Thankz Mr derrick..he really brightened my day. At first i was very worried about promo because i told him that it is impossible to study. He talked to me for about 1 hour. YES! at last i know what to do. Feel safer now? haha.. Liwan jia you.. yOu can make it de...

I felt dejected last sat after trying Chem ten yr series and chem tutorial because the questions seem to be so alien to me. Haix..i have to try lor... hopefully can clear my doubts for carbonyl compound tmr. I hope that someone can help me with my carboxylic acid.

Gt a short lecture from ms yang on sun. She said that i know my concepts,i know my work but always copy wrongly and made a lot of careless... wat the hell .. liwan wad are u doing? why do you like to donate marks to teachers? ARGH... i am sorry.. i promise i will be more careful for the nxt paper.

today was a long day. i really grab and cherish all the time i have to do all the corrections. I hope that i will get to do SRJC maths paper tmr. A bit oso happy but most importantly is chem. Liwan must be discipline k? YEA be a smart mugger.

tired le... need to go and study ECON ... EEE always cannot rmb what i studied de... idiot!!!!!!!!!!! Tmr is my mum bd.. but i have no idea what to give her... lols.. sianz... *vanished*

Was very happy yesterday nite.. haha.. very happy.. but i wont share with u all so much.. haha

Time really flies very fast. Haiz. just finishing VJC paper, have some doubts actually =[. Re look at MJC paper just now. I think will die again. Ms yang said she know why i fail liao. i hope it is not a major problem... sob sob....

9 weeks to promo, can someone teach me how to manage? how can i finish studying? luckily i did study for JCT if not i will die badly for promo. still rmb in my previous post i did plan wad to do by the end of this week. i guess i need to replan. ARGH=[ no choice.... let's see.....


MY AIMS
1. VJC Chem paper (finished)
2. Do tutorial for Maths ( Finished but have to be revised)
3. Do tutorial for carboxylic derivative
4. Do chem ten yr series
5. Do maths ten yr series with yi ling
6. Memorise market failure for Econ ( try the essay)
7. Do mind map for halogenoalkane
8. Clear my doubts for maths with ms yang
9. Do physic
10. organic chem, chem bonding and atomic structure (it depend on my econ)

MY AIMS For the day
1. VJC paper (done)
2. Do maths tutorial (done need to be revised)
3 Do tutorial for carboxylic derivative (done need to be revised)
4. Do mindmap for halogenoalkane (done)
5.try ten yr series on carboxylic acid (haix cant do a lot of questions)

so far i am done with maths tutorial but have to revise again after maths tuition. I hope i can finished tutorial and mindmap and move on the ten yr series . =] wish me luck cos i really hope to add in more stuff on that list. haha....

k.. let's not waste anymore time.. is time to study.. YEAH =] liwan jia you.. everyone is there 4 u ....

8.58 pm) just updated the list... as u can see not very productive leh.... HAix.. Don care liao la.. Will study all my mindmaps... I hope it will help....

That kind of feeling is back again!!!!!!! Why do i always fall in such stupid trap?? I miss you a lot today. I always tell myself not to treat you so nice but i can't help. I didnt want to talk to you just now but you came and talk to me. Yes i refuse to tell you what happened. I know you care for me a lot. Give me sometime to sort out my thoughts, i will tell you. I know you are very nice therefore i fall into the trap again =[

Tmr have maths lecture test. Looking through maths tutorial and lecture notes. I am not sure if i can make it for tomorrow test a not, but i will give my best. I wanted to ask ms fong for consultation today but because of mood swing, i did not. I am such an idiot!!!!!!!!!!

Took class photo today.. well.. i guess is not too bad ba....

nxt week have econ test. HAix. I start to hate econ and chinese. No passion in these 2 subjects.

Aim of the week

1. Do maths ten yr series with yi ling
2. Study econ test (market structure)
3. VJC chem paper
4. Revise organic chem and chemical bonding + atomic structure
5. Clear my doubts for maths (binomial and MI) and chem(carbonyl compounds)
6. Do Ten year series (carboxylic acid and derivative)

i will be super happy if i can complete the objectives for the week.. i will be jumping for joy. I hope is not very unrealistic

is time to go back and study Maths. =] *vanished* i am wondering how should i tell you, i dont mind sharing with you but i hope you wont be mistaken =[

k.. let's not talk about what happened for the past few days.. cos is so SIANZ

hmm.. anyway i will be down for a lot of the remedials la.. sob sob... is okay..get to learn more.. haix.. i am very sad lor.. EVEn chinese i also need to go for remedial.. why do i hate chinese esp after gg to TJC. i have no idea! is okay...

today is mONDAY.. haa.. NO sch today.. but honestly .. i love to go school.. because it is a place where i really learn and grow =] i wake up quite early today with some aims in mind.

1. memorise SPA
2. Do mindmap for carboxylic derivatives
3. Do physic tutorials
4. Revise Maths
5. Ask Mr Looh questions

i hope to finished the objectives for today lor... jia you wor.. tired! i feel like adding more things into the above list like doing MJC paper and revise chem.. but i am uncertain if i am discipline enough a not.. we shall see... yEA....

Liwan! must persevere.. RMB? u finished ur objectives for yesterday.. stay focus and u can do it one

is time to go and wash my face and have my breakfast.. YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *vanished*


Reflection of what i have done so far (8.30pm)

1. i finished memorising SPA
2. I did the physic tutorial
3. Asked Mr Looh the questions( still somehow in doubts)
4. Did the mindmap =]
5. i did not revise maths yet
6 i did MJC paper =]
7. went for tuition

Okay that's all i did for the whole day. Stil quite satisfisied with what i did so far .. hehe... Gonna rememorise SPA later! yea must jia you.. By the end of this week i need to attempt VJC paper, revised chemical bonding and atomic structure.

k.. gonna go chiong again.. *vanished*

Not feeling well... i guess too heaty le.. so my gum swollen.. pain sia... but i am feeling very happy today.. becos our project was very succeessfully carried out. Thank Elite! hah.. the children there were very reponsive. They love the sweet we bought for them =]...thankz GOD...

This morning i wore the enthic costume,a few teachers said its very pretty. Excuse me, it is so hot lor, i am sweating like hell. When i was in the bus or bus stop, everyone is looking at me lor. I guess they are thinking why tis mad woman is wearing a malay costume?.. haha... is okay.. had a lot of fun =]

Oh ya..i got back my progress report slip.. haha.. i like the comments.. still not bad.. hhaha... I HAVE A GENIUE HEART!!!! YEA.. thankz sia.... kind of tired now.. haix.. still have to do the EOM.. so sickening.. *yawn* .. K have To JIA you.. all the best liwan.. Persevere and you will be alright!!!!!!!!!

chatted with mdm koh today, find her very strong.. must learn frm her..i really respect her a lot... she is a gd mummy and teacher. I hope that her son will cherish her... MDm koh .. hope u will stay happy always... love always.. will keep u in my prayers....

i am superunlucky these few weeks... hurt my knee, my jct results, etc... like wad ms fong said..everything wil be fine.. =].. God please guide me.. i suppose god want me to overcome all the obsctacles and made me to me someone tougher? Liwan u can de!!!!!!!!!!!

WAs quite disappointed today.. din get to touch the ten yr series. Haix... But i guess i did quality study today.. somehow know the correct method to study liao.. make sure i will do well for the all the coming lecture tests...

tmr have tuition leh.. physic tuition!!!!! need to go jon house.. need to meet yi ling to study... a lot of stuff waiting for me to do.. liwan u can do it de!!!!!!!! persevere! a lot of people will be behind you, supporting you! yea

gonna go do survey.. and look thru some of my work... God continue to guide me pls *vanished*

didnt update my blogs on mon and tues.. wasnt in the good mood. i cried on mon and tues.. was very stress...

mdm koh brightened up my day.. she smsed me at abt 4pm and asked me abt my essay.. meeting her nxt week.. she is going to teach me... i love her so much.. so motherly and caring... she promised to makan with me... hehe... maybe shld treat her lunch.. not sure when but i make sure i will find time...

had pizza this afternoon.. thankz ms fong.. she is very nice... hehe... but somehow i dun have appetite.. feel very full... very weird.... can we have civics lunch every wed.. hehe... isnt it nice to eat together? the feeling is great!!!!!!!!! after pizza we went to the nearby childcare centre to request if we can carry out our project work trial there... hopefully it will be approved...

have to go n study gp already.. tired.. i guess i will slp early tonight.. =]... YEA!!!!!!!!!!

SAY U LOVE ME TOO!!!!! so in love with the song titled "pretty boy"

8/7/06

went for tuition yesterday.. after that yiling,tina and i went to sim lim square... that was my first time, never been there b4... it is very big... wanted to buy a player but given too many choices, i decided not to buy. I guess i shld go down to challenger and buy lor... hehe...
hmmm.. after spending 1hr there... we went to the night market... yi ling bought "wu xiang", tina bought shark fin soup... i bought sweet and spicy beancurd? hehe... te most exciting part was when we were eating the beancurd... the 3 of us love chilli a lot... we stood near the roadside and makan lor.. had a lot of fun... the nicest part was not eating the beancurd was actually te process of eating it.. maybe nxt time we shld go night market more often.. stand while eating!!!!
after everything we went to tampines popular to buy ten yr series (maths) and sme stationery then we proceed to toysrus to buy an educational toy for my cousin. After that we took 67 to interchange then we realised that 67 cant bring us to where we wanna go... hehe... we alighted and take 228... it was a tiring day... i pitied them cos they still need to go for tuition... hehe....

9/7/06

today is my sister's birthday... happy 21st bd.... going to airport and study today... meeting yi ling and tina in inter at 11.30.. guess who will be late again? i dun wan to noe... sob sob... i noe i wont be late... haha....
wake up at 6.45 this morning lor... cos need to go praying... now damn tired... shld i go and slp? cannot !!!!!!!!! just realised that i need to study for GP and Mock SPA... ARgh.... No choice... i guess i shld go and bathe now.. since i wan to study... at night gg to my grandma house... i wan to play with jun yi.. my cute little cousin who used to love me a lot.. but now i think she 4get abt me liao...sob sob.... okay.. gg to bathe *vanished*

feeling much better today... consulted ms fong today.. hmm.. do understand wad she said... but was quite affected by yi ling sms...i thought she was angry with me... but heng... no one is at fault

reached home i took a nap... cos i ran 4 rounds this morrning.. non-stop okay... OH ya.. All thankz to mei qi.. make me look so stupid today...make me paste the italy flag on my shirt... mr low laugh at me lor.. a lot of teachers laughed at me... but nvm.. i dun mind... as long as they are happy.. hehe...

chatted with yi ling just now... hmmm.. very happy... we chatted for quite long in msn... i share with her my GP thingy.. then we talked a lot.. then i tried to cheer her up.. hopefully she is feeling better... i feel very happy to chat with her... we gg to by mp3/mp4/i pod tmr... hope to buy smthg lor...oso gg to popular and sim lim square to buy smthg... hehe.. fun... yi ling is gd at bargaining price i guess... hehe.... YEA!!!

did GP notes on media today... hopefully it can help me in some ways...gg to look thru my maths later.. make sure i understand... hehe... if not i will ask mR Ang.. yea.. he became my gd fren... he is very nice actually.. thankz god....

well.. time to go for makan liao...yea... *vanished*

feel very sad.. very sad... dun noe how to pick myself up.. that kind of feeling is so painful, i am disappointed... i am searching my old self.. will it be better? just to slp, eat n hack care... GOd where are you?... i am lost.. very lost..
tired of everything.. sometime death is really the best way to solve problem.. not sure either... once u are dead, u can leave this cruel world? no more competitions... is that so? i really wonder wad is the life like in hell n heaven..
yes i noe... i always said that this is a gd experience... but why? why i really cant convince myself... i say that to make teacher nt worry.. say that to make teacher happy? i told mr lim, i gonna pass the nxt chem lecture test...also making happy?? arGH.. i hate...
i am sorry to reject the post given to me... i was just very disappointed.. i dont feel that i deserve the post.. why? ArgH... crying in my heart...

feeling tired after writing so much notes for GP...am i doing the write thing?.. well.. nvm... haix...

trying to clear my doubts for chem.. but obviously din finish..is okay la.. tired... maybe fri or nxt wed again.. wad to do?.. still coughing badly.. din see thee doc .. so i guess it wont recover yet... my whole body is aching lor.. still have training or PT tmr lor.. siao liao.. hopefully is only for DSA pp.. tired.. very tired... not feeling very well.. can dun torture me?

trying to find momentum... a but slack now.. looking forward to sat... can practise maths... shld i go for physic tuition ?... ai ya.. dunnoe..... wanna stay away frm all the tuition except maths n chem... ARgh...

slping soon liao.. took the medicine .. made me drowsy... *vanished*

i cried today.. guess my eyes will be swollen tmr... still crying now.. is it cos of JCT or cos of the fact my sis is leaving today? or is it both? dun noe... trying find excuses....

got back maths and chem paper... expected maths to be like that... chem? hmm.. i hope will have moderation if not.... haix.. just 8 to 10 marks?... pls? God help me this time... haix... tmr meeting ms fong to clear all of my doubts... but i think is quite impossible.... i told her abt my evaluation of this jct... is it correct to evaluate like that? will ask her again tmr... i think i need some guidance from her...As for maths, i know what to do already... liwan , can do it de!!!!!!!! i hope to pass my GP, chi, econ... Help me!!!! well.. no point looking back already...

doing maths corrections later... then going to sort out all my chem questions for tmr... yupz... went to airport just nw..get very emotional when i reached airport... cant control my tears... they kept flowing dwn like nobody business... why am i born like that??? haix...nvm.. maybe i am just not immuned to it...........

gonna go bathe.. tired... Vanished*

suppose to go out n watch movie.. but .. cannot... don have the movie that yi ling likes.. so decided not to watch... so we are gg to stay at home and study?.. haha.. well, i guess i will read thru ms looh notes.. i dont seem to understand this chap.. sigh.. must score sia.. if nt very jia lat...

gg for tuition later.. no life rite??.. aha.. yesterday went out with yi ling.. i enjoyed a lot.. hah.. bought a cup and a mp3 (bUt NOT FOR MYSELF) ..i guess is okay.. as long as they are happy... i hope that mdm koh will like the small little gift.. haha... wanted to buy smthg for another cher.. but decided nt to.. i am afraid la.. cos later kana reject hor.. very sianz de leh... haha.. and btw..i dun owe a bank...so not gg to buy for her...

tmr is the start of a new term.. i am ready for this new term.. i know what to do for tutorials and lectures... i know where are all my mistakes and strength... correct them , work on them... i will be able to reach a bit higher... haa... i guess i will be fine... without setbacks and struggles.. i wont grow...hehehe..... a lot of people will be there for me... i am told that i am very fortunate... cos janice said i haven meet someone who dun appreciate me or harm me... JAnice i guess i din tell u a lot of things... so ur assumption may be wrong ( it reminds me of mathematical induction) haha... oh ya.. talking abt maths... hmmm.. i also somehow noe where are my weakness and strength.. haa.. will work on it..mS yang, dun worry for me... i will not disappoint u .. give me some time....

will i get back my papers tmr?? i think the probability is quite high... c'mon .. liwan , u just have to face it.. u cant run away from the fact that u gonna fail 4 subjects at one go... i know this news will be terrifying.. but wad to do?.. cant help it rite?? no point crying over the bottle of spilt milk... learn frm mistake and dun repeat them...i guess this is then wad we call as greatest achievements??.. hah.. liwan, u can do it de....

to all my frens out there..u know who u are... failure is there to spur us.. so dun be sad... but definitely u all can do beta than me.. i have faith in u all.... and for those who are having exam tmr.. dont panic.. i am sure u wil do well... =]... GOd bless all of u... *vanished*

haha.. my new blog... hehe... i was suprised.. i din noe i can input music and try to do all the little little things by myself.. ya din hear wrongly..is by myself.. learnt a lot...

wasnt in gd mood today..probably becos getting back results nxt week.. haix.. though i told ms fong i will alright..i am tougher and stronger now.. am i living in denial? Am i saying that becos i dun wan the teachers to worry for me.. haix.... God help me... i am feeling sad.. i noe this isnt the right way .. wad can i do??.. sob

wanted to go beach today.. but without yi ling company, i decided not to go anywhere.. sometime it isnt easy to find close substitute... but i still feel that for frenship n relationship , we shldnt be even thinking to look for close substitutes... hehe... just giving my opinions... wanted to buy smthg small and cheap that can brighten someone day... is it that difficult??? i really have no idea wad to buy??.. buy smthg that is edible? or only for display??.. haix.. i thought is the thoughts that count... feel so iritated... =[ din get to buy it today also.. not sure... ARGH..

later gg to bugis to pray.. after that gg to tuition.. i guess i will get a gd scolding from ms yang... cos i gonna fail my maths... fail everything... haix... i know all my teachers are disappointed... but can they spare some feelings for me??... i will be disappointed too? i will be super sad if i fail everything.... i know you all are disappointed becos the fact that u all care 4 me... i appreciate that.. maybe that is the consolation.. sob sob.. i really dun noe wad to say.... feel like crying...

going to stop here.. since i am gg out soon.. anyway .. HAPPY YOUTH DAY TO EVERYONE.. *vanished*

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Im Liwan. I love to be loved, pampered. I want to be the superest girl but i always fail to be one. I want to be a teacher next time. Currently at the age of 21. Birthday 5th Jan