lessons were alright

Had Gp comprehension just now. I think i will fail quite badly. I feel so sad. Sob sob.

v happy today. I get to do or say the things that i held back for a long time. I am super happy. I guess is always good to learn to tell pp " you love them" haha.. i can see some changes.. I hope it will be better. HAHA..

Feel a bit tired. oh ya, Contact time was fun. I like the speaker. He said a lot of things that i really agree. We must have passion in order to achieve what we want. failure is a key to success. we must have the mindset that " it is okay to fail" well, i hope that all my chers will tell me that! haha.. No la.. actually my chers also wont scold me if i fail all the tests. HAA.. failure is there to spur me on.. Yes, i will persevere till the end.

need to study for my econ test le. Have to go for tuition later. =[ Liwan, jia you!

Love myself so much..........

lessons were fine...

ya.. i cried. everything was fine till Mr Ang came to talk to me. I din wanna to talk to him. Yupz, he said i fail my test but just by a bit. he talked to me a lot. He encouraged me. He told me not to give up. He said a lot of thing... I was speechless. I din noe he care for me so much. I kept listening to what he said. I was quiet at that pt of time...
After he left me i smsed him, i started crying. I guess i cried not cos of my maths test but because i am touched. Really thankz. I wont give up!!!!!

I am tired. I guess i really burn out le. I dun feel like studying for all my tests. Chem and Econs. I dun wan to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How?? i wanna take a break from work. I have not been sleeping well for the past few weeks. But do u think i will really nt study?? Is impossible................... can i take MC for 2 days?? Wo Zhen de Hao Lei... I need some strength....... God teach me how to do pls???

is time to go to bathe le. later study for chem then Look thru GP.. sob............... tata.............

Went out yesterday! reached home at ard 11 plus.. haa.. Went out with my dear of course! I got a red packet from my dear's MUm.. haa.. happy.We studied together. We chatted a lot. we talked about how we met one another and a lot of interesting stuffs..

Cant wake up today. Was damn tired. felt quite lost too.. Dun feel like gg to school! OOP.. haha.. had consultation from 10 to 12 . In between we did talk abt some rubbish. Not really rubbish ba.. a lot of serious stuff too. Never regret to do that card!! haa..

Went for Mr Looh's lesson after school. Asked him questions. Got scolded by him. he is very fierce! sob sob.. Nvm.. i still like him.,. haa.. I noe he cares for me. Thankz! I was quite switched off during his lesson. I am sorry cos i was damn tired...

Sianz.. now is already 10.30 le. I haven finished studying for chemistry test. I haven do Ms fong's HW. Sooo many thngs to do.. sianz.. I decided to do during break la... Or tmr morning. I am too lazy!!!!!!!! hhaha... okay... will stop here... zzzzzzzzzzzz nite......

feel so tired. my eyes are closing. Wake up at 7.45 am. haix, i dreamt abt school again. i dreamt that i was lost in school. I couldnt find the class that i was suppose to go. I was late for the class. I can rmb vividly what happened in my dream. This is bad. Having a bad headache. My eyes are closing but i cant go back to sleep again because i will be having physics tuition in 1hr time. =[=[

Am i really v stressed up? But i enjoy studying in school. Isnt it contradicting? Haiz...

may update later again.. Yawn*******

part 2
feeling tired now. But i cant sleep. i haven not been sleeping well recently. My naps are shorter than 30 min. I often wake up in the middle of the night. I dreamt of a lot of things, mostly school work. Is very bad. It means that i am stress!!!!!!!! i dreamt of very bad things. Not abt failing tests but quarrelling with teachers!!!!! siao.. and a lot of things. What can happen in sch sia?? i hope i can have a peaceful nite today. If not my dark rings will be darker each day.

read the book that i found just now. Quite interesting! i really admire the writer. He can come out with all sort of reasons to justify his stands. how i wish i were him. Liwan, jia you!!!!!!!!!!!

gg to sleep le. i am tired. My eyes are closing but i am just afraid that i will end up in TJC again after a few minutes. Give me a nice dream at least!!!!!!!haha... tata... nite................

part1
My sister teased me just now. She said that next time i will have benzene ring as my wedding ring. She is a weirdo la.. She just like to make fun of me. Hump!

Finished ionic equilibrium. =[ i have a lot of doubts. i am dead. Tried probability just now. Quite happy with my last 3 questions. But for the other exercise, it is quite bad. Sob Sob. Ms yang!!!!! i cant wait for you to come back. when popular to buy Language self help book. Hope it will help. I found a good book at my shelf. So happy. Will start to fully utilise it. Liwan, jia you k? persevere k????

Tmr maths tuition. Hope to clear all my doubts. in the morning i have physics tuition. Hope that everything will be fine. Gg out tmr, cant wait to go out le. i want liberty.. OOp..hah.. k.. gg off to makan then study.. nite...

part 2
Hmm.. chatted with ms yang just now. We talked a lot. haha.. v happy chatting with her.. hope she will be fine....
Tried ionic eqiuilibrium.. sigh.. 10 more SUPER LONG questions to go. It started off quite well but slowly i have a lot of problems.Now my book is so colourful. i wonder if ms fong will kill me. Well, then i will admit i am stupid lor. ionic equilibrium is not as easy as i think. So tired.... tmr then do the rest ba.. haa... have a lot to do tmr... need to learn to strategise... HOW?????? ARGH!!!!!!!!!! I listed so many tasks on my note book, i only get to strike off one. Haix. Which is packing my maths tuition file. I hope to strike off ionic equilibrium and Gp and lots more.. too ambitious?? Sianz.. Hope to slp till 10 tmr.. which is unlikely............ Yawn!!!!!!!!!

Gg to slp le.. tata....... looking forward to sun..


Part 1
Maths test was horrible..sad.. zzzzz... Liwan u really let mr ang and ms yang down... haix..

Lessons were alright. GP was quite fun and chem was..... just too fast... No choice because we are behind time. Having consultation on Mon with ms fong on chemical equilibrium, hope i can clear everything. Hope to do well! Thurs have DRQ test.. so have to jia you too....

Plan to take a nap just now but i couldnt sleep though i am very tired. No choice.. gg to bathe then study throughout again. I love sat because i can study throughout.. haa.. YEA.. have GP , chem, Maths , econ to do.. Oh nooo.. so many things.. Liwan ca de.. be discipline..

Meeting my DEAR on sun evening!!!!!!!!! We will study and makan together!!!!! We are crossing the hurdle together... Dear jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We can do it..

feeling quite tired now.

lessons were fine. I got back my econ mark. i gt 15/25. I was quite shocked because i had a kind of feeling that i did v badly for this test. Phew.. Thankz God! i asked Mrs chang for guidance so that i can do better for the next test.I guess i need to analyse more and evaluate more. Liwan, u can de! =] I also gt back my GP marks. Well, was very surprised that i get to hit 20 this time. HAha.. So happy. I approached Mdm Lim after lesson to ask her about my mistakes. I told this is my first time to hit more than 20. She laughed and encouraged me! Well, this reminds me of something. Last month ms fong kept saying that i speak very slowly. I guess now you all noe why i speak so slowly. I am doing that is to improve my language. I feel hurt when she said that to me but i didnt blame her because she didnt know my intention at that time. Now, i will speak to her in chinese sometimes because i am afraid that she will say i speak slowly again. Haix.. may be i will let her know my intention?? Well, Ms Tan has already warned me that people will definitely laughed at me if i tried to change the way i speak but she said i have to change. Well, ms tan, thankz, i am learning and changing. I want to improve!! I also asked Mdm Tan to guide me and teach me what to improve on. I am really willing to do anything to improve.

Phew.. having maths test tmr. Dont feel like studying because i am so tired of vectors. I practise a lot but knowing how to do is another issue. God pls continue to guide me and help me. Tired.. I wont give up de!!!!!!!!!! May God Bless me... =]=]=]=]

My dEAR, Jia you too.. Love u lot....

slept at one yesterday! i taught my dear organic chemistry. My dear finds me amazingly. Then u must treat me even better ?? hah... love u deep...

haah.. family picture!!!!!!!! Cant get to see me..
My ahma!!!! hha.. i love her a lot.. Look like some jap star???
Ah ma.. stay pretty! i love you deep deep....
Yea.. this is my maid...

Yupz... all the pics... i noe is ugly.. bUt just upload lor.. today first day.. collected $$$$ hehe... Not a lot... Tmr gg to zoo.. will upload more pictures...

have to go study .. read up... GP GP GP u are causing me a lot of trouble.. Liwan , serve u right! mDm Lim, i need ur help.. sob sob.. haix.. tata... liwan jia you!

Studied from 10 plus till now.

so tiring. Really racing with time sia. I am not sure if it is productive but.. haix...
I finished some of the maths exercises le. I realise that all my concepts are mixed up. No choice. i told myself to stop doing so many questions. I will be meeting Mr ang on Thurs but i think i will sms him on wed to ask if he is free too. I need to clear a lot b4 i go for the test. I spent a lot of time on MAths. After that i did chemistry. I did the tutorials for energetics. Sianz sia.. i forget a lot of things. Somehow i felt that i am smarter last year. HA.. Never mind ba.. i will wait for the lecturer to teach then try to attempt those that i am not that sure. tried ionic equilibrium, try to attempt those questions that i am nt too sure previously. well, i think i need to ask Mr Looh again. Sad to say that i haev to miss his lesson on this coming Mon! Argh.. this is bad....

HAve to do newspaper cutting today but i decided not to because the photocopy shop is not open anyway. I guess i will just read all the articles that i had cut for the past few weeks. Yupz.. After which i think i will want to revise maths again for Fri test. Oh ya, i finished chem equilibrium for ten yr series le. I guess i will embark on ionic equilibrium soon.. yupz.. I will wrrite down the tasks i haev to complete again. YEA..liwan jia you! be discipline.. u can de...

Gg out later to my ah ma hse.. tonight can start to apply nail polish liao.. haha.. can do a lot of things..YEA.. Tmr can dress up and doll up.. Yea... I guess is time to take a break from so much work... But sad to say that our teachers wont stop giving us tests. The tests are like continuous de. This is a horror..

So tired. Quite in a bad mood. U dun appreciate at all..

met up with my dear today. HEHE.. have a lot of fun today. We went PL to shop. We went to KFC for dinner. We chatted a lot. We talked about school stuff and a lot of other things. HAHA.. i really had a lot of fun. Time flies when we were together. There is always fun and laughter... haix... How i wish we were in the same school.. haha .. DEAr u are great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh ya.. i bought my mum a pendant. It costs a lot.. Sob sob.. haha.. But is okay. I guess is worthwhile...

Gg to slp soon. Tmr have to study.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Happy chinese new yr everyone..love ya.........

Spoke to my dear just now. A question was posted to me : i cant understand how you can handle you work. you can 3 tutorials faster than your teacher.

Well, i also dont know how to answer you this question. I guess it is really not easy to cope with so many things. Let me share with you more...

Hmm.. we have to be discipline and work towards our goal. Well, my long term goal is to be a teacher. I am working very hard towards that. I sacrifice a lot of things. Sometimes, i dont have time to take my lunch. I am always under the LT2 racing with time. I hope that the clock can stop for my sake. I knoe is impossible. Since i cant change the fixed factors, i have to change the variable factors. i need to rush all my work. I always write down the tasks i need to complete during one week. I always aim to complete all of them. this needs a lot of discipline. I always award myself if i am able to finish everything. I also have to sacrifice the time i used to spend with my friends but i will definitely go out once a while to take a break. I also wanna thankz for all my teachers in TJC who never fail to shower their love and concern on me. I have a teacher who wanna buy lunch for me whenever she sees me. I am touched. I have a teacher who can guess what i am thinking. I really respect this teacher a lot. I have a teacher who look fierce but care for me a lot. Always ask me if i can cope. Always there to teach me what to do. I have a teacher who i think is good. This teacher wans me to be happy. this teacher wanna me to smile =]=]=] haha.. okay.. Lastly, i have this teacher who influence me a lot . This teacher really help me a lot. This teacher is really a special one. Inspire and motivate me!!!!!!! thankz....

I guess that is why i am able to sustain till now?? hhaa... lame... nvm.. but what i said is true. today chinese lesson is quite interesting. We are suppose to make a card. haix. I am quite upset that i have forgotten a lot of chinese words. Mr Tan, you there?? i need help. haix.......=[=[

Okay.. shall end here. Will be doing some stuff later. chiong HW again. Tmr gg out le.... Jia you liwan

DEAR, You jia you too.. LOve u a lot...

part 2
Just finished doing my stuff. It is a failure but i guess is the thought that counts. I am sorry.. haiz.... It is gg to 10pm, my dear hasnt call me.. sob sob.. nvm...

have to go do my chemistry liao.. tmr gt consultation... Haix... A lot of things haven done.. gd luck to me.. tired.... nite... Happy valentine day again...


Part 1
Hmmm...
was in quite a bad mood in the morning cos of SPA.. I was so worried that i cant produce the gas. Heng Sia.. it is relatively easy. i hope i wont do too badly...

Received quite a handful of present today.. I took pics of them.. will upload the pcis later... I received a bouquet of flower from my dear.. HAH.. I love my DEAR a lot.. muackz.. You must love me more la.. not only on valentine day.. =[ =[ -P look forward to fri cos i can go out with you.. hopefully everything is fine.. love u deep deep..

During civics , ms fong treated us to icecream.. but i told i dont want cos i wasnt feeling well. I lied to her.. sorry ya.. Is just that i am not in the good mood cos of SPA. I am just afraid that i will fail the spa.. sorry.. But if she noes me well, she will understand !! Mdm Koh also wanted to treat me icecream but i told her i really wanna to study for my SPA.

Received smthg from Mr Tan too.. hehe.. Hmmm.. a choco biscuit? Thankz mr tan... enjoy ur valentine day.. =]=]

recieved a lot of sms.. Of course the first one to wish me was my dear... I guess the best sms i received is from Ms Ho la... haha She ended off her sms with this short sentence " Thinking of you too on this special day" haha... At least i noe i am nt forgotten.. HAha.. love always...

Well.. i bought flowers for the gals in class too. Shared with the people.... I bought smthg for ms fong and also the poem. She almost lose it.. But i guess even she loses it , the only thing i really wanna to tell her is i wish that she and kor kor will always be happy!! I told her that.. she said she wana cry.. just a crapper....

on the way back home.. i think of a lot of things. I find that i love my friend so much but do they appreciate it? Do they really cherish the things i have done for them . Do they really treasure the presents i gave them?? i really wonder.. feel v painful if they do not noe hw to appreciate it. Somehow i am really very tired to care so much ... haix...

Anyway.... Liwan jia you.. still have tuition.. sob sob.. i still have to rush back and do some stuff.. Yuzp.. owe people stuf... must pay them back b4 new yr... =[ =[

K.. here are the pics.. haha.. only 2 la.. i cant make it vertical.. sorry...

Yupz.. is valentine day tmr.. How exciting can it be.. And i have SPA...

Wasnt in good mood today.. not sure of the reason. Not feeling very well. having a bad headache. HAix...

lessons were fine today. Hmm.. Mr low taught us chemistry today. Haha.. somehow it is like back to 05/06.. didnt expect him to come to our class today. But it was quite fun... Ms fong is very sick according to Mr low. Hope she is fine now. Hmm.. hope to see her tmr .. if not what will happen.... haix.. wont think so much.. but unlikely she will be back by tmr...

Okay.. wont update that much.. gg to study for chemistry SPA.. wish me good luck... God help me...

haha...

Went back to RSS this morning. I went to look for mdm cheng hong. HA.. i miss her a lot. I was so happy to see her. We chat for around 45min. I hope that i am not disturbing her. is very fun talking to her. She was touched that i still rmb her. I mean i can tell her a lot of stuff la.. hehe...

After that i took train to tanah Merah then walk to AHS. Saw Ms Z.. haa.. We chatted for a while. She was very busy. HAix.. She said she dont miss me!! haha.. is okay la..So nxt time i wont go back to AHS liao lor.. =p A few teachers said i slim down a lot.. they were afraid that i hav eating disorder.... haix.. no choice ma....

Will i go back to Tjc next yr to visit my chers?? HAHa.. i rmb telling ms fong that if she no longer teaching in TJC , i will NOT go back. I still swear.. haa.. Hmm.. i think i will la.. ha... is okay...

Hmm.. gg to study le.. but my eyes are closing.. shall i take a nap?? haha.. i dun wan to be a pig... snORE.... yeah, tonight have lesson with MR looh.. fun fun fun.. better take a nap.. tata/..

getting older and older. I think i need a walking stick. My knees hurt a lot how? How can i run for this coming road run? may need to see doc again. Is a waste of money cos the pain will come back after medication. So what for??? i feel like i am 80 yr old.. haix...

Just now i went to Tm and shop. Bought some stuff.. Hmm.. i went to weigh myself. It is some video thingy.. Yupz.. My weight was 54.0 with clothes. I shocked la.. my ideal weight is 56.2 w/o clothes. HAHA... Does it mean that i under weight? I must admit i slim down a lot. is like 8 kg after holiday. this is horrible. It is like suffering from soe illness. Oh dear.. haha.. My height still remains at 1.64m. Quite disappointing sia..Will i shrink down further?? nOt sure. Actually i din go on diet, somehow i guess is cos of stress and unhappiness in sch... haha.. But now my target is 50 kg. haha.. i doubt this will come true.. May be during JCT , Prelim , A level.. u will see me like a bamboo stick.. haha...

Okay.. have to go slp soon. I must chiong SPA tmr.. sob sob.. cant even enjoy the break.. HAha.. bUt i still love my chers la.. Wont hate them! haha/...=p.. tata.. nite....

So tired. HAa..

wake up at 6.15 and headed down to school. It is so tiring. We went to bedok reservoir view to collect old newspaper and clothes. The residents over there were very nice to us. They were very enthu. My arm hurts. The bundles of newspapers and old clothes were just too heavy for me. I guess i see the difference between a male and female. Then why God creates us to be so different? I guess we meant to complement with one another.Tired

AFter that i took 28 with ms fong. She headed home and i wanted to go to toa payoh!! haha.. Go HDB hub to buy hse?? haha.. nOt really la.. Just wanna go there and shop? i cant join the class cos i have tuition later. After that i decided to take MRT. Dropped at ms fong house and took MRT. HA... On the way to the MRT, i received a call from my mum, she told me to buy food back!!! haha.. so no choice.. i took train to bedok then bought food back home. Trying to be a nice daughter which is quite difficult.Seldom take bus 28 .. haa.. but is fun la.. We talked abt a lot of stuff. I guessed correctly a lot of stuff! i guess she is frightened now. Lolx..

I learnt a lot today. I learnt that it is very nice to have a wonderful family. It is good to have a family of ur own. If u are able to balance family and work it will be wonderful. I guess we all have to learn.. Time to wake up le.. haix....

I also learn a lot of things from ms goh. She taught me how to balance my time and she told me a lot abt being a teacher. Thankz, it is really wonderful to learn so much things. It is my dream. I will work towards it. Liwan, jia you!!!!!!!!!! Love u lotzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......................

Going for tuition later. I guess i will fall asleep later in his class. Hah.. Then he will definitely complain to ms ng. I will be dead. Tired. tata... wont be updating le. gg grandma house later... studying spa... tired.. nite..lolx.

blog again..

Chatted with ms valerie ng just now. Yupz, i decided to go to her house on the third day of chinese new year. She is so funny. i told her i wanna go her house during chinese new year, guess what she said. " you must come, i give you hong bao!" She was so excited. She sound so different from my other teacher. my other teacher will say " you wanna hao bao is it?" ms ng i love u.. haha... I haven tell her that i will be visiting her la. But b4 i left her, she gave me a very pathetic look. I told her i will arrange time again. Yea!!!!!!!! my mum allowed me to go.. haa.. See la.. i may change my mind again.lolx.. But valerie ng is being nice actually she said she will only give me "hao bao" and not others. I felt so touched at that point of time.. haah... but her place is a little too far.. haha

Studying SPA just now. Quite slack lor.. liwan jia you ya.. Tmr GO GREEN DAY. Hope we will enjoy collecting old newspapers and old clothes. HAHA.. TATA.............. Goona go slp le...

haha... beautiful gal..lolz...

Part 2
I am quite slack. i am nt sure of the reasons again. I guess i love to suspend reasons. Hah..Well i started studying at 8pm till now. Manage to finish organic chemistry remedial questions. left a few blanks here and there. Shouldnt be a problem. I am damn happy that i am able to complete the deduction question. I mean i am able to come out with deductions and the structure. I am not sure if my answers are right but i think that this is a good start. HAH.. There is always a first step. Liwan jia you!

Well, let's see... hmmm i left GP and A level SPA to study. I wont be able to do chemistry ten yr series le. I thinki should focus on GP and SPA this week. Cos next week i need to do another essay. I have to make sure i improve. I know my mistakes and i need to ensure that i wont repeat those mistakes again. I am quite worry with SPA. I hope everything will be fine on that day. Continue to persevere ba.

i am still sick. Kept coughing. I think i have passed all the virus to teachers who stood in front of me or near me during assembly for the past few days . I am sorry. HAH.. I will take my medicine. Tired..

Gonna go and slp already. I need to wake up early tmr. There is still a long way to go. Yupz.. All the best to myself.. LOve u .............

Cant live without you... HAH.. LAME

Part 1
This is the phrase of the day! haha.. Yeah we are mutually dependent. HAha..

Happy!! though i knoe is just a joke but indeed my day is brightened up by you. love you lot... I also cant live w/o you!!!!!! =p

Well, today lessons were fine. Kind of tired too. I must jia you! No mark added for my chem test. Well, will see again.. tired.. don feel like blogging , wanna go take a nap but b4 that will go sheng shiong to shop. HA. Tata.. Have to chiong tutorials and a lot of stuff over the weekend again. YES, still gt SPA!!!!!!! =[=[

just came back from training. Argh!! no comment.....

Mdm Lim talked to me today. i din expect it. She told me i need to work harder for my language. Yupz.. she said i have a lot of ideas but i am nt discipline. I told her i cant control myself when writing. haix.. i gonna jia you...

i am tired with everything le. Sianz le. Tmr is fri, hope to end the week with a smile. Somehow i knoe what to do le. Silence is golden. Yupz. Tired tired.... tata........ tons of Hw need to do...

YES, i HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! Is you!!!!!!!!!!!! But i am nt sure of the reasons.

i din get into final. yes, i am upset. did cry a little. feeling very down. Sorry ms fong, i let u down. After today competition, i will still continue to study hard for organic chemistry. I wont hate organic chem. It is really an interesting part of chemistry. may be we should have the game in class too.
Today economics test was horrible also. Wont mention it. if i pass, i am counted lucky. Too tired to think that much. I am just a disappointment.
lessons were fine today. Gt "scolded" by ms fong. Actually i shouldnt be the one getting scolded cos i was helping amelia and lich. She was not in the good mood. I told her straight to her face that i dun like to see her angry and sad. She was so fierce. She was also at the game just now. She said smthg abt me to some of the teachers and in front of other students. People start to "WOAH!" ..lolz.. nvm...that is not impt....
Very tired today. haven bathe yet.. just came back from tuition. Super tired and moody ( cos of the game) .. i wanna to be a happy gal!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *slap* Tmr is thurs. I hate thurs. I am nt sure of the reason but i just hate thurs. Gt training tmr.. it will be another long day. ...... ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! feel like shouting out loud....................... i suckz.............. Simply bad at everything...............................................................

part 2
i am back again. Haix... i haven finished studying economics. I just stared blankly at the notes. Haix. I only intend to look at 5 pieces of the papers. That's all. I have no mood to study leh. I am trying very hard to focus but i am thinking of smthgelse while doing that. That is definitley bad.. It is already 9.10 , yet i haven settle down yet. I still rmb for the last economics test, i also stared blankly at the notes cos i was in a bad mood. Haix.. so sleepy. my eyes are closing. God helps me!!!!!! give me strength!
Liwan! i thought u promised Ms Ho to do well in econ?? i thought u told her that you will do ur best for everything??? Promise is nt meant to be broken. But i am tired.. hao ba.. continue to strive.. stop letting my imagination to run wild. tired...... tata.. Liwan, jia you!!!!!!!!! pls!!!!!!!!!!!!


part 1
get back my chemistry test. felt quite sad but ms fong is already very kind to write "good attempt" on my paper. HAix.. forget it. very depressing though..

Having economics test tmr. Just finished consolidate everything. HAven started memorising. Will do after bathing ba. Tmr is the synthesis game competition. 3.30pm. No one can come down and and company me. No one can calm me down when i am stressed. I think i really need a not of luck. I really wanna get into final. Can you all feel my desire of wanting to get into final? It is not whether i can get the voucher a not. haix. I cant explain it. If i din get into final, will i cry? I am unsure. God pls help me. I need a lot of luck and knowledge tmr.

haix.. quite speechless at this point of time. I gonna go and bathe and focus on my Economics and nthgelse. Liwan, u can de. You need a little of faith!

having bad cramp today. No la.. not that bad after all. can still survive. No choice!!!! i din have lunch today. I spend my time under LT2 resting. A few teachers approached me and asked me what happened la.. but i told them i wasnt feeling well. I am touch though. Thankz chers!

hmm... today lessons were alrite. Last period was chemistry la. HAH.. I paid attention lor since ms fong said i was quite turned off last week. I guess is because i am nt in the mood. She is very happy today. i knew that today is her BD but i din wish her. I mean i din plan to wish her sooo early in the morning. I planned to wish her at 7.02pm since she wished me at that time last mnth. Ya la..But i wished her earlier than that cos she told the class that today is her BD.We sang BD song for her..i told her that i knew today is her BD she doesnt believe leh!!!! After that i told her i will be giving her a big present. HAH.. Yupz, ms fong just wait for it. I "scolded" her for breaking my plan!! haha

i sms ms Ho abt ms fong Bd.. But somehow i brightened up ms Ho day by saying smthg.. haha.. Actually i think i am gd at that...lolz.. =p.. ms ho, i miss u..

Well, having a test on wed.. but i haven start studying. Good luck to me sia.. God help me.. Give me strength. I doubt i can finish studying by tmr. Arghhh.. I went to library to find some resources. Nt bad leh! haha.. i meeting mrs chang for consultation tmr. I bet she has been waiting.. haha.. Oh ya, today Mrs Toh approached me and said "May Ee is ur econ teacher rite?? She is very nice. I always see you asking her questions" haha... if ms fong is my econ teacher, i guess i would have fail my econ!!haha.. OOP!! Nvm.... study hard for everything ba... Liwan jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mr looh's lesson was quite alright. I was damn tired la.. furthermore my cramp made me switched off. But i guess i understand la.. i am alrite with that chap... we will be doing revision soon.. HAppY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! will arrange time to see ms fong soon...Jia you!

tired... gg to slp le... haven pack my bag, i guess will do that tmr.. sianz.. getting back organic chem tmr.. i guess i will fail badly.. HAix... nvm... learn from mistakes.. sob sob... tired..tata...

Lastly.. " Happy Birthday to you, ms fong!" ( i noe u wont be able to see this.. too bad)

wake up at ard 9 am today. After taking my breakfast, i headed to my room to study. I did chemistry first. I tried ionic equilibrium and chem equilibrium supplememtary. Still wasnt quite sure if i really understand. Must jia you! I look forward to Mon ba , cos i can start to ask Mr Looh questions.. haha.. After that i continued with P&C. Able to clear some of my doubts, i guess the rest i will leave it till tmr tuition then ask the teacher... sianz...After that i started to do GP. Read all the newspaper and started cutiing and printing and doing research. i have a lot of info with me now, i just need to consolidate asap!!!!!! I need to find time.. soon ba. Liwan jia you....

Well, after i finished everything, it is already 3.30pm. i went out with my AH ma.. haha.. I went to pray. Actually i only decied to go and pray yesterday night. i wasnt in fanastic mood! I was troubled over a lot of things. After that i rmb smthg!!!! So i decided to that i will go pray today. Yupz.. I prayed for you today. I noe u dun believe such things but i prayed. I hope my prayers will be answered. I really want you to be happy. Haha.. i guess when u saw my sms , u must be thinking that i am a silly gal , but i noe u were smiling when u were reading my sms. You take care..love always.... i prayed for myself also. I really hope that all my prayers will be answered. God help us! We need you to grant us strength and wisdom and luck. Love you!!!!!

I went out with my Ah ma, somehow i noe that i really love my Ah ma a lot. i dont let a spend a single cent. the preserved food she wanted are paid by me. i dun want her to waste money.i love her a lot. I am not sure if she can sense it a not. When she is dozing off in the train and bus, i am always staring at her. Looking at her, she looks so tired. My heart aches when i see her tired or unhappy. I held her hand when walking. i really cant stand to see my Ah ma suffers. Ah ma, i really love u .. You must take care... Liwan, really love u . "AH MA, WO AI NI" hugsss.....

Tmr have tuition. Yesterday, i had slight fever. It is 37.5. I cried yesterday ba. I am experiencing immense stress. While i was lying down on the bed, i was thinking of the competition and everything. I realised that i really wanna to strive to win. However, i am scared that i will lose. What will happen if i lost? will i cry? haix. God , please help me. =[=[=[ Tired. My head is getting heavy. HAiz.... gonna go study economics le. Wed have test. will i skip my tues training?? i really cant cope! haiz... jia you liwan. u can de.. strive to do the best!!!!! =]

Just wake up from a nap. Still feel very tired. Consultation ended at ard 2. But i haven clear all my doubts cos ms fong is busy. She needs to do her stuff and the 2 of us cant think straight. So tired.....We did talk a little things abt certain things. She felt that i am correct and should be myself. Actually Mdm Koh and ms Ho also told me that, but i really care.

feel so drowsy now. Need more sleep but i always have too many things to do. Why am i so busy??????? Oh ya, i ordered flowers today. HAHA.. Hopefully everything will be fine but it costs me a bomb. I cant wait till valentine day and CNY. Haha.. dun noe why?? May be i get to rest on those day.

Tmr will be a stressful day again. Need to do maths, GP, and a lot more. I must be discipline to finish them all. Kind of tired and sianz......... I hope i wont burn out like last week, screaming away... tata

was in bad mood today towards the end of the school. i found out the answer which i always wanted to. I feel soooooooooo depressed. Well, may talk to someone soon....

Today i ran 8 rounds ard the track. So tiring. Training was tough also. I was so tired that i cant continue anymore. I dun have the will to do so... Haix. Probably is also becos i am in a foul mood. my eyes are closing but i still have to force myself to open my eyes to study. I need to prepare for tmr consultation. God grant me strength, wisdom and luck pls. I need your guidance!

Went to matrix just now. I am at table 4. I am kind of scared. I need a lot of support from my frens. I cant run the race alone. HAix... Well, wont mention anymore. too tired..

Need to go bathe le.... tata................................

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan