wake up very early this morning at 5am cos of teachers' day. I met up with xue ting to wrap all the present. Actually we din expect to finish it so fast la... haha........ i guess we are smart... After that went for lectures. I am still find with chem and maths lecture today... MAths is quite tough... will try my best...

We passed all the gifts to teachers. We were running around the sch like mad women... haa... so tired. Then we saw ms fong, give her a BIG present..haha... Is a pink bathroom slipper? i oso dun noe what u call that. Then i told her that i wan to talk to her during break. But expected, though she said okay but soon after break i called her.... she said she is in the hall... she is kind of busy. Then i told her after celebration i will o find her. The celebration was nt bad actually. I like the songs that the students sang. i almost cried. Soon after the celebration, i went dwn to he canteen to pass the present to Mr Tan, Mdm Koh and Mdm Jiang. After that i saw ms fong, i dare not approach her. i am scared that i will disturb her. But after the encouragement frm Mr Tan, i approached her and said " cher this is for you" She was kind of shock. I told her that essay was the full mark essay i told her a few days ago. Then she said she wanna read but i read for her instead. Actually she read it out her own la.. haa....she didnt know how to read a lot of words. So we read together and eventually i think she was so tired... end up i was the one reading..hhaa... But i left the last para for her to read. HAHa... she told me she was very touched.. she said she wan to cry. Guess what i said? i told her i dun have tissue. haha... she asked me a question after that... i couldnt answer her. =[ but ms fong just let me have the beautiful pic in mind.. i dun wan to spoil it. I slacked in sch for a while then went to say bye to her... i saw her showing the essay to other teachers. HAHa... Then i sms her to tell her to share with more teachers cos i think she deserve it....... i told her to be proud of it!!!!!!! YEA!!!!!!!!!!!

After that i went dwn to expo.. haha.. I bought a MP4 nt frm creative. i find creative stuff suck...hhaa... After that i went home to upload some songs. haha........ was freaking tired........

I met yi ling at ard 3 plus.. as usual she was late =[ at first we decided to go Bugis but she told me she hav the sudden urge to go parkway. Hmmm.. ya .. as usual i will listen to her. We went there to eat bian mian. She wasnt feeling well. Me too.. chest pain..... sianz......... we enjoyed ourselves... after that i brought her to TJC but went i reached there..... the security guard said he is closing the gate at 6pm and the time was already 5.45. sob sob........ then we walked to interchange......on the way i saw ms Ho..i approached her and wished her Happy staff day. aha.. is fun la..........after which....... Yi ling and I continue to walk aimlessly...........

After that she went to NTUC to buy stuff for my godma... haha....she wasnt well la... Then we started crapping... Actually we started crapping on the way to TJC le... she asked me a question....... She said if i am a guy will i like her. I didnt really know how to answer. BUt i guess the answer is yes !!!!!! haa.... BUt i think i will have a bad time loving her... is cos of her character. She told me that she scared that no guys wan her.... After that she asked me why i never ask her the reverse of the ques. What if she were a guy, will she love me? Then i asked her.. haha... she said yes..........she said if she were a guy, i am the type of gal she would find. COs she thinks that i am gullible... so she will love me a lot if she were a guy.. haha......... BUT ANYWAY.. THE 2 OF US ARE STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

AFter all the shopping.. i sent her home since she wasnt feeling well. I told her smthg on the way.... i told her that lucky i am nt a guy.. cos even she said she will fall for me if i were a guy.. BUT she is the type of gal who loves to use the word "break up"........ And she will nt take back her words.. heng lor.....haha.. BUt she said if she were a guy.. he wont use the word break up le .. he will love me a lot.. haha......... Anyway... we were crapping.. then i told her to be a guy nxt life.. then i remain as gal.. then we will live happily after....... haha.. ai ya.. we love to crap.. That is what gd frens are 4.........

i am tired le.. gg to slp le........ zzzzzzzzzzzzzz............. Very sad tt i din get to see the BLUe sky today.......... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


HAPPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL MY BELOVED TEACHERS... THANKZ FOR EVERYTHING.... I LOVE U ALL....

which is important? haix.. i feel that Quality is more important than quantity. What i have is only Quantity. That's kind of sad. =[...

Took back my maths and chems test paper. Din expect to pass maths and fail chem. I expected myself to pass chem and fail maths... why like that. Ms Fong told me that she is happy to see that i am progressing. She told me to continue to JIA YOU. haix... i will try my best. But i am afraid u will be disappointed again. haix...

Mr ang told us a story today. Find it very interesting. But the story behind it is " success is in our hand"... well said sia... I will do all i can..

tmr is teachers' day celebration... hope it wont be too boring...hope that everything will be fine tmr... Anyway.. a few hrs later i will hav a player le.. haha.. so damn happy... =] =] hopefully will get to go out tmr... sianz... tmr really can wear home clothes meh??? hack la.. just wear... i missed the announcement when talking to ms fong... HAizx...............................

K.. need to study econ liao.. tata.... LIWAN JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!

I dun think i will do well for SPA.. but SPA made e realisea lot of things...

1) I cannot be too impulsive.. i always ZOOM into doing the question w/o reading the ques...
2) i realise the presence of the mighty GOD.. who helped me.. who stayed there to aid me... God thankz...

Here i am eating french fries.. feeling quite happy... at least i no need to rush again...

HMmm... is time to plan for my holiday... actually is so called planned... YEA... i will do my best......... I hope tmr can go for consultation.. hhaa.... GOd guide me along.. thank..............

Part 2 of the day...

feel like blogging again.. hee...so freaking tired.. OOp.. haha... I spend the a good 3hrs doing nitrogen compound.. DONE!!!!!!!! shall see if tmr the teacher is free for consultion. I am afraid leh.. quite a lot of questions dun noe how to do....

like what i said above.. today was a tiring day.. econ test (which i do not want to mention anymore) .. SPA exam... So tired.. i was so happy.. at last finish the last lap le.. hah.. anyway... i will rest for a while... i will go out on thurs and maybe fri... but i will still continue to study la... hehe... So excited!! getting a player on Thurs.. actually i nt really super sure if i will be able to get one a not.. cos i am super fussy de.. haha.. i will guess get a normal and cheap one.. tired...

Hmm... have to go and finished the chi wksht.. "zhe li zhen an jing" .. i still dun like the passage.. i scared i 4get what have been said during chinese remedial.. haix........... is a disappointment if this is true...............

Okay....gg off le.. at least finish 2 ques of chinese that go slp........ hehe

SSSOOOOOOOOO TIRED... ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ .. MISS U SO MUCH... . distance make the heart grow fonder... aha......... that is so stupid.......

BLUE SKY .. BLUE SKY...

not feeling well... chest pain.. very moody too... PMS? i hope not.. haix...

having econ test tmr.. having SPA tmr... so u noe why i am nt well le.. haiz.. the stress is building up.. i need to do a lot of stuff.. sob sob.. a lot of stuff to do.. GOD help me... I plan to do alot of stuff during the holiday.. i must complete them.. ARGH.. haix.. AND MY PHYSIC.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! sorry Mrs Toh .. i really dun noe what to do....

wish me luck for tmr econ test and SPA... GOD can help me? haix.......... I will try my best... my eyes are closing.. and is only 9.45... how? tell me what to do? I AM NOT FEELING WELL.....

MISS YOU LOTz.. I love my blue sky..........

I guess 24 hrs really nt enough....sob sob .... help.... GODDDD

Hmm... i read thru SPA, Did My OP, tryiNg to memorise ECON... did the card... went for maths and physic tuition.. did one ques of AJc paper... restudy econ.... so tired lor........ SOB SOB.... i hope everything did get intomy head.. or else is a waste....

janice and i analyse smthg yesterday. i find that it is quite true. THere shld be a degree of barrier btw family members. let me give u an example. One day when u were walking down the street, someone stepped on ur feet.. will u scream at her? i wont.. i will tel her "oh.. is okay"... But one day if my sis stepped on my feet... haha.. she will get it frm me lor.. I mean we will tend to grumble rite??.. aha.. is cool sia... honestly i love human relationship.. i like to observe ppl behaviour too.. too bad la.. there isnt such subject.... imagine i can always do well in chinese comprehension that require human relationship and emotions. haha.. but come to japanese war.. i wan to puke.. haha... weirdo.. i guess i am just too sentimental and emotional liao... it may be gd and bad....... dun noe....... YEA!!!!!!!!! human relationship is fun....

Is time to study again.. wanna to read the last part of econ.. faster get rid of everything.. LOOK 4WARd to 31st Aug.. haa... cos of 2 reasons.. GONING out with YI LING to bUY the player.. the nxt reason.. i wont say le......... i dun dare to fanastise.. cos whatever we fanastise always turn out so differently in reality........ HAHA.........

MISS YOU SO MUCH....... HOPE THAT I WILL GET TO SEE U ... I LOVE THE BLUE SKY....

Wake up at 7.30 cos of yi ling msh.. but thankz anyway.. i can wake up early to study.. had my breakfast .. Guess what my mum said? she said i am a rich gal just because i told her i dun eat bananas cake. that is so lame.she told me that nxt time i better married a rich guy. Well, fine i will go hunt for one. HUMP! Recently a lot of pp say that i am rich.. Pls la.. i am not rich okay? I also dun noe how. u define rich. MAy be my definition of rich is diff frm urs.. haha... MAybe i am just a generous gal.. haa

WO XIANG TONG LE.. after listening to what ms fong said yesterday.. it left me with certain thoughts. Okay... i understand le.. WHy didnt u tell me earlier? lolx.. Okay... Fine.. THankz....

Wake up early to study for econ test.. somehow finishing soon..but i think i will 4get a lot. ARgh.. LAter i wan to re study Chem and Econs..Li wan Jia you!!!!!! Oh ya.. I will buy myself a MP3 on teachers' day.. haa.. since that day is a half day. YEAH.. at lasT!!!!! I have been waiting for mnths liao le lor..... YEAH!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday night i went to laminate my chinese essay <<>> hah... NOt bad.. so proud of myself at that instant. I was also doing the card. Spend a lot of time doing sia..... later i will go and finish up that card.. But only if i hav finished re studying for chem and econ. After which i will study SPA.. SHIT!!! i 4get i have Powerpt slides to do.. ARGH... well.. will see........

GONNA GO * vanisHED*

As usual, i went to school. This morning i saw Ms fong la.. Then we boarded the same bus 38. As usual, we started crapping lor..lolx... But okay la.. quite shock to see her.. cos i thought she loves walking to school... She oso very shock to see me.. cos she thought i take aeroplane de... Yupz.. we just crap...

Lessons were boring today. After lessons, i went for chinese remedial. HMm.. okay la.. Then after that i stay in sch to finish up ten yr series ques on halogen... IS so Crap.. i am trying hard.. as u can see... hehe...

Gg to bathe soon le... Then go watch TV.. Must take a break lor.. After that i will re study organic chem from introduction to halogenoalkane. Yupz... LiWAn jia you....

Tmr have to do integration. Actually dun feel like doing.. But no choice cos i plan le... I Hope i can get to do a lot of stuff tmr.. haha... BUT I HAVE OP!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH... I guess SAT is the best day for me to have fun studying..lolx... I must restudy econ and CHEM!!!!!!! YEAh...

ok.. gonna go liao... go pom pom... tata.. *vanished*

I LOVE THE BLUE SKY

After listening to what u said, i somehow i feel very hurt...Is not becos u are harsh.. u r not to be blamed. I was just hurt and sad that i am so stupid, always walk the wrong path.. liwan u sux... i hate myself liao. I REALLY HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am not worth anyone concern or attention. JUst let me ROT... cos i really suck.. I feel like crying. I feel so helpless...CAn anyone understand my feelings?

I just "finished" my lunch..i din get to finish my lunch. I dont hav the appetite to do so. I am really speechless at this pt of time. i got to go and study liao... I SUXXXXXXXXXX............. *vanished*

There is something left in my head. You are the one set it up, u are the one to make it stop.. i am the one feeling lost right now. Now u wan me to 4get every little things u said... but there is smthg left in my head.. i wont 4get the way you are kissing.. the feeling so strong.. we will lasting for so long..................

i have GP to do, I have mind map to do... i have many papers to try.. i have a lot of things to do!!!!!!!! One day 48hrs is nt enough.. stupid me!!!! so tired.. my eyes closing.. tmr gt test! How to pass? I oso dun nOe.. i still dun understand that chap.. hOw? never mind..do well for promo THEN!!!!!!!!!! LIwan jia you

HAd a lot of fun today.. I entertained the malay students.. Bought some of them drinks and handphone keychain... Then Ms fong come and disturb me as usual. Fine will treat u smthg nxt time.. hehe... We took pics.. we chatted for hours and hours.. i learnt their language... then i told them to speak chinese to Mr Tan, Mdm jiang and Ms fong... Ms fong was laughing happily.. hmmm.. let me share with u what they all say and ask... 1) ni hao ma? (how are u) 2) ni hen piao liang ( u are very pretty) 3) Ni zhen de zhen zhen de hen piao liang ( u are reallly really really very pretty) 4) wo ai ni (i love u) ... so u noe why she kept laughing.... lolx....

Went for training today.. i guess my body system kind of weak leh... chest always pain... then feel very giddy....liwan is dying soon... aha... Kind of happy today... But come to think... the load of hW make me tired... make me Puke.. BUt liwan, nobody force u to do them.. u wan to do them on ur own accord... Sianz.. No choice... like what i said b4.. discipline is the keyword... =[...

kk.. NEed to study le... Tmr suppose to go SHOP for MP3 de... But heard that expo hav... shall wait for further notice.... *vanished*

BUT ONLY LOVE CAN SAY... BUT I BELIEVE FOR YOU AND ME , THE SUN WILL SHINE ONE DAY.... SO I JUST PLAY MY PART...

wasnt in a very gd mood yesterday. I hate my attitude. I hate myself.. i guess yesterday i was a little bad leh..I was merely petty..i dun noe.. dun wish to say anymore.....'

Yesterday was a tired day. Went to NUS!! i will skip the part on what happened on the train. hha... The semiar was not too bad. I regretted not reading thru my notes b4 gg there. ARG!!!!!!!.. is okay man..... I think i will stay in hostel if i ever go to uNI.. BUT i REALLY HOPE I CAN GO UNI!!!!!!.... This week was kind of a busy one... was rushing thru everything. Hope that this coming week will be a less hectic one. But i doubt so la... I need to re study chem and econ!!!!!!!! NO IS I MUST!!!!!! I really need to sit down again to look thru and understand and memorise.... My physic.. haix... dun noe what to say...... wish me luck la......

Shld i buy MP3? I have the urge to buy , is just that i dun have time. Kind of lazy. ARGh.. i hv to spend another week w/o mp3 again. LIWAN JIA YOU.. I LOOK 4ward TO SEE OUR GP TEACHER. I NEED HER/HIS HELP WITH COMPREHENSION and ESSAY. I HOPE I WILL GET A NICE TEACHER. =[ THEn i THINK I WILL HAV CONSULTATION FOR EVERY SUBS LIAO LOR.... EXCEPT PHYSIC AND ECON........ liwan PLS u need to get throu this ard. You wont retain de!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AM i living in denial? i am nt sure....

Just received a call from Mr derrick. The tuition is pushed to 10am. Okay, is time to study le.. LIWAN JIA YOU.....

I LOVE THE BLUE SKY!!!!!!!!!

didnt get to blog yesterday cos i was super busy with my work. i hav to rush everyting since i gg out today... i slept at 12 yesterday and wake up at 5 pm today. Okay.. let's not dwell with what happened yesterday.

Went to as usual today. i gave rena a lecture.. hopeully she will wake up la.. hope she will do well.. i pray that everything wil be fine for us. Today assembly was funny.. The VP tell us to greet the teacher with a smile.. and guess what .. i immediately greet ms fong with a smile. We started laughing and laughing. I guess is nice to make teachers happy.. hehe

lessons were quite dead this morning . I was super sleepy. Consulted Mr Ang and Ms fong today. Quite satisfised. Guess what i finished my CHINESe essay.. but sad to know that the dedication cannot be in chinese..i received the reply from the people in charge... haix.... CHEN lAO SHI WHAT CAN I DO? JUST WANNA SURPRISE MY CHER.. haix...

After all the consultation NOvita and i went to janicia house. COOL sia... i like her house. We left her house at ard 4.45 and went to Marina square.... haha... we shop a lot.. help her to celebrate her BD.. HAve a lot of fun taking Pics.. But is very tired la... haha

We went home at ard 10 plus... Xue ting dad send us home. I love the muisc played in her DAD car... hhaa.. so sweet.. a lot of laughter in the car... BUt really very fun LOR!!!!!

Tmr gg out again. GG to NUS... sianz.. Hope will be fun too.. meeting novita at ard 12 plus.. yEA... Will be having lunch with her.. i guess shldnt be a problem. I am so the tired.. i dun noe what i am typing... is okay... benefit of doubts.. haha.... anyway.. i gg to slp le.. i really enjoyed myself today... Thankz everyone... Oh ya.. happy BD to JAnicia... a few more min u will be 17 yrs old.. haha.....k.. i guessi shld go slp le.. tmr have to wake up at 8.30 to do dynamics again.. haix... tired.. nite nite............

Life is so hectic sia... I was competing with time. SOB SOB... i can feel that i am running out of breath lor..

Was doing physic just now.. ARGH!!!! i was rushing like hell. Cos i still left chinese and GP haven done yet. haix.. i dont care liao.. I Am so tired LA.. I "finished" chinese.. left quite a lot of blank. Just din noe wat shld be there. SIanz... I Think i will do GP Tmr la.. during break or lunch.. so sickening. HAve to study econ later... LIwan jia You Fri gg out.. aha liwan is gg out.. ya.. i hope i can go out... But i need to consult ms fong my chem leh..... See la... stupid ppl like me.. everything oso dun noe.. haix... just have to accept it....
Get to ask MR Ang maths today. Quite happy la.. hehe... But i have a lot to ask la.. NOt only
those questions... Sat oso hav to go for semiar... sianz.. regretted.. haha.. i guess i will study in NUS.. maybe will get some inspiration. HAHA.. what a joke!!.. is not a bad idea actually.. hehe...

Get to talk to u today.. haha.. happyhappy.. very happy... u cheer me up sia.. LOlx....... But i noe i very bad.. always bully and tease u ... i am sorry if u dun like it.. haha.. YEa....

kkk.. i think i beta go study liao.. cos my eyes are closing soon again.. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...... haix... kk... hav to compete with the time again.. so sick.. Chest pain again...The pain is back again... See doc oso useless... sianz........... =[

YEA.. SO IN LOVE WITH MY BLUE SKY.. I WAN TO GO TO THE BEACH.. LOOK AT THE BLUE SKY... IT IS SO BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!

Just came back from training.. get to train a lot... very tiring...

Get to see and talk to you today. I was quite happy. hehe

I dont wan to go for counselling. Ms fong, pls dont refer me to counselling? Haix... I am scared actually. Can i have freedom of choice? Just like me giving you freedom of choice. Dont care le...

Feel like writing chi essay.. dun noe why,i really have the urge to do so. See lor.. see i have time a not.But i still have some doubts.. i dont know how to link the incidents together.. i mean i dun noe how to introduce another incident.. is okay.. will ask teacher...

tmr physic test liao.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY FEEL LIKE GIVING UP.. I CANT BELIEVE SIA, I REALLY THINK I DONT HAVE THE APTITUDE LOR.. heartache!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WIsh me all the best... GOD PLS GUIDE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have to go and bathe liao.. need to do a lot of stuff.... Need to ask help from MR ANG liao. eeeeeeeeeeeee i think i am gd at nthg. Need Help of every subjects... haix...... GOD bLESS Me...LIWAN MUST JIA YOU LEH!!!!!!!!!!!!! GO GO GO....

I AM so In LOVe ... MY BLUe sKY.. I MISS YOu...

i cant sleep yesterday night. I wake up at 4pm this morning . i started to study chem after washing up.

Went to school as usual. I looked forward to see you lor but u disappeared. Miss you so much. Got caught this morning for nt putting on my collar pin. haix... i am so unlucky today.

Today chem test was counted as a reasonable paper but i think i cannot make it lor. Haix... what to do... But i learnt smthg from this test. I agreed with ms fong that as long as we memorise the reagent and conditions shldnt be a problem. I also feel that deductive question actually not difficult ya. Anyway , organic chem is interesting. I promise i will work hard. I wan to get the bulk of the marks..

So tired lor.. my eyes are closing yet i still have a lot of stuff to do leH!!! help me... sad
i guess i have to go bathe liao.. maybe will sleep in the toliet.. haha...*vanished*

I am so In Love wiTh the Blue sKY... I MISS yoU SO much.. HOPe To see u TMR

I asked mr derrick how people define burnt out? I hve a kind of feeling that i reached that state le, esp for physic. I am so sick and tired of physic! i tried to love physic but to no avail. what abt stress? why do people always that i am stress? But i dont feel that? what are the symptoms? haix. i am not sure either. =[ am i really burnt out? i am not sure! Is there any repulsion? aRgh... sianz... my eyes are closing, i wonder how i face u tmr. Is okay, i noe u care for me.

Honestly, i am scared. Tmr gt test. i tried my best to study liao. I am not sure what i shld do. I cant promise anything. I really hope to pass. liwan u must jia you!!!!!!!!!!I feel that i am still kind of affected leh, i cannot never 4get what happened on fri. Somehow a bit moodless but i promise ms fong to be a cheerful gal by tmr. is it possible. I guess i am just putting a strong front infront of her. ... haix... speechless...

just now went to makan as usual with my parents. I dont find the food nice. i guess is due to the loss of appetite la. Argh!!!!!!! everything to me sux... feel like vomitting. Dont worry, i am not pregnant hah...

Sianz... dun noe what to blog le... i am so tired. I guess i will go restudy chem another time. Then go sleep. God i tried my best le. =[........ Gd nite

I LOVE THE BLUE SKY....

kind of tired today may be due to yesterday.

Wake up at around 9.00am today, kind of late. I tried to Do the VJC and AJC paper again. Argh! i guess my chinese really cannot make it . I think it is rather a disappointment. I have to work hard =[ After finishing the chinese paper it was around 11. Wanted to go and bathe but was stopped by a sms. Received a sms at abt 10.40 yet i didnt realise because i was busying with chinese hw. Guess the msg is from who? is ms fong. Kind of shock to receive her sms out of nowhere. I know she cares for me, sms me to encourage me. I promised you i wont give up, u can have my words. I will try my best. Liwan will stay strong.

went to look for janice after lunch. She was teaching my hubby..lolx.. she is a very gd mother. i am proud of her. I was studying chem for the whoe afternoon. Actually chem is fun la. hah.. it depends if you get a gd teacher a not. haha... I have Mr looh and ms fong helping me, i will try my best. hah...........

after blogging i will go and study chem again lor. I hope that i will get to touch Physic later. Tired! scared of physic liao. =[ LIwan jia you.... will blog later again if i have time. =O

part 2 of the day

I guess i have been slacking the whole day. =[ dwell with chem the whole day. Waking up at 7:30 tmr to finish Maths Promo paper, after that have to prepare the questions that i wan to ask ms yang. Sure a lot de... Sorry ms yang, always have to bother u so much. i hope what i studied did get into my head. Haix..somehow i still feel very sad =[ But is okay. I wont break our promise, will be a strong gal.

Gonna Go and restudy everything le..Jia You liwan!!!!!!!!!!! =] YES, u can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

met the HOD today, i cried infront of them. She didn't scold me but i just feel weird to talk to them. She supports me. I guess i was very touched so i cried. So i guess it is true that TJC teachers are very nice! I am very proud of my teachers!!!!

managed to clear my doubts for maths =] . Didnt manage to clear all my doubts for Chem. The 2 of us were a bit high today. Both of us can't think straight. hehe.. so we started talking craps.. we were very distracted. Then after a while i told her not to continue because i can see that she is super tired. Then we started talking, somehow a bit more serious this time. She left me ard 5 plus haha.. okay lor... Quite high today but din expect myself to cry.

Attending a course soon on mental health! And i think i going for counselling soon. I guess i will be super busy!! GOd help me!! GOD, I dont want to retain!!!! God Help me!!!!! I really need a lot a lot a lot of support to pull through. "wo hao xin gu"

I LOVE THE BLUE SKY

Yupz finished what i am suppose to do for today. HAix.. i really need a lot of support for this promo. God pls guide me. i really need a lot a lot of support. I thought my sis can come back earlier but haix.. wont mention anymore...

what will happen tmr evening? I dont know, kind of sad. Feeling tired. Where are all my frens? I am not sure either. Where are you when i need you most? haix... is okay. I hope that you are doing fine. its funny, i always boast to people that having a few very GD Fren is enough. But come to think, when i am feel miserable who do i really talk to ? who do i really look for?

going to sheng siong now. later when i am back, i need to restudy organic chem again. MAke sure everything get into my head. After that i need to prepare all the things i have to bring to sch tmr. I really hope to clear all my doubts for chem n maths. haix... God help me!

I LOVE THE BLUE SKY A LOT. MISS YA

Went to lucky plaza. As usual there were a lot of people there. I bought smthg from there. hehe... Quite cheap.. feeling very tired, leg is aching.

Guess what i am wearing a ring now. HAHA.. feel so attached! Attached to nobody =p My mum was talking to me regarding my cousin wedding. Time flies sia, i also suddenly have the urge to get marry. HAHa.. siao... i just wanna to quickly get out of school life. I guess what i will miss is all my teachers and frens.. haha..God help me to pass my promo. I need ur guidance. =[

Hmmm.. today is national day, Didnt really watch the NDP. i did not have the mood to watch TV. I studied chem and just finished my chinese essay. I didnt write a lot cos i am scared. I always have to bear in mind the [K.I.S.S] if not i will see a big " F " . I am tired. Oh yea, managed to study elasticity too... Hmmm.. will restudy everything tmr. i don't have to go school tomorrow. Let me see what i shld do tmr...hhhmmmm.... 1) Restudy econ frm chap one to three. 2) restudy organic chem to carbonyl compound 3) Chem promo papers 4) physics

I guess that's all. I hope that everything can get into my head. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!tired le.. gonna sleep sooon.. will update tmr....

I LOVE THE BLUE SKY.. HaHA.. LIWAN STUDY HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I realised something not long ago. WE CANNOT FORCE LOVE. i tried to love organic chem. Honestly i dont hate organic chem. I am neutral to it. I tried very hard to develop more love for organic chemistry but i think i failed badly. I guess organic chem doesnt love me . It doesnt seems to reciprocate. that kind of feeling is terrible. Should i continue to force myself to love you. Will there be a miracle between us? I know Mr Looh and Ms Fong are trying their best to help me. A question to ponder, did i try my best? I am not sure either. I don't know how to define"try my best" . Is true i am sad. i am rather speechless. i just want to stare at the blue sky!!!!!!!

Going out to orchard later. Bringing my maid to send money. Hiax.. i guess i will bring my mindmap and econ. i guess i will feel uneasy w/o my notes. haha

I like the song titled "if we hold on together". Is quite a sad song? I like the lyrics a lot. It is very meaningful.. haha...



Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far, don't throw it away
Live believing, dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend
Seek out a star, hold on till the end
Valley, mountain, there is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying, someone is praying
Please let them come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark, we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts? Everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to foreverAs high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by, for you and I

haix... is time to mug.. .. econ and cHEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =[ liwan u need to be super Discipline... haix...

Just came back from national day celebration. Honestly i enjoyed myself. i feel so homely in school. I love my school. It is really a place for me grow and learn. I am just like the sheep and the teachers are like the shepherds. hehe.Wanted to stay in school and study but dont really have the mood to do so. i have a lot thoughts in my mind. I was thinking of a lot of things. Tj invited people from old folk home. I feel very sad seeing them. Why do children sent their parents to old folk home? Are the old folks happy? I have plenty of questions to ask them but i did not. Honestly i am very tired to care so much for the people around me. I am mentally drained. i really hope i will be fine soon

I changed parts of the lyrics of the national day songs. "HOME"

"TJC, My Home"

this is home truly
where i know i must be
where my dreams wait for me
where the teachers are always there for me
this is home truly
as my senses tell me
this is where i wont be alone
For this is where i know i'm home

where there are troubles to go through
They will there to pick me up
They gave me comfort and security
That home 's about its people too.

so we build our dreams together
just like we've done before(jct)
there'll always be singapore.

yea... done.. quite lame actually... is time to study.. Argh.. after studying for a while will go take a nap.. ha...

I MISS YOU.. I FEEl SAD WHEN STANDING BESIDE YOU.

I am not feeling well. cant think properly. I know what is the cause of my sickness, i just cant live without talking to you. Am i being childish? Do you think i like it? I am just torturing myself. Why should i sacrifise because of you? It is because i really care for you! I let go of you. I am seriously very tired. Is true that i shouldnt care so much for you, but i really cant help myself. I am born like that. I really dont know what to do. Now, when i see you, i am really speechless. I dont know how to talk to you.

This morning was still sneezing like crazy woman. ms fong saw me and tell me to go home. I told that i do not want to miss so many lectures. Guess what was her reply? " you will spread the virus to your classmates" My heart sank!! She really break my heart. I came to school with her good intention, wanting to learn more things but she said till i am so bad lor!!!! Nope, i dont blame her. I always treat her like my fren/sister.

did chinese essay plan.. PHEW! never write out of point. If not i think i should end my life straight away.haha...I just found out that chen lao shi Read my blog. BUt is okay la.. I welcome him.. haha...have to finish the essay and hand in on fri. SHouldnt be a problem if i am discipline enough.

went for chem tuition just now. Super stress lor!!!! I counted. there are 15 tjc students. haix.. i guess i am the worst over there. Gt 3 new tjc students, one of them is ms fong students. haha.. if i tell that to ms fong she will be sad again.haha.. Dont worry ms fong , think positively!!! it is not that you are lousy, your students are simply very hardworking. they want to learn more so decided to enrol for tuition class. haha. Mr Looh managed to finish Alkane. I feel happier now. I hope that he can rush through everything.

Tmr no lessons. I guess i will want to study in school. I have to do Promo papers for maths and chem. STudy alcohol and kinematics. That will be a lot. I will be super happy if i can finish that. I think i will do maths paper and study organic chem in sch. i tried doing MAths ten yr series. Argh! a bit stupid. Gt stuck everywhere... maybe i am just very impatient. i will go through them again.

Okay.. is time to bathe . have to mug later... *vanished* feeling feverish ... haix...

I miss you. Sometime i really dont know what to say sia. You can brighten my day and make my day dull.

I lOve The bLue sKY

have been mugging these few days. Sorry guys cant join u all for BBQ. Not well =[ . Enjoy urself

was super stress this afternoon during chinese lesson and chem lesson. My chinese essay sux !! always never answer the questions. WAt an ass i have been!!!! As for chem lesson i was quite affected by the pace ms fong is going. she was distracted actually, she was also kind of stress. I just realised that i cant afford to see pp ard me stress cos it will make me even be worse.

Tmr is sat. i have to mug throughout.

Things to be done by sat and Sun
1) DO chemistry tutorial plus Ten year series plus Mr looh's paper
2) Do physic Waves ten yr series
3) DO GP
4)Study chapter 2 of econ
5) Restudy what i have been doing this whole week

Feel quite tired today. rank 64 for 2.4km. Quite satisfised hha... i guess the timing is a lot better than my secondary sch timing.. haha...

i found out that i love blue sky.. i love lying on the ground, staring at the blue sky. I hope the sky belong to me!!!!

Li Wan Discipline is the key word!!!!!!!

din get to talk to her today. That kind of feeling is worst. I guess is for our own good? So near yet so far. I guess it will be fine soon. I guess we will get to talk . You are very nice person!! i miss you. i will be surprise if u call me one day... I don hate you. I feel unhappy when i see u ... =-[

Hmmm... Had lunch with mdm koh just now then went home immediately cos i wasnt feeing well.I enjoyed my lunch not because of the food but more cos of her company. we chatted a lot. Thankz for telling me so much things. I hope that everything will be fine for you. Love u so much

was doing physic just now. Hmm.. slight improvement hehe... actually i think i really hate you leh. i feel very sad standing beside you. Shit! i fell into the trap again!! ARGh.. I dont know, you made me feel so tired. I am tired of you. what is the point of treating you so good? i havent find an answer yet. It is tough to be nice to you. It is so painful. I guess when i see u nxt time, i wont talk much liao. I know you will ask me why but should say "cos i hate you so i don wan to talk to you" i dont know. i think i wont do that de la... i have a super soft heart, i guess when i see u again i will still talk to you. But sooner or later i will talk to u lesser and lesser and even lesser. Tired of eberything around me!!!!!

have to study econ le.. sianz... i hope i can do well lor.. die la.. private cost and social cost?? i dont really understand. i am scared. =[ jia you liwan. Btw i passed my maths test.. hehe.. yEAh

I dont hate you but i just feel sad!

Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan