Did chem 2004.. so tired sia! i did somehow rush thru. Paper 1,2,3 finally down. Scary sia.. i wake up quite early today. Didnt get to sleep well. =[ uncetain of the reasons.. After that I went to my grandma house to visit my darlings and auntie.. hehe.. Was quite boring thou..

don feel like blogging today. I guess i am blogging for the sake of blogging.. sob sob.. Tmr is fri.. and i am suppose to do chemistry 2005!!!! Sianz sia.. i am suppose to study vectors too. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! I starting to slack le... I am quite worried. haiz.. nvm.. sick and tired........ May go to sch tmr.. Go sch study is the best.. under LT2 very quiet.. i like the environmment .. haa.. with Trees and plants accompanying me.. aha...

Wont blog much le.. My eyes are closing.. tata

B4 i 4get..here is smthg nice..

All these precious moments
With you by my side
Must be a gift from heaven
That 's holding me all night
I don 't know how I found you
I 'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To hold , to keep , to share
In my heart , I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I 'll always be with you untill the very end
In this world , there is no place I 'd rather be
You are my life , my soul , my girl
And through it all
I know that you 've come to see that
You 're the one till the end
All my friend around me
Say you 'd be gone too soon
Baby , I 'm gonna make them see
We 've found our way back home
In my heart , I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I 'll always be with you untill the very end
In this world , there is no place I 'd rather be
You are my life , my soul , my girl
And through it all
I know that you 've come to see that
You 're the one till the end
We 'll always be till the end

Went for training today. Very tiring. After that i saw Mr Tan sms.. Thankz again. I noe u care 4 me.. thankz.. I appreciate it...

After that i went under LT 2 to do Ajc paper. It is a tough paper. I was surrounded by 2 teachers after i sat down. I saw ms fong! at that very moment, i dont know what to say. I was stil very sad. She came to tell me that i no need to change class. I told her i noe already cos Mr Tan told me in the morning. i told her i wasnt happy even when i heard about it. we chatted for a while and she went to do her stuff. She told me she will come back and look for me. I continued to do my maths. After a while, she came back and talked to me again. I told her my holiday was spoilt already. I told her i was super sad. I asked her if she knew the reason why i am sad a not.. initially she said she dunnoe.. then i said nvm lor.. After that she started saying " ai ya , one thing for sure is you will miss me la" Haha.. then i dropped some hints for her.. But she caught it!Yupz.. Then we started talking about Teaching etc.. she made me laugh la but "i scolded" her for making me laugh cos i was supposed to be sad. Actually i have not laugh for quite long. She told me this is good cos i told her ms ng always laugh at me when i am sad. and now i smiled when she is sad. she said this is funny. Actually right at the start , i can sense that she nt v happy. Ms fong, let me tell u smthg la.. if u are sad, i also cannot be happy! hope everything will be fine 4 u too. After that she told me smthg personal. I felt quite sad. Not choice la.. i am too enotional! we chatted for quite long.. a lot of craps as usual.... After that she went back to work.. POOR GAL....i continued doing my work.....

After that i saw MY MISS HO.. haah.. so happy to see her.. haha.. we chatted for super long! I told her she is really a very good teacher. I told her i will miss that kind of feeling... every morning,i will always get to see her.. nxt yr NO MORE LE.... I will miss you. I told her that i will miss her and i really miss her lesson a lot. haha... She said we can always sms one another.. But i said to her "again the feeling is different' MS HO i REALLY HOPE U CAN FIND HAPPINESS TEACHING OVER ThERE. We crapped a lot. we talked about a lot of things. She said Ms fong and herself feel very lucky to have me as their students.. I was touched that my chers are really very nice to me. I know u 2 care 4 me a lot. MS HO i wont 4get what i promised u. Don 4get our promise k? u said u will sms me when u are back!!

i left sch at ard 3. i finished AJC paper... of course with a lot of distractions. But is worth it. haha.. feeling very tired now. Supposed to do Econ HW, but i am super lazy . I tink oif nt wrong, tmr need to do chemistry again. But when feel like puking leh! Do too much till "fan wei" haha... YES i will Jia you de. I make sure i can have another BOX of Chocolate from ms fong. She told me that i must do well for chemistry and top the class again. I told her is impossible.. haha.. after that i told her it IS NOT WORTH TO TOP IN CHEMISTRY.. i was shocked that she get what i meant. haha...She said "sorry no chocolate"haha... After that i told her i feel that it is not worth to give me anything cos she is the one who helped me ....... After that she said I deserve more than one BAr.. so she said One BOX!!! haha.. Ms fong i will wait.. I will remind U.. u can give me nxt yr (jan).. cos u can kill 2 birds at one stone. =p

Okay... need to go back to work.. THANkZ MS HO and ms fong.. U 2 really brightened up my day..

haix.. i am very tired leh.. i dun noe why? I am sick of everything. I have never been so tired b4.What happened? i didnt really talk for the entire day. not trying to act cool of course.. is just that i am speechless.. Wo de xin lei le.

Went to sch to study today. For ard 3 hrs plus.. i cant tahan any longer.. so wemt home. I finished patching up the blanks for 3 sets of promo papers. stil have 2 more. I haven clear some of my doubts. Left HIJC and AJC. I tried a bit of AJC. Their paper quite tough.. v sianz ... Wil try again mayb tmr... Well, i finished chemistry 2003 paper 2&3. I think will do paper 1 at night. I need a break till 8 plus. I am seriously very tired. My eyes are closing. God i need you!i have to finish another mindmap on inflation today leh!!! can i ?? Oh Dear....

I fall in love with the song "till the end' is so sweet and sad.. oh ya.. recently there is news reporting about teachers saying i love u to students. today i read the headlines on the newpaper, there is smthg abt teachers. 'teachers hugging and kissing.." Oh my GOD... i dun really know what happened leh!!!!!!! the 'i love you" remind me of Mrs chang. That time during her last lessons with us b4 sch break , she asked us anything else we wanna add on .. guesss what i said? "cher I love you" haha.. she started laughing.. and started nagging .. i told her is very gd for students to tell their teachers tt they love them and care 4 them too.. Then she said she know but she told me canoot anyhow said to the opposite sex even if he is a teacher. But in my mind, there is always a beautiful pic.. Students can always tell their teacher they love them regardless they are male or female. i would like to tell my male teachers i love them too. I always treat them like my fren.. haha.. i think that is gd...tired le...

will go rest for a while... may n update le... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

yesterday i went for competition from 9.30 to 6.30. I am super tired. I think the way i play suckz. i couldnt apply what coach taught me. I felt very sad. Never mind is over. I guess we just have to train hard.

After competition i rushed down for tuition. Super tired. When i reached there, everything was a mess to me. I needed sometime to settle down. luckilyi learnt organic chemistry already if not i will miss a lot of stuff. i guess Mr looh i sense that i am super tired. I still continue to listen to what he was trying to bring across to us. i tried very hard to pay attention =[ .

Oh ya.. Then yesterday amelia smsed me to call ms fong regarding CIP. I was feeling quite down when talking to her. the cip thing is really stupid la...quite troublesome. We don really need any form...I called her twice. I don have the courage to ask her about the class thingy or to tell her i am very sad about the change of class. perhap she could sense it already. dun noe.. haix...

Recently, i cant sleep well. I always wake up in the middle of the night and i take v long to fall asleep again. i don know why, i guess i think too much. Zhen de heng nan shou... wo shuo gou le... i have enough of everything le . Why torture me like this?? ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sob sob sob. i wan to cry.. but. haix...

later need to go study le. i dun noe what i am supposed to do for today but i am sure i will study to keep myself occupied.... may update later ba. zzzzzzz i am so tired................

yupz, helped my mum today. I am the lady boss. I decided to ask for pay. Today's business was usual v good. There were many customers. I was super busy serving them, collecting money, writing receipts. Some of the regular customers do not need to pay for the goods! They do not have sufficient money so we allow them to pay another time. very nice of us rite?? YUP! The customers thought i dun noe anything, actually i noe a lot. For instance, there was one contractor called uncle ricky. He said he wanna to pay money but my mum wasnt here today. After that he said he have no choice but to pay another time. I stopped him. I told him to come forward. I told him i know how much he owed us. haa.. he was kind of shock. I show him all the receipts. i total them together. It is $408!!!! haa yupz! he wrote a cheque and gave it to me. haha.. My dad said i am super good! I am even better than him. haha.. he said he never waste effort brining me up! haha.. happy.. it was actually quite tiring after all. Shld i ask frm my mum some money? very reasonable rite?? =p =p

finished the vector homework given by ms yang. HA! i think she wil be shocked la. She thought i will have no mood to do. Ms yang, dont worry about me. YEs, is true i am sad, very sad but i still have to move on. I am scared that my first wish wil not come true. I dun noe what to do actually. is okay.. i think today i will slack a bit cos tmr i have to do physics HW le. mayb will go and try later. Quite scary though!!!!!!!!!! Honestly, i am very happy to see some of these words appearing in my blog such as (haha) . It have been quite some time i stopped using (haha) i was very sad. Now i am still very sad. but i am trying to be strong. HAix.. okay.. fine...

Tmr have training.I think it will be super tiring one cos only a few appear for the training. Liwan , jia you. U can de. =]

Yupz.. today is my DEAR birthday. Hopefully you will enjoy ur birthday celebration at thailand. My dEAr, happy birthday. Miss u .. muackz.. hope to hear from you. =].. may not update le.. cos later have tuition till 7.30pm.. =O

I MISS YOU. WO ZHEN DE HENG NAN GOU. NI LIAO JIE MA??? HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU! =[ =[

This is taken from my teacher's blog. The dear fren refers to me... " A dear fren was asking me a few qns. Well, sometimes, certain things i find it difficult to explain cos it's something to do with religion. Have to experience it personally. But everything you do, you have to depend on yourself. Regardless of some obstacles or unhappy moments, only you can help yourself to overcome them. One has to be self-reliance, self-aware and interdependent. Frens may not be always right. Frens are humans and they do hurt your feelings. So, why not learn to take it to your own stride, leave the unhappiness behind and move on. Easier said than done. But as long as you have the perserverence, you can do it. You should have faith in yourself. No faith, no hope. No hope, no goal. No goal, no meaning in life. You live for yourself. You create your own niche. That's your life. Understand, my dear fren?" well, i really understand what she meant. i feel kind of tired at times.. WO ZHEN DE HAO LEI. i think i never learn how to take things on my own stride. i dun noe why i am so emotional. i dont know where i pick it from. Anyway, ms ng thankz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love u lotz...

helped out in my parent shop today. Quite fun la. Esp when a lot of customers coming to the shop. haha and of course when money starts flowing in. =] After that i went to mavis to study. i accompanied JAnice. haha.. I did chemistry A level 2002 paper. Sometimes i think i really dun noe where is my limit sia. I tried to finish paper 1, 2, 3 in a day. After that i was so dead la. Kind of tired la. sob sob. After that i continued with maths homeowrk given by ms yang. It is on Vetor. Still not too bad. Still have a few more questions to go. I stopped doing when my cher came. She came down to visit janice and I. HAH...She is the one who i mentioned earlier in my entry. she wrote about me in her blog. We talked a lot. She asked why am i so sad even with her presence!! last time whenever she was with me, i am like the happiest gal in spore. What had happened? that made me cant even force out a smile in front of my cher? I think she still dun noe why i am sad abt. Is okayy!! Oh ya, she bought us a drink when she came. Barley!! hahal.. LEt me share with u all a secret, I HATE BARLEY!!!!!! Whenever my mum cooked barley, i will never drink them. This time different! My mum was so jealous that i drank the barley that my cher bought for me. =p =p The BARLEY is definitely very sweet! sweeter than any barley in this world. haha.. LAME

After that , i sent her to bus stop. Yupz.. she smsed me. We will be meeting in dec with my dEAR!! ahah we will be gg to east coast park. This is the place where we have a lot of sweet memories.

don ask how i am feeling now. Just numb. My 3 bd wishes, i do hope that they come true. GOd help me pls? sob sob. I dun noe what to say leh. I really dun noe what i want. sometimes u think that this person is the best, but is not the truth!!! When this happens, i will hate that person to core. Am i too mean? sob.. i have no idea. Not gg for tuition tmr. helping my mum to tender shop. No money de Hor.. Yupz.....I noe i am very nice! thankz you Tmr my dear BD!!!!! I hope you are fine in Thailand. i miss you a lot. I have a kind of feeling which tell me that u are sad. Are u?? If not u will not keep sms'g me that u are leaving. That is not ur usual self. I miss you lot. Do take care whenever u are. happy advance BD.. muackz....

Okay.. will end my entry le. Tired. need to bathe. I am a smelly cat.. haha.. my eyes are closing... tata.. Thankz to all my chers out there who understand how i feel. WO AI NI MEN!!!!!!!!!

Before anything i just wanna say "thankz Mr Tan" . When i saw your comments, somehow i felt kind of touch. I am speechless. i do not know what to pray for. I have already made my 3 advance BD wishes. Hopefully it is not very greedy. i cant describe the type of feeling i am feeling now. Is so much of unhappiness, is so much uncertainties. Lao shi, wo zhen de heng nan guo. Ni neng liao jie ma??

well, finished 2001 A level chem paper. Finished VJC paper. Finished mindmap on monopolist com and oligopoly.Tried the mcq on current for physics ten yr series. Don feel like continuing. I am tired. I am mentally drained. Recently too many things happened till i cant take it.I cant focus, i cant study much. i guess my progress for today is counted as not bad. Actually i wanted to do more. I wanted to finish tuition HW, Long ques for physics, bUt i whenever i think of that i wanna to puke! I dont know why, just cant be discipline. Am i pushing myself too much? '

I like my title. I like to form such sentences. If people know what is the meaning behind the sentence, it will be damn touch. of course i need to give them the preamble. But i guess forget it.I guess only those who always read my blog then will noe what is the meaning. Actually such sentences can help to evoke one's emotion? i love to use that for my chinese essay. I forget if i did use but i can only apply this when writing a sad story.

Shld i go and watch tv? shld i go and slp now? still very early leh!! i guess i will take a look at my physics.

HAIX.. GOd pls GUidE me. GOD i need You now. ONLy you will understand how i feel.

I went yan hing house yesterday to do some stuff. After which i sign in to the portal. I saw my name once again appear in 18/06. I did not jump for joy. AM i too shock? or am i just too numb? or it is just temporary?? i dont know what to say. I am tired.

God pls continue to guide me. Will my first wish come true? will i be happy ? God pls enlighten me. Haix. i did chemistry yesterday nite. very tired now. Still have lots more to do. I need to be discipline. I need to do maths too. HAIX... i have too many things waiting for me to do. I have to stop being listless and sad. i need to move on. LIWAN!!!!!!!!!!!! WAke UP!!!!!!!!!!!

yesterday Yan hing and i were discussing abt teachers. She seems like the respresentative of students while i am like the respresentative of the teachers. haaa... but i was tired to argue. The only thing i wanna to say is it is not easy to be a teacher. =]

OH YA AND I NOE THAT I AM CLOSER TO TEACHERS THAN to 18/06. I AM SORRY. I NEVER NEVER HATE 18/06. IT IS JUST THAT I HAVE THE TENDANCY TO TALK TO TEACHERS WHEN I SEE THEM ARD. IT IS VERY NATURAL FOR ME. I AM SORRY. IT IS VERY NATURAL FOR ME TO BE CLOSER TO TEACHERS. I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN MY FEELING. 18/06 WIll always be in my heart. I dont mention doesnt mean that i dont care about u all. HAIX. DO U ALL UNDERSTAND???

gg sch to study again. Hope i will get to do a lot of stuff today. NO more slacking. U have to pick urself up!!!!!!!!!!!!! no one can help u!!!!!!!

i always think that you are very nice. i thought you understand how i feel? I give you an opportunity to understand how i feel now but you choose to ignore me?why do you wan to do that to me. You want me to forget you is it? I wont! i will never!! I am so disappointed with you. We used to have so much fun together, have you forgotten? why treat me like that?? My heart really very painful. I dont know why!!

Can anyone tell me why whenever i treat someone nice, i am still the one who hurt most in the end.?? Why is the world so unfair? i love you so much, end up you hurt me so deeply. Do you feel anything? You suckz.. I haven yet to hate someone i love so deeply. you won!! Are you happy? i lost to you this time. I lost everything to you this time. You brought me to the peak and now you push me down with your hands. It hurts a lot. I wonder if i am still surviving?? i know you want to see how i climb up the mountain with my own hands and legs. But cant you slowly let go? why must you push me?

i dont have the courage to call you at all. i regretted sms'g you. The truth is made known already. Maybe you can say that i am selfish, maybe u can say that i like to made assumption and think a lot. Up to you. I am too tired. I will try my best to play along with you. i will still act like i dont know anything.I really want to figure out what kind of person you are. Am i too childish? i will act like a fool infront of you. I swear, i will make you feel guilty! trust me!! I want you to feel worst than how i am feeling now? Now, people will start saying i am an evil person.

this is really very painful. This lesson is very expensive. i learnt a lot this time round. i hope i wont regret writing this entry. I hope you can give me an opportunity to delete it. I hope to hear from you. No matter how much i hate you, I still love you a lot. I love u very deeply. So i say,this time i really lost. i lost everything to you already. if you are happy, so be it lor. As long as you are happy! I will try to climb up the mountain on my own. I will find for myself supporters. Hopefully, i still can find you in that crowd of supporters. See, i am always carrying hope that you will always be there for me. "wake up!!! liwan stop daydreaming"

I will move on. Give me a long break. i will be fine after sch reopen. I will try to study hard during the holiday. I left ms fong HW, a few more mindmaps, physics. YES i CAN LIVE W/O YOU.

after tmr, everything will be made known. I hate to know the truth because i am always the victim. I know i will be very sad. After tmr, i will be able to tell how much you really care for me. I guess i should be able to tell. I just wanted to live in denial.

Yesterday i went out with yi ling. I treated her NEW YORK. i supposed we have a lot of fun. We went shopping too but we din buy anything. Actually i was about to buy a bag for my mum, but there isnt white colour anymore. Yesterday dinner was okay. We were both very full. I made candy floss for her. She said ' so sweet" . She wasnt trying to say that i am sweet. She was referring to the candy floss. Of course is very sweet because i am the one who made. I like the guy who taught me how to made the candy floss. He was so patient. Guess what i told him? You can be a teacher! haha...

Met up with yi ling just now. We went popular. I grabbed 2 assessment books for my little sis while yi ling was still figuring out what to get for those thai ppl. After that i company her to buy bras. HEHE... when we went in, we saw the auntie we know. Haha.. I crapped with her. After that yi ling went to try some bras while i talked to the auntie. He asked me what i want to be nxt time. I told her "teacher". She told me i must be mentally prepared if i wan to be teacher. Don worry !! i will do my best! hehe.. I will motivate, influence and inspire my students. After that i sent yi ling to the bus stop. Well, i hope she will be happy gg to thailand but i cant feel her happiness at all.

this morning i went to sch for training too. I trained a lot today. So tired now. feel like taking a nap but i cant slp. I am too scared to know the truth. I am afraid to know that my beautiful picture is gone. HAix. I really have no mood to study. Sob soB.. haix... speechless... Haix.. I will go and take a look at some of my work. Don feel like gg for tuition this sat. Do i have a choice?? haix... Hope to hear from you. GOD pLS!!!!!

I miss you.. So near yet so far!!!!!!!!!!!!! =[

listening to sad songs recently. Hmm.. find that it can affect one effectively!

Went to sch to study today. Saw MR Foo. He is actually the one who assign chemistry teachers to classes. How i wish i can go forward and tell him "hey Mr foo, can 13/06 have ms fong" . I dont really know him. After that i saw ms HO. she came and talked to me. i told her i am no longer in ms fong class. She told me not to be sad. She said she understand how i feel. I still have to move on.I show her my mindmaps.. she said it is excellent. haa.. of course la! I promised you to study hard and do well for economics.. rmb? YEA!! i will jia you de. I finished RJC paper and Trigo exercises. of course i still need to do some touch up since i left a few questions blank.

Gg out later to suntac? city hall. GG there to have dinner with yi ling.I am treating her dinner since her Bd is ard the corner. Last Year was Seoul garden. I guess we will go new york today. I am not sure. I am not very happy. I am void for joy.. can someone brighten up my day? haix.. i am still waiting for you... wait and wait...

I guess i wil go n take a nap.. may nt update tonight cos i think i will be too tired..=[

Feeling quite numb. Somehow i started studying. Time really can heal the wound?. MAyb i am nt hurt. I just feel sad. mayb ur Pride isnt hurt at all. Still waiting for u. hope u wont disappoint me but likely u will. Is okay. I am tired to care so much. Just trying hard to numb myself with load of work.
Did Ajc paper today. did mr looh HW today. i am suppose to do physics but i dun feel the motivation to do so. mayb will do econ mindmap. HAix... So sick and tired. God pls rescue me from such torture. I have enough of it....

Speechless.. i am still waiting... waiting and waiting.. and all i can do is to wait... *disappeared into thin air*

helped up in the shop today. I still feel very sad over it. I noe is just a small matter. No big deal to a lot of people but to me, is it not small at all. I am somehow the lady boss today. but this lady boss heren the good mood. i din smile at customer when they smile at me. I quote them the wrong price. I sold the stuff to them at a cheaper rate. Haix. my soul wasnt there. i am always thinking of what had happpened in the past. The sweet and bitter memories. very deprssed.

i still cried yestrday. I was feeling very horrible. my heart ache.. Somehow i rmb what Mr TAn Ke YAng told me b4. He told me the only thing which can make me happy is to help people and make ppl happy. i came up with an idea which can make u happy. I called yan hing to help me, but it will always remain as a secret. I just wanna to see u happy, which i am sure u will. i guess thats' al i can do.

Kind of tired now but i have no choice, i cant go and sleep. I still have to go for tuition. I dont know how i am gg to pay attention during tuition. Ms yang help me pls. Liwan, u have to stay focus ya, it is not the end of the world. u react in such a way like there is no tomorrow. GOd pls guide me. God i noe u love me, god i noe u wan the best for me. I knoe u wan The best for ur child. god i knoe ur heart ache whenever you see i cry. God u noe what i want but why? haix.. i noe u dun wan to see ur child becoming so dejected. Sorry GOD.I am lost. I dun noe what to do. I dont know what is best for me. I am too tired. very sick le. Is this how u torment your child?... speechless......................................

Still feeling v sad. now my tears somehow cant flow out. It actually flow backward. I am really trying to be strong but i cant. I feel very sad. You should know why i am sad. What can i do? Tell me? Really hope to hear from you. Waiting for you to tell me when i am suppose to meet you. Will you forget? i dont like to sms you. I dont like to disturb you. I am tired. I am listless.. haix.. Why??I rmb b4 promo, when we were still crapping, i asked you a question. And your answer is NO. At first i thought i wont be that sad. I thought i wont be sad to such an extent, but when i received the news, all the sweet memories and bitter memories slowly flow into my mind.. SO sad.. very sad.. super sad. At that point of time, at that instant, at that moment i then realised how much impact/ influence you have on me. You said nxt yr you will have a plan for me .. You wanna push me even further. I told u i dun wan all ur plan. But u said as my fren, u wan me to take ur advice. But NW!!!!!!! i cant do anything...

i din study today. I shall wait till monday ba. Sorry, i still cant pick myself up. I know this isnt the liwan u wanna see. I cant help myself. 'Your pride is hurt" can you feel that?? At this point of time, my tears start to flow down again. i cant control. It is beyond my control. 3 days 2 nites le. It is gg to break my record le. I dont know what is there to be sad about. But i cant stop myself. God help me.......... I really need your help.. God you know what i want. =[

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i din study today. I went out and walk and walk and walk. All i do is just walk.. i am very sad..i don noe what to say. I am still crying. tears just kept flowing. I cant control. GOD GOD help me!!... what's wrong with me?? haix.. i dun noe wad i am doing la.. HElp help.. i fall too deeply into the trap. I cried for 3 days 3 nites b4.. am i gg to break the record..?? I try nt. .. speechless... i am still waiting for ur reply.. haix.sob sob.. when is the last consultation.? AARGH!!!!!!!!!!! I hate myself..
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Can i have an advance Bd wish?? I only wan to b in MS FONG class!! sob sob... I don wan to go to 13/06. I cant think of a gd reason for the stupid admin to put me into other class. I am very sad. i cried for one nite. I dun noe why i am so sad la.. When i saw my name in 13/06, tears start to trickled dwn my cheek. they flow so freely!! i cant control. I am really truly v sad. of course the first thing i do was to sms ms fong, she hasnt reply me. Mayb she knew it long ago , is just that she doesnt wanna hurt me. I was too shock. I hope that this isnt the confirm one.

Really no motivation to study. You can say i v childish, you can say i am a cry baby. Just let me be then.. I have no mood to study at all. I have no mood to move on. I will cancel my physics tuition on sat. I don wan to go to his hse and with swollen eyes. Haix. God help me... i only have 3 wish for my BD

1) I wan To be in ms fong class
2) I wan to do well in A level so tt i can study chem major or maths
3) I wan to be a teacher

*slap* liwan wake up la.. i dun noe what to say to u.. Stay strong.. stay positive??/ I am too tired. just tell me it was just a nightmare. suppose to do maths today. But .......... impossible........ hope to see ms fong reply soon, telling me is nt possible! haix... may update later..

Labels: sob sob...

Went to sch library today to mark the remaining prac.. everything goes quite smoothly. Hehe.. YEA!! is time to say goodbye to all the prelim prac and promo prac.. will say hi to them again when ms fong is free to help me..Yupz, wont touch chemistry le, i need a break from chemistry.

So happy, i finished another mindmap on EOS yesterday night. I didnt expect myself to be so discipline cos i was very tired. Liwan u rox!!! hha... i Think i should rest for a while today... slack for a while.. I did physics in the library too. Was very disappointed with my physics. I am so not discipline when come to physics. Why?? i dont know!! i suckz.. sob sob...God help me. I really need you to grant me some wisdom and knowledge. I am struggling my ass off.. OOp sorry to use the crude word. Help help help...haix.. so sianz.. i am so lazy...

Recently, i liked helping my mum in the shop.. haha..very fun because i get to see diff type of customers. i will be tendering the shop with my dad on sunday. hehe.. YEA!! I think next sunday too. My responsibilty is to collect money ba and of course some writing.. haha.. YeA!!

tired le.. i will go and rest for a while. if not will go help my mum. haha.. zzz... may nt update later...

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Quite slack today. Did look through my area and volume tutorial. hmm.. Kind of sianz. I guess i will prefer to prac promo papers to looking thru all my tutorials. haix. I guess will go sch library to study ba. Will mark the papers and do physics on WEP. After that i will be free!! Yea.. But sad thing is still have physics HW to do . HAix. If got time tmr will do economics? maybe i will try starting later. HEHe.. YEA!!!!!!
Just now went to 2H blog. Is very nice. A lot of sweet memories. laughters and joys.. haix.. I have a lot to say. But i am not give a chance to express how i feel toward you. Will i get a chance? I dont have the courage yet. I miss you.. haix...
will not say anymore.. very tired.. most probaby will sleep early tonight. God help me? i need your help... Tata... =[

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I am so sorry. I shouldnt malign you. i know you still care for me. I am touched. Sorry, i guess is because i love u, my fren too much le. I wont make the same mistake again , i promise.=[

This morning i went school for training. the training was fine , quite tiring though. I hurt my leg, gt bruise. The table tennis table wasnt stable and fell when i tried opening it. Is okay. My knee kept giving me a lot of problem. I wonder what will happen to me when i am old. is very painful, it is like someone poking u. Argh!! help..

After training i saw ms fong msg. She said she will come back probably nxt week. She will sms me the day. Her little encouragement indeed brightened up my day. After sms'g her i headed to the library. I marked all my practices. i din bring my pencil box lor, then borrowed pens and hightlighter from the librarian. He is cute. haha. I guess i need to go library tmr again. I finished all the prac le. I can kiss goodbye to them. haah.. After that will embark on 5 yrs series. I guess i need a break from chemistry. I finished another minmap yesterday for economics!!haha.. is on objective of firm. Liwan jia you!!

Hmm.. later have to revise Vol and Area le. Jia you. I want a break can? Haha.. nvm.. naughty liwan. i hope to do another mindmap leh!! aha =p.. see la.. i also hope to do physics. Is quite impossible cos i am seriously very tired now. I feel like sleeping now. hehe.. I guess i will take a short nap.. OOp.. bad liwan!! YEA!! jia you liwan.Oh ya.. i saw the A level chemistry paper 3.. difficult sia!! some is very easy .. but organic chemistry a bit scary though! sob sob.. LIWan, i believ u can de.. Just try harder!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay... may update later.. cya... zzzzz .. hehe.. miss ya..

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so tiring!! i finished the periodic table le. Hehe..It took me quite long to finish actually. cos is a lot to do.Tried protein also. dont really understand so i will ask mr looh nxt monday hope it helps... OOp i said i wanna to do correction for thermo chem but i did not. Haix! i am so sick of thero chemistry la. HAIX.. it is interesting if u understand and noe how to do. It is horrible if you struggle ur ass off. Haix. I tried redoing the tutorial for DE! YUCKZ!! tiring la..Left those long questions haven do, wil try later at night.

Guess what my little sis get 3rd in class. She is so slack la!! ya.. the more interesting thing is that her level position 17!!!! OMG!! i dont know what to say. Haix. I guess i really should salute her!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have to buy smthg for her since i promisedher. i am broke!! Helpp.. i wonder which generous organisation can help me. =[ =[ sob sob.. hug hugzz

Gg to bathe.. will not study le.I need a long break till 8pm. Then will start to do maths again. My whole body is aching. i guess it is due to yesterday training. it was a tiring one. Having training tmr again. SIanz...TATA.. sob

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'chatted' with ms betsy ng thru sms yesterday. I told her i was sad. Guess what she said? Just take a look at my title for my entry. is it very mean?? i guess i wont allow myself to do that. That's not my way of doing things. I guess i will let time heal my wound. ArgH! She also said ' no point torment'g urself over someone/things as he/she/it doesnt noe hwo to appreciate you" I noe is true but i cant help to do what i am doing now. I wil try to be happy!
We will be meeting up during the dec after yi ling came back frm holiday. She said may b go east coast. There got a lot of our sweet memories. ms betsy ng was my ex teacher but now 4ever a gd fren n sister. haha..

Yea , i finished reading my book , titled "Adored" haha.. nice!! is all about Sex, Marriage, fame,$$ and death. The ending was a blissful one. haha.. YEA!!! Wanted to embark on the ther book but i scared i will love reading the book so much until i dont want to study. sob sob!! I am supposed to do periodic table, proteins later!! later i will try doing DE and Intergrating (vol/Area) if i have sufficient time. =] I guess i will update later!!

Thankz ms betsy ng, i definitely feel much better after chatting to u thou only thru sms. I will look forward meeting you. I miss you . Good luck for your exam !! u can de.. HAve a lot of faith in you!! Gg to study le.. tata!!!

I am kind of tired today. Went for training this morning, Coach trained me a lot. He tried to collect my methods of playing.

At ard 11 plus, i headed to our school library. I went to mark all my chemistry papers. Not too bad ba. I left RJc prelim, TJc preim, promo and i am done. didnt get to study physics yet. I am too tired i suppose.I think i will try to finish it by today so that tmr will be a better day for me. I will do periodic table and protein tmr.Wed i will start maths le. Phew! I hope everything will be fine. Liwan jia you.. u will be fine...

yesterday i dreamt about you and kor la.. we were having a lot of fun. Laughters could be heard. I talked to KOr a lot since u werent there. I went to help him to do a lot of stuff, but i was very clumsy. HAIX, are you really that great? i seriously hate you sometime.People often said that if you only hate someone a lot is because you love them a lot. I guess this is true.I love you a lot. I treat you so nice but at this point of time, i am really very tired, tired of treating you nice. I just want to forget you! but why is that so difficult. Whatever i do, it will somehow remind me of you. This is kind of feeling suckz. How i wish you can understand how i feel. Mayb i shouldnt blame you because i never express my feelings to you at all. HAIX.

God, can you help me? guide me always? I am really very tired with "friendship". Help me.. I really hopep to hear from yopu soon. Everywhere i go , i always hope for you. I always hope to see ur sms .. but why?? why dont thongs go according to my wish??? 2 more months my birthday le. I will make 3 wish!! Buy me a cake?? haha.. YEA!! i will MAKE 3 wish! not greedy ba??haha

Okay.. will go and bathe le.. need to go tuition. LIWAN JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U CAN DE!!!! I REALLY MISS YOU.. GET BACK TO ME HAO MA?? sob sob..

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have been doing chemistry just now.Will start marking tmr. Quite bad ya. =[ sad to noe that.Tmr have training! sure very tiring one. haix! After training, i think i will go school library and study. My time table for tmr still not bad but i hope i am able to do the chap on forces and mark all my work ba. Haix.. Tired...I have to start revising math too. i have a kind of feeling that i have forgotten some of the concepts. Sad isnt it? ARGH!!! Hope to make full use of my holiday. I wil rest well too. =[ I think my next break will be on 23/24th of nov ba.
mmm.. kind of tired nw. Should i go and sleep?? ehee?? yea, i think i should. Nite nite... =p

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have been reading since sch ended but of course not everyday. The book titled "Adored" is a nice book. It is about sex, greed, ambition. It a very mature book. hehe.. But i like it!! i am still reading the book at my own lesiure. I have another 3 more books to embark on. I will take my time.

wake up this morning, still not in good mood yet. feel kind of down. Right now, i am still recollecting my mood. feel very tired and sick. I am not sure if it is due to studies or friendship. Both of them carry some weights, that's why i am feling very troubled. GOd help me!!! i am seriously too tired!!!!!

Gg for maths tuition later. Have to go and do ms yang homework. Jia you liwan!!! =[ will update later again ba.. =[

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Went out with yi ling today. Went to her school. i acted as her sister. Not bad lor. The talk is at LT1. At that point of time, i was listening very attentively to what the teacher said. somehow i was feeling sad. I dont know i guess i will miss yi ling ba.

We went to bugis after that. We went to walk walk and go pray pray.. after which we went to PArkway.It was actually raining very heavily. We were drenched most of te time. haha.. But is fun really abt. haha.. After that we decided to go to popular b4 gg to makan since we were not very hungry yet. Just walk and walk lor..

After that we went banquet and eat. I ate bian mian and she ate dumpling noodle. After which, we sat down and talked. Hmm we talked about our friendship. We spent around 20 mins talking about that. We kind of sad. Sob sob! AfTer which, i wasnt in the mood le. My soul wasnt there.. Where have my soul gone to? Haix.. just not happy. Well, i guess i shouldnt treat m frens and teachers nice? haix. To me is natural to give a lot to others, but i din expect people to feel guilty about that. Yi ling said i am too nice le, must stop giving le. hAix... Sorry ya.. i din noe i made u feel very guilty. haix... sad la.. dun noe what to say..

After that we went bedok and walk walk.. at that point of time, i was already moodless and tired. She talked to me and tried to cheer me up but to no avail. i am still sad....

GG to study le. tmr gt physics and maths tuition. Sianz.. Sux!!!!!!!!!! I am really very sick and tired with everything le. What illness am i down with?? Is it a badsign? burnt out again?? I have no idea.. Tired............................ gg to do work le.. TATA.... bb

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did physics on dynamics. HAix... It is tough la.. I still cant grasp the concepts behind it. how? I need help. I cant focus whenever it comes to physics. i roughly look thru the tutorial. I did try the questions again. i see stars. Haix.. is very demoralising. Haix. Somehow i dont feel like gg for physics tuition le. I dun noe why. Haix..i thought i will start loving physics after promo. But YUCK! i am so sorry. haix...
I did econs mindmap too. Finish elasticity of demand and suppply. Tmr can go out and play le lor since i worked so hard. hehe.. YEA!!! tonight i will embark on chemistry again?? I have a lot t do. Must chiong already la. Haix.. I must make sure i noe how to do!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH! At first i thought i will be able to finish very quickly but is physical chemistry. Actually there are also practices on organic chemistry. I hope verything wlll be fine!!
Gonna go and bathe le.. after that chiong chem.. which me luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MISS YOU MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE U LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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did chemistry till now. haix.. feel like crying, feel like killing myself. It is all physical chemistry. Sob sob! i am struggling. I can foresee what will happen nxt year. I need to prac a lot. I did mostly energetics. It is actually quite fun. I guess i only know how to do those cycle and diagram type of questions. Becos those questions offer u prompts unlike others!! Especially mcq. I guess i will stop doing chemistry for a while. mayb will continue tonight. Plan to do physics or econs mindmap later. Later have to help in the shop too. Haix... chemistry is making me feel sad. even organic chemistry i also forget a lot. The consolation is Mr looh is teacing organic chemistry fromnxt week onward. I guess i can recap from there then. Jia you liwan!! u can de. dun give up. Rmb? u are great?? haha...

GG out tmr so must chiong finish all the work. I am too tired to think for now. I guess will embark on the mindmap.. aha... tata.. will definitely update later BA!... should have time to blog more... hehe.. Tata...

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Liwan i am so proud of U!! haha.. Hmm i completed all the tasks i needed to do. I finished Physics on measurements and economics mindmap for first demand and supply. Guess what i also finished the physics tutorial on kinematics which i supposed to do tmr. haha.. i guess ms fong is correct. I should go to the mirror and say "liwan, you are great!"Haha.. may try later... haha.. i am so happy!

later i have to do chemistry. YEA!!!! I am so happy.. haha...i waited for so long to do chemistry lor. YEA. Jia you liwan.. I went to look 4 janice just nw. hha.. listen to songs and do work at the same time. haha.. will go and look 4 her tmr if i am free... YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!! Honestly the period of time when u really need to sit down and keep studying and mugging is nt easy. u really need teachers and frens who are always there to encourage u . I am glad i have! Thankz You!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will go bathe le.. haha... i doubt i will update again. Will have tpo concentrate and do physical chem since ms fong said that my physical chemistry is not good. She wants me to prac more.
=[... tata.........

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Wake up quite early today. Slack for a while then went to bathe. I started at ard 9 plus. I am supposed to read notes, textbook till 12.30 then have lunch to 1.30. After which i am suppose to do tutorial. But amazingly, i finished everything by 10.50. So i am blogging nw. I dun noe if it is a gd sign. LAter have to do econ. have to read lecture notes and do mindmap b.. YEA!!liwan jia you k??? hahah

Yesterday i went to buy facial mask, facial cream etc. haha.. I have a lot of pimples during the period of promo, A level chinese and OP. So yesterday i bought everythIng which wil help me. haha.. YEA though it is only one day, i can see result. NOt bad wor!!! YEa.. haa.. I hope to see more positive results. haha.. Honestly the mask is gd. But very expensive la. Sob sob ... Broke.. haha...

I guess i will update later again. I guess i will go read phyics lecture notes again. =] Liwan all the way...

Ms zarinah msged at ard 8 plus. I am touched. She asked about my promo results. I told her that i got BCDE. she said that i did well. I came in thru DSA so always tHink i wont do well. I told her i have no face to go back to AHS but she said grades are nt important. LOOK at the title, that is what she smsed me. I almost cried. MS Z thankz you.. LOve u a lot. I also said smthg to her.. she told me she is very touched. BUT MS Z U ARE REALLY A GD TEACHER! MISS YOU!! HOPE TO MEET U Soon....

While OP is over. I tried my best. i am tired. Finally is over. B4 OP i saw my progress slip.. hehe.. happy lor.. Read ms fong comment. it was quite long compare to the rest of my classmates. I sms her abt the spelling error and she wished me luck for my OP. Well, at that ppt of time i guess that is all i need.. It is very heart warming.. Thankz ms fong...After amelia and yan hing told me i shld thankz ms fong. They teased me and said that she actually put in effort to write my comment. The rest she just copy and paste. At that pt of time.. i dn noe what to say.. WEll, thankz ms fong. I guess i really appreciate what she has done for me so far..but does she understand? haix.. nvm.. i tried my best le!

called DEAr today. FInally get to talk to u a while. Sat we will go out together.. happy! wilL look 4ward to it.. Miss you.. i noe u miss me too.. but show it to me ma.. haa.. Muackz!!

Tmr is the start of my revision le.. Gd luck.. I guess i just need to look 4ward to do chemistry.. then everythiNg will be fine.. haa.. LIwan discipline is the keyword. Sob sob.. dun let ur cherS down.. JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wake up quite early today to go sch and do OP. Ms cai said i improved a lot. Well, i tried my best already. I am so sick and tired. Having flu and soon sore throat. Went to look for JAnice today. It is her BD. Yupz! i made jelly for her , kind of ugly leh. Haix. Is okay.. hope she likes it. SO tired. i accompany her till six. i prac ard 5 times for OP when i was there. Not bad rite? haha.. Liwan jia you

GG off soon le.. actually i have a lot to blog but i am just too tired and honestly speaking i am nt well. Okay i will go prac OP for another few times. TATa.. wish me luck. TOO tiredQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmm.. after Wed i can say bye to PW le. After 8th of nov, everything will be fine. I will be a happy gal le.

Went for Mr loohs' lesson this afternoon. Yupz!we chatted a while with angie. Had a lot of laughter la. aha.. After that we finished the whole chap on periodic table. let me comment on how i feel during the lesson. Let me share my thoughts.

1) at that point of time, i really wish that PW will be over soon.
2) at that instant, i told myself i can do it one. I will do well for organic chem and inorganic chem. I will prac hard for my phyical chem. I will strive to achieve the best.
3) at that moment, I really wish i can start doing all my planned work!

well, i can really feel the force that is pushing me. I am very happy that i worked very hard for my promo and achieved relatively average results. That really spur me to work even harder.I promise i will try harder. =]

Now, what i should do is to keep practising OP. YEA? Yupz.. jia you liwan. Give ur best on Wed so that you wont have any regret... okay??

how do people define happiness?

Recently, i get quite jealous when i see couples around. I am happy for them though. I am happy that they found their happiness, some even have their children. I can sense their happiness. They are examples which will encourage marriage i guess. Dont know why, i always find those couples very happy. I am not sure if it is only surface de or... But i am happy for them. Wish them happiness!! Hmmm.. wait! i must make it clear ! My couple refers to those above 20s de. HAa.. Not those secondary sch type de. Honestly, i find those young couple <>

recently, i love babies very much. I used to tease ms fong cos whenever she sees a baby , she will be damn happy then i will always tell her faster go n hav her own one. Now, whenever i see babies or young kids , i will like to play with them. i will also be very happy to see them. Of course i wont tease myself. But i will dream of that day! But it is painful lor. I am so jealous of those who get married and have babies. Hmmm.. i guess i shouldnt daydream so much.Just wait for that day to come lor. Wait!!!!!!!!!!! if nobody wants me how?? Lolx... so stop daydreaming but i am indeed very jealous. =[

but wait! since i say that it seems like everywhere is happiness, but why still low birth rate in spore? why are more pp nt getting married? Am i too innocent?Am i too naive? Maybe "marriage" is a tough word that nobody can define w/o experiencing it. So far i am still very positive about "marriage" but not very positive about relationship at this point of time because i am really very tired. At this point of time, there are too many uncertainties. Yupz. I guess as we grow older we tend to be mature and noe what we want to achieve in life and will not do silly things le. haha.. however there are still many people who are very positive about relationship at this point of time. Well, i guess i will still give them my blessing. Hopefully everything will be alright for them.

Okay, it is time to go to bed. Just wanna share some of my thoughts. haha.. however temptation is always there . We have to learn how to cease it. Liwan, stay focus! Study hard and stop daydreaming le. Can la, daydream a bit is alrite. =] haha.. But learn to relax a bit oso ma.. Tata... Nite.... miss ya...

♥

what are you thinking? Why cant we be fren leh? i don noe why? i am very tired. mayb u can say that i am not considerate enough? i noe you have a lot of commitments. I shouldnt disturb you at all but you shouldnt let me for into your trap. I miss you dearly. I hate that kind of feeling. it is detrimental to me. So liwan,what have you learn this time round? You always fall into the traps but you never learn a lesson b4. haix. GOd Help me pls?

Went for maths tuition. Ms yang sai my maths quite steady and i improve a lot. But why dont i perform during exam?? I guess i must prac under exam condition if not i really cannot perform.I promise i will work hard.

Still rmb, i made a small wish a few weeks ago...after getting back all my results? I am not sure if the wish come true is bad for me or gd for me. HAIX! i am tired. I am very sad. Who can i turn to? And what happened to my DEAR?? call you dont wan to ans? i am worried. I thought you promise me to return call?? haix. I am really very tired le. i am very tired of everything. God why? why pp don learn to reciprocate?? or is it i give too much le.. i am speechless. Give me a break.

Let God decide! I am always hoping for you...............

Why? why do i bother so much about OP. is just a 5 minutes speech and everything will be over but why is it bugging me so much??

went to yan hing house to do OP. Will Not elaborate much on that. Very tired.Went to look for janice. Saw VAl oso... haha.. Play with her baby. she is very cute. HAh.. i can sense Vals' happiness la. i am happy for her. After that left janice and i in mavis. We just crapped all the way to 6 lor. Played Polar bowler with her. She heng la.. haa.. She won me by luck de lor.. =p

Then after that we say wanna go play pool . Hhaa.. After my exam we will play pool. I guess i will look forward to that day. Now must work hard for OP. YEA!!!!!! I can do it de. haha...Stay positive!! haha...

MISS YOU A LOT LA. I FEEL SO UNEASY W/O YOU AROUND. I GONNA MISS YOU A LOT! TAKE CARE.. LOVE always...

not feeling well leh! sob.. still have one more OP and i will have fun mugging again. Will not mention about the A level chinese anymore.

Got chem lecture today. It was a boring one. ms wong is just trying to drag the time. We are able to finish the lecture actually in 15 minutes but i guess she will feel bad about it if the lecture is short. I dont really understand the chap on protein as it is bio chem. I guess willl prac more questions on that. Today Mr Foo told us that there is holiday Homework for Chemistry. I dont know if i should be happy or what. Looking at my timetable, there is still space for that so it shldnt be a problem.

Tmr meeting for Op again. I hope it will be a serious one. haix.. wont comment much.. ahaix.. Will go and prac Op le.. haix.. No life.. My Nose is like Tap now. I guess is the Aircon iN the hall that cause me to have flu. even with a jacket is not enough!

i can feel a kind of force pushing me to do HW and revision but i cant. Is OP fault. =[ haix. speechless now. Sob Sob!!!!!! i hate myself.

What's wrong with me? For the past few months i was never scared of chinese. i dont even study for my chinese during JCT and Promo. Now? i am feeling nervous and helpless, seeking help from God, hoping he can grant me some wisdom. God i really need your help. I am feeling very pissed off. I am speechless. But will always rmb what ms fong said. Just go kill the paper. Stay positive.

Can i made an assumption that all humans are greedy? They always want the best for themselves? We always aim for the aim for the best, don't we? We aim to get A for exam right? who dont want to get As. At this point of time, if someone ask me what i want to get for chinese, i really dont know how to reply. Actually i shldnt say that this is call greedy. This is because even if you want a A for chinese doesnt mean that you will get it right? God, i guess i shld pray for what i deserve. God pls be merciful. I know i always pray and hope for Good grades. I know i am a bad girl and does nt deserve any nice treatment from you. But God i really pray that you can guide me along tmr, i really pray that you will be there looking after me. Grant me some wisdom. Thank you GOD

well, i am going to sleep le. Will wake up at 5.45 and reach school at ard 6.50. will do another round of reading. Liwan Jia you! After tmr, you will hav just one more major exam to go. haix!!! TATa.......... Nites.. GOd help me!!!!!!!!!! =[

I MISS YOU A LOT.. I NEED YOU NOW!!!

Tmr is chinese A level exam. I am scared because this is the first written A level paper i ever taken b4. Secondly, it is also due to the fact that we are first batch of H1 chinese students. There is a lot of uncertainties that made me fear. Thirdly, i feel that i dont deserve gd grades because my preparations dont seems to be sufficient. Why do always people always wait till last minute then start regretting? But one thing i am very proud of myself is "i never skip any chinese lessons b4. I always try to contribute in class. I always pay attention to my chinese tutor who is giving his/her lecture. I always try my best to hand in homework? " is this sufficient enough for me to get good grades? haix. i feel so sad!

i guess tmr i will just have to try my best. No point worrying it now? i guess the consolation is there are still 2 more chances after tmr. haix! But i really want to say goodbye to chinese lessons. Definitely not because i hate chinese or the lessons are boring. In fact Mr Tan is a nice teacher, will miss his lessons. I want to concentrate on my other subjects. I want to improvement for my general paper, mathematics, physics, economics, chemistry.

After tmr, we hve to spend all our time on PW. After that i will have to spend my whole holiday revising my work . I will jia you de. I want to be consistent. I know it is tough but i guess once i have the momentum, i will be fine. P=MxV haha... Liwan u can de.. Give ur best shot for everything. Be proud of yourself, i guess you can make a difference. i guess you will have a lot to share =]

Tired! All the best to those who are having chinese examination tmr. Rmb to bring dictionary!! And entry proof? tata...

I miss you a lot. HAIX!!!

Went to sch today for OP and chinese. I am scared, somehow feel that i dun deserve gd grades. HAix. God enlighten me can? pls guide me along the way.

I was looking for the chemistry five yr series like mad woman. Ask frm Mei qi, sailormoon all said they dun hav. After that went to pp pop also dun hav lor. i asked them to call for me to other outlets.. they said out of stock. sob sob... i think will just photocopy. haix..

Tmr may go back to sch again ba. Go zap and see, then study chinese a while. I finished my I&R le. Nw need to redo my speech for oral presentatiopn. Haix.. so sick... was packing my table just nw. hurt my hand. haix.. now nt in very gd mood. Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

will go to do op le.. very lazy to type.

Miss you a lot.. hope to see u .. =[

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan