Today lessons ended early. Econ test was alrite actually but somehow i wrote a lot of crap. Tired.. why WHy why??? aRGh!!!!!!!!!

finished dynamics today> Its a horrrible attempt. din get to clear my doubts with teh physic teacher.. HE is missing in action.. cant find him.. Haix..

Today i learnt to look after people. First was tracy. She was sick. Having bad gastric pain. i feel very guilty that to ask her stay back with me...

After that i help P to look after her son.. haha. He is so cute. manage to take pics of her son. I treated him to candy. I taught him to say I love u to his mummy. I told him that to say that to his mum in front of me... After a while Mrs Loke appeared, he ran towards her and hugged her. I can feel that he loves Mrs Loke a lot. To him, Mrs Loke is very impT!!!!! Mrs Loke thanked me for looking after her son. "Mrs Loke, ur son has smthg to tell u ," i said. Immediately, her son shouted " MUMMY, I LOVE YOU!" I was damn happy to hear that. I always thInk that it is v gd to say " i love u" to people ard us... Mrs Loke was super happy at that moment. I feel so happy that i can bring across this impt msg to her son. I am damn happy. I took his pic.. he is super cute.. Love him a lot....

i feel like giving up caring for sertain ppl.. i am tired. Why do i always hav to fall into their traps?? How to tell them that they are v impt to me?? But the problem is to them i am just insignificant. Liwan, forget it ba. u have done what u can. Why? Why bother so much? if they dun appreciate then 4get it. u still have a lot of people who truly love u but u are nt giving enough to them. the problem is i dun bear to let go. Why these people, u are just some fools. 4get it........ Tmr will be a better day....

GG out to chiong the whoole day. I mean study from 10 onwards. Liwan, jia you.. stay focus. So tired.. eyes are closing.

LIWan, study hard. I am still very far away from "SUPERSTUDENT" ....

I am back to blog again...

Quite slack... Hmmm.. MS Yang promised me to go back to TJC. So happy.. I really hope she wont break our promise..

talking to ms betsy while blogging. We are talking abt what happened 7 yrs ago when she was still my cher. HAa.. i definitely miss those time. I bet she does too.. haha.. YEa, we will be meeting up again.. cant wait sia.. From a teacher ---> to a Fren. Its nt easy??? But i am very blessed to have her as my fren / cher.. .. God thankz... We will be gg to ECP this time. i am so gonna scream out loud.. To distress.. haha...

Okay.. having test tmr.. Gonna face the music tmr.. gonna stay till v late to study liao.. Haix... I just cant focus.. can someone teach me what to do??? i always ended up in another dreamland.... so stupid.. Dun have the mood to study leh!!!!!!!!! ARGH!

Okay.. I have planned the things i wanna to do on Tues. Yea.. Gg to meet my dear.. GG to mug all the way. Jia you together.... I hope i can finish the tasks that i have assigned for myself which i hope is nt too ambitious... haha....

have to go chiong again.. WANTING to BE A SUPERSTUDENT IS NT EASY, BUT I WILL NOT GIVE UP BECAUSE THE BATTLE HAS NT ENDED YET.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS BETSY... haa...

Wont be able to go out with ms ng today. Another day.... Hope she will be able to enjoy herself...

Wake up quite early to study protectionism.. I cant stand myself sia.. I am damn slack. Actually today is my "buffer" day.. I can do anything i like.. Haix.. But i have no choice but to study econ. SIANZ... I cant stay focus. HOW??? I memorise half way, i will be at another dream land.. Thinking of other things... SOb sob.. why why why?? Liwan, that's nt the way.. u are so gonna fail Tmr.. U idiot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God gives me strength pls.. haix...meeting ms yang at 2.30.. she gonna teach me stat.. haix.. Actually i am nt too sure what to ask her.. Oh, i remember le.. I wanna ask her the area under the graph.. Liwan, stop slacking... I wanna ask her stat too.. JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! have to pass her some vector exercises too..

SO gONNA STAY FOCUS. STOP THINKING ABT OTHER THINGS. Btw.. i really like the video that i have done. But smthg is missing which is " feeling" .. i cant feel any sadness leh?? Not emotional enougH!!!! There is still room for improvement.. SO what is next.. I will venture on "sketch book" I will make my own sketch book.. Heard that it cannt be too thiNk.. if nt, it wont be nice.... Well.. Jia you.. But first i need to develop all the pic.. Nt cheap leh.. Gonna declare bankrupt soon...But no choice la.. make sure i can "hand in" on time.. ARGH!!!!!!!!

LIWAN , JIA YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HMM.. did slack a bit today...

Finally get to see the draft of my video. I need more pics la.. HAix.. CAn de.. SLOWLY.. haven deadline yet.. Just pray that my cOm wont crash... haha...

Did Sec A , B , C of energetics for the whole day. I did take a nap la.. i must admit i did slack a bit.. haha.. Well.. guess how much i get for paper 1? section A?? I shocked myself.. I gt 82% Even beta than my organic chem.. I was so damn happy.. After that i tried section B, C .. i dun really have a lot of problems with calculations. I am so proud of myself. But too bad no one is able to share with me my happiness anymore...

Gg to study hard for Econ...Study till 12 plus can le.. Hope everythIng will be fine.. Will wake up early to study ECOn again. 1 more hr to ms Ng BD.. Shall stay up late to wish u.. MS ng , touched a not.. =p=p=p.. Tired...

LIWAN, JIA YOU!!!!!!!!! PHYSICAL CHEM IS NTHG, AS LONG AS U ARE CONSISTENT, EVERYTHINg will BE fine... LOVE URSELF.. BE A SUPER STUDENT!!!!!!!!!!

packing my table just now...

Din get to throw away a lot of stuff cos they are all v impt to me.. MY CHI.. I put all of them aside into a Box.. i din throw them away. Cos i noe i put in a lot of effort leh.. all the essay.. haix.. Still get a bad grade..

There are some paper which i tried last time during Promo, i din throw away too. My chem and maths... I just put them one side... Somehow these mean a lot to me... i am nt sure if i will have a chance to look at them again b4 JCT but i will make some time!!!!!!

Trying very hard to study for Mon test for econ. nt easy leh! But liwan will still jia you. Wont let Ms Ho down. lolx.. Tmr is Ms Ng BD.. So are we gg out in the evening?? I must study hard today so that i can go out with ms ng tmr if she is gg to jio me.. ha....

SO... I will go bathe nw and Finish CHEM ten yr series Then WILL CHIONG ECON ALL THE WAY.. LOLX.. JIA YOu liwan.. CAn de.. 6 more mths.. To be honest i have been trying very hard to stay focus. I cant focus recently, always thInk of other thingy.. This is bad... ARGH!!!!!!!!! FOCUS FOCUS!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUPERSTUDENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just came back from Toa Payoh to watch the prize presentation and the Final. I realised something after gg there. I found out that i am having a difficult time finding my true self. The lIwan that u guys know is nt the real one. Where have the fun loving and and crappy Liwan been to? Saw a few of my old frens just now. They told me i am no longer like last time. They said that smthg is supressing me. Something is stopping me from being happy and cheerful. Why?? Liwan, where have u been to??? is this what u want?? i am so jealosu of people who have found themselves somehow or other. I am tired....

Chem lecture on Transition today! sianz.. i cant focus. i think i am too tired. Karen and I were trying very hard to understand. But she understand more than me. We were trying hard cos we dun wan to disappoint the lecturer-- Ms fong.. Sianz.. I dun really understand that chap. Its too fast. ARGH!!!!!!

Recently, i also found out that it is nt easy to earn a smile from people u love. No matter how i tried, i cant make my fren happy. I asked Heidi this morning... should i stop ? Somehow its really very tiring to always tell ur frens to stay happy. Make things for them to encourage them. Its is nt easy. I guess this is my retribution. Well, last time my chers always tell me must stay happy, must be optimistic. They spent a lot of saliva and effort telling me to stay happy but i just couldnt change until lately. Somehow, i started to pity them le. They must be feeling very tired to keep repeating the same thing everyday. But THEY DIN GIVE UP ON ME... so i shldnt give up on my fren too????? I will continue to encourage my frens out there no matter where i stand in their heart. I WILL LOVE GUYZZZZZZZZ................

FRI le.. finally.. need to pack my stuff and CHIONG ECON AND CHEM !!!!!! NO CHOICE.....
BE A SUPERSTUDENT

Hmmm.. tired...

had my GP test. HAix. I was damn tired after doing the paper. I think a lot. ITs very tiring. GOD please, i hope i improve.

After GP lesson, I saw MR TAN. He asked me if i feel slighty less stress than last yr. I din ans him till i gt to see him in the canteen. I found the ans. My ans is NO cos this year my chem teacher is not here with me to share with me my happiness and sorrow. I miss her a lot. After answering him, i walked away. I was very sad. When will u be back..

Hmmm.. Just now went home with Novita and Amelia. Amelia and I have a good time teasing Novita. When we board bus 38 , i was very shocked to see one couple kissing. ( may be this nt the correct word.. its...........) The worst thing was it was the gal who initiated it!!!!!!!!! ARGH.. such a disgrace... I can tell u, if there is a bed, there goes the virginity of that gaL!!!! Or may be its gone already. That guy was wearing sch uNI leh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wa lao.. i cant believe it. For me, i dun mind hugging, holding hands, a slight peck on the cheek when i am exposed to sooooo many people. Why should we let other people see the things we do with our love ones ??? Nvm.. Sigh.. disappointed.. its a disgrace....

Well, Liwan still have to jia you. MOn hav econ test. ARGH! The 2 chaps arent easy at all. Gg facial later. At last can have at least 1.5 hr break from work. Shall go there and relax... haha.. May be i should try SPA next time. HEHE.....

LIWAN ALL THE WAY! TRYING VERY HARD TO BE UR SUPERSTUDENT!!!!! ON THE OTHER HAND, I REALLY MISS MY CHEM TEACHER!!!!!!!!!!!!! =[=[

Part 2
Just wake up from a nap. Still very tired. YAWN...

still a long way to go. 5 more mnths. cant i just tahan for another 5 more mnths. ARGH... JIA YOU k?? i think i will go for counselling when i am free. Just wanna see hw a counsellor counsels people. HAHHA.. Nt trying waste her time. Anyway, must see if i gt time a not...

After tmr will be a beta day!!!!!!!!!! Liwan, jia you.. can de.. =] smiles more.....

Part 1
well. i am feeling kind of tired today. Slept at 12 plus last night cos i have plenty of stuff to do. Tonight have to prepare for tmr GP essay test. HAix.. I am so gonna screwed...

Today civics and contact time were meant to be interesting but somehow I feel down after listening to it. Its all abt marriage. I think it is not the right time to give this kind of talk lor. HAix.. a mixture of feelings.. dun noe wat to say. Will share with my DEAR on Tues...

well, i am dozing off soon........ tata... taking a nap b4 i go for tuition.. nite.........

LEARnt 2 things JUST NW . TAUGHT BY MR TAN !!!!!!!!!!!!

I learnt that my han yu ping ying is incorrect. It should be bU DAO WENG. YEs, i want to be BU DAO WENG..

HE taughht my fren and i one phsyics concept about braking force. I think i will rmb it forever. THANKZ MR TAn. At that point of time i was samn happy. I was shouting or may be yelling to him that "i will jia you" . It is like telling him that i will really strive hard. It was really from my bottom of my heart. MR TAN, u can feel it a not. I think i was very stress just now.. BUt still i am very persistent that i really really really wanna do well. Can anyone understand that kind of feeling/??? I knoe actions speak lounder than words. I am really really trying super hard. Its not easy at all... sob sob....

having essay test on Thurs again. Haix. Nt confident enough to do this essay. I need to start memorising all the facts . Mdm Lim said that its not easy cos GP is a content sub! sob sob.. But i must jia you.. Love always.........................

I WANNA BE UR SUPERSTUDENT! I WANNA GIVE MY BEST IN ALL I DO. LIWAN CAN DE.. i wannA BE BU DAO WENG!!!!!!!!!

lessons were alrite.... Kind of tired though...

had 2 consultations today. Super drained liao.. Maths was alrite.. chem was the one.. Finally ms fong has admitted that she is very mean to me.. She said she will be super strict to people who are close to her. Is it a good thing then?? I told her i super scared of het too .. People often asked me why i am soooo scared of her even though i am very close with her. I think the ans is being disclosed. I told her that its okay not to clear finish my doubts b4 JCT. I told her i miss my chem teacher a lot. and of course i said that my chem teacher is much more impt than clearing my doubts. Haix.. She said that my chem teacher will be back in term 3.. that's so far away. Yupz.. But i told her that i realli realli miss my chem teacher badly. I told her to tell my chem teacher to come back soon. She said she will try but i told her is a MUST.. haha..

Well.. having tuition later... stress sia.. Tmr is a long day again. i think i cant get to study much after i come back from tuition. COs my brain will be dead. SOo many things to finish.. i am lagging behind again. MY electro chem.. I am still unsure of this stupid topics. I still need to do ten yr series for Energetics and MOn i will be having econ test! tHis suckz sia.. sob sob .. so late then inform us. I still dun understand international trade and protectionism!!!!! ARGH!!!!!! help...

k.. gonna go.. I feel like a " BU DIAO ONG" I will never fall!!!!! I can de.. Even if i fall, i will still stand up ... Liwan.. Jia yoU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wake up at ard 8.30 then went down to help my mum. I am the lady boss again! but without pay again. She went to malaysia. =[ so i have to take her place. Actually, i didnt do much. my responsibilities are : issue receipts and of course check that the customers paid teh correct sum. I studied while tendering the shop. I tried doing GP. Sad to say that i spent the2 to 3 hr to finish the correction. I hope its fine. Kind of sianz...

So.. i din manage to do Electrochemistry. Actually its not easy leh. I look at the supplementary. Its enough to kill me. Its very funny. I realise that i still have many hurdles to cross along the journey. For chemistry, i just cleared ionic equilibrium not long ago and here come energetics. After which, i need to clear Electrochemistry. do you understand how i feel?? I mean it is very sianz to face so many hurdles. The problem is i dont always cross the hurdles sucessfully. I always fall. IS ALWAYS. I need a lot of detemination to stand up again. Do u noe hw hurtful that can be? I am nt sure.. the only thing i can do is to tell myself not to give up entirely. Just pray for miracles?? Just pray that one day i will succeed as long as i continue to persevere. I sms ms yang yesterday. I told i have no confidence in Maths. I am really very sick & tired with maths. can i give up. I am really v upset.

Perhap it is hard to be a SUPERSTUDENT. I cant tahan le. God pls give me more strength. HELP ME. I am sick of failing n failing.... Haix. i am speechless.............. May be i shouldnt have registered for A level. may be i should repeat 2nd yr. WO HAO LEI..

tired... din sleep well the whole night.

tried doing MJC tut on STAT.. i wanna cry sia. It suckz.... try doing the stat exercises from the textbook but i gave up after doing one ques!!!!!!!!!!! liwan u are such a disappointment. Haix.. I think i will try 10 yr series ques. I hope it will be standard.

After that i went to do entropy. Sianz. it is not meant to be difficult de. But it is gd to attempt some difficult ques. RJC tut was quite tough. After that i went to look at the ques they have selected from the ten yr series. I almost fainted. This is bad sia.. sob sob.. I need a break.. i haven had my lunch...

Hmmm... i think i will continue with chemistry later. need to do MJC tut on entropy ! quite sucky! haha... After that I will try maths ten yr series.. After that i will DO ELECTROCHEM!!!!!!! IF i am able to complete teh things i have stated. I will be damn happy. Oh ya.. gg to pop later. Shop for stationery. I think i am gg to declare bankrupt soon.. haha.. Liwan pls jia you!all the way.....

May update later...........

Part 2
Haiz.. what i have done so far....
I re-do some of the ques from MJC tut for energetics. After that i went to photocopy RJC tut... I started studying at ard 3 plus... I also finished supplementary and Intergrated questions from our own tut. The integrated ques arent very difficult as long as u grasp the concept well. i hoep that i am on the right. I dun find energetic part 1 difficult. Well, i haven really tried part 2. Wanna try part 2 on entropy butRJC tut look a bit scary. HAHA.. I think is damn difficult. I guess i will leave it till tmr. Look at STAT notes on sampling, i totally dun understand. MS YANG!!!!!! i need help. Luckily she is backed le. SEE a bit hope. I wanted to try the tutorial on sampling but i cant even start. I guess i will tell ms yang to teach me a bit so that i can start doing.....

Wanna to go and sleep. But i dun dare to sleep cos i feel that everyone ard me has started to chiong already. If i slack now, i will be behind time again! haix.. this is the demerit of being a slow learner. No choice. I think i wil start doing MJC maths tut for Binomial & Poisson. I have so many stuff to do. When will i complete them??????????????? I think soon i will be a crazy woman. hao ba.. is time to chiong le.... =O God grant me a bit more strength..........

Part1
lessons were alrite! Quite happy though cos its the end of the week. I know that i will be more busy but its okay! Liwan is really for it.. ( i hope)

talked to ms fong after lesson. I told i was super busy. She said she can understand how i feel. Well, i told her that i miss someone a lot. of course her response was " WHO" . I told her i miss my chem teacher a lot. I really miss her. She is a very sweet and energetic one. I dun noe where have she been to. I was definitley feeling very low when i was talking to her. She knew who i am referring to. But the only thing i care would be will i still get to see her? or May be when will i get to see her? her reponse was she will be back soon. i left her after saying " i really miss her badly" ............................

tired... have to go chiong le.. Going at full engine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stop being so emotional....

I WANNA BE UR SUPERSTUDENT!

many students and teachers gt killed. Why did he need to do so? hatred? i guess somehow i can understand how he felt. He cant get the things he wants. Things just dont go the way he wanna them to be. But does he need to resort to killing so many innocent people. Well, i often dont get the things i want too. But i approach it in another way. I let people ard me to have the things i really want a lot. Like lOVE?? CARE ?? AND concern! haix, why cant he do that? But i guess it was partly because he had mental illness. WHat can we learn from him? from my point of view, i still feel that it will be good to let people have the things i always longed for yet cant get it. God, bless me with more wisdom and give me more time to care for the people ard me. I love them a lot...

Actually Chio killed my fren's fren named henry Lee! i hope tracy is feeling better. I studied with her today. she is a very nice gal. We helped each other a lot. We did physics toegther. She is willing to wait for me while i was talking to my cher. She was willing to stay in library and do maths while waiting for me to meet her. God thankz for giving me such a nice friend. She shared with me about her situations. I was kind of shocked when i learnt that she was so willing to share with me. I mean we dont really know each other well till lately. I will treasure this new fren of mine. God, pls bless her with good health. She is really a brave gal. i wont complain so much abt my plight. I want ti bve a strong gal.

Need to go study le. I need to jia you. Just realised that people ard me has waken up already. Is time for me to chiong all the way. God pls enlighten me and guide me . I am really very scared cos i am always failing. God teach me how to learn from mistakes and not keep asking why always me.

Tired. BUT WILL CONTINUE TO STUDY HARD. I WANNA BE UR SUPERSTUDENT!!!!!! ITS NOT EASY. I KNOW U HAVE ALREADY GIVEN ME THAT TITLE. BUT THAT IS NOT ENOUGH! I WANNA TO SHOW YOU THAT I REALLY DESERVE that!!!!!!!!!! JIA YOU!

lessons were quite alrite....

Finally clear half of my doubts for Energetics. This afternoon consultation was a really a "xiong" but towards the end it gets better. Ms fong was more tensed than i was. She just wanna to clear all the my doubts asap. She said her work is piling up. HAIX... feel like a burden to people............. towards the end, she finally laughed cos i told her something funny. It has been a long time since she last smiled and laughed happily......

After GP lesson, i went to look for Mr Ang to help me sign the excuse letter. I asked him a question. " Mr ang, are you busy?". he said that he has a lot of things to do. But i asked him another question. " why you dont look like you are busy? why isnt it written on your face? " he started to laugh... then i sighed. I told him how i feel about.............. haix... nvm....

Went to TTSH. HAIZ. I cant run away from the fact that i need to take medicine. But i hope it really wot affect me much. But that Doc is a guy, can he really understand how i feel?? He said he will keep me under observation... haiz.... No point arguing with him cos he doesnt understand my worries...........

Gonna go for tuition... God, i pray that the people around me will always be happy. I pray that you can give them more energy to finish their work..... Thankz GOD...............

Lessons were alrite.

Chem Prac was quite fun actually. We made crystals. Hmm... Tried to force myself to have fun. haix.. i think i am weird. I am trying very hard to stay happy!

Finally i found a physics study buddy. I hope we will oth benefits. So Thurs i will start to chiong physics with tracy for one HRs... Liwan jia yoU!!!! Hope to finish kinematics. HAHA. YEA.... hOpe it is useful. =]

tried Energetics. Now i start to understand how to go about doing those ques which i dun noe how to do. gain a bit of enlightenment after Yesterday chem's consultation. Hope i can see the whole pictures by tmr. After that i will go to Entropy!!!!!!!! Liwan, jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sO NOW... is time to chiong entropy. After which i really hope i can study econs! my econ is lagging behind again!!!!!! its tough.Not easy to memorise. Sob sob. may be i should ask Ms wong for help.. =p=p

Ended my mon with a very bad mood. consultation was ..................................................... i am speechless...

I am very speechless now. I dont know how to defend myself anymore. I start to hate myself and the people ard me including the ones i really love a lot. What happened?

I always think that he or she is great even when i dun understand that person. Oh my GOD.. Liwan!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U are too childish. Its time to love myself. What is the point of loving people when u get urself so tired??? i think i dun even understand myself. My dear asked me this ques B4 but my ans was i definitely wont stop loving cos "loving someone is hard but not loving is harder".

GOD, pls teach me how to love everyone around me. It is very hard. How to tell them?? How to express to them that you really care and love them?? How to spread the love??? I really cant tahan le. I guess this is because no one on earth is like me! haix. WO ZHEN DE HAO LEI. WO HENG XIANG FANG QI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God i realise smthg, we should always be contented with what u have planned for us. When we pray for alternatives and you may have granted some people what they prayed for but often people will start to regret. I am not very certain if i have regretted praying for..................................................................... I am trying very hard to treasure what i have but why is it soooooooooooooo tough? God pls help me! May be we should always stick to what u have planned for us.

listening to the song " Right here waiting for you" .. haha... So sweet..........

had a dream yesterday. I dreamt that i did quite well for my tests. But how possible for it come true. BUT i will work super hard to make sure i will do well. I promise! I dun say it for the sake of saying. I WILL AND WILL DEFINITLEY GIVE MY BEST FOR ALL I DO. LI WAN U CAN DE. THERE may be some fool are there who will doubt your capabilities BUT prove it to THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are definitely luckier than them. You have people who love you dearly but they may not have. I suppose when we are at the verge of dying, we will not ask to see our cert, our medal , WHAT WE WAN TO SEE ARE THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE DEARLY AND THE PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU DEARLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Liwan u can de!

I will be a stronger gal after any setback. I dun wan to make the people ard me worry for me.. I LOVE U GUYS......

YEs, ms yang IS back.. MS YANG I LOVE U SO MUCH. CANT Wait tO SEE you LATER... HUGGGGGGGS... HAving physics tuition later, i have decided to change my attitude towards physics le. Hopefully its not too late. I will work damn hard no matter what. I know i am not alone running this race. There are people who are cheering for me at the finishing line.

Bought a new shoes... ehe.. But not very sure if the sch allows me to wear but i am still gg to wear... may be next week.. nt this coming one.. fun fun.........

well, changing spec soon.. died la.. spend a lot of $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ ... but i dun care.. i wan to buy! i found the one i like.

I wake up very early this morning to study. Finished thermo chem. Well, trying to know where is my weakness so that i can clear all my doubts on mOn. At ard 9 plus, ms fong talked to me lor to make sure i am fine. Trying hard to understand her. Ha... very fun talking to her... I am really very grateful to have her in my life. Thankz cher....

Went out with my DEAR.. had a lot of fun. We talked abt a lot of things. My dear, i am very mature rite??? haha.. Love u lot...

I WANNA BE YOUR SUPERSTUDENT ! I WANNA BE YOUR SUPERGalfren......

Got back PW result. the whole cohort din do well. I reached there at ard 3 plus to collect my result. When i stepped into the hall, i saw a lot of people crying. Definitely not the tears of joy. I din see ms fong. I called her...

Yea, she accompanied me from 3 plus to 6 plus lor. I am very grateful to have her in my life but can she really understand? i was speechless and felt very emptied when she was talking sense with me. I tried to tell her how i feel since i am sooooo speechless. I am very grateful that she was willing to spend her few hrs to acompany me . She definitely let me feel that i am not alone. i told her about that PAT and we talked about every other things that we could think of. i noe she was trying hard to make my day. She told me that she was upset that after talking to me for sooo long, she couldnt cheer me up.. haha.. She said she is not good at making people happy but in fact i told her that is her presence that matters... haha....

Left sch ard 7 . She invited me to join her and her fren for dinner. I din go cos i dislike to be someonelse burden. TiRED..............................

Mr Tan, thankz for ur concern too. i am fine. Next time ur turn to treat me eat ice cream hor?? =p...

Will rest early today but i still have to chiong chemistry. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! thermodynamics is difficult. Tired....

Gt back my physics test. i think i am the lowest. I think its time to reflect le. Li Min and i were discussing about our attitudes towards studies. Haix. Let me share with u guys my thoughts.

My chemistry is always fully charged. I have been pushing myself and stretching beyond what i can do.
My Maths is fully charged too. Its time to take out the charger le. I am just waiting for ms yang to turn off the switch and pull out the plug. I am ready for the race.
As for econ, i am 3/4 charged, gg to full soon. trying very hard cos it is not easy. hehe..
NOW, MY PHYSICS!!!!!!!! I realised that i have even found the charger. This is bad. I guess after i get all teh tutorial from pei yan, i will be slowly charging. well, i hope i will be alright soon. I need to push myself. I HAVE TO! I need a lot of discipline to do physics...

I WILL REALLY GIVE MY BEST AND JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

getting back PW tmr. Well, will not wish to comment so much on it. I thInk i should bring packets of tissue to school tmr.

Chiong back right after school. trying to study econ but.. argh... Is bad... But very happy la. cos get to chat ....................... haa....

Okay.. gonna go n continue to study hopefully. =[=[

Today chem test was a horror. I was very sad. My eyes were in fact watery but i tried to control since i have consultation after it. HAIX...
GP comphrension test was a horror too. Nthg is pleasant to me =[

I think the most interesting part for the day was the career talk. I went to LT4 for talk on chemical industries. Somehow i do have a little interest in it but i still prefer teaching cos i find that it is less demanding? i mean i do need to run ard the world. haha. And teaching is fun. See la. i need to find out more..

Went out with mdm koh for lunch this afternoon. I waited for 30 for my pasta. And i spend 10 mins to finish it. To be frank , the pasta is nt too bad. HEE.. Mdm koh said that it is fattening.

Well, need to go and bathe le. having tuition later. Tmr having maths test. Dun feel like studying. Too tired. may skim thru my notes later. Oh ya, i am nt gg to touch chemistry anymore. i mean at least for this week. It is so scary to see chemistry everyday. Did talk to ms fong abt how i feel. I told her i cant tahan and i feel that i am over-stretched. She gave me an alternate road. THANK for trusting me so much. I will still continue to chiong on fri. Wait for that....

getting old le. Knee pain. my body is aching. Time of the month?? Its all TTHS fault. I am so not gg to take the medicine . HAIX...... wait wait wait...

Part 2
din expect that i will have the time to blog. I haven finish studying ionic equilibrium cos i have reached a point whereby i dun noe what to study. HAix. This is bad.
Yes my DEAR sms me... So happy that u have read the entry. dun apologise. I am really fine with u. I love u!! take care.. i guess it is always good to tell u how i feel.. hehe... IN CASE u dun noe........

well, i am running a fever. I am hot ! OOPs ( i mix with the wrong person so.... hehe ) i mean i am feeling a bit warm now. Nt very well but i will still go for the chem test. I also have GP comprehension test tmr. Sianz.. I haven prepare. I am nt prepare at all. i am nt well. i cant think. ... what can i say.

have consultation tmr. I am trying hard to stretch myself beyond my limits esp for chemistry. I need to clear my doubts b4 june. I am always reminded to clear by doubts b4 june for chem. How can i do that. It is impossible unless i only study chemistry. I know it is hard on my cher too so i shouldnt complain at all. WO ZHEN DE HENG XIN KU.... I still have maths , econ , physics... SOON, i will start to chiong physics already!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to do all the ques from MJC tutorials. HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW.??? I am so upset if everything just fall apart... ARGH... shall nt think abt it....


part 1

tired.. My DEAR, take ur time to read my previous entry....

Kind of tired....

having chem test tmr.. heard tt it will be v tough.. Well, i tried my best already. I am upset when i learnt that KSP is the main focus. I sianz la. I dun wan to noe so much...

gg to take a nap... may update later....

当世界只剩下这床头灯你那边是早晨已经出门我侧身感到你在转身无数陌生人正在等下一个绿灯一再错身彼此脆弱的时分如果渴望一个吻的余温我关了灯黑暗把我拼吞你不在当我最需要爱你却不在无尽等待像独白般难挨你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在我受了伤在偷偷好起来但你不在不在时间再按下许多次快门沉默里听见转动的秒针一个人吃饭这个凌晨孤单一人份你低声说你有别人我的话筒只有自己的体温怎样认真也不一定成真你说的对我不得不承认你不在当我最需要爱你却不在无尽等待像独白的难挨你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在我受了伤再偷偷好起来但你不在那些摇摆我都明白都明白但你不在爱已不在不在你不在当我最需要爱你却不在一个人分饰两角的恋爱你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在像空气般不存在的存在再没有痕迹的爱你不在当我需要你的爱你不在....



DEAR.. I wonder if u will read my blog.. i changed my blog song le..

there are a few verus i wanna to give it to u. U wanna Guess?? haha.. Hmm.. actually this song is a love song ya.. Is kind of sad one... i love to listen to this song when u are nt ard for me. When i call u or sms there isnt any reply.... of course i will feel down... I noe did nt do it on purpose... Please dun always feel guilty that u have neglected me. You are always the best to me. I know you do miss me too....


I often reminisce the time we spent together. When i looked back, it isnt easy at all. We know each other for ard 5 years already. i often try very hard to give my best to you. I always want to maintain our relationship and try my best to ensure that it will not turn sour... i often reflect. I always really really wanna give u the best. I can do anything for u. I know you know that. I know sometimes i will make u feel damn guilty la.. but i am really alrite with it. To be frank, i think i should credit you.. haa.. cos i can tell that you are trying hard to maintain too. Improve a lot from the past. haha.. I still rmb when we were at parkway last yr eating bian mian, you said some things that make me feel kind of sad. We almost argued over it.. But its okay. Everything is fine now.

This year will be a super busy year for the 2 of us.It is difficult to meet up with you to even have dinner and lunch. But dear, as long as you are free, i will try to make myself free too. I will find time for you cos you are very impt to me . I know i am very impt to you too. haa.. I always treasure the time we spent together. Regardless where we spent our dinner at, i will always be happy with u ard. No need to go down to orchard or vivo city, block 85 will do.. haha.. Still rmb that time we ate up to 5-6 dishes of food?? We had a lot of fun. You walked ard the table hoping that ur food will digest faster?? I mean we dun really care abt how people look at us. May be some may think that we are crazy. But I dun care. I must make sure that we have fully utilised the time we spent together.

I will nt say that i know you very well. But at least i can sense when u are happy and when u are nt??? AM i rite?? I can talk sense with you and make you happy?? At least I can sense that you haven had ur lunch and buy smthg to fill up ur stomach?? still rmb the puff?? i wonder if it is a nice?? Hmm.. let me test you??? HAha.. can u sense when i am happy or down even when u never talk to me??? can u sense that i din take my lunch or dinner?? haa.. NO?? nvm.. is just that God has given me supernatural power.. hah. Dear, i will always be there for you. Pls forgive me during the period of time when my so called " supernatural power" din work cos i also use this power on other people.. hha.. Its tiring. Do you know what is the meaning of " supernatural power" . Do u know meaning behind it?. Sometimes, i have to replenish it and continue to use it. DEAR, i will try my best to understand you well. I hope there are many more years to come for me to understand you. WHat happen if one day you tell u dun love me?? i think i will be damn sad. But i know you wont. Even though you dun always use the 3 words on me, i know that you do love and care for me a lot. I like to use the 3 words because i like to contantly remind you that i really love you a lot . I am afraid that you cant feel it. I really care for you a lot a lot. I really really dun noe how to express it out.

No matter where i stand in your heart ( but i think it will be quite a big portion =p) , I still will continue to care and love you . I will never forget you . It is a blessing for me to find such a nice DEAR. Dun always tell me that i am unlucky just because you think that u are nt good for me. Once again i would like to re inforce the fact that you are really a very nice DEAR and that YOU ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME. Don apologise to me when u feel that you have let me down??? Just rmb the common phrase that i like to use.. " dont worry, i will love u more each day" haha.. YEs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....

Life is a test. God has given me this test on how to love my DEAR. God will want me to pass. I will not wish for just a pass but definitely i want to pass with flying colour. DEAR, you understand? You get the meaning behind it?? It takes 2 hands to clap. Dear pls give me a chance to pass this challenging test. I am willing to do anything to pass this test well. i can find time to overcome any obstacles. I know i have a busy timetable,but i can always fit and arrange time for this time consuming task. I am willing to do so cos i love u a lot.

Well, i think i stop here le. Just hav the sudden urge to write esp after talking to you on the phone today. I pray that everything will be fine for you.

WO XI WANG NI YONG YUAN DOU ZAI ...................................................

DEAR, i love you. DO take care. I will be there for you... DEAR, the best way to spell love is nt
L-O-V-E. love is actually spelt as T-I-M-E. Do u understand what is the meaning behind? you know what i wanna to tell u?? hha...love always..

Your wan wan.. haha...

DEAR CAN I HAVE A HUG FROM YOU?

Not feeling well again.. HAving a bad sore throat...

Wake up quite early today.. HAix.. Then started to go GP and some cuttings.And PHYSICS.. haix.. After that my sister called me. She said ms susuan is coming. OMG... My PRI sch teacher!!!!!!!!! She came her to bought a few things. I guessed she treat me like a small boss expecting me to noe everything. I wasnt close to her. So din bother.. hehe.. I called my dear while she was here. I called my dear... Said the 3 words to you.. haha.. I am happy that u feel the same way.. muackz.. i will never forget you no matter how busy i am . YEA.. we are meeting next sat.. cant wait liao.. that's quite bad.. sob sob sob...

This coming week gt 2 tests. GP and Chemistry. Hope i can do well. Now i need to chiong chemistry cos i am seeing ms fong on mOn. Hope that i can clear everything. God grant us strength. Jia you.. liwan stop slacking le.... TMC! haha... TMC ... TMC... ms fong will be happy to hear that... tata...............

feel v upset w/o my hp this afternoon.. but Mr Tan thnk you.. if u never tell me that my sim card is nt working .. i will never noe.. most prob i will call n scold the people...

Went down to meet ms ng.. She gave me a pink Key chain. THAnkz Cher!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love u .. i like it a lot...

a few of my frens asked me where am i rushing to.. cos they could see that i was in a rush. I told them that i gg to TM to meet my cher.. Their jaws drop.. They cannt accept the fact that my cher n I can be so close.. Haix.. may be i am really a weirdo. Teachers can never be our frens???? why??? WHY????????? I mean i am a Human too??? I am upset to hear people saying that " i cant believe it" ... Its okay.. while, i treat all my cher like frens... =]=] i love all my frens...

Tired.. need to chiong n mug again.. tata................

so tired today...

I guess the most interesting part was the career fair.. I was the second to reach the hall. Wang Nan was first. I went there with ms fong. She boasted to all the teachers that i am the 2nd to reach and i would be the last to leave. The latter was true.. haha...

Went to see the scholarship for teaching. Ms fong wanna me to take one and believe that i can take. Haix. Actually, i just wanna to do well for A level. That's all. Scholarship is not my dream. My dream is to do very well for A level. I asked her a question. What happens if i get straight Ds or Cs or even Es?? how will she console me.. haix.. To be honest, the only thing i want or i wish for or pray for is that she will get the " PAT". Its Okay to get straight As and nt apply for any scholarship. I am contented. Wish God grants me 2 wish now, the first one i will pray that i will do well and get the straight Aces.. The second one i will pray for is that she will get the "PAT" . Yupz. God i really hope that my 2 wishes will come true..

Met up with Ms Ho. We din talk much cos a lot of her students came to talk to her. No choice! Popular teachers are like that . Had a lot of fun with Ms Ho & Ms fong. Just kept laughing and laughing. When i knew that Ms Fong and Ms Ho are good friends, it reminded me of yi ling and I. I miss her a lot. They really love each other a lot. Really can sense it!

Tired.. registered for My A level le. Anything happens to me, Mr Tan will be responsible. hha.. Mr Tan i think u better go change ur name. HAHA.. I think i fully agree with what he said at the career fair. It is true that none of the scholarships suits me. Cos i should be getting ...... hhaah.. Ms fong agreed too.. haha.. Nvm....

Someone gt a new nickname today! TMC! haha.. is true la.. Nvm.. Okay.. is time to stay focus. havent study for tmr test. Need to buck up le.!!!!!!!!!! GOOD luck...

Today mark the end of competition. No more training? Well, it is time to focus on studies le.

Chemistry Spa was quite bad. Ms fong gave us a short lecture during chemistry lesson. She said it is time to wake up. She said that we have to stop day-dreaming. She said some of us are nt serious at all. She said some of us did nt treat prac seriously. Sianz.. I think i din do well for SPA. There goes my A? B? C? D? haix.. i am tired..

We will be doing A level registeration tmr. Well, I am still not sure if i am ready a not. YEs, many people may say that i prac so much n study so much but the harsh reality is that i am a slow learner. Ms fong is v frank with me. Haiz. Can i dont make my decision tmr??????

feeling so lost n confused. I need to take a break sia.. Buti noe i left no time to even slp.. haix.. i suck.... ArgH!!!!

have to go study again.. GOd pls help me n grant me with wisdom!!!!!!!!

have been quite slack since competition started ....

Went for for physics and Maths tuition today. Lessons were alrite.. I talk a lot today. I am dead. Sianz..

i am having econ test tmr. This is quite horrible cos i have not finished studying. I have not finished doing all the Homework. Having consultation tmr, i am nt prepared yet. Argh!!!!!!! I dun wan to start they day of my week with a sad face. I dun wan my cher to get angry. Haix.. Liwan, u gonna stay up late to finish everything.

have a little argument with Mr Derrick today cos i told him i go out with Ms Ho yesterday. He said by doing so, i have nt completed those stuff i need to complete. But I felt that this is okay. I feel that meeting ms Ho is far more impt than doing those stuff. How?? i noe A level is impt but i wont wan to forsake or neglect those who love me a lot.. Yupz.. =[=[=[ i told him how i feel. Somehow, he said that i am big enough to weigh what is more impt . But i am glad that he really care for me a lot. Thankz cher...

Gonna go n mug le... I dun wan to disappoint Ms Ho. I gonna a B this time ard. She wanna me maintain so that she can show off to ms fong ... haha.. haix.. My chem really sux.... Sob soB!!!!!!!!

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan