I am tired. This afternoon was the competition. I was so stressed. I got into semi-final. i guess it is by luck. I almost cried cos i was super scared. i guess what the only thing in my mind was to " DO MY CLASS AND MS FONG PROUD!! I must get into at least semi final!! " Yes, and i did. I was so happy. Mr Low congrats me!! haha.. thankz. After that i rushed to next door to share with ms fong my happiness. YEs, liwan u can do it!! After that i stayed and help Ben. Victor joined us too. We always quarrel with one another. HAHa...We were all very tired. Ben didnt make it to semi final. We were just too unlucky. I felt very bad about it. Haix....

Everything ended at 6.45. We went back together. We chose to walk to interchange. After that Mr cheng called her. He told ms fong that i am a great gal.Lolx.. i dont really understand why cos i thought he would be pissed off. PHEw.. everything was fine. ms fong and i shared a lot. A lot of craps la.. cos we cant think straight anymore. I noe she is tired.. So am i .. After that i rushed down for tuition. Quite stupid of me.. Dun talk abt it.

Hmm.. tmr have PE and training. it will be another tiring day. Liwan jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Study hard to achieve ur dreamssssssssssssss... =[=[

Hmmm.. my dear "feel so love and care 4" i guess i do feel that way.

So tired, slept at 12 yesterday just to study MOCK SPA... Haix. Wont talk about it. I am too tired.

PE and training really make me so tired. Feel kind of sad during training. I am nt sure of the reason. HAix... So sad... PMS?? may be ba... i dun rule out this reason.

Tmr organic chem competition. Haix. Wont study for it. let's nature take its course. I feel beta if i lose. At least i will tell myself, i haven try my best yet. Is this correct?? HAIX..

Have GP work and Chemistry HW to do. Gonna go.. nthg much to blog.. feel so tired.... feel so emptied inside.. What happened??

Hmm... today lesson was sooo.. HAHA.. I guess i am quite mad today. i screamed in front of ms fong and mdm koh. I am gg crazy. I really feel very sad sad. I am nt sure well. I felt very emptied inside....

today econ lecture was fun. the lecturer damn good. If our teacher can do that, i am sure our economics will be fine... HAHA.. Liwan jia you! i gt back my economics test. I got 15/25. I am so happy cos i thought i will fail....

After that i had maths test. Mr Ang is very nice la. He cheered me up when i am down. I know i gonna fail. Sorry Mr ang, I knoe u have been trying very hard to help me. I will jia you de!!!!!!!!!!!!!! After that is chemistry lesson la. I just stared at ms fong, i am nt sure what is gg on. After class, she approached me. She kept pressing for an ans to why am i so sad. She kept saying i PMS! guess what i said.. i said that she also PMS..I told her i am just very sad, i am nt sure of the reason. I told her i am lost. I Just wanna end my life.. It is so tiring... We just kept crapping.. She definitely cheer me up too.. HAHA.. i told her if i ever go mental hospital, she must come and visit me... That is lame...

After that , i met victor to study together. Left school ard 6.15. Oh ya, i told ms fong abt the nomination stuff.. haah.. she was touched.. And after that i started saying a lot of stuff.. haha.. I guess i am really crazy!!!!!!!!!!! YEs, liwan is mad... liwan is mad....

lesson was fine at Mr Looh class. I learnt a lot.. i guess i really love learning. BUT I HATE EXAMS AND TESTS... Okay.. Tmr Mock SPA.. i think i will fail.. sob sob..liwan jia you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGHHHHHHHH (here i am screaming again)

listening to the song " You dont know my heart" by Wei lian. feel kind of sad.

is true that you dont know my heart. I should say that you dont know my heart right from the start. You said you do but it is proven that you know little of it. There are things which i really wanna to tell you but it seems difficult. I dont want to hurt you. I want to put it in the way that both of us wont get hurt. I guess i have been thinking abt a lot of things lately. No appetite to eat and no interest to study. I am not sure of the reasons. maybe i like to suspend reasons.

listening to "heaven Knows" by wei lian too. It is also another sad song.

I guess only heaven will know what we people are doing. Only heaven knows what is happening in this world. Only heaven can sense what i really wanna to tell you. Only heaven knows what we are thinking.
I really dont want you to go but i know you have to. tell me where do i start, cos it it breaking my heart, i dont want to let you go.. Maybe you will come back someday, only heaven knows. Why i live in despair?? All the time i act so brave, i am shaking inside. Why does it hurt me so?? Only heaven knows.
I guess i have to start to slowly let go of you. what is meant to be is meant to be.

i want you to be happy as much as you want me to be happy. i should have gt up of the trap long time ago but lately, i just found out that i am still inside the trap. I guess i am too naive le.. i guess i should just cherish the remaining time i have with you. I guess i should just enjoy myself when we are together. Have fun and laughter. =] I wish for you happiness.

Haix.. gonna go study again. cheer up gal. Learn to let go . Liwan can de.. Study hard ba. Tmr test le, why am i still staring blankly at my notes?? =[

LOVE YOU ALWAYS.......

my eyes are closing.

Slept at 12 plus yesteday night. Was doing PnC . Haix. Is quite tough. Wake up at ard 9 today. Started studying again. finished tutorial 37 . I hav some doubts which i wanna clear by tmr. Hopefully that teacher is free. How i hope ms yang is there 4 me.. mS YANg, i miss u..

After lunch, i started reading newspaper.. and cut them out. File a lot of info inside a file. Now i have a problem, how to use them. haix. See ba.. slowly ba. I am nt sure. liwan jia you, keep trying! dun give up.

I haven start studying maths!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Vectors and DE. No time to study. GG out at night.. hehe. will study in the evening ba. I am tired. Gonna take a nap... my eyes are closing.. tata

I MISS U A LOT. LOVE U!!!!!!!!

So tired.Slept at 12 plus yesterday to do the mindmap. Okay la, quite happy with myself.. I only got to settle dwn at ard 10 plus. Then started studying. that was quite bad... tired.

Reached home at ard 3 plus today. I was super tired. Took a nap till 5 pm. But i am still tired la.. Had 2 consultations today. Mr Ang and ms fong. It was a short one cos i am too tired, i cant think much. I have a lot of stuff to do today. I hope to complete everything which i planned to do .God bless me ba...

Nt gg out today, since everyone is so busy. Will go out tmr and shop ba.. =]=]=] Okay.. will stop here. Not in a perfect mood today. TATA...

Lessons were quite okay in the afternoon. had consultation with Mr Ang after that we talked a lot. HAha.. oKay, he is indeed a nice teacher. Thankz Mr Ang! Might be seeing him on Fri again. I may nt do well, but at least i tried. isnt that the spirit...

Dreamt of MRS CHANG yesterday nite. I guess i am too stress up. I dreamt that i failed my economics test. I gotten 10/25 . I was very sad. I hope this is not true. I am scared. Saw Mrs chang today but din have a chance to talk to her. I guess i am too stress. TEACHERS pls dun come to my dream and Scare me.. sigh...

I ran ard the school this afternoon to collect money and also to look for ms fong to pass her the T shirt money. Apparently, gt ticked off cos ........................ is a long story. I noe she cares but i gave her my point of view. I am really alright! dun worry abt me.. I told her i am happy. She gave me a nick name. Octopus X5.. I hope she doesnt stir up everything cos is really nthg. will explain to her nxt time.... Oh ya, suppose to makan with mdm koh, but i din have time to do so.. BTW, i skipped my lunch again. Haix.. this is bad for health! I owe her a treat. I have to clear it fast but apparently i really cant find time. I will try my best to treat her nxt week. I hope can lor.. hehe...... I am so sorry mDm koh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After that we went to Bedok reservoir view!!! that is the venue where we gave out flyers. HAH.. it took us quite a little effort to finish everything. We spent ard half and hr.. hehe.. YEa.. We were all tired like crazy.. hah... After that i left for tuition. I was so tired. I couldnt think! i almost doze off. I tried to respect my teacher by forcing myself to be awake.. So tiring. Tmr have physics test. I am quite scared. i hope to pass. It is only one chap!!!!!!!!!!! Haix.. liwan, u gonna jia you.. take care k................... Tmr will be a long day... Gt training, but will leave early cos my sis bd.. and i have to go and get the cake! Tired............ Gonna go and study le.. tata

Hmmm.. This word is given to be the second time.. I will learn how to write it. will go ask one of the chinese teachers. Apparently this word is given to me by ms fong. This is the second time. haix.. do i really worry a lot? The problem is if i dun clear my doubts, i will never understand and i tend to worry a lot.. haix.. nvm.. Today SPA was a total rubbish. I approached her and she found out that i am confused. We fixed a date for consultation. Haix... So liwan is actually so stupid. Stupid liwan, have to learn to come to the reality that we will be taking a major exam this yr. Cant play anymore... Somehow i really wish that i can enjoy the process... God, pls guide me.. i need ur guidance.. GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! sob sob...

Went for training today, quite tiring. I think i hurt my hand. B4 training we are suppose to set some goals. Yupz.. after that we are suppose to share out target for studies. I cant imagine what i said. I shared with the pp what i want to get for JCT. I hope it is not too much. HAIX. may be will speak to all my tutors again and see what they think i should aim for.. haix.. Slowly ba, since there are 5mths to go. I will make sure that i am consistent! Liwan , jia you k? i noe i wont do well for all my recent tests. My heart haven settle down yet. Give me some more time k?? I will be on the right trach soon! Liwan.. can de!!!!!!!! somehow i noe how to plan for my studies le... so not that scary after all. YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All the way...

Tmr going out with the class and ms fong to distribute the flyers. I hope we will enjoy it.. Must take pics.. in case they wanna to do exhibition again.... YEA.. i guess wont go for tuition tmr.. sianz.. TATA.... gonna go study le.. Must study finish physics today!!!!! all the way. Tmr have consultation with mr ang!!!!! =]=]=] hope it wont be a tiring one.. smilez....

just came back from tuition! i miss ms yang. I wonder how is she now! i really miss her a lot. I am sad.. i felt so lost w/o her. i guess she is really one great teacher. Will email her when i am free. I feel so bad not wishing her "bon voyage" b4 she left ! Sorry k?? i really miss her.. haix...

Hmmm.. saw the new teacher today. Is a guy. I guess i dun like guy teacher leh!! i dont seem to be able to clique with male teacher. HAIX... He talked to me but i think i kind of attitude him. I dun noe why, i think i prefer female teachers. MS yang, LOVE U so much.. sob sob...

Finished P&C today. i guess nxt week we will be doing a lot of exercises. I dont mind actually. i need to go and do physics and econ HW. I think i need to start planning a Time Table if not i am always lost!!!!!!!!!!! My heart cant settle dwn. talked to Mr derrick abt it, he taught me hw to manage my stuff. I am v grateful that i always have nice teachers. I am soooo heng!! Thankz god! In school, i have Ms Fong, Mr Ang, Mrs Chang,Mdm Lim, Mr Tan, Mdm Koh, Mdm jiang hui, Mr Isklander and those teachers who are nt teaching me... outside school i have Mr Looh, Ms yang (teaching me presently)... haha.. sorry if i din mention those who i should. I cant rmb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my frens are always jealous when i told them abt my school and teachers. They said that i am so fortunate.. hha.. =p =p !! Thankz GOd.....

Yea, is time to do my work already. Tmr is MON!! happy! get to learn a lot of stuff tmr.. haha.. Yea.. tata.. Liwan , jia you! u can de.. muack...

haix! chest pain again. Is it cos of stress?? i am not sure leh. I keep telling people i am not stress but somehow this is the sypmton of stress? is very pain! Ouch! actuallu i can feel the pain starting on wed! but it gt worse after yesterday. I think i must really do thing at my own pace. I hate rushing. for the past few days i have been rushing and racing with time. Esp yesterday, i had to rush and finish the exhibition stuff... I am not gg to see doctor again cos he will surely give me medicine that make me drowsy. haix. sad..

tried chemical equilibrium again. Quite happy with my Kp but nt Kc. HAix.. I will ask Mr Looh to teach me ba.. Liwan jia you k?? can de. I tried to do tutorial 37 for maths. It is so yucky. i seem to be a lost sheep w/o ms yang ard. I miss ms yang! haix. I want to do well . I must do her proud too.. haix... will ask Mr ang for help ba.. haix.. i have plenty of stuff to do for maths..

Haven finish doing econ yet. No, i should say i have started. HAHAHA.. may be tmr ... I wanna go and read story book liao.. dun feel like doing anything but reading.. *yawn* .. tatta

haix.. i am so tired.. i cant cope...

somehow finished reading thru organic chemistry. Still have to revisit one more time. I am having a headache now. i am quite scared. tried some synthesis questions, i am so slow at it. Last time i was super first at these questions. what happened??? God help me! i wanna do well. Haix.. God pls guide me! I am feeling so sleepy now. What happened to the red bull i drank in the afternoon, it is no longer working...

talked to Syed on the way home. We talked about education. I mean Singapore's education. he said that singapore's education is not good and need to be improved. i am not sure how true it is. I guess i am like the slave. I guess i am okay with everything.

Oh ya, today econ test quite bad. I am scared. I hope to pass. I din get to study much, but i wanna to do well. This is like impossible. Stupid liwan. today, i am trying very hard for tmr chem test. my eyes are closing but i really really wanna to do well. can somebody help me??? I really look 4ward to finish the paper. Anyway, meeting my dear tmr.. haha.. YEA. but i am nt sure if i have consultation tmr. see la.. My bag will definitely be heavy tmr.. haix..

k... have to go back and mug again. This time i have to focus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =]

i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u ihate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u i hate u...

I guess i feel slighty better. Tears seem to flow backward... haix...

Hmm.. today is a long day!!!!!! but everything is fine today. Nthg special happened.

have consultation with ms fong. it lasted for 1hr 30 min. Apparently there are still a lot to go!!! iS okay. Will be having another consultation on WED.. yuPZ..She was amazed by all the work i have done. I guess i should start to be proud of myself. I think i really did a lot of stuff over the holiday. Shld give myself a pat on the shoulder. "liwan, u are great" She asked me a lot of things also. I told her that I have smthg i really really really wanna give her but it seems to be so far reaching. She understood! i am so amazed!!!!! She said she will wait for the present and she believe she will receive soon. HAiz, ms fong u just dun understand my anxiety of giving that present to you. SOB SOB. I am scared!

stayed in school and study after school. Finished Poverty. gt to chat with mdm koh.. haha.. We talked a lot. But i guess i wont/cannot say what we were talking abt... haha.. after that i went for tuition. Ionic equilibrium is so tougH!!!!!!!! But somehow i began to see that it needs a lot of prac! Haiz..which means that i need to dig out a lot of time. Liwan, can de.. jia you!!!!! I was amazed that i could ans one tough question on Ionic equilibrium. Actually that question is also linked to chem equilibrium. Liwan, u are smart! continue to strive and u will reach ur GOAL!!!!!!!!! learn to appreciate urself.. haha.. When i reached home, my maid and parents were amazed that i still can tahan till so late. Well, i guess remedy to my tiredness is my TEACHERS and FRENS support. I can really feel a force pushing me up the hill. I wont 4get when teachers,... hah You all are great!!!!!!!!!

Gonna go.. have to study later! Jia you liwan... GOGOGOGO..

part 2
hmm.. read thru chemistry. It is quiet tough . HAix. i must really work khard in order not to disappoint anyone. Liwan, u gonna jia you wor.. Finished 1/4 of GP-ing (learnt from michelle one) haha.. ya.. quite tiring la...

Haix, i am feeling a bit down now. ms yang is leaving for holland for 3mnths. I will miss her a lot. She is definitely a good teacher. I lover her also!!!!! I did not cry but my heart aches.. very painful! i dun noe why. I feel so lost after knowing that she is leaving. MS YANG , DO TAKE CARE PLS.. I will KEEP U IN MY PRAYERS!!!!!!!!!! LOve u always...

Tired.. need to go GP-ing again. tmr have consultation. I hoep everything is fine. God pls help me!!!!!!!!!!!!! GUIDE me. I dun wan to get hurt again. haix.. sob sob.. tata...

part 1
chatted with MY DEAR! MY DEAR MISS ME.. =p of course la.. we haven meet for 2 weeks. I miss u too. You definitely brightened my day! I want to hug u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yea, we will be meeting on fri after the research ba!!!!!!!!

yesterday i studied organic chemistry once. mayb i shouldnt say used the word "study", i should say "read" .Lolx. Trying hard to memorise but to no avail. Actually i felt like i am racing with the time. I need to read through everything because my consultation with ms fong is tmr. I am afraid tha itt will be the first & last consultation we will have b4 organic chem test. I really hope to do well though i already know that the paper wont be easy. A lot of teachers gave me hints that usually we wont do well for the first paper. =[ I dun wan that to happen. Anyway, i just want to give my best , my very very best!!!!!!!! Liwan, u can de!!!!!!!!!!!!

have tuition at 10 am later. Must go and prepare later. I still wanna study chemistry for a while first b4 i go for tuition. I will embark on GP in the evening. Then tmr morning i will be doing CHEM with ms fong, Then tmr nite will embark on GP ! i hope that will work. I have to plan my stuff well. Liwan all the way k??? Gonna go.. may update later.. tata


Yes! this is my crane. I din put the one which i decorated using my phone cos i feel that it is nt very nice to do so.. haha.. so Yupz.. here is my crane!!!!!!!! Though it is just a piece of paper but i will treasure it! i wont exchange it for a bowl of rice even if i am hungry or at the verge of dying due to famine... haha so touching rite?/... lolx..

Sometimes i really wonder why i gt hurt so easily! I guess i shouldnt take things or what other pp said so seriously.

I din noe that i speak or talk very slowly until yesterday. Thank for telling me then! But honestly i was hurt. i still act very strong in front of you cos i dun wan you to feel bad abt it. Perhap u should learn from me to talk slowly and think b4 u speak?? U wont pp so often then!HAix..

i thought i could end the week with a smile yesterday but i din. Tears start to trickle down my cheek! haix. I smsed victor to ask if he was free. I told him to meet me and company me. Kind of bad rite? Ya. But he was very nice at least to cheer me up a little. =] Thankz Victor!

wake up quite early this morning! Studied economics then slacked a bit. I went to look for janice and do newspaper cutting. HEHE.. Yupz.. Later will go and highlight some points. After that i will wish to re look at Economics. Then i will study chemistry and do ms fong and mr loohs work?? yupz.. haix..I must jia you!!!!!!!!!!! Nxt week 3 tests.. so sianz... Liwan u can de. i am certain that i wan to reach the peak! YEA.. i look forward to the end of fri. =[ may update again!! tata

this will be a 2 day blog entry...

10/1/07 (wed)

I guess what was the most interesting thing yesterday was Civics! We are suppose to write smthg to affirm one another. I am not sure how effective it was but i was sure that the pink piece of paper didnt help to motivate me or inspire me! =[ .

After Civics, I told ms fong to stay back cos i got things to tell her. very daring of me to tell her stay back!! YES! FInally i got to say what i have hid inside my heart for the past few months. It took me a lot of courage to say. I told her i din my script..hhaa.. So have to think hard. i was scared , i guess she can hear that from my voice cos i shiver a little. What can be soooooo scary to say??? Dun worry is not some kind of confession.. haha.. bUt i think it is nt good to write here.. haha.. She was super touched but din cry la.. haha.. Anyway, yup she was touched. She told me a lot of stuff. She shared with me her feelings too. I was touched. I didnt know i have done such positive things to her. But i din get to ask her what made her think that, and what positive things did i do. I will ask her another time but i guess i need a lot of courage when touching this kind of topic. I was really damn scared yesterday. It took me a lot of courage to say "cher , i have smthg to tel u" . Actually she knew that i have smthg to tell her on the day when she passed me the crane but i guess she din expect the content to be as such. I told her abt the "force" that i experienced during promo. It was so great!!!!!!
after that, she suddenly realised that she has a meeting!haha.. she was late.. I am so sorry.. But i hope is worthwhile! YEA! To be frank, i am very touch too. I am surprise in fact after she shared with me her thoughts!

11/1/07 (thurs)
Quite happy today! I am not sure why. It could be because of yesterday. finally can release 1/4 of everything. Couldnt wake up this morning.. But still in time for school. Saw ms fong, i wanted to ask her the question but dun dare la! haha.. never mind cos we have a lot to share... We talked abt chemistry! Yes, Mr looH!!!!! hhaa.. we just kept crapping. She said our class have all the good teachers and she is very happy for us. Apparently, she is praising herself. HAh..

today's lesson was fine. I was quite sad actually. Mrs Chang changed the test date to Thurs. HOW to study?? Fri chemistry test! HAIX.. sadded.. Wed GP test?? God grant me wisdom?? I need someone to guide me. I guess i gt to learn how to adapt!!! i din take my lunch today cos of econ. i did the mindmap and miss my lunch. Haix. I hope i will do well for this test. HAix....

I think for the coming weekend i will do GP and econ! Mon will have consultation.I must make full use of my time . I need to replan my timetable again. =[ =[

still rmb the first time having SPA prac last yr, i cried cos i was very stressed. I dont understand what ms fong was saying. I din cry in front of her definitely. Well, it happened again. My first SPA prac made me very sad. i couldnt catch up. She spoke to fast. HAix. Is okay. I cried but not in front of her! U I sat down and looked at the questions again. I figured out on my own. There are some parts which i still couldnt understand. I guess will ask her on Thurs since i have consultation with her. I din noe i was so sad. She tried to console me but the only things i said was "i dont knoe" . I am sorry. I was really very sad.

haix. Still not feeling well. very tired. Cant make it for today's training. Oh ya, i received a crane yesterday from ms fong. Finally! i took pics of the crane.. I think i love taking pics!!! will put in up mayb nxt week... too busy le... she said i have to jia you and make her proud. That definitely add weigh to my stress. But i told her will try my best in all i do but i cant guarantee that i will see As for My A level. But i will persevere. Somehow actions speak louder than words. Ms fong, i will show u i can de . i told u wan to reach the peak!

Get back my organic chem test. SAd.. i passed 7/10 but i am not happy. May be i should start learning to be content. nxt week have chemistry test. I hope i wont be a disappointment. Haix.. Liwan u can de!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hAVE MORE FAITH IN URSELF. RMB TO PERSEVERE!!!

gonna go.. need to do research... haix.. tata....

part 2
finished periodic table. I select question and do because some of the questions are repeated. i hope this is right. Finished exercise 3.3b too. I hope tmr i will feel better so that i can go further!!!!! i am so tired.
Went out just now and eat. i have no appetite to eat anything. i cant finish the rice. After that i went to look for a seat while my parents and sisters went to popular. I am too sick to walk.
While i was siting at the bench, i observed the ppl ard me. There were many small kids riding on the electronic cars. that reminded me of my childhood. I played that too. Time flies. =[ 18 yrs old already!!!! i also saw ppl riding bicycles, i feel like riding too. It had been some time since i last ride a bike. HAix...
Saw a few loving couples. felt very happy for them. It is not easy to find someone who really love u so much. Hope their marriage are everlasting. Well, when will i be like them? wil that day come? Yes, nO? maybe? It is quite scary though.. haha...
Gonna go and slp soon. Really no energy! i am dead... Tmr have to embark on Economics le. Din do what i planned to.. haix.. so unlucky to be sick... *yawn* nite........

part1
very sick today. i wake up very early today. I started doing maths. Vectors !!!!!!!! haha.. still nt bad. Somehow a bit proud of myself. The disaster come after that. I decided to switch to chemistry because i realised that ms yang hasnt finished teaching plane. I did chemical equilibrium. Feel like killing myself. It was still fine when doing the first few pages but when i reached calculations problems arise! I am nt sure if i am too sick to think or what. So far i prac other school prelim papers and do the 5 yrs series, their questions are nt that tough but why i cant do tutorial questions?? HAIX. This is disheartening. i hope after the lecture on chem equilibrium, i will be enlightened. Tired! Will try again mayb tmr ba.]

I just finished my lunch. Dont have appetite to eat. Guess what i have for lunch then?? cup noodles. Poor gal!! din want to eat but my mum doesnt allow. Well, i gonna go and do some work le.. will update again. I wonder if tonight will go out a not! I still wanna shop and shop and shop.. haha.. YEA.. see how ba.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Liwan , jia you! U CAN DE.. U just need a little faith and confidence.. =]

4 more hrs, i will be 18 yrs old!

Let me reflect a bit on what i have been doing for the past one yr. To be frank, i enjoyed myself last yr. I learnt a lot in school. There are of course down and up. I knoe that there were a lot of suffering but somehow the happiness outweigh it. i guess it is how an indiviual define happiness?? But i still feel so loved.. haha.. I guess i really enjoy myself....
This yr, i hope i can have a lot of fun learning too. I believe i can de. i just need to have a bit more confidence and faith in myself. I am certain that i want to reach the peak!
I have 3 BD wishes that i posted them even b4 jan. The first one came true. Left two more!! Hope everything will be fine.

Took the same bus with ms fong today. HAH.. Okay la.. we just crap a lot. I told her about my sisters etc. I have her the chopsticks le. I told her can give it to her mum, dad, ah ma, ah gong, HER FUTURE SON AND DAUGHTER. haha.. But she teased me. She said she know that i yearn to get marry . she can teasing me till i very shy.. haha.. I knoe she is trying to fork smthg out of my mouth. =p too bad, somehow i changed topic. We talked abt studies also. I told her that i dun agree with some part of her naggy speech. HA.. she said that i need to learn hw to think big of myself! hah.. Must learn from her.. haa.. After that i told her i am the best and i am big . I am the biggest. haha..she agreeded too... We both laughed. we knew what we were trying to imply. After that she asked me why i am born in the yr of dragon, guess what i told her?? haa.. I told her cos tmr is my BD.. =p=p.. I am expecting smthg for her tmr.. that what i said.. Just crapping.. She is giving me a paper crane tmr.. hopefully she rmb!!!! haha

Just came back frm training. It is so tiring. Dun feel like studying. 3rd week have chem and econ test. HOW?? haix. I must jia you le. Nxt week will start studying econ! LIWAN JIA YOU. U CAN DO IT !!!!!! Very tired. I still dun noe hw to start and where to start! will talk to my tutors soon. need some advices and guidance.. PLS.. i need help.. Too many things to do le!!!!!!!!!! ARGH.. will start consultation nxt week. I need to clear all my doubt asap . Or else i cant move on...

Okay.. need to bathe le.. LIWAN HAPPY BIRTHDAY. MUACKZ>.....

Part 2..
Just finished my lunch.. hmm.. Sch ended quite early today. i stayed in sch to finish up the maths paper. I am still very upset with my performance.

To be honest i am scared! A lot of teachers kept saying that this yr is very impt.. time flies... etc.. who dont know???? I am really frightened by u all. i am not feeling very well. Kept coughing non-stop. i Think is because of stress. I am very stress and tired. I want to do well! I really want to do well.. haix.. sianz...

Let's talk abt smthg happy! i bought my new year clothes on 1st and 2nd of jan. HAHA! i was so crazy over shopping. I got my clothes from "THIS FASHION" i like the dress, and the long shirt. haha.. i bought two pants from there too. Went OG to shop for shoes but dont have the size i want so i give up! hah.. My knee is hurting now. I guess is because of the heels that i tried!

i took some photo using my new HP. But i dun noe why cant i load it here. HAix.. suan le. I think i also dun have the mood and energy to learn. Today physics test. I gonna fail. Is very disheartening. First test of the term i gg to fail!!!!!!!! Pathetic soul. Gonna rest le. I am nt well.. After that i will go and bathe and prepare for TUITION!


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i cant use my home computer.. so sickening. I hope it will be fine soon!!!!!!!

Hmm.. sch starts today. Kind of boring! Yupz, ms fong is our CT ( MR TAN. NOW U KNOW LE! haa) She gave us a hp keychain. I put it on my new hp though it doesnt complement.... yupz, i bought a new hp. i haven really explore it yet. I am too busy. so sianz...

Actually a lot of things happened for the past few days but i am too lazy to blog. I am tired.. i have tuition tonight. I am scared. I do look forward to A level , on the other hand, i am scared that i cant cope. I scared that i will break down. Ms fong said that we have to persevere and reach for our goal. It is tough leh. argh... I really hope everything will be fine. Tutorial starts nxt week. Got my timetable le. It is quite yucky. SOB.. I guess i wont be able to reach home b4 7 everyday le....... Good luck...

k.. gg for lecture.. will update again!!!!!!!!!!!! =[

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan