now feeling much better le.. i mean emotionally.. hehe.. she smsed me yesterday la.. did tell her i cried.. she said i cannot always put others b4 me.. but i am born like that.. haix.. tell me nt to think for others is even more difficult to solve mole concept questions.. i told her i am fine... cry a while.. i am still a strong gal... then we start crapping after that.. but i really feel very guilty to ask my cher to stay back to help me.. esp so if the cher is v close to me...

Well... yesterday look thru physics again..Hmm.. dun noe what to say.. U noe what ? a lot of people ask me how's my revision? I told them i have tried my best le.. i guess what is important now is to stay positive and work hard? YEA? Just persevere lor..U can de liwan... Liwan is a strong, brave, cheeful gal rite?? YEAH!

slept quite early yesterday nite.. cannot tahan.Slept at 11..

okay shall write down my objectives of the day...
- finish5 GP essay in the morning b4 breakfast
- finish market failure and Inflation plus their essay
- study physics. Memorise all definition.
- look at physics ten years series and prelim papers.

well.. i think i wont be too ambitious first.. finish all le.. i will come and update again.. hee...

Still feeling sick... Flu, Cough.. throat beta le..slight fever? To be honest i scared to take temp.hehe.. I AM FINE!!!!! yEaH

Okay.. i go study le.. hmm.. later will msg my dear.. make sure my dear wake up le!

I lOVE MY BLUE SKY!!!!! YEA... GETTING mARRIED SOON LE.. haha

I am really very tired. I was damn happy yesterday, knowing that i am getting married. I know i will cry today de lor... haix..

I truly can understand how it feel to be guilt ridden.I can understand how those brought abt other pp death and escape feel. That kind of guilt always cling on you wherever you go. Until one day u really cannot stand le...

i experience this kind of feeling when i am consulting ms fong. Wa lao.. That kind of feeling suckz.. i feel damn bad.. haix.. I cried, not in front of her of course.. but i was just unhappy with myself. I bring about external cost to other ppl. SPill over effect.. haix.. sianz.. Hopefully is positive externalities...

WO ZHEN DE HAO SHANG XIN!!!!

I guess i am going to take a nap. i haven hav my lunch. I am too sad to makan. I guess sometimes dun treat teachers like good frens is beta.. then have i regretted?? haix.. dun noe how to ans... i am too tired.. shagged...

hmmm... flash back...

Hmmm.. this morning i wasnt well. I have fever, sore throat and flu.The worst thing was today is thursday. GT chinese, econ, chem, maths, GP, PW... everything lor.. lessons end at 4.30.

Followed by consultation. It was a long one.. till 7.45 pm.. I feel super bad. But does ms fong noe how i feel? I dont know how to express it out. I am really grateful la. But i guess she doesnt believe de la.. to her all students are the same. dont know how to appreciate. We took the same bus to interchange. I am meeting an important person. She is going home.

Well, the most exciting part of the day has come. We met at the telephone booth. hehe.. We wanted to go beach but dint. We went for dinner together. As usual we ate ban mian. hehe... After that.. we stayed there and chat. After that we went to NTUC to buy some stuff. hEehe.. We have a lot of fun. When we walked out of NTUC..We walked past a shop that sell rings and other stuff . We decided to get engage. LOlx. We picked the same ring. hah...We exchanged the ring. hehe... we made plans for our future. HMM... we getting married after A levels =[ i cant wait leh... But we will be going for honeymoon after promo. Hehe... Can feel that how in love we are??haha../ after promo we will buy another ring. The diamond ring is very shiny.. as shiny as the stars.. haa... happy.. very happy...I really enjoyed ur company. I love you a lot. I will miss you a lot. RMB! we are getting married after A level. We going ROM after promo. aha.. YEAh!!!!!!!!! MY dear look 4ward to it k??? stay positive.. work hard... I love u a lot... hugz and kisses...

k.. is time to end here... Will go mug for a while.. I had a lot of fun just now. JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE THE BLUE SKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh.. having fever again.. sob sob.. having sore throat.. i am tired and sick.. finished supplemetary ques, promo papers and kinetic ques.. hehe.. fast rite?? no la.. a lot dun noe how to do.. sigh.. tired...

I tried doing target setting.. but the "projected grade" is still blank.. i wrote a short essay. Cos ms fong wanna us to write what we have been doing.

Read econs just now. HAix.. alway 4get de ... sob sob.... now gg to GP... then slp!!!!!!!! YEAA...

sianz... today civics, we are told to do target setting. I didnt hand in. I told ms fong i need some time. SIGH! she allowed me to hand in tmr. I am very sad lor, i really dont feel like doing any target setting.I just want to try my best. HAix.. Do u all understand how i Feel??

WO HAO LEI YA.. haix.. just finished misc organic chemistry. HAix.. i left supplementary questions and kinetics and 2 more promo papers. And i am done... Ms fong said she is willing to stay back tmr till 7 plus tmr to help me.. hee.. but i pai seh la...

Tmr gg out with yi ling.. dont feel like going home.. just wanna her company.. we just wan to slack... haa...tired.... I guess i am gg to take a nap first.. hehe.. then study later again... i hope to chiong econ too....YEA!! LIWAN U CAN DO IT DE...

had consultation for around one hour... TIred.. YA..LIWAN U CAN DO I IT DE.. ms fong did talk to me.. haiz.. She said i must think positively... She said i am bettter already.. YES! I PROMISE U, I WILL DO MY BEST... I WILL THINK POSITIVEly.. hehe...

Don feel like sleeping le la.. i have a lot to do.. chemistry and maths.. how to complete by thurs/fri.. wish me gd luck sia...

*cough* throat not very good.. haix... OKay.. nvm.. I going to chiong Econ (inflation) then Will go and do chemistry. SOB SOB* ...LIWAN JIA YOU!!!!!!! U CAN DE!!!!!!!!!!!! So many PEopLE suPPOrting u .......

Read Rae comment for the previous post " hello liwan! i really admire your diligence (: you're going to make your ms fong proud of you again and again for you will eventually produce good results (: " I felt very stress at that pt of time. I was very upset actually. I always think that i am just a disappointment. U get it? haix.. Yes, i know i put in a lot of effort but i am scared. i am afraid that i dont produce any result...

Went for tuitions today.. PHysics and MAths.. feeling very tired now. Everyone is calling me GOD. They asked me how i finish all the promo papers , Ten yr series for every subjects. Well, i also find it amazing. I guess maybe i am consistent? I am not sure. But honestly, i am feeling very down. Everyone thinks that i am very good but in fact i am not. "liwan can u have some confidence in urself? Say U CAN DO IT!!!!! YES I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!"

Hmmm.... going to bathe soon le. Have to study econ later. SOmehow Finished At least One time for econ. Well.. plan to study econs till wed. Then will stop and chiong physics and GP!! Will do chemistry tmr. See first if tues gt consultation a not.. but seriously i hav a lot to ask....YEA.. LIWAN U CAN DE.. FIND THE MOMENTUMN= PxV haha.. lame that is physics... KK.. JIA you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIWAN U CAN DE!!!!!!!! YOU HEAR ME??? YES I CAN DE YES I CAN DE YES I CAN DE YES I CAN DE. MUST BE ASSURED. RMB, after promo, can go out with the gals plus ms fong to buy... can go malaysia with gals.. can go out with sandy and selene.. can go out with YI LING, my dear.. hhaa... And i told ms fong after promo and if i promote will sing her a song. And we will go cycling.. etc.. I look 4ward to that... LIWAN RMB U CAN DE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wake up quite early today.. managed to look thru the essays. Did maths. Tried physics. GG to econ later...

While i chatted with yan hing this morning.. She asked me abt yesterday consultation. I told her it lasted for ard 3 hrs. She started to praise ms fong.. YEs i do feel bad to let her stay till so late.. But i do appreciate it... well yan hing started saying that i am teachers' ideal student. I asked her why... and she listed the followings

1) pays attention
2) do the tutorials
3) respect cher
4) dialogue during lesson not monolouge etc

well.. i told her that is just her point of views.. i guess teachers hav their own perception. Well, actually i dont really care about being an ideal students. I just want to ensure that my teachers are happy and well can le. I mean i am not perfect how to be ideal??? Actually i told yan hing that i am just a disappointment to teachers. Haix!!!! Totally disappointment ! so i am definitely not an ideal student. I guess leave this title to another student.

Hmmm.. then she started asking me what is my ideal teacher. Well, i told her that i wont wan to comment so much abt that because it is not easy to be a teacher. But i told her i will work towards to be one.. haha... I asked her what is her ideal teacher. She listed the followings..

1) cher who like to teach cos they want to touch ur life...
2) to give u confidence
3) to show u the path....
4) face with a smile...

That's what she said..lolz.. and guess what i said "isnt that ms fong" lolz.. and she replied yes.. i knew she was talking about ms fong. I smart rite?? I mean no teachers are perfect de.. so dont bother to compare. Just be thankful... be grateful.. be contented with what u have.. try nt to hate them becos when u found out that "OH she or he is really a good teacher, it may be too late!!!!!!!!" treasure them.. i didnt treasure at first. I regretted. When i know that they are very nice , it is too late le.. but no matter what i will value their companion and frenship or teacher-ship.. whatever u called that...

Gonna go and bathe.. later study again.. i am so tired... I will work towards to be an ideal student and an ideal teacher in future... =]

tired.. very tired... consultation from 3.30 to 6.45. Not bad rite? i am half dead... Manage to clear half of my doubts. Left ten yr series and MCQ and other promo papers. Must clear by nxt week. is obvious..lolx.. B4 that went to makan with yan hing.. she borrowed my money from me to buy jap food.. aha.. thn at that pt of time..i rmb ms fong said she like jap food.. so i bought the jelly for her.. ahah..Then after that yan hing sent me back to sch.. THAnkz SIA..lolx... After consultation, went home with ms fong.. took the same bus... We do crap.. very tired...

GG to bathe soon liao.. My eyes are closing but i still have so many things to do.. tell me how to complete?? ARGH!!!! that's bad... Okay.. i guess after bathing.. will go READ GP again... may be start on another new essay... see lor..

OKAy... I GUESS I NEED A LOT OF REST.. I WONT WAKE UP SO EARLY TMR.. I MUST SLP TO THE FULLEST COS I HAVE TO DO MATHS, PHYSICS, ECONS AND GP TMR!!!!!!! GOOD LUCK SIA... ARGH!!!!!!!!!

MISS YOU SO MUCH..LOVE U DEEP DEEP.. I LOVE THE BLUE SKY!!!!!!!!

Decided to write this when i was travelling back to hme...

well to me, teachers are like my frens. I love all of them. I seriously care for each and everyone of them. I guess we should always thankz them and tell them you love them. Tell them what they done for you are much appreciated. TJC teachers are very nice. I need to emphasize that i treat them nice not because i wil be able to beg more mark in future.

MS FONG, MR LOW, MDM KOH are very nice teachers. They changed some parts of my life. They care for me a lot. Of course they arent perfect. I really think that it isnt easy to be a teacher. Staying back late because of students knowing most of them do not apreciate. Isnt that very noble? I am not sure. I dont know what are their point of views.

well, recently i just realised that we always think that he or she cares for you a lot or he or she is the best teacher and neglect other teachers who are also always there for you.Like me, i always think that ms fong is a gd teacher, i always treat her like my fren outside class, like a teacher in class, like a mummy when shopping. I guess in the process i somehow neglect other people who may really care for me a lot.

After knowing that he is my teacher, i was very sad. He failed my essay. I gonna hate him to core. I complain to my teachers. He asked us who is the rep, i said nobody but in fact i am the one. I really hate him.

After sometime, i sat down and asked myself if that was the right way to do so? I guess my character sucks. I am just simply too childish. I started to accept him. I asked him questions. I start to have remedials. He always stay back very late to help me. I know he is very tired, i feel very guilty.

He does read my blog. he does give comment. I know he care for me. Before Teachers' Day, i wrote an essay and asked him to help me mark. I felt very bad actually. I feel that i only care for the teacher who i think she is good but i have forgotten, the teacher who have helped me sliently. I am not sure i am correct. I am not trying to say that he will be jealous. i just feel that i am being too insensitive.

well, i saw him this morning, i greeted him. Guess what was his first question? Are you still running a fever? i was touched. He really cares for me. I just want him to know that he is not a boring teacher. At least i wont feel sad when i know it is his period. You must jia you k? i am sure you can make a difference. =]

In all, i just wanna say thankz ya! i know you care for me a lot. i know it is not Teachers' Day but ya la.. just wanna say thankz =] . I appreciate what you have done for me.

Part 2 of the day...

Feeling definitely very sad. I feel like crying but there seems to be nt enough tears. HAix.. i need to talk to someone!!! I am worried. I am very worried. I have a kind of feeling i am going to break down soon... i am speechless now...

went for maths tuition just nw.. then asked my dad to send ms yang home. I told her i am seriously very tired.. Don feel like doing anything. I guess this is call burnt out.. I understand the meaning le... I rMb Mr Tan did try to define for me.. Haix.. I am dead !!!!!!!!!!!!!

GG to slp soon... Just finished one GP essay. Still have one more for this wk.. Liwan jia you.. And i seriously need to sit dwn and do maths again... TMr will be a beta day?? I MISS YOU A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MISS YOU A LOT!!!!!!!!


Part one of the day

why do i use the word finally? i wonder...yupz gt fever. don worry, my brain is still working.. CAnt really focus actually.. sianz.. Din manage to clear my doubts for chemistry cos ms fong is still sick. GEt well soon =] Did talk to My new GP teacher. Hmmm, try to clear my doubts abt GP..I kept laughing at what she said.. she is just so smart... is so sianz la... anyway.. is okay... shldnt complain much..

Tonight gt maths tuition. I also think very sianz leh!!!!! Liwan must be discipline lor.. takin to ms yang nw.. haha..telling her i haven done her hw.. lolx.. fine... hmm.. i will try to do.. i promise... hehe...Tiring.. LAter have to do PHysic Ten yr series.. i believe i will have a "gd " time doing physics...sob sob sob..nvm..... later have to read thru GP again.. arGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!liwan jia you..

K... will go study nw.. hehe......


DEAR FREN
Tmr has come , is time to realise our love is finished 4ever...HOW i wish to come with you.. how i wish that we make it thru...
Just one last dance, b4 we say goodbye...
Just one more chance, hold me tight and keep me warmth,cos the nite is getting cold........

HAIX.. I MISS U SO MUCH... MISS U LOT..... I LOVE THE BLUE SKY

i thought it will be a better day today.. but is not la.. i cant clear my doubts today, ms fong is sick..haiz.. actually b4 i reached sch today, i ask myself smthg. "What happened if ms fong is sick?" i din noe it is so accurate la.. is so scary sia.. can predict things...

i have been eating a lot lately.. what happened to me? why suddenly have such a huge appetite?is it cos of stress??haix. tonight much chiong econ and maths tutorial ba. sianz.. sad leh........

i miss u so much.. i miss u so much... i miss u a lot.. is just that u dun noe.. haiz.. k.. ending here.. hope that i can have consultation tmr... sianz... sob sob...

i knoe it isnt the correct word to use but i am just very very very tired la.. haix...just finished preparation for tmr consultation. stress sia....1hr 30 min tmr... i hope there isnt physics for me... then i can faster clear my doubts..i wan to cry liao la.. i have so many ting to clear.. argh.. haa...

Tmr gt maths test leh!!!!!!!! i haven prepare yet..lolx.. so funny rite?? haha..cos i was practising them for the past few days so i din bother to study again. I will look thru again.. maybe tmr during break.. haiz.. I WAN TO STUDY ECON.. and MY GP.. smthg have to be done to my GP sia.. never answer question again.. argh.. how??tHis means that i need to look for my new gp teacher le.. HOW??? ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dun noe what to say.. speechless.. haix...

I miss you sia.. is fun to noe u leh.. i have a lot of fun with u ... haiz.. how long can it last?? sob sob...Well..Tmr will be a beta day for me.. i will look 4ward sia.. but i am sure it will be a tiring one.. kkk... i need to study econs le... argh.. LIWAN jia YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i din slp well last night cos of ms fong sms.. she smsed me this morning ard 9 plus to tell me why she asked me that ques.. CHEY!!!!!!!! is nthg actually!!!!!! is just that she went to esplanade and wanna double check with me...i told her that we not talking le.. i guess she oso quite shock ..i told her nt to mention anymore..... she din reply me.. i guess she didn wan to stir up anything......... I think she noes a lot of my things.....but i cant keep anything frm her....is very " xie men" lor... still rmb wed michelle told me abt that gal (cannot mention her name).. i was feeling very disappointed and sad... AND THURS when shopping with ms fong .. guess what , she suddenly pop up a question " YOU SEEMS TO BE VERY CLOSE WITH THAT GAL"...That is what i call "XIE MEN" .... is always like that de lor....i cant keep things frm her... BUT MY MOOD WAS BADLY AFFECTED le..why like that leh?? cant focus and study... haix....

was trying to do physics and maths.. but a bit rush...i dun really feel like doing any maths and physics today... just finished doing EOM.. wan to study GP nw and later re memorise ECON from chap one to half of market failure.. if i can complete this objective.. i wil be damn happy.. After which i wil go and do the home wrk give by mrs change...haix... SOB SOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KANA affected just like that... And oso cannt 4get that stupid old man who held my hand.. ARGH!!!! MAde my hand dirty.. haix..

k.. is time to study... feel a little heaty.. gonna sick le... some more i din slp well cos of suspension... but i din blame anyone la.. is okay de....

LOVE U LOt.. MISS YOU.. SEE U sOOn....

after chem remedial i went out with sandy to buy present...HAd a lot of fun though is raining very heavily...

b4 i left parkway,i gave ms fong a call... Ask if she wanna anything.. yup.. but the ans is obvious.. she wont wan de la.. aha....

I went back to sch for chem consultation, but b4 that i went to buy fruit for ms fong.. I just anyhow pick jelly and honeydew... THE PROCESS OF BUYING THE FRUIT IS IMPT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...... it was still raining very heavily... suddenly, 2 old men approached us.. to ask us to shelter them.. we agreed... HE HELD MY HAND!!!! GAVE ME A SHOCK.. I QUICKLY LEt GO OF HIS HAND. AND GUESS WHAT HE SAID, JUST TREAT HIM LIKE GRANDPA... OMG!!!!!!!!!! AFTER THAT HE KEPT LOOKING FOR MY HAND.. I AM SHOCK!!!!!!!!! LUCKILY WE walked different routes... I WAs TOO SHOCK.. VERY SHOCK.. MY MOOD wAS AFFECTed.. i BougHt for ms fong the fruit and left the place with no mood..

The whole journey back to sch was so dead, sandy tried to make me smile.. but i could not!!!!! I feel very disappointed and upset.. haix... very shock le.... i was late for the consultation.. haix... but is okay la.. she never scold me...

she asked me why i feel so sad.. i told her the story.. it was so scary... for ard 15 minutes.. i still cant settle dwn.. i feel very lost.. she talked to me.. but my heart wasnt there... i cant 4get that scene.. haix.....She told me nt to be too nice pp.. esp guys.. haix... after awhile... i recollect my mood.. and pay attention to her lor.. she taught me synthesis ques and deductive ques.. she tried to make me laugh on the way.. i cant... But slowly.. we start talking crap again.. haha.... she said she cant help it.. she very prone to talk crap wth me... hhaa... but i told her is gd and fun.....she told me to give her 5 min break.. then she went to take some food... she ate the fruit i bought for her... I TOLD HER THE PROCESS OF BUYING IT IS SUPER EX!!!!!!!!!!! she treated me to makan CHOCO.. M&N.. indeed brighten my day... choco can make one happy.. haha....

The consultation lasted for 2hr 45 min??? She said i improved a lot...yupz.. was tired.... went home alone... i still cant 4get what happened.. sobsob.... Just nw ms fong smsed me.. so random to ask for his name.. then she gt the name correctly w/o me telling her..... i was so shock la..haix.. so i called her.. but i think she is busy.. unavailable.. LOLX.. I AM DEAD THIS TIME.. SHE SEEMS TO KNOW A LOT OF MY STUFF!!!! She always like to keep me in suspense.. first was abt sarah quiting sch.. second??? bad la.. i think i cant slp tonight le.. till she replied my sms... i cannot stand suspension... ARGh...hehe....

k.. gnna go study.. sianz....... Tired leh.. but cant slp!!!!!! JIA yOu liwan...

I LOVE THE BLUE SKY!!!!! MISS YOU A LOT... THANK MY MIGHTY GOD....

had chinese remedial just nw.. very tired sia.. i just realised that my chinese suckz... very sad.. after remedial.. i saw ms fong, i told her i very sad then she said "i heard about it" I tried asking her what she heard.. she didnt wanna tell me...sob sob.. is okay then.. so bad..

After that she said she gg parkway to meet her darling lor.. hehe.. then she said i can tagged along.. and join them dinner.... I went to parkway with her... We talked a lot ... She said whenever she starts talking to me .. she will think of lame jokes.. lolx... but i guess this is gd la...cos i always think that teachers and students must be fren.. haha...wil have a lot of fun.. hehe.....

we went shopping... she bought smthg but i dun noe what is that.. haa.. 4get le.. i only noe it cost 70plus..lolx.. then we continue to shop.. all the way we kept teasing one another lor... She said i am like her daughter. .. But we were just crapping..lolx.. then she said nxt time shopping must bring me out.. cos i can help her carry things and she get to buy smthg she yearn for a long time... we just keep crapping..lolx.. is fun la........ we did talk abt serious stuff la...

ard 6 .45? her hubby reached... I called him "KOR" ... cos i dun noe what to call.. haha... then i left them.. din wan to makan with them.. cos i dun wan to be the lamp post... haha... =p....

she smsed me.. i was quite shocked actually... cos normally under such a situation.. i am the one who sms teacher de lor...haha.. nvm.....

Tired tired... Gonna go bathe.. super tired... later have to do physics and chem and econ.. how to finish sia??/ LIWAN U CAN DE.. BE DISCIPLINE.. YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SINCE U GT TIME SHOPPING AND DE STRESS.. I AM SURE U CAN PLAN UR TIME WELL... AND STUDY HARD... hehe....

MISS YOU A LOT... LOVE U LOT.. I LIKE THE BLUE SKY... THANK GOD...

went to sch today.. in morning saw ms fong.. as usual la.. crap throughout...

the lesson was quite okay today.. after that 10 gals went makan together... hehe... guess what was our topic?? we talk abt bras.. quite lame la.. we buying bras together after promo.. buy 10 get one free... so the free one goes to ms fong.. haha.. then we were guessing what was her size... Then they dare me go and ask u ... but then we decided to ask together.. so i called her.. and ask if she is free... hehe.. and the ans was yes.. so the 10 of us went to look for her... yupz.. we did ask her the ques... yupz.. then we said we will go shop together... then do a lot of stuff together after promo.. GOD let me PROMO can?.. I am willing to do anything...haix....... i will work hard i promise..

went for econ quiz... wasted one and the half a hr.. then went to sport com to support ms fong.. she playing tennis.. hehe.. one of the chers hurt her leg.. i thought i can help her.. but he leg is sensitive to the plaster i have.... sorry cher.. i cant help u.. hope u are fine.... after a while i went home... need to go for tuition.. hehe... sianz... had a lot of fun and laughter today... have to mug tonight le.. tired....

Make sure i will slp late tonight!!!!! LIWAN JIA YOU!!!! enjoy urself............

MISS yoU ..LOVe u lots.......

went to sch today (obviously) ...

First lesson was maths.. after maths there was a short break, then i consulted Mr ang.. haha.. But is only a short while.. but he had to prepare lectures so he told me to look for him later.....after that i went for maths lectures... The lecture was so boring so a lot of pp start falling asleep.. but i din lor.. ha... Then 10.00 went for consultation again.. CHEM!!!!!!! .. clear 2 sets of prelim papers... but ms fong was very weird lor.. she sound so motherly today.. then i kept laughing..lolz..she treated me like 3 yr old baby lor.. cannot stand .. hehe...we stopped ard 11.30.. i asked her go makan.. cos i always see her makan with other chem teachers... i can see that she enjoys her lunch with the rest of the teachers.. gt laughter... so i shldnt be that bad and selfish.. hehe..... After consulting her .. i go and look for Mr ang for another 1hr of consultation.. hehe... clear everything le.. so i am much happier nw..but indeed very stressful la... After all the consultations... HAve 2 period of chemistry.. i was dead by then.. super tired... falling asleep.. but i din la.. cos no respect for teachers... Then after lessons Ben and i stayed back to plan lessons with ms fong.. cos we need a lot of consulations... After that we went for econ lesson..haix.. sianz la.. gt test la... gonna fail.. ehe..tired....

Had Pe oso... i was the "captain".. i am gd lor.. at least our class won.. hehe.. so proud.. we were so happy.... nt bad la.. we were quite co operative.... thank god.. ha.... tired.. very tired....

gg to bathe le.. feel like taking nap.. but...... i hav tons of work to do... bo bian... tata...

I LOVE U SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!

guess what i have for dinner yesterday? i ate fried oyster with eggs, i ate lasi lemak, i ate jumbo set from western food which include pork, chicken, fish and fries... can u imagine how i finished them? i was somehow suffering frm depression........ very sad............

As usual i wake up at 5.30 today... quite look 4ward to school..yes, i get to see u.. but i wasnt happy.. cos i can sense u are unhappy? or U are busy?? lolz.. i guess u are stressful ba.. since promo is coming...

U noe what? can dun spoil the beautiful pics?? I wont blame u .. yet.. i feel very hurt.. cos i love u a lot as a fren... i always think that u are the best.. and yet.. what happened? i always have to look for excuses cos of u.. ArGH!!!! dun noe what to say......i am really very sad to noe that lor....

At first..i wasnt in gd mood.. but i gt back MY EOM .. nt bad leh!!!.. I also gt back my econ test.. ALSO NOT bAd.. so happy... hehe..

Tmr have consulation for maths and chem.. i think so la.. teachers are so the busy... i smsed ms fong but she din reply me.. i guess tmr i will ask her again...

have to go and rest and bathe.. after that study GP, then econ .. dun noe what to say... tata...

yesterday night i dreamt of you.. yes is you... we were very happy in the dreamz... we talked a lot ... we enjoyed ourselves... i guess i miss you a lot ba... hope to see u soon... miss ya...

sad leh... i feel that i am slacking lor.. nthg seems to go into my head... LIWAn, u are such a disappointment.. Tell me how u are gg to PROMOTE? haix.. GOD help me.. Where are you? i know you are there... haix.. is okay... shower some wisdom on me pls? haix..

studied econs frm yesterday night.. hope that everything did get into my head lor.. ArGh... sob sob... later got physic tuition...after which i will have maths tuition. I have to complete my econs today and will look at GP again. LIWAN JIA YOU LEH!!!!!

i slept very early these few days. I slept ard 11 plus... That is worrying... Promo coming le.. i still can slp so early.. aix.. so i say i am slacking.. sob sob...........

K.. have to bathe le.. go makan... tata.. will update more if i hav time at night...

PArt 2 of the day

Tried amino acid.. still alright.. nt that tough.. hehe... did some GP reading.. not too bad too... here come the worst thing. My maths.. haix.. super sad la.. dun noe what to say sia... Tried re doing the RAte of change but apparently.. haix.. dun noe what to say sia.. i need help.. MS YANG where are u?? sob sob.... I think after holiday will go look for Mr Ang .. tell him to help me more... may be ask frm him more practices and may be can have remedial frm him.. dun noe.. haix.. can sense how sad am i ?

after dinner will go re study econs.. and look at GP essay again. wish me all the best... tmr gt maths and physics tuition. i hope to clear my doubts for maths tmr.. MS YANG HELP!!!!!!! ....

Part 1 of the day

i saw amelia yesterday. we chatted for a while. I told her i am very stress cos i have too many things to complete. She started laughing. Then somehow she talked about her brother and sister. She said her sister and brother married liao lor.. sis even pregnant le... Then i told her "okay let's go and find a guy and married ..."

Lolx.. yes we crapped throughout the whole conversation. i Told her i am getting married soon. The guy must be super rich. He must love me a lot a lot. Then i no need to study and work just stay at home be tai tai. hehe.. i oso plan where to hold my wedding liao... lolx.. then we will go honeymoon..lolx.. Anyway... ya.. i like to crap a lot.....

I guess the reason why i wan to get married so soon is cos i dun wan to study. I wan to escape from studying.... SOB SOB... but i have a dream leh. I have a small dream.. i want to be a teacher. I really wan to be a teacher. If i dun study how am i gg to teach my student? Liwan i guess u still cant run away frm studies... sob sob....

Guess what i dreamt yesterday nite? I dreamt that i am getting married le.. I dont know who is that guy but he really treat me super good.. heh.. he fed me!!! I think he is really super nice la.. But the sad thing is we cant escape from studies. if i din rmb wrongly after eating we still have to go tuition together...haha... But we are getting married. hehe.. yea!

oKAy *clap*..come back to reality le.. how i wish the dream can last a bit longer. ahaa.... okay... LIWAN U MUST JIA YOU LA>. Stop living in fantasy.... wake up wake up....

HAve tO gO study le... have to chiong the day...... tata........... *VANISHED*

I LOVE THE BLUE SKY!!!!!!!!! MISS You lotzzzzzzzz...........

haix.. went to school again.. reached at 8 am to study econs. Met victor at 8.30 am... he wasnt late today..lolx..

We did 2 sets of chemistry march common test paper.. the question are fine la...sianz.. my mole concept.. argh.. how??can someone help me?? Argh...

After the 2 papers we tried doing maths. i gave up and went to study econs. he very smart la.. his maths is good. HAix.. so jealous of him. HAix.. After everything we went to have our lunch and left school. He need to go tuition and i went home lor. But he smsed just nw said that he rmb wrongly the time.. He so funny de.. so blur... i oso very blur de.. beta dun laugh at other ppl...

left 2 more days to mug real hard... I need to finish econ till the 4 market structure. i need to restudy MATHS till differentiation. I need to do maths tutorials. I need to do chem tutorials. i plan to finish econ today... hope so la... will see how lor.. =]...

Okay.. i think i beta go bathe le... later start to mug again... tata....

MISS YOU SO MUCH.. =[ =[

i blogged yesterday but i dun noe why it just din appeared.. argh..

Yesterday i studied in sch with victor.. finish 3 set of prelim papers ... all organic ques.... then today we did a set of march common test paper and PJC maths paper.. haven finish that paper ya... Went to library to print some stuff too... yupz.. then we go makan.. we makan at ard 1.45.... i guess that is kind of bad for my gastric lor.. always never have a proper lunch....

haix.. my head is very heavy now. I cant bite.. once i close my mouth and bite smthg .. my head will pain.. argh.. what happened to me.. sickening sia... i dun noe.. some more when come to lunch or dinner.. i certainly dun have the appetite.... God help me.. haix..

tonite gt physics tuition.. i am nt happy at all.. whenever i think abt physics, my mood is spoilt.. sob sob.. how? haix... have to go and do physic liao... after that will go memorise econ/.. hopefully what we did will help.. YEA!.. JIA you LIWan .. U can do it de.....


MISS YOU LOt.. I WAN MY BLUE SKY

this morning wake up at ard 6.45am.. then went to sch... i boarded 228.. then i saw hui shan.. my cousin... After that the bus was heading to blk 76plus... i suddenly could sense my fong presence.That kind of feeling was so strong! I started looking ard for her.. searching for her.. it was tough cos it was reaining outside... SUDDENLY, she appeared in front of me but outside the bus. I WAS SHOCKED! I wasnt shock to see her there cos i noe that she live near me...But i am shock cos of my six sense. I didnt noe i am so gd at that... THen i started to sms her.. usual we started crapping...

after that i went to LT3 for her lesson. I dont understand a single thing.. sob sob sob.. she was very fast.. somemore the people there keep talking.. haha.... After the mass tutorial, i get to clear all my doubts.. i think i consulted her for ard 3 hr plus.. haha..was quite a serious one! She can see that i am progressing very fast.. she said that she can see improvement. haha.. of course la..liwan so clever.. hha.. jkjkjk..but liwan will jia you de..... ya.. during the consuktation we did crap a bit... i told her abt my six sense..lol... She said..cos i have that kind of magnetic feeling esp toward close ppl.. haha...

After consultation .. i told her what i will be doing again for chem. She started laughing.. HUMP!.. But she said if the rest of students were like me.. she will be damn happy.. haha.. have to consult her on tues again... I NEED MR ANG HELP OSO..I NEED MY NEW GP TEACHER HELP OSO.. i GUess I must start planning who to meet on what day.. hopefully all mny chers can make it..ehe......

after that went home.. din really have a proper lunch.. cos i wasnt feeling well.. then took a nap... Having a headache lor.. all the organic chem equations, reagents and conditions are in my head.

Lets' plan what to do later.. hmm.. will finish my deductive questions that MR lOOH gave us.. then sit dwn and study PHYSICS!!!!.... PHYSICS, I PROMISE U I WILL APPRECIATE U..haha.... lIWAN JIA YOu K?... MUSt persevere... haha... *vanished*

LOVE YOU LOTS.. MISS YOU lots.....

wake up at 7 plus today.. after that went to bathe... Then went to parkway for PW meeting .. On the way, i was doing chem ten yr series MCQ questions. Lolx... i am so nerdy la.. even in the bus or when i was walking..i am holding the stupid 1000 MCQ ten yr series BK.. was doing and doing like nobody busniess... hehe... siamz... and finally i reached MAC but Lich msg me and said there is a change in venue to BK. ( i wont elaborate abt our meeting le.. i guess i also have nthg much to say) After the meeting i continue to do the MCQ.. do and do and do.. teill i finished the chap on atomic structure. After that i went lunch... i felt so lonely...but i learnt a lot of stuff during lunch. DOn worry is nt abt chem.. is abt human relationship.. haha.. is so fun.. i like to study human reactions.. is cool...

After lunch i went for my chem tution. IS frm 2.30 to 7.30 . There is a break in between. PHEw... The first 2 hrs we were doing reactions of alkene and halogenoalkane.. i think so... The lesson was till 4.30. AFter which there was a break.. Xiang ting and I went to the night market to buy some stuff to makan. The break was rather short to ask lor.. sob sob.. but is okay.. after that.. we went back for lesson again. The lesson was on Alcohol. Was quite OkAy la.. But i answered some questions wrongly.. Then Mr Looh was quite fed up at first.. but i made him laugh.. i told him i was very stress.. hah.. then we started laughing .. i told him i scared cant promote.. i guess he can understand how i feel.. ARGH... sob sob...... After the chap on alcohol we practice some deductive questions. Was too tired by then... But still doable la... hah.. at least i am nt a newbie anymore..........LIWAN JIA YOU....

Tmr gt ms fong lesson. AT 8 am to ard 11pm.. HAiz.. tired sia..... I realli realli hope i can clear all my doubts tmr,.... will she be free tmr? i sms her this afternoon she din reply me.. i asked her if i can consult her tmr.. haix.. =[ sadded... how??? i practised so much questions.. then left a lot of doubts to clear................GOD HELP ME PLS!!!!!!! ENLIGHTEN ME.... MAKE ME WISER A BIT... Argh.........

Okay.. i guess is time to study again.. What should i do after blogging??? Study Amino acids... After that??? dun noe??/.. sianz.. so tired.. *VANISHED*

I WAS QUITE DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU TODAY. WHAT CAN I DO? MY HEART ACHES.. SOB SOB.. MISS YOU.. MY BLUE SKY!!!!

din blog yesterday. Kind of tired . wake up very early yesterday for tuition then went to TM. Went home to study organic chem. But yesterday was quite fun la.. get to see the 2 NGS ..lolz.. bth of them are still young and pretty. haha... VAl as usual so funny.. anyway.. i miss bth of them.. hehe... well wont blog much abt yesterday le.. is good to keep it to myself.. haa

wake up very today also to tender the shop.I AM THE LADY BOSS but all the money doesnt go into my pocket.. haha.. i did my maths tutorials and studied econ while looking after shop... i am feeling sooooo tired now. BUt I cant go to sleep now. I have to go for tuition le.. haix.....

Very sad that i still dun really noe how to use my complicated MP4.. dun like to read instructions.. i prefer to have someone guiding me.. same goes for my studies.. haix..liwan u need to change ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i still manage to listen to some songs using mp4.. so i guess is okay.. after promo then i slowly figure out ba.....

Tmr will be another busy day.. no choice... GOD BLESS ME... will stop here...........

I LOVE THE BLUE SKY.. heh... MISS YOU LOTS... C U SOON!

yesterday night i slept at 9 plus then wake up at 12am cos of a sharp pain. Is it my gastric again.I guess i took too much chilli yesterday. Then i went to take gastric pills... fell asleep but wake up at 5 plus cos yi ling sms me... my sleep was disturbed one after another. But is okay... Then i wake up at 9 .30.. After my breakfast and everything.. i started sms'g all my chers to wish them happy teachers' day.. haha.. Most of them said that it has been a pleasure teaching me.. haha.. OF course.. i am so sweet.. jk jk....actually w/o them.. i am uncertain where will i be... Thankz CHER!!!!!!! i LOVE U ALL A LOT.... muackz.............

HOnestly after all the smses and everything.. somehow noe who are the ones who really treat me very nice... and are the ones who disappointed me... HAix... i wont mention. A lot of pp said that the person who disappointed most is normally the one u love most... haha.... IS okay... wont dwell with it le..........

i was doing the whole stack of maths exercises... My rate of changes and approximation suckz sia... hehe... MS YANG I NEED UR HELP!!!!! THANKZ .. ALWAYS HELP ME.. ALWAYS STAY TILL SO LATE TO HELP ME...LOVE u SO MUCh..haha...

Hmmm.. gg to bathe le... aha...... After watching TV.. i will go and chiong chemistry... do all the exercises... and may be the tutorials... haha... see first lor......

*VANISHED*

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan