking to sch lately... but he said that i hav to make sure that i am nt thinking abt work.. sob sob....

Haix.. when to try rinG! Oh dear, mine is size 15.. i am damn upset la.. I thInk its time to go on diet le.. but does that help??? The ring was very nice... Hope to wear size 12 b4 my wedding.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! Am 1 that fat?? sob sob...

shopped for the all day.... its time to study tmr.. Will mug hard this weekend.. tata

ERM....

feeling much beta... stop coughing... So tired... Just finished maths n econ HW. ArGH!... haven do chem HW. later ba.....

was very busy the whole day. Lesssons were continuous. din have break.. History lesson was taken up by chem make up lesson. my lunch was taken up my chem consultation. Yupz.. So i was damn busy....

Somehow, its time to chiong econ liao.. My econ is lagging very very behind. HAIx.. God give me strength!!!

Nthg much to blog abt.. Btw, sandy said i look happier this yr? is it true?? haha... hope so.. She said i look less stressful.. Ha.. okay la.. up to u .. Hope to meet up soon. Though we dun get to talk v often, still we can talk a lot of crap.. haha.... Sandy, take care... fren 4ever....

din noe u care for me so much... thankz...

had maths test this morning., The test isnt difficult but i am quite slow. wasnt sure.. But shld be fine.. Hope to get full mark.. haix....

Chem mock spa was argH! dun noe.. i din do the exp.. too sianz la. haha.. its okay since its mock only. will jia You....

i have to chiong electrochem liao. Will jia you de.. need to finish MJC de. SO, i left 10 yr series electrochem, KSP ( RJC) , Organic chem prelim! i can put a full stop to chem revision? Then chiong prelim n jct papers... Hmm.....
What abt physics? ha.. nt all teh chaps are tested lor! i was so angry after learning abt that. I studied so hard.. I hope they wont include measurements.. haha.. And all my weaker chaps! I WAN KINEMATICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! at least i learn smthg new that breaking force is -a.. haha...
i will start to "ON" on my engine for maths again after i clear chem. I need ms yang and mr ang help for sure.. I have 2 gd teachers... I need more prac... i can de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what abt economics? I need to go lib and print a lot of stuff.. haha.. YEA! can de... Jia yOU!... love myself......

striving hard to be a superstudent. !!!!!!!!!! Jia yoU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Argh... had an argument with ms fong. Sianz.. ended very sad... haix.. human factor Vs results? which is more impt to me? of course i chose human factor.. was damn unhappy withh a lot of things la. its all my fault. She just dun understand hw i feel. She wanna refer me to counselling again. But will it change the fact that the feeling is nt the same anymore?? It wont. Since she also knoes that its different then what's the point. I thInk one day, i wil take a gun and shoot myself. HAppy??? just realised that its painful to quarrel with my fav teacher.

may be i shld commit a copy cat crime too? shoot veryone in sch??? Let love turn into hatred. I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haix....

I need a break. BUT I AM HAVING MATHS TEST AND CHEM MOCK SPA TMR. ARgh.. haiz... need to do so many HW.. I give up liao la.

part 2
ms yang's lesson was quite fun today. learn quite a lot of things. happy! But i am afraid of tues test. So sick n tired..

sms a 10 pg long msg to my dear just nw. I am quite amazed that i have so much to tell u? Hope to receive one from u sooon.. haa...

sleepy... haven finished studying. Haix.. Chem mock spa on tues too. Its tough. Its never easy. God gives me strength. WO HAO LEI. ( din take vitamin B today so.. haha.. )


Part 1
liwan, u are sooo lazy.. hah

Haix.. getting lazier each day.. what to do? Or may be i should say i have nthg much to do? or may be i should say i have no more ten yr series to do?? haha.. well, actually i have a lot of stuff waiting for me to do? But i choose to ignore =p... just nw mei qi ( my senior) sms me , she wanna pass me her ten yr series for chem. Its nt like the one i bought. this one has 20 yr? this one gt ANS... to be frank i din wanna buy from her since i am like finishing soon.. but i feel bad.. so i decided to buy. Also, since this ten yr series gt ans, i wouldnt have to bother ms fong so much. i always feel that i am a burden to all my teacher. Esp chem... so with the ans provided, i hope i will clear the doubts my own. Perhap, she will be happier. She can go home earlier? she can do her admin work? and........ etc....

I am the lady boss today. But din take any $$$$$$ as usual. tried to study at the shop. Somehow finished maths and tried to refresh my memory for chem spa.. well, i think i try my best liao la.. Just rmb smthg.. i 4get to Mr Looh work. Actually its not that i am forgetful, is just that i know i dun noe hw to do. Sob Sob.. Help help....

Gg for tuition later.. Ms yang is gonna help me !!!!! I love her a lot. ha.,.. she always tell me she knoes that i love her.. haha.. I am very grateful to have her in my life.. she gonna come to TJC probably next week or the week after.. I gonna treat her dinner for sure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEa.. love u deep deep....

i was feeling quite down just now . Sitting at the cashier, listening to wo yi wei and wo ke yi. i reminisce the time i spent with my dear, and also the time i spent in TJC. So fast... Time flies.. everything has changed. I also feel that i have i changed to someone who talk less. Liwan, what cause the change???? To be frank , i knoe what cause the change. But i just dun wan to admit that u are so significant in my life. i dun wan to overrate u ! haix...

Liwan, study hard ba... Love those who really cared for u? yea? stay focus! stop letting all these small little thingy affect ur mood and studies. They aint worth that much...

Shall go study le......

my dear, thankz for "visiting me " I really knoe u love me a lot. At the same time i am afraid to lose such a noce dear. I am nt tired. I will continue to love u. YEa??? Dun be upset or feel guilty. We just need to give what we can.... ui dun wan to stress u? u get me?
i was quite speechless just now. I din noe what to say. I am afraid of silence. I am really v contented with what you have given me. You have never neglected me. I knoe u are busy and u do miss me yea? stay happy n cheerful k????

tired le.. gonna turn in soon... i slacked the whole day. Must jia you tmr.. maths test and Chem spa... ArgH!! GO GO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have found my purposes living in this world le. ( i hope so.. cos somehow i am nt fully convinced yet )

Superstudent
- its not easy to be a superstudent. I am trying hard to be one. To be frank, i am nt sure the correct definition of "superstudent". Well, then how do i define "superstudent" ? A superstudent need not be smart, as long as one is sincere to learn and take initative to learn. A superstudent must respect the teachers and learn to communicate and work well with the teachers. That's the prerequisites??
well, for me.. i am nt very smart, i tried very hard to achieve. I am definitely very sincere to learn. i always treat all my teachers like frens or sisters or mothers. but i always feel that have nt met the prerequisites.. still a long way to go... But one thing for sure is , i really care a lot for my cher. i love them a lot. Without them, i wouldnt be able to survive in TJC. A big thankz you!

Superteacher
- its not easy to be a superteacher. By my own definiton. A superteacher is one who really can inspire and motivate her students. Well, its isnt easy one job is nt only teaching, she has to do a lot of admin works too.In today's society, everyone is vying to climb up the coporate ladder. Some of teachers said that a lot of teachers are striving very hard to get promoted. They need to work very hard to impress the admins. After hearing that, i was very sad. But i have come to terms that this is life. To me, a teacher need not to very knowledgable. As long as they have the passion, they are up to it? i was wrong! Its okay. To be frank , that has spoilt my interest to be a teacher. Well, i will still consider. I will continue to find out more. After i get back my A level results then consider.

Supergirlfriend and Superwife and Supermother
- shall link these 3 together. Well, there are a lot of uncertainties. Supergirl/Superwife is one who really loves her partner a lot. She has to sacrifice a lot time and focused attention. Must learn to balance work and family. Well, i suppose what our partners really want is to love , care and concern. GIve her the security and affirmation. Tell him that, he is the best, no one can replace him.
its not easy to maintain the relationship and always pray that it wont turn sour. but i think its really very sweet. HA... So what is the best age to get married?? 26? we shall see.. hah....
Supermother- ha.. its nt easy too. Work w/o complain... nt easy. So plan to have how many children? none, 1,2? ha.. leave it to GOD. I suppose, Whether i can be someone supergirlfren, superwife and even supermother , will leave it to GOD.

Done.. that's all i will pursue ... Nt greedy rite? ha... Let's work towards our goals.. Liwan, jia you.. love myself... =]=]=] still sick, but i am strong! ha.. time to bathe and watch tv n mug!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

寄没有地址的信,这样的情绪有种距离,你放着谁的歌曲,是怎样的心情能不能说给我听,雨下得好安静是不是你偷偷在哭泣,幸福真的不容易,在你的背景有我爱你,我可以陪你去看星星,不用再多说明,我就要和你在一起,我不想又再一次和你分离,我多么想每一次的美丽,是因为你,幸福它真的不容易...

I love this song a lot. It is definitely a sad song.. Dear, can u guess what i wanna tell u??

My Fav part is : 我可以陪你去看星星,不用再多说明,我就要和你在一起... U understand what is the meaning behind it? Its not just watching the stars in the sky....

Dear, 幸福真的不容易,在你的背景有我爱你.. Do u noe what is the behind it??

Dear, 我不想又再一次和你分离.. U noe what i mean??

Well... may be when u noe le.. sms me.. haha.. Dear, i love u .. must take care....WO ZHEN DE HAO AI NI. Thankz for loving me so much too... U must take care.. dont worry so much abt me too....

down with cold, fever, sore throat and flu....

poor me.. I thInk i am too stressed up le.. so more prone to virus. lessons were alrite though i stone throughout. i used at least 10 pac of tissues.. siao liao... haha...

After lesson, i skipped my lunch to clear my doubts with ms fong. definitley trying very hard!!!!! She said that i look very pale and gg to faint soon. Obviously gt "scolded" for coming to school. But no choice, i really need to clear my doubts. Too many things to do. May nt clear my doubts on FRi. MOn must jia you again. Liwan, can de k??? scary sia... Left with 3 weeks. How to clear electro chem and ionic equilibrium?? God help me?? give me more time??? sob sob...

So.. next week gt mock spa and maths test. Tried ms yang's ex.. very funny.. some i noe hw to do.. some are like so simple yet i cant do.. I dun noe what's wrong with me.. can go die liao.... So i need to plan the things i wanna to complete on SAT. ( which is electro chem from MJC, RJC, TJC tut) so that Mon i can clear my doubts. After that I will chioNg ionic equilibrium again.. Then i can say bye bye to ms fong liao =[=[=[ ... haix..

Tired.. gonna go n slp le.. Liwan, jia you!

went to study today. DID GP, CHEM, AND MATHS... have to continue gg maths later...





having a bad sore throat. HAix. very painful. My dEAR pass it to me de.. ha.. u must be feeling guilty.. ha.. make me stand and wait for u. LATE for 1 hr.. sob sob....





well, let me show u my DEAR pic..





Dear, u look gd sia.. haha.. Love u 4evEr.. Give u a kiss.. haha...

So tired.... Time to go mug again.. tata...

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan