i guess there is smthg wrong with the blogger webby. I take so long to sign in. Sianz...

Din slp well yesterday night. Wake up at 3 am then went back to slp again. Wake up at 8 plus. Went to school. HAIX. THe HUB is closed. I am so unlucky. I stayed in school to do the vector exercises. I read through ms yang's notes. YUPZ. After that i went to yan hing house. We played X box.. i am very lousy at that. I saw her BRO. At last! Okay la, i mean i went there so many times also din get to see him. He is small in size just like yan hing. After that her mum bought us food. She is really very nice. I so pai seh. HAha.. after that Her mum and i chatted for quite a long time. We talked about school life. I told her that i love my school and i really enjoy my first year. It is very fun though stress. I told her that the enjoyment that i experienced outweighs the sufferings i had.Then she asked what i wanna to be.. I told her teacher. She talked to me a lot abt neighbourhood school. i was amazed by the student behaviour but that doesnt allow me to procrastinate the fact that i really wanna be a teacher. I told her that i know teaching is very tough but i find it very challenging!!!!!! She understood what i mean. She said is good to consider teaching as a career. HAHA.. YEA.. I noe is good. She said is iron rice bowl (translate from chinese) but i beg to differ. I still think is not easy to become a teacher. haha... but i will jia you de.... i guess what is most important now is to stay focus. be assured!!!!!!!! haha

Let me seeeeeeeee... hmmm.. Din study much today. Tmr have tuition. Will prepare at night. I am so tired.. *yawn* sianz............. tired.... I WAN MY HP.. wonder when can i have it.. haix.. MY BD IS COMING LE... haha.... tata

din get to blog yesterday...

Actually nthg much happened. I just wanna to blog. Went popular to buy some stuff. I bought writing pad, files, correction tapes. YUPZ. I went there with my sis. I am still trying hard dampen the gap between us. I tried le. I tried to compromise but to no avail. Can anyone teach me what to do. I am really envy when people tell me that they are very close with their siblings. Why cant i ?? I really tried. She is totally different from me. I tried to tame down a bit le. Somehow i still cant accept her. HAIX... GOd teach me what to do?

Left 3 chaps of physics, a few chapters of Maths and A LOT OF CHAPS OF CHEMISTRY. HOW TO FINISH?? SIANZ LA... I can use my fingers to count the number of days to sch reopen , yet i haven finishing doing my stuff. What should i do?? HAIX.. LIwan jia you pls...

GG to school tmr to print some stuff.. i hope the hub is open. If not it will be a waste trip. AFter that i will go yan hing house to play. We will makan together?? Yupz, hope we will have a lot of fun. Feel like watching TV now. HAix.. dun care le la.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gonna go... tata.. Not feeling very well. My gastric is giving me a lot of problems... =[ =[

part 2
feeling happier. I am not sure why but i kept laughing just now. I slacked the whole day. Read up a bit of economics. I mean i read the mindmap that i made. I am still very suprised that i am able to do all the mindmaps. I guess it was lucky that i do relatively alright for my Promo if not i may not have the motivation to study. I must really jia you. I slacked a lot today. I am a bad gal. HAHA....
Went to look for my dEAR today.. haha.. I bring the jelly i made along. i hope they taste nice. HAHA.. We chatted a while. HHA... very sianz also. I din expect my dear to work here today.
Gg for facial tmr at 12. After that i will go and have my hair cut ba. It is very long le. to be frank. i dont bear to cut it.. hah... Hope to go popular tmr. I need to get a lot of stuff from there since school is starting in abt a week time. Hopefully my sis can come along.
Well, let's me see what i can do tmr. Hmm.. Wanna to do maths leh! But i am uncertain if i will really do a not. I need to revise again. I dont have the mood to do so. Haix. I guess i may look at my physics. See how first!!!!!!!!!! I dont have the interest to do anything since yesterday. I think is cos of the fact that my sis is back le. Sianz.. This isnt a good sign!!!!!!!!! GOOD Luck. I am certain that i will be getting my phone soon. To be frank i am afraid that it will be out of stock or when i reached the HELLO SHOP, i dont have gut to buy le. I am not sure but i noe i really love this phone!!!!!!!!!! HELP ME.
K.. gonna go and study le.. TATa.. i mean not study but help my mum to wipe the utensil. Hopefully i wont break anything.. haha

Part1
yesterday was christmas day. I knew my sister will be back by then though she told us that she will only be back on the 27th dec. Anyway, it wasnt a surprise for me then. It was for my parents. HAHa.. Somehow i am very proud of my six senses! yea.. OR IS IT INTUITION? ai ya.. same la. haha


Went Mr looh's lesson yesterday. He was in a bad mood. We are learning ionic equilibrium. Sianz la, i am very slow at calculation. I guess i might be the first to finish Organic chemistry, but it is very sad to noe that i am one of the last to finish ioni equilibrium. HAIX. U all can start laughing at me. I can forsee what will happen nxt yr le. ( just one wk more) haix... Must prac a lot lor. (BO BIAN) Liwan Jia you!!!!!!!!

Safely to say that i almost finished all my HW le. Gg to finish another essay today. I wrote 1/4 yesterday. HAHA... Jia you Liwan. I hope to finish another 2 more by one week. I guess if i am discipline , this shouldnt be a problem. YEA! JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmm... the outing is cancelled! sob.. Yi ling couldnt make it. But is okay. Ms ng said that we will meet on the 29th of dec. She wanna celebrate with me. I am not sure how to celebrate. I will leave this to her. hah..

No more maid le! she went back le. She will be back on the 10th of jan. cant even come back during my BD. haix. I guess nxt yr BD will be a dull one . wont think that much.. gg to study le.. JIA YOU JiA YOU...... hope i can go out today and tmr. I wanna go out to have fun!!!!! haha.. i want to shop!!!!! Somehow i love shopping, i am nt sure of the reason. But i guess it is only after promo that i am "diagnosed" with this kind of disease.! haha.. i beta heal myself b4 school start if nOT!!!!!!!!!! I wont be able to bear the consequences. ANyway, to be frank, nxt yr i will be damn busy la, where gt time to go out and chiong?? haha...

may update later

bought my school shoes yesterday. A relatively cheap one! happy!

Somehow i understand who are the ones who really care for me and love me. I mean other than family. I really hate you! i have not been sleeping and eating well because of you! Dont you feel that you are so significant? I dont know! Should i hate you?i am tired. Pls, dont treat me in this way can? I dun wan to be a hyprocrite infront of you. I dont think you will like it too. However, i am very certain that if i ever see you again, i will still continue to laugh at ur jokes! Why must i make things difficult for myself? Ms Ho told me not to care for those who do not how to appreciate you. Also, she told me not to treat every problems or troubles i have to be so significant. Ms Ho, i really dont know how. i know you shared with me a lot of things but i cant apply it. Haix.. I am just an ASSHOLE.

One more week to school reopen. I am experiencing a mixed feeling. I wasnt sure if i am looking foward or not! This kind of feeling is horrible. I hate it. I used to love TJC and my teachers a lot. Do i still like them a lot? A question to ponder upon.

Receiving a Big present later! haha.....i think i noe what is it ! Anyway, i am having lesson from 2-4 later. HAIX. I hope i didnt fail the test which i did it on sat! even if i failed, i also dont know what to do. be traumatised? Actually to be honest, i never pass any single chem lecture test b4 expect for JCT ( moderate then pass) and my promo ( i suppose is just cos of luck) . So if i failed Mr Looh's ones then is okay lor, is not like i never fail b4. ( I am trying to deceive myself) haix........

Need to go and study le........... may update later......

ANyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY FRENS AND TEACHERS OUT THERE!!!!!!!!

Wake up at 7.30 this morning. I was super tired. I slept at ard 11 plud yesterday night. i made jelly for Ms yang and Ai ai.. haa.. Tmr is ms yang BD. I give it to her for BD and xmas present. Will go and look for janice on tues? yupz..Pass her the jelly too. Hope she and my hubby like it!
After that i rushed down to TOA PAYOH HUB to do some vounteery work. I saw Apple Hong. She is very pretty. She smiled at me. I took a pic of her but is not clear. I want to buy new HP so that i can take beta pics.. haha...sadded... Is not easy to ask people to donate and buy the chopsticks. The performance put up by the old folk is really wonderful. I feel very proud of them. GOD can i ask u one question? why cant they share the same fate as the rest of the old folk outside the home? They have no one to love them. I used to have a dream which was to open old folk home. HAIX. I am uncertain how possible is it. i really love to help the old folk. I wanna let them knoe that even if the whole world abandon them, there will still always be a gal there who are willing to share their burden. I love u all. AH MA & AH GONG, PLS BE StRONg! May God bless you all! Hugggzzzzzz
I left ard 3 plus. Ms jereen is a very nice person. She gave me a token of appreciation. She gave me a nice bundle of chopstick. She was very happy that i can represent the class to go down and help her. Yupz, I think the token of appreciation will give it to ms fong??? i dont really know what to do with it. I dont think i am suppose to keep?? Beta give all the chopstick to ms fong. Yupz.. tired...
Just taken my lunch. I enjoyed myself today. ms jereen told me my help made a difference. HAha.. thankz ms jereen. u are really a nice person.

Super tired! gg out later to buy some stuff. Feel like sleeping. Will take a NAP. Wont update le ba... My legs hurt. Shouldnt wear heels! This is what we called ' AI MEI BU YAO MING" lolx.. is okay.. tata...
Still miss u so much.. sob sob.. HAIXXXXXXXXX...................

met jing xuan this morning. After that went to look for AI AI . Help AI AI to store some songs. After that I chiong to BISHAN to meet victor. As usual, he is late. He is very bad, always bully me leh! Very angry with him. I almost vomit blood. i guess i wont bad mouth abt him since he company me back.
had the organic test!Is was super easy! I guess i was teh first to finish the paper. I dont think i will do well cos i was tired. I hand in the paper to Mr Looh. He laughed at victor mistakes but when he saw my paper, he gave me a very stupid face. I am dead!sianz.. how?? i am such a disappointment?? haix
After lesson, it was already 5.30 . Learnt ionic equilibrium today. Tough leh!! sianz.. very sad! AFter that went home with victor. I went to look for my mum. She went facial. HHA.. I going for facial. I let Annie to have a look at my face , she said is better. I need another round of facial. I am so busy. I cant even squeeze sometime out for facial. haiX.. Yupz... It is tentatively on 29th dec. I need to go back sch on 29th dec to print more papers. I hope the hub is open. If not it will be a wasted trip. *yawn*

Kind of missing you today! I am very sad. I dont know why. I hope you are fine. I miss you a lot actually. I hope to see you soon. I have a lot of things to share with you. that kind of feeling is kind of horrible. I hate missing people. But expected, you noe i will miss u a lot !!!!!!! haix

Need to finished up economics HW! Jia you. I wont do now. Maybe tmr? mayb mon? haha.. tired.. gg to slp soon. Night.. Tmr have tuition.. after that have to rush dwn to TOA PAYOH! GOD grant me some strength!!!!!!!!

Dear Santa, if you ever read my blog, please get me a HP. ( the model i want) . I have been a good girl this year. With love .. pls !!!!!!!!!!!

part2
Guess what, i saw my EX AHS principal. I was shocked. This was what happened..
i was reading a story book. i was 'addicted to it" However there was someone who caught my attention. A lady who could not stand properly. wasnt stable with her steps. So i decided to offer my seat to her. After that i saw Mr Wang! I was shocked . That lady was his wife. I didnt dare to say hi to him because he seems to be in deep thoughts. Also, i am afraid that he would think i want to earn credits. I guess is okay! i guess he will be proud to have me as one of his student in AHS. I looked at him. I find him a bit slimmer compare to last time. i wanted to find him seat but to no avail. the only thing i can do is to look at him and make sure he doesnt fall.Even if he fall, i will be there for him. =] Seeing the way he held the resting bars, my heart aches. I dont know. Where is the strong Mr Wang! Oh ya, i noe he loves his wife a lot. I can sense it. I am proud of him. He is really a good guy! MAy god bless him...
well... today is the final day for my crash course. Well, i remember Janice asking me what is it. I told her is about teaching us how to " zuo ren" (make people in chinese) . She said she can teach me that since she already have a son at the age of.. haha... ya, she said she will charge me for free.. haa.. Ya, i will look for her nxt time.. haha.. lame. I find this course meaningful. i see some hope in me. I will jia you!!!!!!!!!! And make more people!!!! Lame.. no more orchard LE! yea.. no need to travel so much.. so lazy.....
Was chatting with mich just now. i said that she is smart. She also said that to me. i beg to differ! It is merely hardwork. i am definitely not as smart as my classmates. HAix. this can be seen from my promo.. i have to work so hard in order to promote. HAix. like what ms fong told me b4 promo and school end, she said i take longer time to learn? isnt that very hurting?? but she is nice to add on the fact that is it worth it as the time spent allow me to top the class.She said that i must brush up my physical chem , she told me to prac more so i can top the class again. somehow i noe this wont last. I may not have any more chances. Well, what i can do is to continue to work hard and be consistent!!!!!!!!!! i rmb after letting Mr Tan see my holiday time table he said if i continue to be consistent, i will be seeing As nxt yr. Mr Tan, how i wish u were God sia. I definitely believe you!!!!!!! haha.. but thank for your assurance.
Tmr i need to travel down to pasir ris to meet jing xuan. She gonna teach me. I hope i will learn a lot from her. I gonna treat her to MAC. Am i very bad?/ haha.. After that i need to rush down to Bishan for Mr Looh's lesson. if i am not wrong there will be a test tmr. HOW??? HAIX. ORGANIC CHEM. I din study. HOW to study. I have no time. LIWAN YA!!!I will look through my notes tmr. The consolation is it is an open book test. However i feel that the questions wont be so easy. i dont think we will have a chance to use the notes. HAIX. Liwan,. try ur best k??
Tmr will be another busy day. All the way...
Gg to sleep soon. TATA... nites.......

Part 1
Hmm.. feel better today. feel much happier....

hmmm... went for dental check up today. got my teeh polished but i feel that his skills are bad. mayb i shouldnt blame him because he wanna earn money. time is money for a dentist? Sianz.. is okay! Actually i went there for fun de. I have to wear braces leh!!!!!!! sianz. I noe it is very costly. I guess i wont wan to use my mum money. I will wait till i earn money then wear ba. I feel guilty to use their money. I feel bad. That's me! Mayb after A level i will go and work! See ba..

Finished one essay. That is all i do for today but i am still happy. I am not sure of the reason. It could be the satisfisation. i guess i will do a few more b4 sch reopen. I guess u people will start to sympathise whoever my teacher is next yr. haix. i also dun noe what to say.

I am late.. i need to go orchard again. Not to shop but for lessons. YEA! Liwan Jia you! Dun think so much le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. may update later...

Part2
Somehow finished SAJC and MI paper le. I have a lot of doubts to clear and i am uncertain when i can finish clearing them. I have a lot of questions for chemistry too. I need help!!!!!!!!!!!! HAIX. Having gastric pain ! i din eat much for my dinner. The food suck. Only pig eat those food. The food is so not fresh. Stupid hawker! i had an ice cream instead. Ms ng said the outing will be tentatively on 26th dec. I hope it works. Yi ling still cant promise if she can make it a not.. Sianz. we are both stuck! no choice. i dun noe how. Let's nature take its course. i am sick. Not well to think so much.
Well, what should i do tmr? write another essay on population. I wont touch maths le. I realised something, i really need to sit down and consolidate everything. I learnt a lot but i have no time to really sit down and thin again. i guess it is time to do so! Liwan , jia you pls!Discipline yA!
Gonna slp soon b4 that i will need to go and wash up. Hmm.. my face! yupz, recovered a bit already but there are scars!!!!!!!!!! I hope it can recover fully before school reopen. I think i will go for facial b4 sch reopen. =] yEA. Oh ya, i need to cut hair. Very long le. may nt cut it. I am not sure. See how, may b after sch reopen then cut. Tired to do anything. Sianz...zzzz snore........Argh i miss u a lot.. =[
Part 1
I knoe i did tell my teachers i wanna retain cos i feared that i wont be able to cope nxt yr. i feel that my basic still very shaky. I told ms fong about it but as usual she will just crap. We cant be serious.. I am nt sure. Nxt yr is an important and am i really ready for it??
hmm.. somehow my perception changed. i came across an article about marriage. "Should marriage be forever and divorce should not be condoned" Well, as i was reading something caught my attention. "when we are facing a problem, we shouldnt quit." i really love this sentence a lot. From then , i changed my mindset. I told myself " hey, liwan! take this as a challenge. If u really think of quitting then u are worse than a sore loser". I find it amazing. I was so sure that i will wan to continue to strive and give my best in everything i do. I wanted to share this with ms fong and the rest of my teachers. I am sure they are happy to hear that.
However, after yesterday my confidence became shaky. Am i really up to it??? Well, this was what happened. Yi ling and i were studying in the library cafe. A lady approached us, she asked if we could look after her things while she head for the toliet. Of course we agreeded. AFter her trip to toliet, she came and thank us. She talked to us. She asked which JC we are from. of course i am very proud to say that i am frm TJC. ( i just realised that a lot of people do not know that TJC is Temasek Junior College, people often think that it is Tampines Junior College. It really upsets me) Well, she continued to chat with us. She said she hav a son just graduated this yr. She told us that A level exam is not easy. She kept telling us that this and that is important. She said we need to mug a lot. She said her son hav a lot of tuitions and good tutors. She said she is grateful that God is always there to help her son........................ (she said a lot)
After that, i wasnt in the mood. I started asking myself if i am really up to it?? The things i have been doing, is it really sufficient?? I dont know. She makes me feel like i will never make it for A level. Maybe God sends her here to tell us to study hard?? I am confused. I have tuition also. I have good tutors too but i still think that we need to help ourselves b4 anyone can help us. HAIX. I dun noe that but i am sure that what that lady said have definitely a great impact on me.
Liwan, are you up to it? i cant answer this question anymore. At first, i was very sure that i will wan to reach the peak but after what she said the peak seems to be very far from me. God pls teach me what to do. Wo hao lei!......................

i finished SRJC paper 1. Find that the questions are not tough compare to our sch paper. I cant do some of the questions because i am not very sure of the formula etc. Well, is a good start. still left SAJC, and MI paper 1. Will go and try later on. i need to go and wash up le. feel so dejected. I knoe that i shouldnt let what other ppl said affect me but........ haix...............

I dreamt of sch yesterday. it is a funny dream. Having a headache.. later still have to go orchard for crash course. yesterday din rain!!!!!!!!!! haha... sianz..................... may update again.. tata

part 2

just came back from crash course. I learnt a lot actually. I find it meaningful. =] Just had my dinner. so sianz.. the rain doesnt seem to stop yet it is actually getting heavier each time. So sick to carry umbrella around.
not in a very good mood. I am not sure why. It is definitely not the time of the month. I guess is partly cos of you. i miss u a lot. I dont know what to say leh. I want to get out of the trap cos it is detrimental to me. Haix. God pls tell me what to do.I guess is time to learn nt to love someone so deeply. My fren, i miss u.

Meeting yi ling tmr. GG to study. I have really plan what to do. Maybe, i wil try the prelim paper. I will look at my GP again. I need to bring my big file with me. That is irritating! is okay. I may want to go home first b4 i go orchard.

WO HAO LEI! Mentally esp! Gonna stop thinking abt you! but i doubt i can. ANyway, i need to go and get myself change. need to wash up.. tata............




part 1

Hm… sianz sia. So cold!!!! Why cant the second hand stop running? I cant catch up. Cant you see that I am panting so badly. Time flies! I have plenty of stuff to do but I can’t finish. Sob. HOW???I don’t need any helpers but I need more time. HAIX! Help me .. I really don’t like to race with time cos I will definitely loose. GG to orchard later. 7 to 9 pm again. Sob sob.. I can’t blame anyone, is all my fault. I am so sick of orchard! I still rmb when I was young, I always tell my mum to bring me to orchard but now, no thank. I have enough of it.

I dreamt of you yesterday. I was so scared. I can’t find u?? What does it mean?? What does this dream trying to tell me? I am losing you?? I hope that wont happen. I am so tired. My eyes are closing, how I wish I can go and take a nap now but the fact is I cant. I need to go and bathe and prepare some stuff. I do look forward to next week cos I will be less busy. I guess I can relax more.

Called yi ling but no one answered. I wonder if we are still meeting up tmr. Haix.. I am tired of everything. So sick… may update later again. sianz diao…

Part 2
tried a bit of physics and maths. Yupz. Not feeling well. Feeling very hot nw. I am having slight fever. hAix. I walked under the rain today. Very sad. I went tampines and hunt for bag. Yupz. I am not sure if my dear like it a not. I really not well. Went to singtel today and look at the hp i want. $ 348 leh!! haix??Should i buy? My dad gave me another $50 dollars. I am not sure why he gave me $$$ haha.. i noe he loves me.

i guess i confirm buying hp le. I am also buying a bag with my dear. hah.. i will buy shoes also. Is these rewards too much? I reward myself because for the past 8 mnths at least , i was always busy with studies. And i am very certain that for once school reopen, i will start to lead that kind of life again. So i must pamper myself now. HAH.. I am not sure if this should be the way. Am i a bad gal?? Tired.. *yawn* Tmr will study hard again. I must do maths !!!!! haha.. All the way! i will do another 5 questions for physics. Will do some printing too?/ YEA!liwan that is the way i suppose so..

it has been raining since the past few days. Haix?? how to go ECP with ms ng?? sob sob... mayb we should go shopping?? haha.. dont know. But i guess the reason why we wanna go ECP is cos there are a lot of our sweet memories there!!!!!!!!!! headache. I need to go and get myself change and wash up. tired... tata..........

I miss u a lot.. AH!!!!!!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!!! I MISS U.. i hope that we can always be good fren. =] how is that possible?? haix. it takes two hands to clap!

part 1
slept at 2 plus yesterday. I lay down at ard 12 pm. After that i sms yi ling . We will be studying on Wed. Then i asked her if she wanna go shop for bags. We discussed very long and so i ended up slp'g at 2. haha.. but is okay. I wake up at 8pm. Then slack until now.

Well.. will go in a few minutes time. I am still tired. Will update again.. *yawn* i have plenty of work waiting for me to do. I am dead! Tell me how to finish?? God grant me wisdom?? God help me....

MISS U SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!! sob sob! HAix...

sianz.. i am still coughing badly.. my face ?? on the verge of recovery. haix! i dont know how long will it take. very sad..

finished another essay. Hmm.. i am not very satisfised with this essay because it is quite a short one but i tried my best. i find it difficult. haix.. nvm.. at least i tried. Went for maths tuition. It is slighty better now. At least i know more?? haha.. dont know. Din go for physics tuition cos mr derrick is busy. heng! haha.. Anyway, i am quite slack. hah..

Well, today is sunday, i just came back from dinner. Chatted with ms betsy ng. HAHA.. very happy that we will be meeting up on the 26 or 28. I look forward to it. i guess we will be gg to ECP. yuppy. We had a lot of fun ther. There are a lot of sweet memories k! YEA.. Hope she will finish everything on time. Ms ng , Jia you.

Well, tmr i have to travel all the way to orchard again. I will be very busy nxt week. I mean this coming week. A lot of things to do. But i guess this is a good way to keep myself occupied. Well, my re-revision start today! now is already midnight. 18/12/06. I guess i better be discipline and do what i am suppose to be doing. YES! i will. Will look at my doubts for physics again. Will look at my maths again. Esp all the promo papers. A lot of stuff to do.. Help help... hehe. ms yang gave us a lot of HW today. Wish me good luck sia.. hah... Yes, i will work hard and reward myself!! I want to enjoy myself when i am out with ms ng.

Gonna go and sleep already. I still miss u as usual. I have a lot of things to share with u. I am uncertain if i will have the chance to tell u a not. I dont know. I really miss u a lot............. i shouldnt expecting anything from u but i just wanna say having u in my life really make a great difference. I love u lotz! Do take care....

haix.. this morning, i went to the singtel webby, and i was sad when i found out that the price actually increased. I regretted ! i should have buy it earlier. I told my mum. She said is okay. She will still buy for me. But i feel bad! i feel guilty. I guess i wont want it. To be frank , i really love that HP. HOW?? sob sob.. i want! i wasnt in the good mood after that.

I went to help my maid to do some paperwork cos she needs to go home. Her mum is seriously ill. HAIX. God, i pray that her mum will get well soon . No maid from 26th to jan 10. She cant even be here to celebrate my BD. sob sob.. haix.. After that i went for facial. HAix. I consult the people there. My face gt ATTACKED BY BACTERIA. SOB SOB.. how?? It will take a long time to heal ba.. Ugly gal! stigma?? haix... dun care liao la. very sad. Stupdi bacteria...

i just finished one essay. my eyes are closing. I am very tired. Dont know why! I am very slow. i planned to do another essay leh. HOW?? i still have physics to do. Sob sob. what can i do. ?? i need to rest nw. I will go and take a nap for the better.. Nite nite.. may update later.. sob

part 2
just had my dinner. The lesson i had just now was very fulfilling. Is very enriching. I learnt a lot. Thankz Mrs Woo. You are a very nice teacher. You are also very motherly.
Haix, maths was a horror today. too many things to learn. i cant catch up. It may be because i was too tired. Switched off a little. I have to slwoly grasp the concept behind it. I noe that i shouldnt memorise. Give me some time sia. Haix. Tired!
Didnt manage to do any essay. Is very disappointing.I dont think i have the zeal to do. haha.. I will do 2 tmr then. hao lei! will do maths first before i try the essay. Liwan jia you.

Until today then i realise why my teacher said she loves to travel by bus and MRT. She said there are many free shows. I agreed with her now. Recently, i have to always travel so get to see more things. haha.. Somehow i feel that it is morally nt correct leh. Hugging and kissing in public? But if they dun do that , we wont have any free shows. HAh.. I dont knoe la.. But there are really v funny people ard.

Finally weekend has approached. waited for it sia. I can do things at my own pace. Sianz... i miss u so much.. hope u are doing well. will stop here. eyes are closing. *yawn* .. tata..........


part 1
went to sch this morning. happy that the hub was opened. yupz, i went to print the papers. Haha. I planned a little timetable for nxt wk programme. Hopefully it will help me.
Gg for facial tmr. It has worsened. it facial does nt help, i will go see a doctor. is all becos of the stupid chlorine water. So idiotic. Regret gg to swim. I thought swimming can help to distress, end up it gave me so much problem. My FACE! i hope it can heal before sch starrts. I dont wan to be an ugly gal.

Suppose to do essay today. i dont think i have time. have tuition from 2-4 plus then 7-9 at orchard. i guess i will do it tonight. Too busy. HOW??? haiz I need to do at least one today and 2 tmr?

have to stop here.. need to go for tuition. tired. Hoep to clear all my doubts today. MAy God bless me. may update later at night. Tired. nt well. *cough* *cough* T_T

have been raining for a few days le. i used to describe my feelings/mood using climate. Then i guess i must be very sad everyday! I must be always crying.. May be if ppl ask me how i spend my holiday, i will relate it to the weather.. haha

i slept ard 12 yesterday nite. i chatted with my Dearest Dear. We talked abt studies. My dear asked me what is aromatic, aliphatic and alicyclic?? aha.. Yes! is organic chemistry. The call lasted for 14min and 49s. Too short liao la.. haha.. is okay. we will be meeting soon. this sat? 24th dec?? Yea??

wake up at ard 8 plus. As usual i slacked! sob.. I will never learn my lesson. Haix. I started study at 10 am after bathing and eating. i did vectors. Actually vector is fun but sometimes i really dont know how to draw. tmr, i have maths tuition again. I am so happy because i get to clear my doubts. YEA?? Liwan, Jia you. Sch tutorials are tougher than ms yang's exercise. I dont really understand what they are asking. but i guess if i noe how to do most of the questions in the exercise, it is a good start! Yupz. I guess i still uncertain about vector product. nvm, i will jia you de. Feel like printing some prelim paper 1 and do but i dun want to waste ink leh! a lot. maybe i will go school and print tmr?? what happens if the hub dun open?? then go home. It will be a waste trip then!

still not feeling very well. Gg for tuition tonight. Haix. Actually is from 13th - 22nd dec. I have to go down to orchard plaza everyday except sat and sun. some of u may ask , isnt it amazing to go there everyday? we can always shop over there?? is true that there are many shopping centres but hor who can supply me with $$$$$$$$$$$$$$ when sch starts i still have to treat Mdm Koh to lunch ! bankrupt liao. =[ haa.. But i told her that we will lunch on the 5th of Jan. Then she will be the one treating me.. hah.. but I wont break our promise. I will still treat her. See, i so nice.. haha... I wonder she comes back frm china liao ma.. She told me that date before but i 4get. will sms her again! wonder how's her son's appeal.

is raining so heavily now. Need to embark on GP le. *yawn* . Oh ya.. i finished my 2nd essay yesterday. HAha.. will Jia you.. will continue to jia you.. 'liwan be discipline and you will reach the peak soon" sound so easy right?? My head ! temptation is smthg that students cannot learn to control. to be frank, i dont want to be one of them. BUT I AM A STUDENT LOR. HAHa... okay.. trying to find excuses again.. eyes are closing. beta go study liao. .. may update tonight.....

Miss you!! hehe.......... Hope To see u soon!!!!

part 2
din expect myself to be able to update the entry . Well, i just had my dinner. i spent another $288. there goes my money. No la, actually is my tuition fees for 8 lessons. Seeing my money flies like that i heart pain leh!
today maths was fine. learn vector product. It is actually quite confusing but ms yang said as long as i prac enough there shouldnt be a problem. Ms yang i will jia you de. She said my concept is okay. But the sad things is my calculation very bad. i can tell her 4x2=6 she was so angry. HAix. Ms yang, i am sorry. I will jia you!
Well, i am actually quite worried leh. its seems like there are 19 more days to sch reopen. i find that it is not enough. i guess i failed to plan well this time. i slacked a bit. The keyword is still discipline. i am so disappointed with myself. Let me list down the stuff i need to complete.
1) GP
2) Re study maths , Do tutorials and clear all my doubts, Do prelims papers.
3) physics
4) touch up my econ HW ( i can only finish this after 23rd of dec cos i will be consulting jing xuan)
tell me how to finish?? i dont know how leh.. Liwan u gonna be discipline sia. if not u will regret. Sob. I wont touch chemistry already. Wont restudy. Whenever i look at my chemistry, i very 'cake sim"' i guess just go for Mr looh's lessons will be good enough. I really need to chiong GP, Physics and Maths. I need to finish GP this week. still have 4 days to the end of the week. i guess if there is a will , there will will be a way. i would like to beg to differ. So what if i finished everything so swiftly, but is not productive? How ?? i really dun noe. I am so ARGH!!! sadded....
Haix. gonna go and bathe le. i guess i will stay up late to finish my second essay. i need to do ms yang HW and GP tmr. Liwan!! Discipline!!! Tired.. sob sob... Not in the mood liao.. haix...

part 1
At last, my body can no longer tahan.. haha.. fever, sore throat, cough and a bit flu.. haa.. so poor thing right? wake up very early today. Cant sleep much cos my throat is very painful. Dont know what to do. I guess i will do some self medication again. I think i need to drink a lot water. It is not that i dont like water is just that i often 4get to drink. HAHa.. sound like i am very busy rite?? haa.. nvm...

Anyway, i finished one essay. 2 and 2/3 page. I hope it is alright. I think i will ask the teacher the way i practise is it correct because i used the information in the Gp package to help me. I am not sure if this is the correct way. I hope i am on the right track. I am afraid that i am always off track!! help me.. God guide me?? i am determined to do anything which can help me to improve in all my subject. Grant me with the strength and wisdom. May wan to do another essay later on. This week is " My GP week" . Yea, Liwan jia you. I guess as long as i carry the correct attitude which will not impede my progress can le! Liwan all the best! i will buy myself a present after all my revision to reward myself. I believe small rewards work for me. Hhaa.. I still have bags and HP which i haven buy. Oh ya, still have new year clothes. Hehe.. I will buy them soon!! =p.. Maybe this coming week ba. Hp i will wait till after christmas? As for bag, i will wait again lor. Hopefully can get one soon.. haha.. Oh Ya.. still have shoes!! i guess i wil buy a new pair of running shoes.
Oh dear!!!!!!!!!! I guess i will be spending a lot. At least sum up to $300 .. Liwan.. u are dead.. haha.. Bang! I guess spending some money on myself esp after is a good way to reward myself. i must learn to encourage myself. I must learn to pamper myself after a year of hard work?? haha.. Am i giving excuses so that i can spend more?? haha... hehe
will stop studying for a while. After lunch will study again. After that i will go to tuition. I will go down and help my mum now. may not update anymore.. cos 2 tuition a day, may mean that when i am home i will be half dead. moreover i am not feeling well.. sob .... haha.. TATA...

Miss you.. =[ =[ I love the blue sky. Somehow the blue sky can comummicate with me.. haix....

I spent quite a lot after promo.. sigh.. I am broke haix. Buying bag soon. Seriously broke le! Tired!

when orchard plaza, suntac and centre point today. my legs ache. Not feeling very well. I am having sore throat. should i go for training tmr? haix... Talked to yi ling about my problem. I told her why am i so sad. Is it really my fault that i cant blend in? Sometimes i am really very guilty. Do they understand ? is hard to find someone who really understand u. Glad to have yi ling there for me. anyway she was late today again. haix. Is okay . i wont get tired of that.. haha.. After eating, we were very tired but still continuing talking abt our schools, teachers and friends. I am very sure that my teachers are nice. i knoe that her friend who was once in tjc didnt like one of our teacher. i know that teacher!!! Of course, i tried my best to defend this teacher of mine la. So u can see how much i love all my teachers. After that we talked about A level chinese. i told her i wont do well. I told her abt my essay. I told her i may write out of point. I gave her a brief outline of what i wrote she said it is excellent. lolx. i dun noe what to say. Anyway, i am scared la. What if i get Bs and Cs?? After that she told me abt her chinese teacher.. haha.. i laughed. I shared with her mine too. i said i have a very nice chinese teacher... (Mr Tan, if u ever read this entry, u must be touched) haha.. ya.. i share with her everything abt my teachers. we have a lot of fun talking abt our teachers.

Tmr have tuition from 2-4 then 7-9 .. haix.. Tmr i must my doubts on vectors and school promo papers ba.. stress. I will write essay tmr. So tired... I hope i will recover soon. Really not feeling well. HAix.. God help me... How to go for training tmr?? they need help for spring cleaning too. what should i do? tired...

Miss You lotz.. Love u deep...

Part 2
went for tuition..to be frank, Mr looh is a very nice teacher. He likes to tease me but he still care 4 me. When i reached the centre this afternoon, he was quite worried about. He kept asking if i was okay.I was quite touched. I told him i am just vexed. Thankz Mr Looh.
I am very happy.Finally i understand the chapter on protein. maybe half of it.HEHE.. I guess i will go for the crash course at orchard. I will go and look for the place tmr ba.. it is very far. At somerset sia.. haix... Good luck to me.. tired...
will stop here ba.. sleeping soon... oh dear, i need to wait for my mum! They will be back ard 11.. sianz... will play computer games then.. hah.. so sianz le.. hehe
I miss u dearly.. sob sob.. haix.?? sianz....


Part 1
sianz, something wrong with my the other keyboard. Need to buy new keyboard again. When shopping yesterday. I bought a new pair of slipper? very nice leh. Is a bit pinky. Very happy. I wont wait till new year then wear. I will wear tmr for my date with my dearest Dear ba.. sianz.. I guess will buy another for new yr but of course is different kind one.

went for training today. Very tiring. very sad to knoe that the pimples on my face worsened. At first it was okayed but recently.. haix... Is time to do smthg again. I bought a new lotion but i guess it doesnt help. How?? sianz la. So sad lor.TIRED LE. Dun wanna care liao..............

Went library today. I borrowed a few books to read. YEP. After that i went to read The GP packages. Well, i guess i will write an essay on Poverty soon. After which, i will embark on Environment ba. Slowly lor. I am determined to put in effort, will it be paid off?? I guess for my entire life i am most happy and satisfised with my Promo results cos it was the only time, that i see tt my effort is paid off. Isnt it very pitful??yes, i will be consistent and i will persevere. i hope i can reach the peak soon. I want to reach the peak!i am certain. I wont hesitate anymore. =] god, give a chance?

Later i have to go for chemistry tuition. Hope things will be beta today. i am broke! sob sob.....i spent quite a lot lately. I dun noe leh. Am i very stingy? i dun think so lor. I am the nicest person.. haha.. (can start puking) kkk.. wil go bathe and rest. May look at GP again b4 i go for tuition. My eyes are closing again. SOb.............

Part 2
did very little of physics. I am running a fever. HAIX. I went IKEA just now. It is very big . i dun really like it cos it is too big.Very tiring to shop for things. One may get lost there. They are smart to open a restaurant too. Attract a lot of people. To be honest their stuffs sold there are not expensive but my dad said that their stuffs are not durable. Guess what i was thinking when i was there? I thought of a lot of things.

My thoughts:
1) When my parents shift back to tampines, i want to design the house. I want to make it super beautiful.
2) i wonder how much must i earn if i want to buy a house and design it my own.
3) i want to get married asap. I want to see my future home.
4) saw many couples there, i was so jealous. Really want to give them my blessings. =] hehe

Really headache now. Not feeling well. gg to sleep soon. tmr physics tuition le.. God bless me... i cant nail myself on the chair. I am so idiotic. i need help for physics. Sob sob.......... God bless me with more wisdom. I am really nt well. My head is bursting soon. Very heavy and painful. Good nite.. very sleepy le........... zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

What happens if nobody wans me nxt time?? I cant see my future more?? I miss u lotz... Hope u are fine...


part 1
having sore throat! i guess i ate too much chocolate for the past few days.Feel very sleeply , my eyes are closing but whenever i lay down on the bed, i cant sleep. haix. sad. i finished the AQ question. The rest i am nt so sure how to do. I tried my best already.

Slacking now. Will do physics later ba. No choice. Tmr have physics tuition. Super sianz la. (yawn) I will nail myself on the chair and study dynamics again. Just nw went to look for janice. she is buying new phone but cant get the one she wanted. To be frank i also dun noe what phone i want to buy. N70?? dun noe. I guess will decide after 15 dec ba. i wan to see how is the promotion like. every one wk gt new promotion so i think i will slowly wait. Hope to get smthg good and nice and cheap for my BD. hehe...

K.. will update later... gg to sleep. My throat is painful.. haix.. no more chocolate le!

i went to parkway this afternoon to take a look at the HP i want . Actually it doesnt look nice at all. i am now eyeing for another phone which i think my mum wont wan to buy for me. HOW?? that phone is very nice leh. i just have to wait for the price to drop a little bit more and i will start persuading my mum. I am not sure ya. I told them abt the phone i want nw. She hasnt nod or shake her head but she wan to give me a hp as my bd present. I guess i will call singtel again . This time i will tell them i wan to terminate. Hopefully they can give me vouchers.. sob ...

tried GP in the morning. left AQ question for promo 2001 and summary and AQ questions for jct 2002. I promise, i will finish AQ jct 2002 tmr. The rest i not very sure how to do, so i will leave it aside first. After doing this, i will go and chiong all the GP package. Somehow i feel that i cant study at home. I must go to sch and study, i can really focus when i am in sch. i may go to school library from nxt week onwards? yupz... mayb not everyday but i will go. I will need to go there and take a look at the econ textbk and of course some other good stuff? i dun noe wad is that,but will slowly take a look at them.

tmr is saturday. will go and visit janice ba. feeling sleepy le. Like i said , is the time of the month. Haix.. so troublesome. My eyes are closing.

I miss u a lot. i still think of u ............i guess i will never learn how to stop loving ppl. I always fall into traps.. haix...

Yupz, is the time of the month! actually is quoted from one of the teachers! Guess who??...nvm.. Supposed to finish Promo 2002 GP paper 2 but i was very slow because it is the time of the month! wahha.. And of course is the paper was quite difficult. =[ I will try to finish it today and embark on the other paper. If not i can do it nxt week. HEHE..

yesterday , i told my mum that i wanna to buy HP. I showed her the HP i want. She agreeded to buy for me as my birthday present. HA... IS white colour!! But the sad thing is this phone is out of stock. I wondered when will it come again?? b4 my BD pls?? I am v tempted to find close subsitutes. I guess i wont find le. I am afraid i will regret for the rest of anoter one yr!! Actually i'm very bad la. I just changed HP like half a month ago. Now i want to change again. Horrible liwan!! but really v nice leh!! =[..

I hope i wont slack too much . Btw, i hurt my wrist during swimming. I guess is okay, i will just do some self medication. =O hee .. PAin... pAin.. will stop typing le. May update later. LIWAN!!faster go and do UR GP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haix..okay.. tata

Went swimming today. Actually i should say i went to swimming pool to play with water today. HAix. I still dun really know how to swim. I cant lift my head up. Haix. Nxt yr , We will be having an exam lor. HOW? I dun wan to fail. lolx.
Let me share with you all what i have been thiking when i am swimming. STUDIES! YES i cant ran away frm this word. STUDIES. At that point of time, i told myself i wan to study hard and do well in all my subject next yr. I want to be top in chem, maths, econs, physics and pass my GP. You all must be laughing! YEA, i guess somehow i am quite silly. is this known as unrealistic goal?? I dunnoe. To be frank , i will work towards it. i guess as long as one try his or her best, is enough already. I am really afraid that i cant take it when i learnt tt my results start to dip. mayb mdm koh is rite? I shouldnt start getting Bs and Cs. haix. dun noe.... but that is really how i feel when i am swimming.

later need to teach my sister how to do her correction for her assessment books questions. After that i will mbark on GP. BTw, i tried econs yesterday. very sad to noe that i cant even start. JIng Xuan I need you !! sob....i guess i beta meet her on the 16th! hehe... Okay.. will stop here.. need to study le....

"hey, i really miss u a lot. Never fail to think of you wherever i go. You are stuck in my mind. Hope u are fine. love u lotz" ... sob...

din blog yesterday cos wasnt in the good mood. Went for training this morning as usual so tiring. have to run here and there 4 just a ball. I din have lunch today cos wasnt in the mood to do so. i reached home at ard 12 plus. I rested and decided to bring my little sis out. I bought her a stamp album. She suddenly has the urge to collect stamp. Well, i guess is good to have at least one hobby. After that i bought some food back to makan cos by then i was super hungry.

i am dead.I was very slacked for the past few days. =[ i hope i can do the essay for econs tonight. I guess i will do multi-task. i will watch tv and study. Isnt that cool? Tmr will do GP! I wanna to see improvement for my GP. Of course actions speak louder than words. I know what to do already. I will try my best. Liwan jia you!!!!!!! =] I might try doing some essay then let my GP tutor mark? yupz.. I shall try. Give me a bit more time. After doing all the GP HW given by ms tan, i will write essay and read my GP package. I will go and photocopy some essay to read? hehe.. YUPZ I guess that is what i can do to improve my GP!!!!

my eyes are closing. I will go and rest /take a short nap. Oh ya, today i took bus back home and i saw ms ng.We crapped a bit but nt that fun compare to crapping with ms fong. I guess cos ms fong noe hw to crap and tease me back. Ms ng told me that there is still ard 3 wks more to sch reopen. i told her i cant wait le cos my holiday is already spoilt so no point. To be frank i am afraid that i did not use my time well for this holiday. How? I scared i will regret. HAIX. I am done with chemistry, i am also done with maths, i am also done with physics but of course there are bound to have questions which i am not sure with. I still left a bit of economics cos there are a lot things to do for economics!! But i am handling well. =P

Well, i guess to re assure that i never waste away my HOLIDAY, i WIll RE STUDY EVERYTHING?? TO PLAY SAFE! I DUN WAN TO REGRET!! QUITE WORRY FOR MY MATHS!!!!!!!! I dun feel secure yet! so i will jia you. =]

Let's see i will RE STUDY FROM 18 onwards to 31st?? Then count dwn for my Birthday? haha... It will be 5 days then.. haha.. *hint* haha LIwan be discipline!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am getting more active now. Dun feel like sleeping ??? lolx. I want to buy a HP for myself. =p I guess i will go back for Vouchers!!!!!!!! PLSS!! I wan vouchers so that i can buy a nicer one/?I haven really dicuss with my parents. But i dun care le LEH!!!!!!!!!! i want new HP sob sob... will call to singtel and ask if they can give me vouchers. =[ sobs....will stop here le......... zzzzzzzzzzzzz

well, din blog yesterday cos i went out with my mum. We went bugis to pray and OG to shop. Bought myself 2 bras. Hehe.. OOp.. Quite tiring. My mum bought 1 queen size bed sheet but buy one get 2 free so is equal to 3. i find it quite worthwhile. Yupz..

today got training, we had to run 3 rounds. I was quite slow. No choice! i guess this shows that i need to go on diet again. Haix. I am tired. In the afternoon i went for chemistry tuition. Sianz la... After that i learnt that there is crash course. I really want to join but it clash with my chemistry tuition. HAix. I will talk to angie and see how. But i really do wish To join cos i think it will help me. HAIX. How??

Tmr got CIP. will be another tiring day. It will be from 9.30 to 2pm. 4h 30 min!! I am not sure what we are really suppose to do but will learn to enjoy. I know helping ppl will definitely make me feel happy. That's what i learnt from Mr Tan

Do i really look like i am v sad?? Recently a lot of ppl asked me why am i so sad. I cant give them a definite answer cos i really dun noe. Actually i do crap and joke also. I guess i am alright la. It depends who i am talking with la. With some frens, i will still crap and joke but some i cant la. Sorry! i dun noe what is wrong with me.

GG to slp le. Too tired. My eyes are closing. =[ i dint get to slp well recently. always wake up in the middle of the night. ARgH!!!!!!!! GOd help me. Guide me along. Teach me how to be contented with what i have. Teach me how to treasure the people around me. I just hope to be a step closer to you whenever i see u. CAn i?? haix..

Miss you a lot!!!!!!! LOve u a lot too!!!!! I guess you really understand how i feel. =[

Am i a cry baby? no ! i am not! I don love crying. that kind of feeling suckz.

can anyone of you tell me what is the definition of "home" and "Parental love". To be honest and frank , i really dont know their meanings. I dont wan the meaning found in dictionary. I want to know how is it feel to have a HOME and experience what really Parental Love is. Can anyone share with me the true feeling and meaning of them. I am too tired. i cant search for that kind of feeling. I have tried my best. Am i having a very high expectation? No right? I am not sure if i am a good daughter? it is not that i dont treasure what i have. Is just that i feel that the definition of "HOME" and"PARENTAL LOVE" over here is too wrong.

I am sorry to say that i cant feel security, warmth and love at home. Then what is this home of mine? a place where you can find food and a place 4 u to sleep.That's all? isnt it? is that a form of love, warmth and security? a questions that we really need to ponder upon. Am i really a very bad daughter? i may be good in school? But am i really that bad when i am at home? the only thing i noe is whenever i'm home i cant find happiness. I dont enjoy myself. I am always feeling low. Then where is the liwan who can always joke and laugh in sch with teachers and frens? where is SHE? I like my school. A place where i can feel love, warmth, security. I can be alone there but i am still happy over there. i always look 4ward to school but not home?? Am i too childish?? I am uncertain of that. Perhap i think too much le. Perhap like what ms Ho said we shldnt make small things to be very significant. I am tired. I am seriously very upset. Can anyone lend me his or her shoulder?

What is parental love then? have i always taken it for granted? I always tell my teachers that i really appreciate their help. i am very grateful. what about my parents? I am sorry again. I really dont know how it is to be loved by my parents. I cant feel it. the only thing i experience is materialistic love.i dun like them.Often , many parents treat materialistic love as parental love. They cant do that. materialistic love is a subset of parental love and parental love is not a subset of materialistic love!!!!!!!!!.. . I really want to know the how it is like. Am i too childish again? maybe they really love me. Is just that i always take it for granted.Am i such a bad daughter?

I know my parents are very busy earning a lot of money for us. However is it a profit or loss? from economists point of view, i think they are making a loss. The opportunity cost incurred is too high. Family or work? which is important? haix. I did ask ms fong this question when we were talking abt smthg personal. I told her that it isnt worth it because we have to forgo smth/someone even more impt in life?

HAix. In today's society, everyone is so busy. No one has really stopped what they are doing and ask herself/himself what "home" really is and what "Parental love" is like. God teach me what to do. I am tired............tried doing vectors tutorial. Not too bad. will try to do physics later. Too tired... may take a nap later. God enlighten me pls...........

super tired! Wake up at 3 plus this morning to search for toliet. I was actually very scared. I dont dare to go to the kitchen toliet. HHA.. I knocked my parents door but noone came to open it.So i told myself "liwan u are big le!! u are someone sister yet u act like a baby." haa.. After that i slowly go to the kitchen toliet to release myself. After that i went back to bed. Tossed for a while b4 i fall asleep again. When i wake up it is already 8 plus..

i went to sch again. I did ms yang maths Hw on vectors. After that i did chem paper 2 and 3. I saw ms fong, we exchanged greetings. She was gg home. i continued with paper 3. Very sianz.. After that,i left sch at ard one plus. When i walked out of the ch, i saw ms fong again. i was shocked cos just now she told me she gg home. lol.. she said she 4get to return the key.. ha.. 4getful gal...After that i walked to the bus stop. Waited for the bus for very long. After ard 20 minutes the bus came and i saw ms fong running!! haha.. i kept laughing.. After that we keep crapping in the bus. I am unsure why i wasnt in the mood to talk to her.. cos i kept thinking that she is not unhappy. she is not her usual self.

After that when i reached home. Of course i makan first then continued doing chemistry. SO tiring la.. Hui shan (my cousin) came to my house to use the printer. HEHE.. We sang KTV Yupz.. then i bought her po pian and cans of drink. Well, i am a very nice gal! I tell ms fong i am a very good gal.. she gave me a stupid look. Do i look like a bad gal?? I told her i am gg home early to help my mum. She doesnt believe. Then i said " ya la.. u are the best. I know u love ur mum a lot" .. tHere is always a question i wanna to ask her after this wed. But i dun hve the courage. probably because i dun wan to know ur ans. rmb what i said b4? Knowing the truth is painful. =[
haix.............

Tonite will do maths tutorial on vector. DAmn sianz.. hehe.. Will try my best.. Tmr have physics tuition again. i dun really wan to go. But do i have a choice?? sob sob!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan